I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

Incidentally, Miss Lin seems to have gotten used to this name. Of course, I'd be beaten to death if I called her that, so it seems like it's only used by Ye Hui now... Hmm, maybe this is just the friendship between girls. Can a man and a woman develop a so-called friendship directly? I don't believe it.

"...I don't have a pet at home, but if I had to say what I like...I'd probably prefer dogs."

"...Um..."

This is really surprising. I thought someone like her would prefer cold-blooded animals like snakes and lizards, after all, she usually behaves like one of those animals. And I have reason to believe that she must be very afraid of the cold.

"Huh? What are you laughing at?"

For some reason, she was very keen to notice the smile that appeared inadvertently at the corner of my mouth.

"..." Not knowing how to explain, I had to pick up the teacup and pretended not to hear what she said.

Now I can barely drink something, but if I don't feel better in the next few days, I'll probably starve to death. My parents have noticed something's wrong with me, since I haven't spoken to them in days.

"It seems that people generally like animals like cats and dogs... Is it because they are more common in life?" Ye Hui still did not stop what he was doing.

"It's just because that species is more likely to follow human instructions." Miss Rin explained.

It’s actually just such a simple reason...Why make it so complicated? Wouldn’t it be better to just say that I’m more obedient?

"So what do you like?"

"...Well, I basically like all mammals." Ye Hui thought for a moment, "But my favorite is probably... koalas."

Wow, this answer is so unexpected.

"...Uh, what's the reason?" Rinquanchuan was also confused about this.

"Well, don't you think that serious and lazy attitude is great?"

Why? I'm not talking about me, but I feel like I should be this species in my next life. Not only are they protected by humans, but they also get eighteen hours of sleep a day.

“Is this actually a cute point?”

"Well, I wouldn't call it cute or anything... Isn't the idea of ​​liking an animal solely based on appearance and habits? So, no matter how you explain it, it seems too simple or far-fetched."

"...That's true."

"Yeah." I couldn't help but nodded.

"How can it be your turn to speak? If you can't speak, just shut up and don't make any noise."

"..."

Even this little right is being taken away...

"Oh, right."

Although I'm happy that Yehui noticed me, that expression that seemed like he just noticed my existence... feels a bit weird.

"Sheji, what animal do you like?"

"..."

Come to think of it, it seems I really haven't considered it.

Chapter 14: True and False Words.

Maybe I just liked it because of its appearance at first.

But now that I have raised it, there seems to be no reason to say anything. As time goes by, the little animal that used to hide in the corner and scream can now sleep peacefully on my bed.

Thinking about it this way, it is indeed easier for humans to get along with animals than with each other.

"If only you could talk."

Facing my sudden touch, it only briefly opened its sleepy eyes and looked at me curiously. It seemed that it had no idea what I meant.

Perhaps this is why my cat and I get along so well. Perhaps it's because we can't communicate that I can look on the bright side of things... But I still want to say something to it, and I want a response.

After all, the person who has always been by my side and communicating with me is no longer here.

I was told the result, but no one explained why. With everything still unclear, I was unwilling to admit that what I was experiencing was real... If someone had told me it was a dream, I would have believed it without hesitation.

"That's fake, right?"

"Meow--?"

All it could do was look at me with a puzzled expression... There was no point in telling it this. After all, it no longer cared about its parents and didn't need to rely on them to survive.

Now all it has to do is... just stay with me.

........

【Absurd words. Its blackness】

black.

I wouldn't call this color offensive. But if it appeared on him, the feeling would be... disgust. No, it would be something more than disgust. Because if I dislike something, I can just avoid it, just like I hate carrots and green peppers, or my dog ​​barks at me. I can throw the vegetables I don't like in the trash or avoid them. But the one in front of me... for me, it's more like fear.

Because I can't get rid of him.

Fear, or terror? Both.

"...No way..."

Black eye sockets. Black cheeks. Black clothing. Black lips, as if about to exhale a black breath that would sink to the ground. Black gaze, heavy on me, and on its black body.

"Why is this happening..."

The black pupils swayed slightly, but it didn't seem to be looking at me.

I couldn't tell to whom the black man was speaking. Perhaps there was another black man behind me.

How strange. This was clearly my familiar home, but his presence seemed to have cast a gloomy darkness over everything, even the air.

"...This shouldn't be the case, right?"

Right, right? Was he asking me? I had no idea. And what was he referring to? I had no idea either. But I could sense that he was sad. Just as sad as those who had gathered and wept.

But mixed in there, there is something that can cause me even more fear.

He is angry.

I've seen him angry before. It wasn't often, but I can count the scenes I can think of on one hand. And this time, it seemed even more intense than before.

Although it hasn't happened yet.

But I didn't know why, and I didn't have the courage to ask. There seemed to be a space between him and me, a barrier, a crack... black.

“Wu…Wu…”

The little black one in my arms struggled, trying to get out of my arms. But I couldn't just run around at this moment... Even though I had no reason to, I could vaguely sense that if I moved around now, I would probably get angry...

So, I hugged it tightly and didn't want it to run around.

"You can't run around yet... Don't move..."

I whispered warnings to it, but it didn't seem ready to obey. It continued to struggle, trying to get out of my arms. And it actually did it, just like the first time, after breaking free, it crawled under the sofa.

"I'm useless..."

Husky voice.

But this was also the first time we'd spoken recently. Surprisingly, I couldn't remember his face clearly back then. Perhaps it was because the darkness before me was so overwhelming that I didn't have time to remember... or perhaps it was because that face was so distorted that I simply couldn't choose to remember it.

"So she's gone...right? That's right..."

That wasn't the case. She'd once said she understood what he was doing. But now it seemed as if the two of them had never exchanged thoughts. And I hesitated whether to tell him those words.

"But... don't worry. I won't let this happen again." He said this, slowly squatting down towards me. That's probably the case, because at that time, all I could feel was a ball of darkness approaching me. "You won't get hurt again..."

What should I say? He took my trembling hands without hesitation. His hands were not warm, and this action did not reduce my fear of him.

"...What's wrong with your hand...?"

"This, this is..." I tried to withdraw my hand, but he held it tighter and tighter. "It's just a minor injury, it's nothing serious..."

"It's okay... I was just scratched."

Because I held him too tightly, he instinctively scratched me when he struggled. Although it hurt a little at that moment, I still endured it because I thought it might make him angry.

And that seems to be the case.

The black before my eyes seemed to become even darker.

"That's not okay... That's not okay."

His hands began to tremble as well, but the trembling was obviously different from mine.

"Wait for me, I'll take you to the hospital later."

Barely black.

"Eh? Hospital..."

Is that a serious injury?

"Of course I'll go. Cats can get rabies, so you have to be careful, for sure. It's okay, I won't let anything happen to you."

As I said this, the darkness wasn't moving towards me. Instead, it was moving towards the sofa beside me. Another dark spot, where Xiao Hei was.

"I remember it was here, right?"

He slowly approached the sofa.

"...Wait, this will scare you..."

"It's okay, it's okay." He said in a gentle voice, and then pushed me aside. But this push was not gentle at all. I was pushed far back and fell heavily to the ground.

"Is it here... Is it here..."

The sofa shuffled harshly, and the darkness danced before my eyes. It was like... a flame that couldn't emit light.

"Oh, I ran off somewhere else... I'm really useless."

He looked back at me with a smile...stained with black.

"But don't worry, I'll find it."

He seemed to have forgotten the scratch on my arm, and didn't notice that I was pushed aside by him. Now all he wanted to do was catch the fleeing Blackie.

"I'll catch it...I'll catch it..."

Like repeating himself... He slowly followed Xiao Hei's footsteps and walked towards the deep room.

Then, I heard screams that I have never forgotten.

From a cat.

black.

True fallacy. Its vagueness

"Are you busy recently?"

Faced with Ye Hui's sudden question, I chose to shake my head.

I hadn't been able to speak freely for a few days. Ye Hui was also very considerate, answering any questions I wanted to ask with a nod or a shake of the head. So the journey home from school wasn't too boring.

"Really? But I've always felt that your behavior has been quite unusual lately. Especially the number of times you've left the classroom early."

"Hmm..." Of course I have to nod here.

Although I really want to pull out my phone and type an explanation to her, but... it seems there's nothing to explain, and I don't want to make up some lame excuse. Besides, given Ye Hui's personality, she will definitely understand me and come up with a reason that will make me respond.

Although sometimes things are not what she wants.

"Actually, I saw what you did when you left. Did you put some canned food in your pocket?"

"Uh... yeah."

Well, although it was a bit surprising, Ye Hui was sitting behind me after all, so it was normal for him to see it.

And here I have to nod and admit it.

"Well, I know that, actually. That's canned food for cats, right?"

"Hmm..." That's pretty thorough observation, isn't it? But I don't think it's quite surveillance. Maybe it was just a chance observation.

"Come to think of it, there are indeed some cats that appear in our school from time to time... Are you the one feeding them?"

"..." This question is difficult to answer whether you nod or shake your head... I didn't know how to answer for a moment, so I had to choose to remain silent.