I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

"I'm talking about being on stage for yourself! Not for others, not for other people's expectations. Just like falling snowflakes, you don't do it for others' viewing or expectations. You fall because you want to. Just be yourself. Other people's opinions are their business."

I paused, "Of course, you can choose not to go on stage. After all, you have the right to make your own choice."

"........."

She lowered her head and seemed to be really considering giving up.

no way...

"But," I added, "winter is still more beautiful with snow."

I looked at Rinzenkawa, who looked confused.

"Why not be the snowflake that makes the stage more beautiful?"

.......................

"Ah sneeze!"

Because of the stimulation of the cold wind, my nose finally couldn't bear it anymore and I sneezed for the first time on Christmas Eve this year.

Now that I think about it, what I said to Rinsenkawa was somewhat hypocritical... It felt like I was cheating just to complete a mission.

And...Jiayin...

At this moment, I suddenly noticed the vibration of my phone in my pocket.

It's...Yehui calling?!

【True Easter Egg】

"Sheji, how can you leave early?"

After waiting for a while, I finally saw Yehui under the street light after contacting me via mobile phone.

"Ah... because, I'm a little tired..."

I said, pretending to be tired.

"Huh... Well, the government really does have its own way."

Ye Hui spoke to me as if complaining.

"Well... I didn't expect you to ask me something... Is there anything you can't say over the phone?"

As I said this, I looked away, because I was shy because I was alone with Ye Hui and I didn't dare to look at her.

"because..."

I felt like she was getting closer to me, and before I could react, I felt a warm sensation on my neck, which was surprisingly familiar.

"This is..."

I looked at Yehui. She was holding the two ends of a scarf in her hands. After meeting my gaze, she smiled and let go of her hands.

"Happy holidays! This is a gift for you... oh, and this too."

After saying that, he took out a pair of gloves from his schoolbag, pulled my hand over and put it in mine.

"I heard Sheji say he doesn't have any cold-weather gear like a scarf or gloves... He really doesn't take care of himself." She sighed softly, "But now it's all right. I'll give them to you, so make sure you wear them well."

....I...received a gift, a girl's, given to me by Yehui, right here...on Christmas Eve...and so on.

"Did you make this yourself?"

I asked a little excitedly.

"No... I thought about knitting a scarf myself, but time was running out, so I had to choose one for you myself... If I had known you wanted a hand-knitted one, I would have stayed up late..."

"No... no, I'm already very touched..."

I interrupted Ye Hui, "Because I don't usually receive any gifts... and I'm not prepared to return the favor... I..."

"Yo..."

Ye Hui suddenly came over and gave me a hug.

"Hehe, as a return gift, I'll accept your first hug on Christmas Eve."

Ye Hui took two steps back and looked at me with a smile.

Looking at Ye Hui's satisfied expression, I thought of something.

This isn't my first hug on Christmas Eve...

I...

"Hey? Sheji, what's wrong with you? Did I hug you too hard just now? Did you bump into something?"

I shook my head and quickly wiped away the tears in my eyes...but the inexplicable feeling of sadness seemed uncontrollable for the moment.

【End.Title】

Christmas Eve...is not a happy one

Chapter 3 Closing Remarks

Chapter 3 Closing Remarks...I have so much to say, what should I do?

Chapter 3 is finally finished...I can now talk about it properly.

Remember the "Letter from the Old Times" that suddenly appeared?

Before I wrote this, I did organize my bookshelf and did find my old yearbook.

The yearbook that I had forgotten.

The cover was covered with a layer of dust, and as a bit of a germaphobe, I hesitated for a moment whether to open it and take a look.

However, with nothing to do, I still chose to open the yearbook. After seeing those names that were already a little unfamiliar, the memories that I had forgotten vaguely emerged in my mind.

As I was flipping through the pages, I suddenly noticed that one person's message was different from the others.

Most other people left messages like "Forget-me-not", but...the message from that name to me had a different kind of emotion in it.

Trying hard to recall, the owner of this name should be a girl. After a little recollection, I finally found her image in my mind...a simple and quiet girl.

During that time in junior high school, we probably didn't have much contact, and we didn't even talk much...but in this message, he wrote a lot.

"Striving people" and "very passionate"

I felt that words that had nothing to do with me appeared in the comments... It was really unexpected.

The last sentence, "Goodbye, struggling little bird," made my heart tremble.

Hey...what's that?...how can you just give someone a nickname...I haven't agreed yet...I...

Well...it's a cute nickname.

Ha, thinking back to that time... life in the second year of junior high, when the teacher gave up on me because of poor grades and I only drew comics during class time, could it be said that I was struggling? Maybe so, after all, the only thing I never gave up was comics...

We haven't seen each other for several years, and I don't know how she is doing... Anyway, it's really a relief that she didn't waste her time and energy on a guy like me.

I still feel a little disappointed...but it is still a consolation for me...I am not someone who is disliked by everyone.

....................

Now let’s talk about feelings.

Let's talk about the game first...

Because the time when I was born was not very good for my gaming life.

In this era, the once popular arcade games no longer attract people's attention, because computers, although expensive, are gradually becoming popular.

So when the game was divided into console party and PC party, because I was still young, I didn't realize that there were so many details in the game. Now I am only qualified as an entry-level PC player... Well, I don't know very much.

Then, I missed the Age of Exploration and the Stone Age because of my age.

Because of his age, he missed the opportunity to create a legend.

Then because of my age, I was not able to obtain a world like the believers of the Horde and the Alliance.

It seems like I have missed those glorious times in my gaming life.

Well... enough of the small talk...

When I first started playing games, it wasn’t in an arcade, but at home.

At that time, the simple games on the mobile phone were enough to make me unable to sleep or eat. Compared with "Push the Box", I still liked "Snake" more, although I was not very good at it.

However, with the advancement of mobile phones, I actually played my first RPG game in my life on my mobile phone...If Snake can be considered an RPG, then it would be the second one.

It was then that I began to understand that there were "props", "battles", "scenes", "plots" and "enemies" in the game. So when my classmates dragged me to the game hall to play games, I actually found it boring... Maybe it was because the mainstream fighting games at that time did not have plots.

However, fighting is a man's nature, and once you feel the pleasure of defeating others in the game, you can't stop.

So, in the arcade, when I won my first fight in the game King of Fighters, I realized that... compared to chopping monsters and defeating human characters... it feels better to defeat other people.

So...in the arcade filled with all kinds of games, I only play King of Fighters.

However, compared with others, my pocket money is really limited, and because of my parents' discipline, I rarely have the opportunity to go to the game hall. What's more, I am still a primary school kid... My gaming skills are at the bottom, and I can't understand the move list at all. I can only watch the "masters" winning streak crazily, watching silently and envious.

But then I discovered that all those games in the arcade could be played on TV using just a machine...and it seemed there were games that couldn't be played in the arcade.

When I first saw a game console with a controller that could be played on a TV at my classmate's house, I was quite excited.

So every weekend I would go to that guy's house to play games and not think about the game hall anymore.

Later, with the rise of Internet cafes, game halls became less and less common. I was no longer satisfied with playing web games on my computer at home, so I started going to Internet cafes... Was it mainly because I had some spare money?

In fact, before this, I always thought that Internet cafes were really as dirty and messy as the rumors said, and that people robbed people.

I don't know what they've been through, but my impression of internet cafes isn't that bad. And... no one has ever tried to blackmail me. Instead, the people I've met have been quite polite. Am I just lucky?

Compared to the boring computer at home, the variety of games in the Internet cafe really shocked me.

There are so many games... Apart from knowing that computers can play CS and Red Alert, I have never seen so many stand-alone games.

However, compared to stand-alone games, online games were the mainstream at that time, and since I was not very old, of course I followed the mainstream.

So I fell into the trap of online games...and it happened to be a game from a certain company, the mouse's dream or something (funny)...Well, now I think it was really fate.

But...looking at it now, maybe I was born in a good era.

Compared to a decade ago, people have become more familiar with the Internet and no longer regard it as the root of all evil. Games have also developed into an industry, and there are even careers based on games.

Whether it is special effects or soundtracks, the gaming experience is getting better and better.

However, when playing games with people you don’t know, some friction and arguments are inevitable.

I always want to recapture the feeling of playing the Famicom with my friends when I was a kid, and the feeling of playing purely for the sake of completing a level... Unfortunately, it's just wishful thinking.

This is me, a low-level game player's feelings.

Well...it's still not that good after all.

.................

About Animation

It is not an exaggeration to say that I was born during the heyday of Chinese animation.

At that time, I came across a lot of excellent animations.

The producers at that time were very dedicated. Although the themes were almost all for children, it is no wonder that some people complain that Chinese cartoons "are almost all about talking animals preaching morals."

Compared with Japanese comics that were introduced to China at the same time, Chinese comics lack appeal to young people and also lack richer plots.

It seems that due to the influence of Japanese culture, the Chinese comics I watched later almost all followed the Japanese routine. The most common one is that a useless protagonist has a friend who can use all kinds of props... and there are cats and dogs around who can evolve...

The sense of déjà vu is very strong, and from the image point of view, it is already very close to the Japanese image... This is a manifestation of lack of innovation. This is the consequence of following the routine, so regression is normal.

Also...animation is mostly made to sell toys, so I often see some low-quality works on TV...Is that right?

Therefore, whether you put your heart into it or not, and where you put your heart into it are crucial to a work of art.

Chinese animation has entered a period of decline, but no one seems to care too much... After all, most people think that animation and comics are for children.

Now, as the generation that values ​​comics is gradually growing up, Chinese comics have finally received attention, and many good works have been produced.

......But there is always one thing that I can't let go.