I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

It's unsettling, isn't it? I've experienced the courage it takes to express my feelings to someone I like, and the pressure to pretend to be strong. That's why I understand.

"It's wrong to belittle yourself without permission."

"This is the last time..."

In fact, he is also a very low-self-esteem person.

He wasn't as omnipotent as I thought... nor was he as indifferent to everything as he appeared to be. It was just that for some reason, he was repelling others from approaching him.

"I just have someone I have to chase after. Until I catch up with that person and he explicitly rejects me, I won't consider anyone else."

I really hope that I am the first person to really get close to you.

..........

"Ah, so annoying, so annoying! Why are there so many things going on lately!" Rin Hanekawa couldn't help but frown when she saw that all the things she needed to deal with were from the art club. "What the hell are they doing lately? Why are they constantly laying off employees?"

"...I don't know."

"Maybe... it's a parent's request?"

The two people beside him responded with speculation.

"Tsk, so you should be determined about what you want to do from the beginning... It's really annoying to keep changing it like this." Having said that, it would actually be better to just approve it directly.

"Oh, right, there's also a notice criticizing someone... It seems to have come from that same group."

"What the hell?" She couldn't help but hold her forehead, then looked at the report. "...One-sided assault...The one being beaten is really weak, not even fighting back? He's a man after all."

"...It's not nice to say this... President."

"Oh, that's right. After all, the impact is still quite bad... Anyway, let's leave this matter to someone else to deal with. Wouldn't it be fine if I just stopped classes for a few days to reflect on it?"

"Actually, this is not the main point..." "Here."

"What is this..." She looked at the USB drive handed to her curiously.

"It's part of the surveillance footage." The man in charge of the explanation pushed up his glasses. "It was accidentally discovered by the Living Supervision Department when they were retrieving the surveillance footage for evidence."

"What... Is someone causing trouble again? They're actually causing trouble under surveillance. They're really bold." It sounded like he was gloating.

"You've spoken out of turn again... President." "Ahem."

"Well, I want to stop that kind of thing... but it's still hard to handle." Generally speaking, these things happen in places where evidence isn't easily left and where the invigilator can't film them. Furthermore, some people are protected by others... even for me, it's still difficult to intervene.

"...You'll know once you see it..."

"..."

Then, she saw Sheji being knocked to the ground by a punch on the screen.

"What is this guy doing..."

. . . . . . . .

"I haven't seen you talking about that junior recently."

After being reminded by others, Senior Sun suddenly realized this.

"Hmm...ah. Indeed...but there's a lot to write lately." It's not just the script, but also the sequels I've already promised to write. Once I get busy, I tend to forget a lot of things.

It seems that I was too idle before.

"Besides, I'm going to have to think about leaving soon..." He sighed slightly and closed the printed script in his hand. "So, let's talk about him after rehearsals... Even if it's a gift or a souvenir, there must be no accidents in this performance."

"You're overthinking it. We haven't had any accidents during performances yet." "That's right, don't worry."

"..."

In fact, this is not what he is worried about, but...it seems that there is no need to worry now.

"That's it. Hurry up and do it again!"

. . . . .

I skipped class today and still wasn't caught.

I felt like I was being ignored. No one noticed that I was not at school, but was lazily sitting in front of a computer in an Internet cafe, using the money I saved on meals as Internet fees, wasting a boring day.

"..."

Even though I'm becoming more and more proficient at gaming, it seems I'm still not at the point where I can make a living from it. This shows that what I'm doing now is just a temporary escape from reality... Besides, even if I attend classes, I won't understand them at all. I might as well just focus on what I'm good at.

"First Blood—"

As expected, it was me who completed the first kill.

After the notification sounded in his ears, a sense of pride gradually welled up in his heart. Only in this state could he forget the things that he had been thinking about after calming down.

At this moment, he would forget the financial difficulties of his family, the ridicule of his classmates when he accidentally flipped through books, the fact that he was used as a negative example, and the fact that...

That was once kept in my heart.

Now it's just that photo in my pocket... Or rather, the person I like.

. . . . . . .

He still hasn't come today.

Obviously, things have already come to that point.

Looking at the gradually darkening sky, Rinquanchuan closed the book in his hand, sighed, and slowly stood up.

Is he really a fool who doesn't understand anything?

Thinking of this, her gaze turned to a place farther away.

"Oh my..."

What is he doing now?

.............

There was still a huge smoke floating in the sky.

What exactly is that cloud-like mist emitted by that factory... Now I just stare at it in a daze.

"Oh, long time no see, junior—"

"..."

Is that troublesome-looking guy someone I know? Looking through my memories, I slowly stood up from the slope.

The wind was quite strong, so I couldn't hear what she was saying as she ran towards me.

"This is a rare opportunity, come play baseball!"

“…”

Looking at her carefree expression, I seemed to recall something.

It was only summer then, and the smoke in the sky was much larger and more beautiful than it is now. However, this person was indeed as troublesome as expected.

"No... I'm just sitting around..."

I thought I could come here to think quietly, but I didn't expect to encounter such a guy. If I had chosen not to avoid Ye Hui and went straight home, things wouldn't have turned out like this.

"If you don't exercise, you'll become useless. And hitting it with a stick isn't that hard at all."

As she swung the bat, the sound of the wind whistling through the air was quite loud. At the same time, I realized that swinging that thing wasn't as easy as she said.

"It's settled. Just like last time, I'll pitch the ball, and you'll hit it with the bat."

“....." I still wanted to refuse.

"As for picking up the ball, just leave it to that guy." She said and pointed to a boy not far behind her. If nothing unexpected happens, I should have met him before.

"Okay, just come quickly."

"..."

Unconsciously, a baseball bat appeared in my hand.

"Okay, okay, come here—"

Unconsciously... walked onto the grass.

Although this was my first time experiencing this, it felt subtly familiar.

Ah, this is what that guy went through...

正途

so tired.

“Ding-dang—”

The sound of the ball hitting the target, echoing in my ears, gradually drifted away on the chill wind. Did it exist? The ball just hit. If I hadn't heard it, how could any bystander have ever noticed the action?

If you don't step onto the field, no matter how many times you swing the bat in private...even if you hit a lot of home runs, it won't help.

"Hey—are you ready?—"

Is this question directed at me...I'm not sure.

"what...."

I am still very tired.

I don't know when this feeling was branded into my body. It's like I'll fall asleep if I close my eyes. If I could, I really want to forget everything... and then sleep in a room where no one will disturb me until I wake up.

But...

"It's impossible."

Something vaguely reminded me that I couldn't stop yet. This world, the world I could still see with my own eyes, actually still had things worth paying attention to.

“Whoosh—”

Something flew past me.

"Snapped."

It seemed like I was blocked by something behind me again.

"Good shot... Come on, Senior, please swing the bat."

Someone was reminding me from behind.

"...?"

Senior...are you calling me? Ah, come to think of it, I'm a sophomore in high school now. So, the guy catching the ball from behind must be a freshman. So, we shouldn't have met before. My previous guess was wrong.

"Senpai said...she's going to start again soon. Please cheer me up a bit, senpai."

“…”

That being said.

Even though I was holding a bat that was no match for me, I still had no reason to swing it. Besides, at that speed... I had no idea how to hit it.

“Whoosh—”

A high-speed spinning baseball flew past his cheek.

"Gu..."

What is she thinking.

This can't be explained by a simple miss. It's like it was thrown with perfect aim... and if it had missed, I guess I really wouldn't have to worry about getting a good night's sleep from now on.

"Um...senpai, please cheer up."

"...Yeah."

Even though they were not close, he could still hear what that guy was saying...

"Because it's not that far... I thought you were just deliberately ignoring it, Senior."

“…”

It turned out to be the case.