Uneasy daily life

His mother, wife, and college-aged daughter were naturally puzzled and immediately tried to persuade and stop him, but to no avail. Then they argued and made a scene. His life, which had been centered around him, was suddenly shattered and scattered all over the place.

Xiao Yun did not reveal the fact that he had a terminal illness, because that was simply an unassailable excuse.

He packed some things, the only extravagant thing he did was to unconsciously buy a decent computer, and then took his luggage and boarded a bus back to his hometown.

In the past, he would always go to his hometown, but this time, Xiao Yun subconsciously described his actions as going back to his hometown.

Life ends here, and life begins here.

He fell asleep in the car and vaguely had a dream.

"..."

It was a woman's hazy figure standing there, quietly watching him.

The middle-aged man didn't speak, perhaps realizing he was dreaming, so he closed his eyes to rest in his dream as well.

Yukino watched quietly. She felt she should bring up her daughter's future, the possibility that her wife might be kidnapped, or that her mother might be bullied and helpless, to provoke this middle-aged man who was so tired that he was even sleeping in his dreams. But suddenly she had nothing to say.

In every previous dream, Yukino Yukinoshita remained silent as a test, but in this dream, she found herself unable to react in any other way but to remain silent.

He had been gradually numbed by life, but was awakened by the sting of death. He pretended that he could go with the flow, but in the end, he was still the man who liked to daydream.

Ultimately, is he truly feeling hopeless now? Or did he give up everything, struggle for a living, only to find that all his efforts were a joke, leading to his despair at the end of his life?

Yukinoshita Haruno didn't understand, so she just watched silently, as if she saw herself in the image.

No matter how much one pretends or acts, a clever mind can still see through the lies, as if cursed, leaving one caught in the middle, unable to succumb to mediocrity, yet powerless to be true to oneself, thus feeling a deep sense of separation.

Yukinoshita had a vague thought... She didn't want to speak, didn't want to admit that the other person was in despair.

Otherwise, it would feel like you've lost too.

As she watched, Xiao Yun suddenly transformed into a white shadow staring at her.

Yukinoshita Haruno subconsciously looked away.

"Have you fallen for me?"

Bai Ying made a peace sign.

"No, I just think you went crazy a little late," Yukinoshita Haruno asked curiously. "Who defused the bomb this time?"

"you."

"Huh? So the bomb and the assassin queen were all made up by you, weren't they?" Yukinoshita Haruno squinted. "I didn't say anything, I didn't do anything, so how could I possibly deactivate the bomb?"

Bai Ying said solemnly, "That's right! You can only defuse the bomb by not saying or doing anything! At this moment, I don't need anyone to say anything or do anything. I just want to spend this time quietly by myself!"

"Really? I don't believe it."

Yukino Yukinoshita said with a playful tone, "What are you trying to do by doing something like this? Did you find out that you've been caught cheating on your partner, so you're using some supernatural means to let you continue being a scumbag in peace?"

The white figure smiled silently.

"Speaking of which, the feeling here is also very strange. Even though we've been observing decades of life, there's no feeling of boredom, tedium, or unbearability..." Yukinoshita Haruno stroked her chin and reasoned, "Could it be mind control? Oh no, we're doomed, how did Yukino-chan and I get targeted by espers? We can't resist now, we're going to be brainwashed."

The white figure smiled silently.

Yukino's brow twitched, feeling as if she had been seen through. So she kept smiling and remained silent.

“Actually, this is also part of my puberty syndrome,” Bai Ying said. “There are bombs, there is the Killer Queen, and there is time reversal, but with the addition of puberty syndrome and dream-entering elements.”

"Oh?" Yukinoshita asked curiously, "What's your puberty syndrome? This kind of thing, laying your life bare for others to see... is it exhibitionism?"

"Because you want to understand me, but it's hard for me to describe what it's like to live a lifetime. The changes, ups and downs, emotions, and complicated relationships are simply not something that can be summarized in a few words..." Bai Ying spread her hands and said, "From what I can say, my adolescent syndrome is to let you witness Xiao Yun's life... If I had to say something, I would like you to feel my affection?"

"What kind of liking is this? From what I've seen, I don't feel like I'm liking Xiao Yun at all."

"I've already said it's my preference; you've all liked me for a long time."

"Um……"

Yukinoshita was curious. What did it feel like to like someone? Could she really like this guy? What had happened?

She looked at Xiao Yun, who was still moving forward in life, whose life had come to an abrupt end and whose life had begun an unpredictable countdown.

Every kind of life eventually comes to an end... Perhaps many people are waiting for a reason to end their current way of living. When that reason arrives, nothing can stand in their way.

Yukino thought to herself unintentionally.

She somewhat believed Angelina's vague and unfounded claims.

I finally got that reason.

In my memory, I was overwhelmed by stress and broke down, raising Frostmourne or something like that at my mother...

Am I really that brave that I only snapped at my mother when I was under immense pressure?

"Hey, how did I fall in love with you?"

"A mix of self-abandonment, the excitement of being a NTR enthusiast, the thrill of immorality, envy and longing, dependence and indulgence... it's hard to describe."

"That's a bit unrealistic—so how did you come to like me?"

"Um...I don't know."

"Hmm~ I get it! It must be because no girl has ever liked you, right!"

"Hiss! Could it be that the difficulty of my strategy is actually quite low?!"

Chapter 111 The End of Life

Defused the bomb = Saved the white shadow = Eliminated the super-powered killer.

Boyfriend? I'd say I'm nine parts doubtful and one part trusting. It's impossible for him to suddenly become trusting after we meet.

Putting everything else aside, what kind of nonsense is this person spouting? Every word is more insincere than the last. How could I possibly like someone like that? And talk about having multiple relationships? That's just wishful thinking on the part of a scumbag.

Putting aside those opinions, Yukino Yukinoshita is working very hard, even under a lot of pressure. After all, this is a big issue that concerns one person's life, and even the lives of many more.

Based on what we've learned, the despair in Bai Ying's past life means that the Killer Queen can plant bombs. We need to dispel the despair through dialogue to disable the Killer Queen's bombs, thus preventing Bai Ying from dying and the super-powered killer from returning to the world.

In short, talk therapy is necessary.

Something feels off...

Yukino Yukinoshita meticulously observed Xiao Yun's life, occasionally offering sarcastic remarks about Bai Ying's wild fantasies: "There's no girlfriend here! Who are you calling a hero? You white fungus! I suggest you lie down and dream right now; only in your dreams will you find a shameless idiot who loves you so much!"

In short, the sooner the matter is resolved, the better, as I'm not entirely without experience with these kinds of supernatural events.

Childhood and infancy.

“Although you have left your hometown, your familiar relatives are still around, so it's just a change of environment. It's not a serious matter. Your feelings are just because you are young and cannot understand many things, so you are overestimating the seriousness of this matter…”

Bai Ying cheered loudly: "Wow! As expected of a hero, what righteous and reasonable persuasion, combining logic and reason!"

The rebellious phase of adolescence.

"Right is right, wrong is wrong. You have to learn to set aside the influence of interpersonal relationships on you and judge the right and wrong of a matter! It's wrong for you to steal money, and it's right to be beaten. It's fine if you don't want to go to the zoo, but being beaten is your father's fault, and your father's infidelity is wrong... You have to understand that everyone has right and wrong aspects, and you can be aware of right and wrong. The difficulty is often how to persist, not how to distinguish."

Bai Ying clapped enthusiastically: "A resounding revelation, a moment of enlightenment, a complete revelation, truly astonishing!"

The period of confusion in adolescence.

"Are you just going to give up on your dreams like this? You've already achieved something, haven't you? You didn't rely on your parents or anyone else; you paid off your student loans and stopped asking your family for money through your own efforts—you have no interest in socializing, and you've devoted yourself so intently to your dreams... Just because of failure, because of your family's disapproval, because you feel relieved, are you just going to give up like this? You've chosen the path for you by your father; do you really think you can succeed? Even if you do succeed, is it your father's success or yours? You're just afraid of failure, so you're unwilling to make any more choices!"

Yukino Yukinoshita's voice was unusually stern this time: "The so-called right thing is not to do things that are guaranteed to succeed, but to persist in doing things that you would rather fail than not succeed!"

The white figure slapped his thigh: "Powerful! A powerful rebuke! Spalashi!"

The numbness of middle age.

"you……"

Looking at the middle-aged man with a calm and relieved expression, Yukino Yukinoshita felt as if something was stuck in her throat. She couldn't utter a single word of advice or comfort. Her voice felt so weak and feeble, utterly incapable of changing the other person's life.

What should I say? What else can I say?

You say your wife, daughters, and mother still need care? Xiao Yun already has a terminal illness. Apart from his living expenses, he has left all the remaining money to his family. He clearly has no intention of seeking treatment. This can be described as a spirit of selfless sacrifice. As a husband, father, and son, what else can we ask of him?

The sad and contradictory part is that this is not out of love and care, but out of a sense of obligation and a desire for relief.

Why did this happen? How could people do this? It shouldn't be like this! Is "shouldn't be"... also a kind of "should"?

Yukino Yukinoshita suddenly felt a little dazed, her mind flashing back to the life she had witnessed—born in the countryside, she had to repeat a grade when she came to the city because of her ignorance, but eventually gained admission to university with excellent grades. Although her family was poor, she started earning money while in university, never asking her family for money and giving them money without complaint. After entering society, she worked diligently, and although she was quiet and reserved, she did no bad things, was good at understanding others, mediating family conflicts, providing her mother with a safe home, and educating her daughter with tolerance and seriousness. She never spoke coldly to her family because she controlled the family finances, and even when she was diagnosed with a terminal illness, she did not plan to seek treatment, but instead returned to her hometown to spend the rest of her life.

It's come to this point, it's come to this, and I can't find any words of advice to give the other person anymore.

Yukino Yukinoshita felt as if her heart was being twisted into a knot, something inexplicable and heavy that made it hard for her to breathe.

Will I also live such a life? Under my mother's control, feeling powerless, did I almost embark on such a life as well?

A life where you are worthy of everyone but unworthy of yourself, where you completely separate your actions from your feelings until you are no longer of any use to life, is the only way to achieve a unified and harmonious life.

Yukino Yukinoshita was somewhat confused and at a loss. Looking at the middle-aged man who had calmed down and was finally free to continue, a hoarse and deep voice involuntarily came out of her throat: "You... have done very well."

For some reason, I uttered a word of praise and comfort, as if doing so could brush away a snowflake from the heavy, snow-covered weight of life.

Yukino Yukinoshita took a deep breath, her emotions surging uncontrollably, tugging at her eyelids and making her eyes sting. She gently pursed her lips, tears still streaming down her cheeks. Her emotions lingered and flowed through the life she had witnessed, brewing a deep sorrow.

In the blink of an eye, a white figure suddenly appeared in my field of vision.

Yukino Yukinoshita's brow twitched suddenly, her emotions instantly crumbling. She raised her hand and casually wiped away her tears, coldly saying, "What's there to see? It's only natural to feel sorrow for one's own kind. On the contrary, Haku-kun, was Xiao Yunzhen your life in your past life? If so, then it's truly a tragic thing."

"Of course!" the white figure declared confidently. "So, hero, have you remembered that you like me?"

"Don't write science fiction here." Yukino Yukinoshita remained unfazed. "If you're trying to make me like you by showing me movies, forget it. Who would like someone they've known since childhood? If I had to say, it's more about friendship and family."

"I am sad for you, not crying because I like you. Baijun, you'd better be clear about this and not misunderstand anything."

Yukino Yukinoshita gradually composed herself. Girlfriend? Likes you? And a multi-person relationship? Hmph, pshaw.

Bai Ying smiled dismissively: "The hero is indeed a person with rich emotions, sensitive and awkward. In my past life, I don't remember hearing many words of praise. It always seemed like there were endless things to do, until one moment I suddenly realized that I was useless and didn't need to do anything."

A compliment?

Yukino Yukinoshita took a soft breath, a hint of doubt in her heart, but her face remained impassive: "Really? I feel like Xiao Yun didn't hear me at all? He didn't seem to react at all."

"Huh?" Bai Ying exclaimed in shock, "You don't actually think talk therapy works, do you? You think you can solve all of life's problems and make people act according to your wishes with just a few words?"

"?"

Yukino Yukinoshita's eyes widened in surprise: "You're saying none of it works?!"

"Hero..." Bai Yingchao had already returned to his hometown. Xiao Yun, who was tidying up the house, pouted, "This is my past life. I am here now. If things had changed in the past, how could I still be here?"

"Wait!" Yukino Yukinoshita frowned. "Didn't you say that Killer Queen planted a bomb by exploiting your past despair, thus turning back time? Do I need to break through that despair to defuse the bomb?"

"Oh, I was just kidding."

"#!"

A murderous intent flashed through Yukino Yukinoshita's mind, along with her thoughts of observing Xiao Yun's life, pondering the source of his despair, and how to resolve it.

"I would never like a liar like you!"

……

Life is over.

The old, dilapidated houses were covered in dust and cobwebs. Outside, there was a smooth main road. Looking into the distance, some houses were completely abandoned and looked old and worn, while others had been demolished and rebuilt, replaced by beautiful tiled houses.

The village now has access to electricity and water, as well as internet access, and people can even have refrigerators and televisions in their homes…

The traces of the times are everywhere.

Back then, my father's generation must have come from here.

Some people settle down and start families in the city, bringing their elderly parents to live there, leaving their rural houses abandoned. Others struggle and fail in the city, unable to return to their hometowns, and wander around waiting for a lucky opportunity. Some people achieve success, but their elderly parents prefer to end their lives in familiar places, so they return to the countryside and build beautiful little houses.

Xiao Yun tidied up his place and then stared blankly for a while before not knowing what to do. Just when he was finally able to rest, loneliness suddenly welled up in his heart, bringing with it confusion and bewilderment... Even though he was already quite old, he was experiencing the confusion of his youth again.

What else can I do?

Why should I think about what else I can do?

Xiao Yun was unaware of this, and simply lived silently, occasionally gazing at the mountains and fields in a daze, letting himself lie in the emptiness of having nothing to do.

The daughter came looking for her.

"Dad, how are you going to live alone in our hometown?"

The daughter, who is about to graduate from university and has grown into a beautiful young woman, said earnestly, "I'm about to graduate and I can support the family. If you're tired and want to retire, then I should take care of you! How am I supposed to take care of you if you go back to your hometown alone?"

“No need to take care of me.” Xiao Yun simply shook his head slowly. Since returning here, he, who was working and earning money before, suddenly felt old. “Don’t feel the need to do anything for me… that’s not good. You should think about what you want to do.”