There is no cure for love

Song Nianqing is that kind of girl, confident, beautiful, generous and cheerful, with good interpersonal relationships. I have been my classmate in the class for more than two years, and I have always thought she is a very good person.

To be honest, looks are really important sometimes. People with the same personality but different looks are treated differently.

When I found that the diary had been dropped, I panicked. All my worries for the past three years had been written down in it. What if it was picked up by an acquaintance? I dragged Meng Zhirou around to search but to no avail. Finally, I gave up and was in panic all day.

I can't live my life for fear that my notebook will be picked up by someone I know.

The life of a young girl is filled with all her little thoughts. It is her secret world that is never revealed to others.

The notebook fell off for a while, and everything went smoothly. Meng Zhirou comforted me, maybe I didn’t know which garbage dump the notebook had gone to, and no one would pick it up and keep it for reading. Gradually, I began to believe that was the case.

After Lin Heng and Song Nianqing got together, they were much sweeter and more awkward. They had a small quarrel every three days and a big quarrel every five days. Anyway, they just had time to mess around. After every quarrel, Lin Heng always came to ask me, "Hey,

Maureen, you are also a girl. How should I coax her?

My heart bleeds every time, but I still have to endure it, laugh without showing any emotion, look heartless, and ask Lin Heng for advice on how to please the angry Song Nianqing. In the end, they are happily together

, I felt sad on the side. Every time, I never looked back. I don’t know if this kind of feeling can be called love.

Days like this continued until after the college entrance examination, we finally graduated.

On the day I left school, Lin Heng saw that I had too many things and originally wanted to help me move my things, but Song Nianqing called and he forgot about me again. The two of them were playing happily, and I silently moved my things and left the classroom.

.

After all, he belongs to someone else, I know. Since I can't have him, why should I care about him so much.

Happiness and joy are theirs, I have nothing.

Frustrated in love, successful in the examination room, if God takes away some, he will definitely give you some. I got almost the same score as Meng Zhirou, and we were ready to go to the same university together. After the holidays, Lin Heng asked me to hang out several times.

I didn't even go. At that time, I was ready to forget him and start a new life.

It was my nineteenth birthday at the end of July. My father bought me a mobile phone as a gift. The mobile phones at that time were very old and could only be used to make calls and send text messages.

I received a text message from Lin Heng early that morning. He said it very sincerely, "Mo Lin, I always remember that today is your birthday. You are my best buddy. We are about to say goodbye. I don’t know when we will be reunited in the future."

See you, you go to Beicheng to go to school, and Nianqing and I go to Beijing. We are far apart. Let’s come out and get together tonight. I’ll wait for you in the old park to celebrate your birthday! At eight o’clock, see you there or not! If you don’t come, I’ll

I will go to your house to find you!"

I suddenly cried when I saw Lin Heng's text message. I haven't seen him for more than a month. I stop myself from thinking about him every day. I thought I was about to forget him. I thought......... at home

After struggling for a long time, I finally decided to go to the appointment in the evening. He was right, we are separated the day after tomorrow. When can we see each other again?

I kept comforting myself in my heart, Molin, just this time, the last time. Going to see him can be regarded as giving my nineteen-year-old youth a farewell to this love that ended in vain.

I got dressed neatly, even used my mother's cosmetics to put on a little makeup, and went to the appointment with great joy. But I didn't expect that what was waiting for me was a long-planned ridicule.

That evening the sky changed a bit, and it seemed like it was going to rain, but it never stopped. We made an appointment to meet at eight o'clock, and I went there at seven-thirty, sitting on a bench in the park, looking forward to Lin Heng's arrival.

Arrive. Long time no see, I miss you very much.

But what I waited for was not Lin Heng, but Song Nianqing with a mocking smile on her face and several of her friends. Song Nianqing stood in front of me. She was taller than me, and she pressed me back step by step with a domineering look.

She stopped where she didn't pay much attention.

"Are you waiting for Lin Heng? You are really determined to give up, Xu Molin, do you think Lin Heng can like you when you look like this? Do you think she will like you one day if you greet him with kindness and kindness? I don't want to look at you either.

What do you look like! With such a chubby figure, how dare you stand next to Lin Heng? Don’t you know? Every time I see you sitting next to Lin Heng, especially when you are lying on the table sleeping at noon and drooling, I just feel like

I feel like vomiting... Lin Heng laughs at you for being cute. That's because he is kind. Ask other people, who doesn't hate you when they see it? He really takes himself seriously! If I were you

, I have been on a hunger strike to lose weight for a long time, and I am just like a pig, but I still have the nerve to go out."

I didn't expect such vicious words to come from the mouth of the beautiful and generous Song Nianqing. As soon as she opened her mouth, her good friends behind her began to attack me non-stop, with all kinds of abuse and insults. I couldn't live up to expectations.

I cried, all my excuses were stuck in my throat, and I couldn't say a word. Song Nianqing's words kept lingering in my mind, "Don't you know? Lin Heng said it's okay to be ugly, but you're just too fat, hahaha

Haha, do you understand what Lin Heng means? He thinks you are just a fat person!"

What did it feel like at that moment? It was like a thousand arrows piercing my heart. I stood there helplessly, being pressed step by step by them, retreating, retreating. Finally, Song Nianqing pushed me and I fell to the ground.

Looking at me condescendingly, everyone moved as fast as possible and kept scolding me. All kinds of harsh words came out of their beautiful mouths.

There was only one girl. She stood aside and said nothing, but she cast a pitiful look at me. Judging from her age, she was a few years younger than us. When she was leaving, I heard Song Nianqing calling her sister. That little girl was the one I later accompanied Meng Zhi.

The private detective Rou went to meet was Qiao Chen. However, she no longer recognized me, she just felt like she had seen me somewhere.

But I remember her deeply.

I don't remember how long they scolded me, every second was so long. When we were leaving, Song Nianqing kicked me, leaving the mark of her high heels on my white pants.

"She's still putting on makeup. Look, she's so embarrassed to go out." She couldn't stop laughing, and the people behind her started cheering. Song Nianqing said, "Xu Molin, do you know why Lin Heng doesn't like you?" Song Nianqing opened the door.

Bao, smashed the diary in my face.

It turns out that the diary I lost was with her.

I stared at her blankly, with tears in my eyes. Song Nianqing's proud look will always be engraved in my mind.

"Because you are ugly."

This scene often appeared in my dreams in the days to come.

"Do you know why Lin Heng doesn't like you? Because you are ugly." Every time, I wake up with a start, then hug myself and cry loudly. Because I know that no one will see me cry, and I can ignore my image.

Later that day, it started to rain lightly, and I walked all the way back. It was already past eleven o'clock. In order to take care of me while I was in high school, my mother rented a small apartment in Nan County. The family lived in the city, and they were just waiting for the house to arrive.

When she returns to Nanzhen in the future, she will go back occasionally and take care of her hometown.

I was in a trance all the way, and all Song Nianqing's words flashed through my mind, just like replaying movie clips, constantly replaying them.

My pitiful self-esteem was trampled and trampled under Song Nianqing's feet, and the last wall in my heart collapsed. I stood on the roadside, looking at the fat on my body, feeling sick, my stomach twitching, and I couldn't bear it.

Unable to stop, he hugged a tree trunk and vomited wildly on the roadside.

When I got home, another tragedy was waiting for me.

My dad likes to play cards. He drinks after playing cards. After drinking too much, he doesn’t know what he did. He even brought his card friends home. When the two of them were rolling on the bed, they were hit by my mother who came back from Nanzhen.

It was all right, but the problem was that in the midst of their passion, the two of them on the bed didn't notice that my mother had come home and indulged in sex.

My mother has mild schizophrenia. At certain times, she has no ability to think. Without saying anything, she went directly to the kitchen, took a kitchen knife to the bedroom, and slashed the adulterer and adulterer with several knives. The woman's breasts

My mother cut off a piece of flesh and hung it with the skin, and it was bloody. As for my father, he was slashed several times on his arm, and each cut was very deep. There was blood all over the sheets and quilt, and after it was dried, it was in pieces.

Dark red.

My mother got sick and became crazy and no one could do anything about it. My father was so anxious that he dragged the woman and ran outside. My mother chased her out with a knife. When the neighbors saw her, they called the police.

When I went home, the police happened to come to my house to take my mother away, and then took my father and the woman to the hospital. I stood there sadly, watching the car go further and further away, and finally realized that I had to go

The police station visited my mother.

Sure enough, misfortunes never come alone.

The sudden family change stabbed me hard in the heart, and I had no time to buffer.

My mother was exempted from criminal responsibility because she had schizophrenia, and had to be sent to a mental hospital. Because she hurt my father, and my father was unwilling to pay for her to be admitted to the county hospital, so he had to send her to Nanjing Hospital.

The town’s mental hospital is a dirty and shabby place.

On the day my mother was sent to the mental hospital, I also went there. There were iron gates in the corridor. The nurse said they were to prevent them from escaping. There were also guardrails on the balcony. When I stood below, I could hear people wailing above.

Two hands were grabbing at the guardrail, as if they were trying to pull it apart. I couldn't tell what the whimpering sounds were, but I felt filled with sadness.

The indifferent expression on the nurse's face, the patient's wailing, and the dull eyes made me frightened. I watched my mother being sent to the ward. There was an old man with gray hair living in a small room, huddled in the ward.

In the corner, there is a man with messy hair and alert eyes. The clothes on his body are dirty and have not been washed for an unknown period of time.

Looking at her, I suddenly envisioned my mother's life in the future, but I was powerless.

My dad said, Lin Lin, don’t blame me. If it weren’t for your mother being mentally ill and unable to divorce, I would have divorced her long ago. You are still young and don’t understand adult matters. When you get married in the future, you will divorce her.

Understood.

This incident spread throughout Nanzhen and even Nanxian County. During that time, I stayed at home and overeated. I ate ten times as much food as a normal person every day. My weight increased in a straight line. In less than a month,

I gained almost 30 kilograms of meat. I stayed at home every day and didn’t see anyone, including Meng Zhirou.

Even though rumors were spreading, my dad and that woman were still entangled and even came to the house. When I thought about my poor mother suffering in a mental hospital, there was a devil in my heart driving me to go to the kitchen to get a kitchen knife. I am timid and always

It's a mental struggle.

Until one day before school started, my dad brought that woman home. Both of them drank a little wine and made all kinds of sexual noises in the bedroom. I couldn't bear it anymore, so I came out of my room and silently went to the kitchen to find a kitchen knife.

The moment I held the cold kitchen knife, I suddenly understood my mother's emotions at that time.

She must be desperate, otherwise she wouldn't be so decisive.

The moment I kicked open the bedroom door, the couple finally stopped their disgusting mating activities. I rushed up with a kitchen knife. My dad reacted quickly and grabbed my hand, but he was very thin and only 100 years old.

Twenty kilograms. I weighed one hundred and fifty kilograms at that time. Even if he was a man, he couldn't stop my crazy moves. I took the kitchen knife and chopped wildly. After all, I didn't chop anyone else. The woman's clothes were all covered with it.

She ran away before she could put on her clothes, and yelled, "Old Xu, your daughter is also a lunatic, a lunatic! Just like your worthless wife, she should be sent to a mental hospital as soon as possible!"