I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

I always feel like someone is calling me.

Like...remembering that time of her.

Maybe it wasn't a call, but a whisper.

Although it's not very clear...

What’s going on... This is the first time I’ve had this feeling, but it doesn’t feel strange at all, as if I’ve become accustomed to it.

...................

"Ah, I saw Miss Rinsenkawa."

Xiaoye suddenly tapped my shoulder with his hand.

"Oh... really..." I subconsciously looked towards the place where I saw the Rinsen River at that time.

Sure enough, although a lot of time had passed, she was still sitting there, looking into the distance... apparently looking at the scenery.

Wouldn't that cause trouble to the store's business? And how much ice cream did she eat?

"Hey! Miss Rin!"

I greeted her from a distance.

"..."

She looked towards me and didn't react at all.

Seeing this, I ran towards her quickly.

"Why are you still here... Has no one come to see you?"

"..." She didn't answer me immediately, but looked at Xiaoye behind me, and then answered me in a normal tone.

"No...if the wizard who wants to summon the evil god can be considered a human."

...Why do I feel that this sentence is a bit subtle...a bit like an insult.

"So it was Lingcan who came to see you...Where is she?" I looked around but didn't see her.

"Oh, who knows. Maybe he's going to pick someone up like someone else." She looked at the sea in the distance as she spoke.

"...Does she have any friends coming over too?"

It always seems unlikely.

"Didn't I tell you that you don't know?" She looked at me with impatience.

What's going on...

"Huh... Well, let's go back. It's almost noon, and it's time to discuss eating." I felt hungry when I came here.

"Oh, you're really a lowly creature. Is eating the only thing you think about all day long?"

"You have to eat when you are hungry. This is a very normal desire." Did you know that in a survival game, hunger can be a matter of life and death?

"Hmm... desire..."

This meaningful yuq...

Why do you look at Xiaoye behind me when you say this word? When did you develop the habit of selectively ignoring others when they speak?

"Okay, stop thinking about it, it's better to reunite with everyone as soon as possible." And I clearly felt that Xiaoye couldn't get a word in at this time, so I had to turn around and smile at her, indicating that the conversation would end soon and asked her to wait a little longer.

And she smiled and nodded.

"Hmph..." Lin Quanchuan supported his face with one hand and looked at me, his eyes full of dissatisfaction.

"..."

What are you staring at me for?

"Instead of just sitting here idle, you might as well come back with me."

"Huh, forget it." She waved at me, "Just have fun. I'll go back by myself later."

"How long will it take?"

"Well... maybe until dinner time."

"That's definitely not possible, right?" He even pretended to think seriously, but it was obvious that he had never thought about having a good conversation with me from the beginning.

"...Didn't you initiate the event? Why are you so unsociable now?" It seemed like she changed her attitude faster than turning the pages of a book.

"Huh? What did you say?"

"I'm telling you, it was you who was at the event..."

"You got the wrong person? This wasn't initiated by me." If Lin Quanchuan's expression just now was slightly unhappy, now he looked annoyed.

What... I was wondering why she looked so unhappy. So this is what she cares about...

This idiot...

. . . . . . . .

“Sometimes, we are not what we think we are.”

What does this sentence mean?

Looking at Hao who fell into deep thought after saying this, I had some questions in my mind...but I still didn't know how to ask him.

How many times has this happened...Ahao showed this expression.

It's different from the seriousness when writing a script, nor the focus when solving a problem, but... an expression that makes people worry, the kind of expression that makes people feel uneasy.

Was it regret or disappointment? No, it was something deeper... What was it... I never asked him, nor did I want to ask.

Even Li Du, who had been playing with him since elementary school, couldn't explain the reason.

I really can't see through you... Even though I've been paying attention to you since junior high school, but... from that time on, you, who look sunny, always have a gloomy look in your eyes.

You're such a cunning fellow... You're like this, with this expression, yet I just happened to notice you. How can I not pay attention to you?

But even so, I still feel a sense of alienation from you... I don't know if it's intentional... No, it's unintentional after all. I always feel that you are always keeping a distance from the people around you... Not out of disgust, but as if... you are protecting yourself.

why...

"I'm a little hungry."

Sun Hao, who was gazing at the sea, suddenly turned to Lu Yunzi with a light expression. The haze that had just shrouded his face disappeared, as if it had never appeared at all.

"...Then let's go ask Miss Rin what to do."

That's it.

"Ah."

That's fine...

At least you can still smile like this.

....................

"Xiaoye." I turned around and looked at her.

"Eh? Um..."

She seemed to be in a daze just now, so she seemed to be scared by me.

"Ah, sorry."

"It's okay...what's wrong?" She looked at me, then looked at Rinquangawa behind me and smiled at her.

"I'm sorry, but could you help me find Ling Shen? You should still remember her, right?"

"Oh, that's the small, cute girl?" she recalled.

"Hmm...it seems like he's playing with sand sculptures..." Are foreigners really good at playing?

"Oh... okay then."

"After you find her, go straight to where we are. I will go back with Rinquanchuan shortly."

"Well...you guys chat slowly, I'm leaving first."

...Although I feel a little sorry...but I still have to give this guy some advice.

. . . . . . . . . . . . . .

I ordered an ice cream and sat next to the Rinsen River.

"Is this really okay? Let her go back alone."

She wasn't looking at me when she said this.

"If you think it's bad, just stop me."

"Who cares about you..."

“…”

Come to think of it, there's nothing wrong with eating ice cream on an empty stomach.

"Um..." I swallowed my first bite of ice cream. "Actually, in my opinion, you're the one who initiated it. If it was Rin Hanekawa who invited me, I wouldn't have come no matter what. So you shouldn't worry about it."

"...Humph, don't think I'll be happy just by saying that."

Although she said that, her tone was much softer than before... She is really a tsundere.

"I'm not saying this to please you. In fact, I don't have any good feelings towards her."

After all, I don’t really like this kind of scheming girl...or a girl who is too strong, but I just don’t have a good impression of her, I don’t hate her.

"Oh my, it's not nice to say bad things about someone behind their back, right? And you're saying it to that person's sister."

"...Really... I don't think it was a bad thing, I was just telling the truth." I paused, "And I don't think you'll tell her that I said bad things about her in front of you."

"Hmph, although I won't say it... who knows if you've ever said bad things about me like this in front of other people." She paused, "Anyway, you'll definitely say no."

"Yes." I didn't deny it at all.

Then I felt a pain in my arm.

"You really dare to admit it!" she said while pinching me.

Maybe it's because there are too many people, so I feel embarrassed to use other methods... I have become a little more girlish, which is really gratifying.

"Don't get excited. Even though I said it, it's only once."

The only time was during the last... cultural exhibition.

"Ah? Do you think once is too little? Do you need to say it a few more times before you're happy..."

Hey, don't pretend to be calm and increase your strength...

"Miss, can you please let go first..."

"Hmph..." Although she didn't look very happy, she still let go.

"Don't look at me like that... Everyone has flaws, and I already said it wasn't a bad thing."

"Ah? Really? Then go find someone and tell him something similar. I'll pay for his medical expenses."

...It seems she didn't understand. Of course, this kind of talk should be said behind the person's back.

That does sound like a bad thing.

"But...Rin Hanekawa can be irritating sometimes, but I didn't come with you this time to make you unhappy."

"Excuse me, what was your last sentence?"

"...I only said one sentence just now, and there was only one period when it was written on the paper." Your Chinese foundation is so poor, you should find a tutor to review your Chinese as soon as possible.

"That means you can't hear the second half of the sentence."

“....” Even if you act like this, I don’t think it’s cute.

"I say...why do you have such a big problem with her?"

"Oh? You want to know?"

What is this... Do you suddenly want to open your heart?

"Hmm..." I nodded while biting the spoon.

"Just think about it."