I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

...Where's Jiayin? She was just talking to me a moment ago, how come she's gone now?

"Aren't you awake yet?" He waved his hand in front of my eyes, and then I realized that I was just dreaming.

The most important thing is that I haven’t finished speaking yet...It’s all his fault for waking me up.

So you can’t blame me for being angry when I woke up.

Chapter 38: Troubles Must Be Talked About

"You got up so early today...Did anything good happen to you?" Maybe Ye Hui saw that my eyes were a little dazed, so he asked this question.

In fact, I just wasn't used to getting up at this time.

Then I suddenly remembered what I dreamed about yesterday.

"Nothing happened... I was just woken up by a guy who dreamed of watching the sunrise."

And this sentence seems familiar... Isn't it the same sentence that the uncle in the Hawaiian shirt often says...

"I see..." She nodded and thought for a moment, "So, where are you going now, Sheji?"

Even if you ask me this question... I can't answer it.

"Actually, I don't have anywhere I want to go...but since you're here, I'll stay here with you." It doesn't matter.

"Hey?"

When she heard what I said, she looked a little surprised.

Ah... I suddenly feel that this statement is indeed a bit...

"Well...I see..." She didn't object. "Although it's not very appropriate to say this, watching others draw is actually...a bit boring..."

"it does not matter."

Actually, I feel at ease just looking at her...

"That's it then... I'm going to start drawing."

"Ah."

. . . . . . . . . . .

I'm sorry...but actually I was just looking for an excuse to be dazed. And what I'm thinking about right now is...that dream.

I really want to ask someone other than her... For example, Rinsenkawa, she has also sung a duet with Kanon, if it's her, she must know something.

Ah, wait...

But if I think about it carefully...that was just a dream. If I ask her about this, she might laugh at me.

So it's still considered...

No, I'd better go and ask. It won't hurt anyway.

"...that..."

Suddenly I felt my sleeve being tugged.

"Ah... um..." It was then that I suddenly realized I had been distracted, "Sorry... I was just thinking about something."

"I know. Actually, I'm used to it..." She smiled helplessly, "If it really bothers you, you can talk to me like usual."

"..."

Yeah, it was like this before... I almost forgot when it was.

So...should I still ask her for help...No, I don't think it's a good idea.

"Well, actually... this matter... seems a bit... because it's a dream, well... so I think... Yehui, you can't help."

"Hmm?" She tilted her head to indicate that she didn't understand.

I also realized that the sentence was messy... maybe it was because I was too nervous.

"...You mean, the troubles are caused by...dreams?"

"Uh...hmm."

I feel a little ashamed for some reason... To be honest, I'm not a straight-laced middle school student anymore [actually, I'm only in the first year of high school], so why do I still have this kind of "dream-chasing" idea?

"Is it important...?"

"Although there's no basis for it, it does have some importance."

Although it's just intuition.

"I...Is there really nothing I can do to help..." Her eyes looked a little lost. "If possible...I still hope to share your burden."

Share...wait, she said share? In other words...like treating a friend...

That's right. Although this is the first time she has said it clearly, it has been like this since then...I just realized it now.

That’s great...I never thought before that there would be someone who could share my burden.

"I know..."

I know you really care about me, but this kind of thing... is a little embarrassing to talk about. And it's unfounded, so I regret saying it. I shouldn't have worried her with such an uncertain thing.

So, I will keep this matter in mind.

No matter what problems I encounter in the future, I will discuss them with you, but this time, let me figure it out myself.

So...it's better to refuse politely.

"Um...I can't tell you, but...there are many reasons...so, please forget about it...don't worry about me."

"....." She didn't seem to have expected me to say such a thing, so she was stunned for a moment.

"Is that so..."

"I always thought I could share some of your burdens...but it seems I was overthinking it."

Wait, this tone...

"No, no, no...it's not like that..."

Why does she understand so well...

"This is not a big deal...so there is no need to trouble you..."

"But I don't think it's a bother at all." She looked at me with a firm gaze, which made me feel a little guilty.

"...But..."

“I don’t find it troublesome at all!”

She reiterated, moving her face closer to mine.

...Okay, I give up.

"Okay, okay... I get it..." Phew... I really don't know why she is so serious, "Then I'll tell you..."

"Hmm~" Only then did she show her usual smile.

"I can't help it..." I scratched my hot cheek, "Let me make it clear first, you are not allowed to laugh at me..."

"Well...I'll try my best."

What does come on mean?

. . . . . . . . . . . . .

"That's it... Come to think of it, isn't it a bad idea to tell everyone about your dreams?" I felt my face getting a little hot... to be exact, it was getting hotter.

So it’s not good to tell your dreams everywhere.

Ah...especially when talking to girls.

"........"

And she looked like she was thinking it over.

That’s right, it’s even more embarrassing to say this to a serious girl.

"Although I've never heard that sharing dreams is bad..."

After hearing what I said, Ye Hui, who had been silent, suddenly spoke.

"But I've heard the saying... 'What you think about during the day, you dream about at night.' So... you've been thinking about her ever since then? That... Kanon-san, right?"

"........"

This question is so subtle and difficult to answer... It's like your girlfriend asking you, "I heard you have an ex-girlfriend. Are you in touch with her now?" It's a deadly question.

Wait...why do I think of this?

"Well, maybe... it's just subconscious... after all, we knew each other before..."

"Isn't that just thinking about her..."

"...Ah...that's probably it."

Why am I so nervous now...it obviously has nothing to do with her.

"Come to think of it, Sheji, have you ever dreamed of me? I used to... know you."

What exactly is the purpose of this spontaneous question? Is it related to the problem I'm facing?

"Well...ah~ Come to think of it, am I overthinking it? After all, dreams can't be trusted easily. I once dreamed about the Cataclysm because I played too much CSol, but now it seems nothing happened, haha."

My instinct told me to change the subject, so...

"I don't know much about games... I'll learn more about it later. But, Sheji, you have to answer my questions first."

“…”

This look is even more serious than before.

"Well... I've... I've had a dream about this..."

Actually no... because I can't remember clearly.

"Is that so?" Her expression softened considerably, though it hadn't been serious to begin with. "So, do you remember the content?"

Looking at her expectant eyes...I still chose to say "I can't remember..."

I don't want to lie.

"Oh, that's a pity..."

Ye Hui pouted rarely. This was the first time I saw her showing negative emotions. She was so cute.

But the focus is wrong...and it is a shameful play to retell the scene of dreaming about her to the person concerned.

"That...problem...what do you think about the problem I'm facing?" I reminded her in a low voice.

"Oh... sorry, I was thinking of some strange things just now." She seemed to realize that the topic had gone off track.

"it's okay no problem..."

Maybe he was influenced by me.

"I think it's better to... take it seriously, because it might really be a hint."

"That's it..."

Since Ye Hui said so...

"But you must work harder and try to dream about me. This might be a hint."

"...I try my best..."

This requirement is extremely difficult.

The meaning of ordinary

How far is the distance between dreams and reality?

It could be just a few years, or it could be a lifetime.

But if you really have a dream that you can never realize in your lifetime, why not change it? Change it to a dream that you can realize.