I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

Most people would do this.

Speaking of which, how far away is my dream from me? I used to feel it was very close to me, but now it feels so far away.

Because of her, I became aware of distance.

If I think about it this way...should I thank her?

Although I feel that it is impossible for me to do it, I don’t want to forget this dream easily... because it was given to me by her. When I think of this, I will naturally think of her, and then bring out that precious memory.

If I forget...I have to forget those things as well.

Unfortunately, I can't do it at all.

"Hey, what's your dream, Li Du?"

As if on a whim, I suddenly asked him while washing my face.

"Dreams..." He frowned, as if thinking seriously. "Speaking of which, I originally wanted to be a writer, but now my biggest dream is to find an ideal girlfriend."

"This is a wish... Dreams and wishes are not the same." You are studying Chinese, but you can't even tell the difference?

"Ah...those kinds of troublesome things...I should have stopped thinking about them a long time ago." He pushed his glasses up sheepishly. "It's a bit embarrassing to say this, but I think it's better to talk about those things slowly when we get to college."

"That's it..."

"So, Haozi, what's your dream? To be a playwright? A screenwriter? A director?"

"........."

"You may not believe it, but I want to be a writer."

Chapter 39: The Meaning of Ordinariness

"Oh... although it looks a bit simple... it's still amazing. The lighting and shadows and the details... are all drawn well."

As an outsider, I made a comment on Yehui's painting...It's a very boring comment no matter how you think about it.

"Well... because this is a sketch, even though the exam won't require you to sketch a scene, there's nothing wrong with drawing one."

"Yeah, it should be used in comics."

Even though I don’t understand, I’ll still agree with it.

"Sheji...Do you like comics very much?" She seemed to have just found out.

"Yeah, I quite like it... I remember I tried to draw it before." But I felt that I had no talent, so I gave up.

"Ohhh...really? How about giving it a try?"

As she spoke, she was about to hand me the pen.

"No, no, no... Let's just forget it."

It’s better not to embarrass yourself in front of art students.

"...Oh...I see." She didn't insist. "Come to think of it, Sheji, since you like comics so much, have you ever thought about becoming a cartoonist?"

"How could that be... I know I don't have any talent for drawing, so I didn't think about it... And if you like something, you should pursue a career related to it... Then I should be a programmer."

Yes, I like games more than comics.

"I wanted to learn painting because I admired artists...but my classmates seemed to be studying it to make it easier to get into university, so they didn't seem to be studying very seriously."

"There's nothing we can do about it. Just don't worry about it."

People who succumb to reality find it difficult to talk about dreams.

"Well... I certainly won't take it personally."

“…” I don’t know what to say.

"Okay, now that I've finished this sculpture, I'm going to move on to a different scene." She put away her drawing board for the time being.

"Really? What do you want to change it to?"

There are plenty of things to draw everywhere.

"How about letting me draw you?"

"Let's forget about this..." Although I know he is joking.

But we didn't draw much before we received the notice that it was time for dinner.

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"So... today will be the same as yesterday. The boys will go first, and we girls will follow."

Rin Hanekawa announced while standing on the steps after finishing her meal.

We boys had no objections and immediately prepared to leave. The girls also prepared to go to the room to get the necessary things and were ready to go to the locker room.

"Let's go, let's go..." "Do you want to play billiards?" "Then remember to bring your wallet..." "I found a restaurant yesterday. It was quiet, but the food was good." "Didn't we just finish lunch?" "We can go at noon."

Ah... I didn't expect them to be just as excited today. It was Liu Yan and Senior Su who initiated the topic.

"Wait, could you please move your umbrellas and folding chairs as well?"

Suddenly, Rin Hanekawa's words came from behind us...it was more like an order than a request.

"........."

Ah, what a troublesome guy.

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"I can't seem to wait to find that girl... and that store."

Although Senior Su was carrying two parasols on his shoulders, he did not seem to be burdened and was in an excited state.

"...So you didn't ask her name?" I really doubt what he talked about with her yesterday.

"I think we forgot because we got along so well."

"..."

We got along so well...we even neglected to introduce ourselves.

"What, what...what are you talking about?" Liu Yan heard our conversation, but had no idea what we were saying.

"It's just yesterday's results."

"Oh~ As expected of a senior, you succeeded so quickly... Unfortunately, Xiaoyou dragged me away while I was chatting with someone yesterday..."

"..."

And then... apply sunscreen together? That's illogical, isn't it? Shouldn't they just bury him on the beach? It's not okay to be so lenient with this guy...

"Then you must keep up the good work today, junior."

Senior Su patted Liu Yan's shoulder, as if entrusting him with an important task...Why does he behave like a real senior in such matters?

"No problem!" Liu Yan responded immediately.

Hmm... maybe this is just the way things are.

"......"

I looked back at my senior. After all, he hadn't said anything since a while ago. Thinking about what happened last night, I always felt a little uneasy.

"what..."

The senior who seemed to be distracted seemed to notice my gaze and looked at me.

I didn't avoid that gaze, but instead expressed my doubts.

"Are you thinking about something..."

"Hmm... It's weird. After I suddenly remembered it, I couldn't stop thinking about it... I couldn't even forget it for a moment. I couldn't have any fun anymore." He smiled wryly. "I guess I'm worried again."

"...It's okay. We can talk about it if we have time... If you can tell me, senior."

I certainly won't pry into his affairs, but if he decides to let me share his troubles... I certainly won't refuse. That's all I can do.

"Hmm...I'll think about it."

His brows gradually relaxed.

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"Wow, those sunglasses suit you very well."

I had just put up the last parasol when I heard Rin Hanekawa's unusually lively voice beside me... as if what happened last night had not happened at all.

"Don't say anything against your will...it's totally inappropriate." Although I still insisted on wearing it...maybe because it could cover part of my face.

An inexplicable sadness welled up in my heart.

"Haha, that's what you said, not mine. I think it suits you very well."

"Ah... okay okay..." As long as you are happy.

"Speaking of which, have you seen the Rinquan River?"

"She's probably still behind... After all, she's not very strong, so she must be walking very slowly... What's going on? Is there something you want to talk to her about? Are you going to confess your feelings?"

"No...it's too early to confess..."

What on earth is this guy thinking? It's impossible for him to confess. He will never confess in this lifetime...

"Oh, does that mean you will confess to me in the future?" she asked me in pretended surprise.

"Tsk... I won't talk to you about these useless things..." I was led astray by her without realizing it.

"Don't be angry... If you can take the initiative to communicate with her, she will definitely be happier than me. As long as the topic is not too bad."

"You don't have to worry about this..."

"Yeah... this is between you two. What's the point of me worrying about it... it's really funny."

"......"

It was then that I noticed...that she was the one who should have a good conversation with Rinsenkawa because they were sisters, and I was the one who couldn't get a word in at all...because I was just an outsider.

But the truth is just the opposite... Is that why she wants to understand me? She wants to use me to get along with Rinquanchuan, who should have been...

So fate really likes to play the game of switching places.

"Well, what I said just now might have been a bit... excessive. Please don't take it too seriously."

"Hmm? Oh... What are you talking about? Don't you have something to talk to her about? Then go quickly. Are you planning to talk to her in public?"

"That's impossible... I'm leaving."

"Hmph~ I don't care~"

She spread her hands and walked away indifferently.

Haha...that's really not frank.

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People always waste their precious time.

Actually, time is also valuable...

For example, time spent enjoying happiness and pleasure is precious and we want it to pass more slowly. However, when faced with boring time, we always want it to pass faster.

The time spent traveling from the starting point to the destination is perhaps the part that you want to pass quickly.

In other words...retracing your steps is a very boring and meaningless act.

But... people always have to do a lot of meaningless things, and only after doing a lot of boring things will they gradually recognize what is worth doing...

Only after doing something meaningful will we suddenly realize that seemingly boring things actually have their own unique meaning and are irreplaceable.

Although what I am doing now is meaningless, judging from the results... it is not meaningless.

Because on the road I was walking, I met the person I had always wanted to meet.

"Yo..."

I took the initiative to greet her, although her eyes were still cold and she even wanted to avoid me.

"I want to ask you something. Can I take up a moment of your time?"