There is no cure for love

After breakfast, Lin Heng went to bed at home, took his computer to his room to write the manuscript for tonight's broadcast, checked letters from readers, and selected the appropriate ones for tonight's broadcast.

I am a radio host. I host a late-night emotional column to help listeners with emotional problems. In fact, my role is to listen to them and provide comfort. It’s funny to say that I have heard many people’s stories.

Many people have solved their doubts, but they have reached a dead end when it comes to dealing with their own emotional problems.

Maybe this is the so-called "authorities are obsessed with it, but bystanders are clear".

My work and rest schedule is different from that of ordinary people. I work at night and sleep during the day. Except for special circumstances, I always rest during the day. On the contrary to Zhirou and Lu Yun, I have very free time during the day. Apart from reading manuscripts, I just sleep.

Now there is one more thing, serving Lin Heng.

He can't cook, wash clothes, or do housework. Before he finds a job, I need to take care of his food, drink, and toilet, just like before.

When I went to work in the evening, Lin Heng finally woke up, rubbed his eyes, looked at me, and asked me where I was going. I said lightly, "You are really sleepy. Of course I have to go to work. You can order takeout for dinner."

I get off work very late, don't wait for me."

Lin Heng nodded.

In fact, where was he waiting for me? When I came back from get off work, he was still playing games in the living room with his computer, like a child who would never grow up. I put the packed midnight snack into a bowl and brought it to him. "What job are you looking for?"

Lin Heng picked it up and answered me casually while eating, "I'll go out tomorrow and have a look. I'd better do what I'm good at. I don't know about the others."

What he is good at? He is good at playing games, eating, drinking and having fun. Oh, I forgot, his major is civil engineering. I said with a smile, "Are you going to move bricks?"

He grinned and said, "How can I? I plan to work in sales. I have already found a job. You don't have to worry. I submitted my resume. I will reply to my email in the afternoon and ask me to go to work on Monday."

"You move so fast." It seemed that he had been prepared early in the morning and had already submitted his resume before coming to see me last night.

Watching Lin Heng devouring his food, I really wanted to ask him, "Why did you come back to me?"

There was never any question.

After eating, he packed up, sat on the sofa, and poured me a glass of water. "Mauren, we are good buddies, so I won't stop here. I will stay with you for a while until I find a place to live."

Just move away." Lin Heng looked at me with a playful smile, "You are alone anyway..."

It's okay that he didn't say the last word, but when he said the last word, my heart dropped...

But he didn't seem to react at all and looked at me with a smile. I nodded and calmly went back to the house to sleep.

A person hugged the quilt and cried loudly, but could not make a sound.

The long night is long, and the past is sweeping in.

The year I met Lin Heng, I was sixteen years old. It was the age when you have a lot of worries and thin clothes. On the first day of school, I didn’t ask my mother to send me to school. I had already agreed with Meng Zhirou not to ask adults

After sending her to school, she went to find the registration area. I guarded their luggage at the school gate and waited for her to come back.

It was unbearably hot in Nanxian County in early September. At that time, I was still a chubby girl. I was 1.57 meters tall and weighed 135 pounds. To describe me as chubby is not an exaggeration at all. When I was studying

, I really like snacks. My dad would give me five yuan every time before he went to play cards. In a small place like Nanzhen, in those days, a child could have five yuan and eat from the street to the end of the street.

At that time, Meng Zhirou and I were the best. Every day after class, I would drag her through the long streets and go to the alley to eat fried potatoes and a lot of junk food. Zhirou didn’t like to eat, so every time

They all gave me food, and gradually, my body became more and more round.

No matter how fat I am, my family and friends will never say that I am fat. They think that being able to eat is a blessing.

But that year, I met Lin Heng. He was holding a basketball and carrying a backpack. He walked past me with his mother. His mother stopped and asked me where I was registered. I hesitated and said, "have no idea."

Lin Heng smiled politely at me, showing his white teeth. For the first time, I truly understood what the textbook said about bright eyes and white teeth. He was changing his voice at that time, and his voice was not very nice, but his smile had conquered the world. Got me.

Many years later, I still remember Lin Heng saying, "Classmate, thank you!"

From the first moment I saw Lin Heng, I fell in love with him. It is no exaggeration to say that, unless you don’t believe in love at first sight.

My young heart beat for the opposite sex for the first time.

I fell in love with a boy whose name I didn't know or whose class I was in. It was a secret, and I didn't even tell my best friend Meng Zhirou.

At the age of sixteen, I had the troubles of youth.

Later, although we were on the same campus, I never saw Lin Heng again. Our school was very big, and I even wondered if Lin Heng had transferred to another school. For a while, I kept wandering around the campus, dragging Meng Heng with me. Zhirou was wandering around with nothing to do, and she was known as someone who "digested" after meals. In fact, I was looking for Lin Heng.

Two people who are not destined to meet can never meet on the same campus.

After a long time, when I almost forgot about Lin Heng, Lin Heng suddenly transferred to our class because the senior high school art students were divided into different classes, and I saw him again.

When I saw Lin Heng again, he had grown a lot taller and his voice had changed, which was as pleasing to the eye as his appearance. He stood on the podium to introduce himself, the sun was bright and cheerful, and every smile touched my heart. I sat in the crowd and looked at him with admiration.

The moment our eyes met, I saw him smiling at me.

Then, he pointed to the empty space next to me and said, "Teacher, can I do it there?"

In this way, Lin Heng and I became tablemates. Under the bright sunshine, Lin Heng slowly walked towards me, sat next to me, and smiled at me. At that moment, I thought he remembered me.

But later, I discovered that I was wrong. Lin Heng was not smiling at me and sitting with me, but it was also because the beauty Song Nianqing was sitting behind me. And my wishful thinking created the consequences for the next twelve years. love.

Lin Heng put down his schoolbag and smiled at me. He was the same as when I met him at the beginning of school two years ago. He had bright eyes and white teeth, and he was an adolescent boy. He exuded a unique smell that attracted my eyes.

He is the kind of boy with a very outgoing personality who can get along with everyone. He is not like other classmates who look at me with colored glasses and think I am not good-looking and fat. At that time, I lived cautiously because He has an appearance that is not even ordinary, and a chubby figure.

I think the reason why my love for Lin Heng has lasted for so many years has a lot to do with his unique friendliness towards me.

In class, apart from Meng Zhirou, I only interact with Lin Heng. Zhirou worked very hard in high school, and due to her personality, she is not willing to go out crazy with us. Lin Heng and I are always together. Come on. He stayed up all night, went skating at the roller rink, or went to the sports center to watch him play. Lin Heng and I became good friends and were almost inseparable. He told me everything, never hid it from me, and even asked me to help him with many things. make a decision.

Lin Heng said, Mo Lin, I really can’t live without you in my life.

I thought that as long as it lasted long enough, Lin Heng would definitely like me. I was confident that all I needed was time.

Until one day after class, Lin Heng was lying on the table feeling depressed. As a deskmate, I showed friendly concern, and he shook his head dejectedly. After the class bell rang, he couldn't hold it in anymore and wrote me a small note.

"Hey, brother, I've fallen in love with a girl, how can I pursue her?"

Holding the note in my hand, I was so flustered that I felt like I was about to jump out of my throat. Do you know? At that moment, I thought Lin Heng liked me.

I replied to his note carefully, "If you love, you have to be brave enough to say it."

As a result, just after class, Lin Heng turned his back and said to Song Nianqing, who was sitting behind us, "Song Nianqing, I have something to tell you."

As soon as Lin Heng finished speaking, I almost lost my footing and fell. Song Nianqing looked at Lin Heng with a smile, "Go on, I'll give you thirty seconds."

Then, without thinking, Lin Heng stepped forward, grabbed Song Nianqing, grabbed the back of her head and kissed her across the table, "I want to say that I have liked you for a long time, so just follow me!"

The next second, the whole classroom was boiling.

In this way, Lin Heng conquered the class beauty Song Nianqing, and his feat became a legend on campus. The two of them also became a beautiful scenery on campus.

Meng Zhirou is probably the only one who knows my loss. Meng Zhirou said, Mo Lin, keep your admiration in mind. Once your secret love is revealed, it will become a tragedy.

Many late nights, when I couldn't sleep, I always thought about Lin Heng and Song Nianqing being together, crying silently in the quilt. No matter how sad I was, I had to force myself to face Lin Heng with a smile the next day.

Meng Zhirou is right. If I say it, it will really become a tragedy and I won't even be a friend.

I wrote all my caution and all my admiration in my diary.

Lin Heng spent his weekends without my company. He was accompanied by the beautiful Song Nianqing. Meng Zhirou and I were together, and she was the only one who never left me.

Our classroom is on the third floor. Every time I stand on the balcony and watch Lin Heng playing basketball in the afternoon, holding a basketball in one hand and wiping sweat with the other as he passes under the camphor tree. The white jersey looks particularly good on him.

I thought that my secret love for Lin Heng would become a lifelong secret. Maybe one day I would forget him and I would meet a better person. He would only exist forever in my youth and be a secret that I cannot tell.

But I didn't expect that my diary would accidentally fall into Song Nianqing's hands.