I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

"Hmm... Yeah..." I nodded unconsciously.

Will there really be a next time... When I thought so, Senior Xiao Qian responded to me as if she saw through my thoughts.

"Don't worry, summer vacation is still long, so there will be plenty of opportunities to meet."

"..."

Well, it should refer to the opportunity for the senior and senior Xiaohui to meet.

"Besides, Xiaohui came here for him, she won't give up so easily... Well, these things are difficult to talk about anyway, so I won't say much nonsense. Anyway, goodbye, junior."

"..." This time he really ran away. Running in such weather is a very brave act...

"Anyway... let's go find Senior..."

I scratched my head and turned in the opposite direction.

When people think of what they did or encountered in the past, they will involuntarily say what they wanted to say most at that time, and their hands will make unnecessary movements...and I just did something similar.

But it wasn't because I had any embarrassing thoughts in mind.

But...that apologetic smile brought back some bad memories for me.

"I didn't mean anything by that. It's just that various things happened... so I'm sorry..." "I'm really sorry for not clarifying it beforehand, but it's really not necessary... so..." "Because of your age, I'd rather not trouble you."

When I want to participate in something but am told I'm no longer needed, I always feel a kind of awkward dilemma. I can't complain, and I certainly can't call myself pitiful, so I can only console myself with words like "saving my energy." Over time, I don't seem to want to help others anymore.

How many times have I encountered something like this? To the point where I always feel like I'm being ignored.

.....................

Logically speaking, in this day and age where almost everyone has a cell phone, it shouldn't be difficult to find someone...unless that person doesn't answer the phone.

When I tried to find my senior, I realized... I had no way to contact him. This meant that once he graduated, he wouldn't be able to find me except by visiting me... It felt great, but there was a high chance he wouldn't be found.

“Gu…Gu…Gu…”

With an involuntary sound in my throat, a large amount of cold liquid flowed down my throat and into my abdomen. While it felt good to guzzle a drink under the scorching sun, I'd try to avoid this experience if possible. After all, the triggering conditions were extremely demanding.

"Huh... so..." I turned my gaze to the vending machine, which was in a park not far from the mall.

I'm not going to spend too much effort looking for my senior. If he's not here, I'll just go home... If he really has something to do, he'll definitely come find me tomorrow, and if he doesn't come... that means I can stay home and relax.

But the reason why I came here to try my luck is, of course, because this is the most likely place to meet him.

I seem to have a unique kind of luck when it comes to finding people, and it's not unreasonable to attribute this ability to my reasoning skills.

.................

"If they weren't pure fools, no one would sit on the street under the scorching sun, unless they were trapped in love." I had already found my senior and approached him sitting on the bench with two bottles of drinks in hand. "By the way, this sentence was said by Mr. Lu Xun."

"Mr. Lu Xun will refute you..."

My senior, who had his eyes slightly closed, actually refuted me... I thought he was asleep or passed out due to the weather.

"...So you don't deny that you're in love?" I handed him the unopened drink in my hand.

"Because everything you said is wrong, so I don't need to deny it at all." He took it without hesitation.

Click~dundun~

The familiar sound of a bottle being opened and gulps of water echoed through my ears. It seemed like this guy was thirsty too. And he just sat there on the bench without even moving...was he just being stupid, or was he just not in the mood?

"..." After a slight hesitation, he asked, "What did you say to that girl?"

"Mmm...Mmm...Hmm..."

"Do you really think you can get away with this kind of low-level perfunctory attitude?" I looked at him with some contempt.

"Ahem...what do you want me to say?" He looked at me helplessly, "You saw that scene too."

"Yeah...it's like a scene in a romance drama...ah, did you take the initiative to break up?" Then he was called a scumbag and slapped in the face...this kind of plot appeared in the TV dramas I watched when I was a child.

"You think a lot."

Is this a compliment to me?

"...Then tell me the reason."

"Actually, I'm not really sure... He just said he's no longer writing novels." He put the drink to his lips again. "Now that I think about it, I guess he doesn't want me to talk about the past anymore."

"...Well..."

What kind of mood would make one lose control of their emotions just because of a single sentence? If we consider my own past experiences, can we draw a conclusion?

"Hmm..." I fell into deep thought.

For some reason, that person's eyes sparkling with tears appeared in my mind for no reason, and the emotions contained in those eyes may be emotions that I will never be able to understand... This can be considered as emotional outburst... At least it is the emotion caused by my words.

In other words, did I do something as outrageous as my predecessor? But what I did wasn't wrong...

Damn, this kind of thing is impossible to figure out.

"Really..." It's fine to just let the person worry about his or her problems, why think so much?

"Come to think of it, what were you doing earlier?" He seemed to have just noticed the time I showed up. "It's been quite a while since I left the mall."

"Hmm...ah, I understand the situation a little bit."

"...Oh?" He looked at me to inquire about the content.

"I learned that the senior you had a conflict with is called Li Yinghui, and the senior who accompanied her is called Ming Xinxi... I've known from senior Xinxi since I was a child... uh... that she came back mainly for you."

"Ah? Are you sure it's for me?" He frowned.

"...I'm not sure. I'm not involved."

But I think it's a little more understandable.

“....." The senior fell silent.

"Maybe just to beat you up."

"Oh, so you came to me just to be beaten by me."

"Ahem, just kidding."

No conscious expression

"Even if it's a joke, you have to be careful about the limits."

Unexpectedly, he adopted the tone of a senior.

"Is it too much?"

But I didn't want to pay attention.

"No... Even so, I still don't want you to say that."

What this and that...

"Ah... Could it be that I've become fragile because of my emotions?"

“Complete bullshit.”

"A man should not be timid when he needs to show courage." I said and patted his shoulder.

"I'm not scared."

"Then go find her."

"Where to find..."

"how could I know."

"Then tell me." He said and was about to strangle me.

"It's so hot! You don't even have her contact information?!" I hurriedly pushed away the senior who was approaching me, and he returned to his original sitting position.

“Where did I get a cell phone in elementary school?”

"You don't even know where her home is? We're such close friends."

"I don't know what's wrong. Do we have to go to each other's house if we have a good relationship?"

"..."

Why can he be so confident?

But when I think about it carefully, I never went to other people's homes to play when I was in elementary school... So I seem to understand why he felt so confident.

"In short, considering my previous experience, your answer was probably in stark contrast to her expectations, which is why she reacted that way."

After watching a conversation that was not very sincere, I finally brought the topic back to the point.

"Is that so?" He didn't seem to be immersed in the insignificant conversation just now.

It was as if the music suddenly stopped, and the content that had nothing to do with the topic was directly disconnected, as if it had never been discussed before.

"Well... although I don't really understand what's going on in girls' heads..." For example, the unstable Rin Izumikawa, "but since it actually happened to me, I can still use it as a reference." Perhaps if I had given a different answer at the time, the outcome of the incident would have been different.

"Well..."

"What's wrong?" I noticed that the senior's expression seemed a little subtle, and couldn't help but ask.

"No..." He retracted his gaze from looking at me, then stood up suddenly and threw the empty can in his hand into the trash can not far away, "Nothing."

"..."

Seeing this, I stood up as he did, ready to throw the empty can in my hand over like him. However, I saw that the empty can thrown by the senior bounced twice on the edge of the bucket and fell on the lawn beside him.

"Oh, what a waste." I sighed and threw the empty can away.

"I want you to manage."

Then, there was the sound of an empty can falling into a trash can.

Chapter 10: Unaware Expression

If two boys of similar age stand together in a park and throw empty cans into a distant trash can, what will people who witness this scene think?

"Ah, those two must be close friends."

"Throwing the can might be a trivial bet between these two people."

Normal people should think so.

However, there is no way to verify whether the speculation is correct or not, because whether it is extremely embarrassing to approach and say "You two are so close" or to lean closer and ask "Are you two making a bet?"

So, when there's no clear answer to a question, any seemingly reasonable explanation will be accepted. And since humans are incredibly imaginative, they'll almost always come up with a reasonable explanation for any situation...but the conclusion they reach depends on their subconscious.

Simply put, optimists will come up with optimistic explanations, and pessimists will naturally come up with pessimistic explanations...but whether they are correct or not depends on luck.

That being said, anyone who can be a detective must be extremely lucky...otherwise, how could they become the protagonist?

Well, to sum up, in my opinion, what happened to you, Senpai, is completely reversible... After all, both parties involved may have made mistakes.

However...

"So, what are you going to do next?"

I watched the seniors pick up the empty cans and throw them back into the trash can.

"...What should I do..."

He muttered to himself and looked away.

"You know what, Sheji? Now when I'm dying from the sun, I wonder if winter will come sooner. I hate this heat..." He looked at me, his eyes full of fatigue. "And when winter really comes, I'll have to insist on going to school in the cold wind, and suddenly I'll start to miss the feeling of sweating in the summer."

"..."

"So, no matter what, things won't always go as you wish... It's better to keep looking forward to those things you want to do well. Keep thinking about them in your mind, imagining the best course of action, and imagining how things will turn out for the best. Because the things you imagine don't exist, there's no need to worry about them being shattered."

"..."

"So, I still think... it's better not to ask me to implement the method I'm thinking of. After all... sometimes distance really does matter."

Is this an answer? I don't know.

"Well, I'll go back first." He simply waved to me and left.

"Hey? Oh..." I subconsciously wanted to reach out to stop him, but when I came to my senses, I couldn't think of any reason to stop him, so I just left one hand hanging in the air and watched his back as he left.