I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

　This seems to be because there is a shadow on the band.

　"Please... forgive me, okay? Just hit me..."

　Xiangzi cried and begged Lixi's forgiveness, and at the same time, he was begging for forgiveness from the deceased.

　"Bah! Disgusting."

　My sanity has returned slightly.

　Lixi quickly fled the cafe, crying as she ran. She didn't stop running until she reached the end of the block where there were no more passers-by, and then she stopped and burst into tears.

　Pounding the ground with her hands, Shiina Riki suddenly realized a fact that she couldn't let go after beating Xiangzi.

　She actually didn't hate Xiangzi as much as she imagined.

　In fact, she hated herself even more.

　The word "disgusting" is definitely not just referring to Xiangzi.

　What's also disgusting is that... I never revealed the truth that "I made you deaf" until Chitose Noshiro died!

　Qiansui never blamed himself.

　Yes…

　"It's me, it's... it's me who has been pretending to be close to her. It's me who wanted to possess her after destroying her... It's me!"

　"It's me!"

　Dispirited and dejected became the byword for Shiina Riki, and she walked forward numbly, stroking her arm.

　Her future was unknown and her life became aimless until Shiina Riki walked near Hanegaoka.

　【Feather Hill. 】

　I looked towards the empty campus with hope. It was already night, and only the cawing of crows echoed in the dead silence of the campus.

　Since Xiaosui passed away, Lixi has dropped out of school.

　She couldn't even take a look at this academy filled with Chitose's colors...or even think about it.

　But today, Li Xi felt that Yu Qiu was particularly pleasing to the eye.

　As she stroked the iron bars, a thought came to her mind that made her tremble.

　If you leave, I...will not live alone...

　Ch247.Finally, the world's

　Something bad happened

　If you leave, I will not live alone.

　Since you gave me this life, I'll give it back to you.

　Anyway, I don’t know how to survive.

　Lixi easily climbed over the wall. After landing, she did not walk towards the teaching building on campus, but instead walked towards the campus lake.

　“How cruel, how cruel…”

　Noshiro Chitose, how can I live?

　"You made my life so wonderful and warm, and you made me feel the most precious love in the world... Now that you're gone, my heart is empty, I..."

　Li Xi's eyes lost their luster, and his pupils seemed to be about to fade away.

　Those were once a pair of bright purple pupils.

　These eyes were once filled with someone, but when that person left, emptiness became one of the few words that could describe Li Xi's eyes.

　"I want to die."

　There was nothing left in his head, and Shiina Riki felt numb.

　She thought of her father, mother and sister, she couldn't die.

　But at the same time, she couldn't forget Xiaosui, and she wanted to die.

　She... Shiina Riki, is just a sixteen-year-old girl. Why would God arrange such a life for her?

　Why does she have to have such complicated thoughts? It would be better if Lixi was a little older... at least she would be able to withstand a lot more pressure.

　“If only I were older.”

　Lixi knelt in the grass, his knees were scraped and his feet could hardly move at all.

　She is so tired.

　She was so tired that she couldn't think.

　The mumbling continued, and Li Xi looked like he was possessed.

　"If Xiao Sui had passed away later...ah, I'm back to the beginning. It's still my fault, it's still my fault."

　I wish I had never met Chitose Noshiro.

　If they didn't know each other, Shiina Riki could still go home and be the obedient but slightly rebellious second daughter in the family.

　If he hadn't met Chitose Noshiro, Shiina Riki would have been a member of a music club at school or joined another band.

　"But if I were to choose again, would I really choose the life I had before?"

　Li Xi unwillingly grasped the grass and pulled out the weeds one by one.

　"No, I will definitely choose Noshiro Chitose. The temptation is too great, I can't escape."

　Even though he knew it would hurt Xiaosui, Li Xi couldn't stop approaching her.

　So, it's fate.

　It's all just a cruel mockery of fate.

　After figuring out these things, Li Xi stopped talking.

　She didn't cry or make a fuss, her body fell to the ground like a kite with a broken string.

　Lying quietly on the grass, Li Xi's eyes could no longer hold on.

　With the thought of not wanting to live anymore, she fell into a dream that lasted for a thousand years.

　There is no Chitose in reality, and it is unlikely to exist in dreams either. This is how it is.

　……

　"Hmm."

　Li Xi turned his body over with great difficulty, feeling as if his skeleton was about to fall apart.

　She ran a thousand meters, went upstairs and beat someone up, swinging her fists hundreds of times, and finally fled westward, climbed over the wall and entered the campus. In addition, she hadn't eaten for several days -

　She herself didn't know how she held on.

　Sitting there like a homeless stray cat or dog, Li Xi raised his head and looked at the slender crescent moon.

　"I really don't know how Xiao Sui managed it back then... She hadn't eaten much in days, and every time she ate, she only took small bites and then refused to eat more."

　"Xiao Sui, she must be in a lot of pain."

　Maybe death isn't so bad after all.

　At least, Xiaosui no longer has to suffer.

　However, Shiina Riki was very curious about one question.

　She stumbled towards the lake, and the further she went, the more wet mud covered her dirty white shoes.

　"Xiao Sui, will you... be lonely there? Oh, no. You'll meet your family again, and maybe even regain your hearing. After all, an angel will never be bound by the mundane world again after returning to her homeland, heaven."

　What does the lake look like under moonlight?

　Lixi saw the six-year-old girl sitting by the lake, her figure shaky as if she would fall at any time.

　[Hurry up, Lixi, get out of there.]

　She stretched out her hand, but could not bring back the phantom of the past.

　Those memories that belong only to the past can never be changed in the slightest.

　However, there are always things that can be changed.

　The cold lake water had already flooded Lixi's calves. She didn't know which was colder, the lake water or Xiaosui's stiff body that day.

　Maybe Li Xi's heart is colder.

　As the waves gently washed over her neck, and her chin could no longer be exposed above the water, the pain of her childhood surged up at this moment.

　"Ugh."

　Li Xi took a deep breath, stopped struggling and chose to fall.

　She looked at the lake from the bottom of the dark water, and surprisingly, she did not feel uneasy but was instead shrouded in calmness.

　So quiet.

　Like lying in a grave.

　years old, you know.

　In fact, Shiina Riki's story should have ended under the lake long ago.

　This time, let her put an end to everything!

　Standing above the lake, my consciousness began to become heavy.

　She had never imagined the lake could be so deep.

　Perhaps, this is also the reason why Xiaosui will have sequelae.

　Causes of the disease.

　【Little Years…】

　Shiina Riki's eyes quickly flashed through her and Noshiro Chitose's lives.

　She saw countless heartbreaking details and thought of countless nights spent cuddling each other.

　it's all over…

　Everything is messed up.

　The dreams of the past no longer exist, and all that beauty has become a bubble.

　Little Years...

　Just before Li Xi's consciousness was about to fade, she suddenly heard a word from Chitose Noshiro.

　[Just using my hearing to save someone's life, I made a killing!]

　Haha, did I really make money? If that's the case, my life is still mine. My life is yours... my life...

　Li Xi's eyes, which were about to close, suddenly opened wide.

　[My life is short, so how can I die so easily! ]

　It seemed that another phantom appeared in front of him, it was Chitose Noshiro.

　Shiina Riki struggled to swim upwards. Her limbs were weak, but she burst out with unprecedented strength.

　"Xiao Sui! Is, is that you?"

　Her vision became narrow and breathing became a luxury. Lixi felt someone pulling her and supporting her.

　【Lixi. 】

　Chitose's voice echoed in her mind.

　[Please replace me, become my ears and eyes, and continue to measure this world...]

　【I love you the most. 】

　"age!"

　Lixi struggled and lay on the shore, her whole body wet but she didn't care.

　Tears mixed with the lake water rolled down, and the sweetness of the past lingered on the tip of her tongue.

　The thousands of words in my heart finally condensed into a scribbled sentence: "I miss you, woo woo..."