There is no cure for love

When I received the text message from Lin Heng, I was sucking hard from a can of Coke at the class reunion. I kept one ear open to listen to the greetings of a group of classmates I hadn’t seen for many years. Maybe it was because they drank too much alcohol.

When I was in college, I talked about working, graduating, getting married and having children, and I still couldn't stop talking about it. Being unemployed and single at home, I couldn't even say a word. I could only sit on the side quietly sucking a Coke, thinking about when I would be able to do it again.

Put an end to this extremely boring party.

"Hey, Maureen, why don't you speak?" A female voice suddenly remembered in my ear. I looked at the other person's face and scanned all the names I could remember in my mind, but I still couldn't remember who the owner of this voice was.

God is my witness. I didn't mean it.

"Haha. I don't even know what to say. I can't get in touch with what you are saying." As soon as I finished speaking, the girl said without mercy, "You are still alone, right?" Her tone was full of emotion.

Surprised. After hearing this, I could only laugh dryly. She probably also saw my embarrassment and said, "You are the only one who has not changed in these years. It doesn't matter, good things are worth waiting for."

These words simply left me speechless. Indeed, I have never been in a relationship at the age of thirty. Either I have a hidden illness or have been hurt. When I was thinking about how to answer the call, the phone I had been holding in my hand showed that there was

new message.

"Mauren, I'm outside your door. Go home and open the door."

Although there is no note, the series of numbers is already familiar to me.

Lin Heng.

I picked up my bag and stood up to say goodbye to everyone. In the taxi, I kept reminding myself, Maureen, you must not make the same mistake again. But I forgot to ask myself why I didn't even hesitate for a second when I received the text message.

I secretly laughed at myself, Maureen, it has been twelve years and you are still the same and have not made any progress. It is all your fault.

The plan couldn't keep up with the changes, and Lin Heng's actions were never what I expected. When I got home, he had fallen asleep leaning on the door panel. He still had the same fresh crew cut as before, his expression was full of tiredness, and the collar of his shirt was a little wrinkled. I

I glanced at the cigarette butts at his feet, there were nine of them. I didn’t wake him up. I sat next to him and looked at him for a long time, sighing. I knew that my newly made determination had collapsed the moment I saw him. It always happened.

I pride myself on being calm, but I have no idea when it comes to love.

Meng Zhirou said, I deserve it.

Lu Yun also taught me more than once, Mo Lin, you are just seeking death!

Now I think so too.

I smoked one of his cigarettes and lit it, and the sound of the lighter woke him up. His big and bright eyes stared at me as I finished smoking, without moving away. I think he was waiting for me.

He opened his mouth, either asking questions or comforting me. But I knew very well that unless Song Nianqing broke up, he would never appear in this embarrassed state in front of me.

And comfort, I can never give it.

I don't speak, but I know everything.

I stood up and opened the door, then found the dusty cup and the tea leaves pressed in the locker to make tea for him. All my actions fell in his eyes.

When I handed the cup to him, he suddenly called me, but couldn't say the rest of the sentence. I met his eyes and said, "Lin Heng, don't say anything. The pajamas are in the cabinet, but the aftershave lotion

I have thrown away the cleansing balm and will buy it tomorrow." Without waiting for him to speak, I turned around and went to the study to send an email to Zhirou.

I was smoking while writing an email, and my words were incoherent. I thought there were no words to express the mixed feelings and helplessness I felt at the moment. I wrote long paragraphs without clear meaning, and finally deleted them one by one, leaving only one sentence. "Zhirou, Lin

Heng is back." I thought Zhirou could understand what I didn't say. I remembered what she said in high school, Mo Lin, you have fallen into the hands of this kid in your life. I have already foreseen your doom. So insightful.

if.

Lin Heng was always smart and knew that they could not communicate with each other in this situation, so he shut up perversely and found some honey in the kitchen to drink with water.

I once thought that he would never appear in my living room again. However, things are unpredictable and no one can predict what will happen tomorrow.

Early the next morning, Meng Zhirou and Lu Yun rushed to knock on my door. When Lin Heng saw me brushing my teeth with a toothbrush, he consciously ran to open the door. I heard him say hello to them both, "Good morning."

", the next second, Lu Yun's fairy-like face appeared in front of me, and Meng Zhirou followed her.

Lu Yun has always had a hot temper, and she scolded Lin Heng, "Am I familiar with you? Who are you!" She was trying to defend me. In July, Lin Heng left without saying goodbye. I looked sad Lu Yun

I must remember it deeply.

Lin Heng was yelled back by Lu Yun, so he shut up angrily and went to the living room alone.

I smiled at Lu Yun, and she gave me a stern look and said, "You're a worthless guy!" After that, she went to my room to rest.

"She didn't sleep well last night and had an endocrine disorder." Meng Zhirou looked at me with a smile, a look of helplessness on her face. I brushed my teeth and smiled silly at her, thanking her for not giving Lin Heng a look, which made my heart skip a beat.

My heart dropped in the air. I know Lu Yun has a bad temper, but she is different.

"What should I say to you? Why are you so unimproved?" Zhirou came closer and said softly, "I think it's better to go out and talk. I'll keep you safe here. Lu Yun will whip him later."

I thought so. I quickly packed myself up and took Zhirou and Lu Yun out. We didn’t talk the whole way. Zhirou was so worried that she couldn’t hold it in anymore. She shook off my hand holding her and said, “Tell me.

.”

"I didn't expect you to come so early. To be honest, Chen Jinting made so much breakfast for you, and he was so strong that he almost removed the door panel of my house." I joked to warm up, and looked at Lu Yun, "And you, you have been so angry all morning.

big."

Zhirou was okay and didn't say anything, but that girl Lu Yun didn't accept this. She said to me very seriously, "You'd better give me a reasonable explanation." I took her arm and shook her in a coquettish way.

Like this, Zhirou laughed at me, and Lu Yun pushed me away mercilessly, "Mo Lin, just pretend to be my grandson. You, you'd better pretend to have no hesitation. The day last night was difficult, just say

It was extremely difficult for you to say the words, so go back and count them, you f***ing wrote just a few words for an hour and a half."

I glared at Zhirou, and she quickly responded, "I'll forward the email to Lu Yun."

I knew this was the case, otherwise I wouldn't have come to my house with Lu Yun.

"You two, please stop criticizing me. It's so early in the morning. I know you feel sorry for me, but after all these years, you also know it. What can I do?" I said aggrievedly.

Lu Yun was furious after hearing what I said. She said, "You look so worthless. You are thirty years old, dear. Are all the men in the world dead and only Lin Heng is the only one left? Or what? You are thirty years old?"

You *** haven't had a formal relationship yet. Looking at your useless and useless look, I really want to pretend that I don't know you." Lu Yun spoke very fast, like a sweeping machine gun.

All my worries were swept away in an instant.

"Zhirou, please tell me about him," I looked at Zhirou pleadingly and said with a pitiful look, "I think you should be able to understand me. We have been together since childhood."

Zhirou shook her head and sighed, "I can't do anything to you. I can't persuade you, so I have to find Lu Yun."

Lu Yun looked at me angrily, with words written on her face, "A boy cannot be taught!"

"Zhirou, do you dislike me? In fact, I also dislike myself. I have repeatedly brought trouble on myself and still don't repent. You are right, I deserve it. But what can I do? I have loved him for twelve years, isn't it?

For twelve days, you can say you don’t love me if you don’t love me. Oh, actually sometimes I feel like I’m really a bitch.”

Seeing how self-deprecating I was, Lu Yun turned around and hugged my shoulders. Lu Yun softened her tone and said softly, "Mo Lin, I just can't stand you torturing yourself like this. Last time he didn't say a word.

You haven't learned your lesson by leaving. Think about the mess you made yourself into that night. Maureen, I've known you for 10 years, and you devoted all your joys, sorrows, and joys to this man. Maureen,

Do you think it’s worth it? Have you ever thought about what he thinks of you?”

I listened quietly to Lu Yun's questioning, but I didn't even have an answer to tell myself what Lin Heng thought of me.

"Lu Yun, I also thought about giving up. But my heart is still towards him. I asked myself why I should choose. When we have a goal, we don't actually need to choose. When I saw him slumped

When I fell asleep at the door of my house, I knew that I would be entangled with him for the rest of my life. I had fallen into a pit. Maybe it was like what Zhirou said, and I would be beyond redemption." My voice gradually faded.

Go down.

Finally, they and I went to the supermarket together to buy Lin Heng aftershave lotion and cleansing balm. We had breakfast together while passing by the old alley, and packed soy milk and fried dough sticks for Lin Heng. They also asked the boss to never add sugar to the soy milk. Lin Heng

Heng never likes sweets.

I heard Lu Yun whisper to Zhirou, "This girl is hopeless. I don't know what else that heartless guy will do. I saw his face that needed a beating this morning and I couldn't help it.

..."

"Forget it, don't make it difficult for Mo Lin. You know, if you can give up after all these years, why have you delayed it until today?"

They were both persuaded by me after all. When they were leaving, Zhirou ran over and gave me a hug. She said, "Mauren, don't always be so submissive. Be brave. Love sometimes needs to be fought for."

Fight for it? In this secret love, I have always been the passive one. Besides being submissive, what else would I do? I don’t know.

The morning wind was very cold, so I tightened my arms, pushed my messed up hair back, and walked back. Lin Heng was still waiting for me at home.

The last time Lin Heng came to my place was in March, when spring was blooming in Beicheng.

I met him outside the bar in the middle of the night. He was so drunk that he couldn't even stand up. He took my hand and said, "Nian Qing, let's go home." I paused when I heard the name, and finally

I took him back to my house anyway.

However, from that day on, he began to live in the living room, and we lived like lovers, but we were not lovers.

One night, we were watching a movie on the sofa, and he said, "Mauren, why do I think of you every time I feel sad?" I pretended not to hear and stared at the TV intently. God knows what was going on in my heart at that time.

Just how majestic it is.

I once thought that one day he would know how good I am. I am not afraid of the long days to come. I have been waiting for twelve years, so what should I be afraid of? However, four months later, Lin Heng still left. I saw a gift for him on the coffee table.

His spare key was pressed against a piece of paper, on which he said handsomely and powerfully, "Mo Lin, I left, and Nian Qing came to find me. I know that I can never let go of her. I'm sorry. Thank you for accompanying me these days. -

————Lin Heng today”.

I sat on the sofa and watched the wontons I packed for him steaming and then cooling down little by little.

Just like my heart, it cools down little by little.

The next day, I threw away everything related to Lin Heng. Except for his cup and pajamas, I packed them all at the bottom of the box.

Maybe one day I will be able to understand my stupidity.

Those days were spent in darkness. Except for going to work every day, I would hide at home alone and not go anywhere. When Zinrou and Lu Yun came, I didn't see her either. She was in a trance and looked slovenly all day long.

Zhirou and Chen Jinting were newly married. They went back to their hometown to see Chen Jinting's mother and entrusted me to Lu Yun. Lu Yun finally couldn't stand it anymore. One day, she found a locksmith and threatened that someone in the house would commit suicide. If he didn't open the door, someone would die. The locksmith was a

An honest and responsible person, after hearing Lu Yun's words, she trembled and opened the door.

After the door opened, Lu Yun rushed into the room, grabbed me sleeping on the bed, and slapped me hard twice. I didn't cry, but she cried first.

"Why do you have such little success? Aren't you just a man? I'm really disappointed in you! You can't live without him? Have you forgotten what you said at the beginning? After all the hard work, you are still the same today.

Son, Maureen, you are so useless!"

Lu Yun's two slaps woke me up from being drunk and sad, and I began to resume my normal life. Zhirou said, Mo Lin, it's not like I can't live without someone in my life.

I thought Lin Heng would just disappear from my life.

But last night, he came back to look for me again. I found myself very spineless. One text message from him shook all my determination. Do you think I am being a bitch?

But there is a saying that if loving someone is a bitch, then the whole world is a bitch.