I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

　"But I still have you, right? Things aren't that bad yet."

　At least I'm still here?

　Lixi's mind was full of what Chitose said the night he smashed the guitar: "At least there is mango nectar, things are not that bad."

　"Are you stupid? You... please, this is a dream anyway, just scold me."

　"Huh? But I never blamed you."

　The dim light prevented Li Xi from seeing Chitose's face clearly. But in the darkness, Chitose Noshiro's red eyes still shone with golden light.

　Six delicate translucent gold rings rotate slowly.

　"This is all my choice. I will never regret exchanging my hearing for your life. Have you forgotten what I said?"

　"I made a lot of money!"

　"Stop talking..."

　I feel so desperate. Even the Qiansui in my dream seems like an angel descended to the earth.

　This desperate tenderness is not tender at all.

　"Xiao Lixi, are you still blaming yourself?"

　Qiansui was clearly right in front of me, but the voice seemed to come from the sky.

　Li Xi remained silent, not knowing how to respond.

　[Please, this is just a dream... If I miss the chance to talk to Xiao Sui, I don't know when I'll dream of him again.]

　"Ah."

　"Don't blame yourself, Lixi, you've done your best. It's my appearance that makes you depressed. Please love yourself more in the future."

　"Forget me."

　"What? How is it possible? How could I…"

　The light in front of his eyes completely disappeared, and Li Xi struggled to wake up from the desk.

　The sides of his face and arms turned red from lying down, and Li Xi looked around and found that Chitose had left again.

　"How could I possibly forget you! Have you abandoned me again, you scoundrel?"

　The sunset outside the house was orange-red. There had once been a girl who loved her and they enjoyed the future together under the red sky during the demonic time.

　And now the girl is gone.

　Shiina Riki has no future either.

　Wandering around the Noshiro residence, Riki sometimes walked and sometimes knelt, slept for a while in a corner and then continued to walk aimlessly to another corner.

　She was like a ghost in an empty house.

　When Chitose Noshiro passed away, Riki could no longer adapt to living alone.

　She whispered to the wall alone and poured out her heart to the crows outside the door, but all she got was silence.

　"Why did you leave?"

　How come he left?

　She sat on the steps in the yard in a daze, and crows flew low over her, leaving behind a series of cawing sounds.

　It was just like the other person's laughter when he first met Qiansui.

　"Is the crow also a gift you left for me?"

　But a crow is just a crow... a crow can't be...

　As the world grew darker, Li Xi suddenly remembered something.

　There was no dispute that Chitose Noshiro's death was her fault.

　But, Noshiro Chitose's death was not just her fault!

　There is another person who should also take responsibility.

　That bastard who caused Chitose to be hospitalized with a fever, and then suffered from a series of minor illnesses, and finally inspired Chitose to play again! Toyokawa Shoko!

　"Toyokawa...Shoko!"

　Shiina Riki tidied her appearance and wiped the tears from her face in front of the floor-length mirror by the window.

　"I'm here to find you!"

　Ch246. If you leave, I will not live alone

　If it wasn't for Toyokawa Shoko's invitation, how could Xiaosui have joined the band!

　If Toyokawa Shoko had not left the team for no reason, Xiaosui would not have developed such a serious illness.

　If it weren't for Toyokawa Shoko's harsh words that day, Xiaosui wouldn't have cried so miserably.

　Shiina Riki doesn't want to think about his own life at all now.

　The suppressed anger had been accumulating in his chest for several days. Now Li Xi had finally come to his senses and could settle the old scores with those bastards who had hurt Xiao Sui.

　There are two people who really deserve to die.

　The first one to be affected is Shoko Toyokawa, and the other one is... Tatsuki Shiina!

　[Let's finish teaching Xiangzi a lesson before killing Lixi.]

　Shiina Riki thought.

　Her mind was in a mess and she didn't realize for a moment that she still had something to live for.

　The people you meet when you are young are so dazzling that you have to hide in their shadow and tremble for the rest of your life.

　The street outside the house was illuminated by street lights, and Li Xi stood there and called Toyokawa Shoko.

　Ever since Qiansui passed away, Xiangzi and everyone else started sending messages to themselves non-stop.

　They all seemed to be worried about her, Shiina Riki.

　But it doesn't matter anymore.

　None of this… matters anymore.

　"Hello, is this Xiangzi?"

　The call was connected. Shiina Riki suppressed his anger and asked as calmly as possible.

　"Lixi? I...are you okay now? I'm sorry about Xiaosui, I..."

　Xiangzi seemed to be afraid that Lixi would hang up the phone, so he said a lot of things in one breath.

　But Shiina Riki had no desire to listen any further.

　She felt nauseous whenever she heard Xiangzi's voice, as if she had eaten a dish with a strong seasoning and a strong flavor.

　"Xiangzi, where are you now?"

　【Toyokawa Shoko, I'm here to see you. 】

　"I am here

　Um, let’s go home... Li Xi, are you... really okay?”

　"Send me the address. I'll contact you if I need anything."

　"what?"

　The condition of Toyokawa Shoko on the opposite side doesn't sound very good.

　Even Li Xi felt that Xiangzi's condition was not much different from his own.

　But Lixi no longer wanted to care about these things.

　Her mind was full of thoughts that had nowhere to vent. Li Xi gritted her teeth and actually hated herself more than she hated Xiangzi.

　"Actually, I'm...working part-time at Ring's coffee shop...right now. Does Li Xi want to come?"

　work to earn a living?

　Toyokawa Shoko said she was working a part-time job?

　That's so weird.

　Putting aside why she wanted to work part-time, it was strange enough that she would tell him this given Toyokawa Shoko's personality.

　Doesn’t that little bastard care a lot about his reputation?

　It can't be that he will have the same regret for the rest of his life as I do after witnessing Xiaosui's death.

　That's ridiculous, since she was the one who said those words.

　No matter how much I excuse myself or how much I regret...

　"You and I have both become the murderers who killed Xiao Sui together."

　"Lixi? What... are you talking about?"

　Before I knew it, I had reached Ring.

　Li Xi went upstairs and ran wildly, appearing directly in front of Toyokawa Shoko.

　She had been running since she left Chitose's house, afraid of missing the opportunity to punch Xiangzi a few times.

　In front of him, Shoko Toyokawa was looking at Li Xi in surprise.

　All around were spectators watching the excitement, and Li Xi couldn't make out the expressions on their faces clearly.

　"Pooh."

　Li Xi wiped the corner of his lips.

　My accomplice is right in front of me! She and I...had harmed Xiao Sui together!

　What to do now?

　"Lixi, are you okay?"

　Toyokawa Shoko looked terrible. She lowered her eyes and didn't dare to look directly at Shiina Tatsuki.

　Want it now!

　"Xiangzi, take my punch! You damn idiot!"

　The string of reason broke in an instant, and Shiina Riki punched Toyokawa Shoko straight in the face.

　"Well!"

　Xiangzi lost his balance and fell against the table. Amidst the crackling noise, Xiangzi knocked over the coffee machine and a bucket of milk.

　"Toyokawa Shoko! Don't think it's over!"

　The people around her seemed to want to pull her away, but Lixi didn't give anyone the chance to interfere with her actions.

　She rushed forward quickly, grabbed Xiangzi's face and punched her amidst a pile of rubble.

　"You deserve to die... If you hadn't called Xiao Sui a defective product that day, she wouldn't have been so sad!"

　"And your inexplicable withdrawal from the team... Did you know that Xiaosui's subsequent weakness stemmed from her pursuit of you? She's been ill ever since that day!"

　"me…"

　The areas around Xiangzi's eyes were bruised and purple from the beatings.

　But Shiina Riki, who had completely opened up his inner world, would not pay any attention to her pleas for mercy.

　She had been accumulating anger and resentment for so many days...how could it be vented so easily?

　"You still have the nerve to form a band... If it weren't for your mujica, Xiao Sui wouldn't have dared to perform with her crippled body... It's all your fault! It's all your fault... and mine..."

　When Shiina Riki was about to throw the final punch, her movements froze.

　The fist stopped in front of Xiangzi's face, and just like that, Xiangzi watched Li Xi turn his arm around.

　Li Xi punched himself!

　"Lixi...I...I'm sorry...I..."

　Toyokawa Shoko also felt bad that day.

　From that day on, she felt like she had lost her soul. She disbanded the band and blended into the life of an ordinary person...