I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

But this time should be different from last time. I want to correct... no, to be precise, I want to make up for it.

Make up for your decision.

When faced with a relationship that you can't choose between, why do you choose to give up?

Is it because of habit or some inexplicable fear?

It doesn’t matter what it is!

Now that it has turned out like this, facing this separation, facing a separation where even if we don't say goodbye, we'll never see each other again... let me convey my thoughts to you.

I... don't want to be just an important passer-by in your life... I...

All I could see was her figure.

Whether you are rude or gentle, that is still you, the you that I love...

For no apparent reason, I suddenly fell in love with you. It's really hard to defend against the hidden arrows of that bastard Cupid, but... I don't hate him if it's you.

If I saw you...what would I say?

I was hurt because of you, not physically, but in my heart, it was an arrow wound.

Or...

I think I fell in love with you accidentally. I'm so sorry to bother you. I'm leaving now. Do you want to go with me?

Or...

Please stay, because I can't adapt to school and life without you.

Or... or...

“Hu…ha…”

I stopped because I had arrived at the station.

People come and go.

Looking around, there is no trace of you in this sea of ​​people... But if fate allows, your figure will definitely appear in the random places I look after closing my eyes.

Thinking this way, I closed my eyes and randomly chose a direction in the crowd.

When I opened my eyes again.

What I saw was...

.......................

There was a slight "click" sound as it fell on my forehead, bringing a hint of coolness, and then a gust of cold wind blew past, pulling me back into reality from my daze.

Now...it's still winter after all.

"Hey..."

I smiled self-deprecatingly, blew some hot air onto my almost frozen hands, and placed them on my equally cold ears, finally feeling a little warmth.

[Now, let's move on to the finale of the music club....]

Such announcements seemed to be heard in the distance, along with cheers that were still very enthusiastic.

It was then that I realized it was time to leave the rooftop.

Look around again.

At some point, a thin layer of snow had already covered the ground.

................

I am very happy to be able to perform at this cultural exhibition...

The sound of the speech before the carol program began spread throughout the campus through the speakers.

As I walked towards the playground, I could hear the broadcast more and more clearly.

[Please pay more attention to us and enjoy this valuable cultural exhibition!]

Mo Xiaozhi said this with full energy, the rhythm of the drum set sounded, and the audience began to cheer.

"Ugh..."

I sighed and decided to take a long way to the end of the auditorium.

Because of the obstruction of the buildings, this road is dark... In a sense, it suits my path very well.

The sound of the prelude kept coming to my ears. I was familiar with the tune and was guessing who would sing the first line of lyrics.

At this time, a familiar voice sounded.

...................

When I opened my eyes again, I was once again convinced of the fate between her and me.

She appeared in my sight...

I really have to talk to her... I have to tell her what I want to say, to express what I think in my heart...

If you don't go...

But why are you unwilling to take a step forward?

It was clearly within sight, I should have walked over there, otherwise why would I have rushed over here...

At this moment, she seemed to have noticed something and was looking towards me.

So, my legs, which had been reluctant to move, moved quickly and helped me hide behind the vending machine next to me.

What am I doing!

Didn't I already know this was my last chance?! Why would I run away even at this point...

I pinched the flesh on my thighs hard, but still couldn't bring myself to where she could see me.

Finally, after a long time, I appeared in the crowd again, looked in the direction where she was no longer, and whispered

"Goodbye."

.........................

What came to my ears was the singing of good news:

[The dark clouds of that night hung over my heart]

[It seems like rain is about to fall to soak away the longing that has been buried for a long time]

[Recalling the day we met last year]

[Warm wind lifts up the flying willow catkins]

...................

The noisy sounds disappeared.

Is it because of the melody of the song or the lyrics?

Who knows, anyway...it has resonated with them.

..................

When I looked at the stage from afar, I saw the shining figure as I had hoped.

Rinquanchuan had already changed into his performance clothes and was waiting for his part. Although he concealed it well, his eyes were undoubtedly looking for someone in the audience.

Is it me? Thank you so much.

But...please forgive me for not being able to watch the whole performance of yours.

....................

[If nothing else was said...]

I could hear Rinsenchuan's singing behind me, but since I had already left the school, I couldn't hear it clearly.

"We have to exchange gifts after Christmas Eve, but I haven't prepared anything... Well, I don't think anyone will give me any, so I'd better go home early..."

I muttered to myself, yawned, and headed home.

The snowflakes were still falling, sliding down my unprotected neck and sucking the heat from my body.

This is not comfortable at all...

So I curled my neck up as much as possible to resist the cold wind that blew from time to time.

【True Title】

Thinking of you going away, the willows are swaying

.....................

[Easter eggs?]

"Hey." I looked at Rinsen River, "Why is snow white?"

"Huh?" Rinquanchuan showed a rare puzzled expression on his face. "Are you kidding me?"

"no..."

Who would play the Lu prince's meme at this time...

"I'm asking a serious question, so please answer it seriously."

I added.

"Ah..." She was slightly stunned when she saw how serious I was, but she quickly answered me: "Is it because you forgot the original color?"

"Do not..."

This answer, you really...

"This is someone else's answer. It can't be used as the standard answer." I said to Lin Quanchuan.

"Huh...? Anyway, does this kind of question make sense?"

She seemed a little angry.

"Of course." I smiled. "Then let's change the question. What happens when the snow melts?"

"Of course it's water... This kind of problem..."

She seemed about to complain, but I interrupted her.

"So, what happens to water when it gets cold?"

"Of course it's ice... Could you please stop asking such boring questions?"

Ah...his tone has become murderous...

"Well, okay, I'll reveal the answer now. Why is snow white? Because snow is white..."

"What a joke!"

Suddenly, Rinquanchuan rushed over and without saying a word, he kicked me sideways... It hurts! By the way, you also know this move!

"Wait..." I quickly waved my hand to stop her, "Can you please listen to me first?"

“…” She didn’t answer, but still took a few steps back.

"..." I coughed twice.

"Snow and ice are both essentially water, and their properties are similar: they're both solid and melt when heated... They're like brothers or sisters."

Rinquanchuan seemed to have noticed something and didn't say anything.

"But, if you think about it, snow is even more rare than ice."

"Why?" Rinquanchuan asked.

"Why..." I glanced at Rinquanchuan, who was looking at me with eager eyes.

Oops, this expression is kind of cute...

"Ah..." I came to my senses, "Because snow has its own characteristics. Look carefully at the falling snowflakes. Why are they called snowflakes? Because they each choose their own shape. Ice, on the other hand, doesn't seem to have the same freedom as snow."

"......"

"You said you had no reason to go on stage, right..." I pointed at the Rinsen River, "Aren't you the reason?"

"Ah? What are you talking about..." She seemed to be avoiding something.