I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

...This joke is really old.

People who care about me always find it difficult to understand

Art is about using available materials to express what one considers to be "beautiful."

That's what I think.

In my country, there is no shortage of people who like all kinds of art.

Painting with a brush is just a common method...or rather, a more popular method. But there are also some relatively niche methods: for example, what I am doing now...using sand to create the image in my mind.

Maybe it’s because it’s troublesome, and sand, unlike wood and stone, breaks easily, so many people are not interested in it.

Come to think of it, I have seen this kind of exhibition before. They even built sand castles several meters high... It seemed that they used a setting spray.

Now that we are at the sandy beach and there is no one to disturb us, it is natural for me to show off my skills...even if it is just a spur of the moment.

And I can't produce any decent work.

...Oh, I almost forgot, I think I participated in the event that Rin Hanekawa mentioned... But how should I put it... I can't even see Sheji's figure, and there must be a lot of people looking for him.

I really wish I could activate my "Eye of Insight" just once, so I can see what's going on in that guy's mind... because I don't understand him at all.

"Huh... never mind..."

Better finish this one.

Chapter 14: The people I care about are always hard to understand

"Ah... hello."

After leaving, Xiaoye did not find Lingcan whom Sheji asked for help, but met Yehui who was also wandering around for some reason.

"Hello...If I remember correctly, you are Miss Ye?" She smiled at Xiao Ye.

"Well... just call me Xiaoye." She still had some good feelings towards Yehui, because in Xiaoye's eyes, she was very gentle to everyone and was much easier to get along with than that young lady.

"Come to think of it, the friend that Sheji said was coming was you, right?" Ye Hui seemed to remember something, so he confirmed with Xiaoye.

"Well... because I have something to discuss with him." Although it is impossible to determine whether coming here is a mistake, after all, I just saw the dissatisfaction in Miss Lin's eyes.

"I see... Speaking of which, I'm looking for him. Do you know where he is? Aren't you guys together?"

"Uh..." Xiaoye was stunned by the two sudden questions, but he reacted immediately. "Sheji is at the cold drink shop over there, apparently talking to Miss Lin. I'm going to look for that...that...small blonde girl."

Because he forgot Lingcan's name, Xiaoye felt a little embarrassed when talking about this.

"Oh...Is that so..." Ye Hui thought for a moment, "Then I'd better not bother you..."

"..."

Actually, it’s okay to disturb someone. It’s normal to disturb someone. If you like Sheji... I always feel that the person in front of me is a little too kind.

Xiaoye thought so.

"If you don't mind, could you let me look for her with you? It would be faster if we were both together, right?"

"Eh? Ah..."

This proposal caught Xiaoye off guard, but he had no reason to refuse.

"But...sure."

. . . . . . . . . . . .

"Hey... that joke you just made has been used so many times before," I said lightly. "Now it seems that only people my mom and Nan's age use it."

【Brother Nan: A-choo! 】

"...Are you calling me old?"

【Brother Nan: A-choo! X2】

Facing Linquanchuan's questioning with a hint of murderous intent, I don't know where I got the courage to remain so calm.

"That shows you're mature."

It's not really a lie, because that's the feeling Rinquanchuan gives people... Maybe it's because she rarely speaks.

"If you don't apologize, your face will be in close contact with the ice cream in front of you in the next second."

"Sorry, I was wrong."

How can a mature person talk like this?

"Even though you're a single-celled organism with simple thoughts, please understand a little bit..."

"ha..."

So you also know the word "sensible". I thought it wasn't in your dictionary at all.

"Of course I can't tell you. It's really annoying to pry into other people's privacy."

"..."

It was such a surprise to hear such words from her mouth.

"Okay, I won't ask." I'm too lazy to even care.

"Hmph... You shouldn't be involved in this kind of thing."

"Yes, I know." If I hadn't been asked to do so, I would have gone out to play with Xiaoye or others long ago.

"Then why do you still care..."

"Of course I'm a little worried about you."

After all, this guy lacks common sense and is prone to doing stupid things. Add to that that unreliable sister...what else can I do?

“...Huh...Hmm...”

"what happened to you?"

"No...it's okay! Huhu...I'll go back with you...Please eat quickly, okay?"

After talking to me, Rinzenkawa's mood seemed to have improved... although he still looked impatient.

"Okay, okay...be a little patient."

.......................

"Come to think of it, you've read quite a few books, right?" Because it would be boring to just eat ice cream without saying anything, I found a topic that I had just thought of.

"...Although I don't think it's a lot, it's probably a lot compared to what you've read."

Oh, why do you have to compare me? I would be sad too...it's because I don't have time to watch it now.

"But generally speaking, girls like this can be called literary girls, right?"

"...What do you mean? Are you mocking me?"

"No, your paranoia is really strong." I swallowed the ice cream helplessly. "It's just that a girl with three ponytails who calls herself a literary girl can summarize the impression of a famous book by the taste of delicious food. I was wondering...Rinquanchuan, do you have a similar ability?"

"..."

She was silent for a moment before she said to me calmly, "If I remember correctly, this should be from the light novel 'Literary Girl', right? I'm surprised you, who only reads erotic books, have read it."

"..."

I am more concerned that you know about this book, and I don’t read it every day.

"But you're an idiot for asking that question, aren't you? Seeking a sense of reality in a virtual world is a sign of mental disorder."

Oh, Axu’s famous saying is really widely applicable.

"That ability is merely a product of artistic process. Have you ever seen someone who can only survive by eating books? Or are you one of those...arthropods who live on books?"

"..."

So, don't use anything to belittle me.

"That kind of literary girl doesn't exist... Or has anyone ever told you, 'You don't understand at all'?"

"..."

"You don't understand, do you?"

Is that natural? There are so many things I don't understand.

Someone did say something like this to me, but I can't remember it right now...

"Oh, sorry, it turns out there really is one." She saw that I was slightly stunned and didn't say anything else.

"I can't remember the reason...it's okay."

....................

You will definitely not understand.

"Betrayal" and "loss", what kind of harm will these two things bring to me?

You won’t understand.

After something like that happened, she would just say in a calm tone, "Don't be so petty," "Let's get along," "That's all, just forgive her," and "Of course I chose to forgive her."

Just because it didn't happen to them, they could persuade me to accept it.

Why? I wasn't the one who made the mistake. I was the one who was hurt, so why should I forgive the person who hurt me? If someone hits you, do you still have to smile and greet them?

I'm not the fool emperor who stopped resisting when he saw his friend holding a knife against him.

I won't accept it.

Betrayer should be punished.

They don’t understand at all. Of course, they won’t understand anything unless they encounter it.

Just when I had no way to vent my feelings of betrayal, fate seemed to play another joke on me.

I tasted the feeling of loss again.

And the reason is so simple... because of me.

Is that who I am? Do I deserve this?

Why are you looking at me like that again? Am I hateful? No...it's you who is hateful.

Because you don’t understand at all.

It is because of you that I have experienced misfortune again.

"You don't understand at all..."

...........................

"That...Ahao."

After some mental preparation, Lu Yunzi finally plucked up the courage to talk to Sun Hao.

"what happened?"

Sun Hao's reaction was quick.

"Well... although it's a bit abrupt, but... that's it... do you have someone you like?" Lu Yunzi realized that this sentence might reveal his feelings, and hurriedly added, "Ah, after all, those girls are very concerned, so they all want me to find out... You see how popular you are... Of course, I care too, you see, we have known each other for such a long time..."

"...Yes, I have."

Sun Hao answered lightly.

"...Yes...Is that so?"

There was a hint of disappointment in her tone.

"I really like the energetic young people in our club, and Sheji and the others... they're all very cute juniors."

This...Did I just waste my feelings?

Lu Yunzi felt his scalp tingling.

"...No, I mean, do you have a crush on any girl?"

Do I have to make it clear...