1960s: The crazy life after the alchemy furnace became a spirit

Chapter 71 I can’t bear it anymore

"Well, I can live in the army."

Qin Haonan saw that Gu Qingwu seemed to really plan to go back to her hometown, so he quickly spoke up and said, "Just kidding, what if Gu Qingwu goes back to her hometown and can't come back?"
It's not that Gu Qingwu doesn't want him anymore. He is worried that Gu Qingwu will be sold by her grandparents and uncle and aunt in her hometown. Don't say they can't do such a thing. They can definitely do such a thing. Since it is not safe for Gu Qingwu to go back alone, it is better for him to live with the army first. Gu Qingwu's safety can be guaranteed, and he can also watch Gu Qingwu from afar.

He was worried that Gu Qingwu would leave this time and not come back. Not to mention that they had gotten married and obtained a marriage certificate, he always had a feeling that if Gu Qingwu really planned to leave, he would seem unable to find her back. He didn't know why he had such a feeling, but he didn't want any accidents to happen between them, not even the slightest bit.

"you……?"

Seeing Qin Haonan's worried and uneasy eyes, Gu Qingwu didn't know what to say for a moment.

The marriage between them was not so pure in itself. Qin Haonan insisted on marrying her at the beginning, but the feelings between them were only from their childhood. After growing up, they had no chance to meet each other. Both the original owner and Qin Haonan's impression of each other remained in their childhood. They hadn't seen each other for several years. Gu Qingwu actually didn't believe how deep Qin Haonan's feelings for her were.

He insisted on marrying her, probably mostly to protect her, but Gu Qingwu also vaguely sensed the problems between them. These problems were not small problems, but rather quite serious ones.

This was also the reason why she said she didn't want to get married, but now that Qin Haonan was like this, Gu Qingwu felt a little strange.

The relationship between them has eased a lot, but there is still not much progress in their feelings. She is not sure what kind of existence she holds in Qin Haonan's heart, but she knows that in her heart, she is the most important. The relationship between her and Qin Haonan is at most a partnership. As for more, Gu Qingwu has not discovered it yet. She also knows that she is actually a bit cruel, but she doesn't trust everyone so much.

"Qingqing, I know I took it for granted this time. I will never do this again."

Qin Haonan saw the hesitation on Gu Qingwu's face and spoke quickly.

"I was wrong, I know I was wrong."

He took it for granted. He had realized his mistake and would not make the same mistake again. However, Gu Qingwu seemed to want to distance herself from him, which made him unacceptable. The relationship between them had made such a small progress with great difficulty, and now all their efforts had turned to ashes. How could Qin Haonan not be worried?

"Qin Haonan, our marriage has had problems since the beginning. We don't know much about each other. We spent the most time together when we were kids. We haven't had any contact with each other in the past few years of growing up."

Gu Qingwu looked at Qin Haonan and said in a deep voice.

"When you married me, you wanted to use me as a shield."

Gu Qingwu continued, and Qin Haonan wanted to refute, but when he opened his mouth, he found that he seemed to be unable to find any reason to refute.

"Maybe you have the intention to repay a favor, but you are more looking for an excuse, or even a free babysitter. You may have some feelings for me, but these feelings are not enough to support you to marry me. You marry me more for yourself." Gu Qingwu said with a smile. When she said this, the mocking look on the corner of her mouth was undisguised.

"Don't say you don't have anything. You really just want to marry me. Is it a simple man to be able to climb to his current position in just a few years in the army?"

Gu Qingwu smiled and said that she didn't say it before, not because she didn't know, but because she was too lazy to care. As long as Qin Haonan didn't do anything to hurt her and didn't force her to do things according to his requirements, she could pretend that she knew nothing. But not saying it didn't mean that she really knew nothing.

"sorry."

Qin Haonan smiled bitterly. He found that he seemed to have no words to defend himself except to apologize. He realized now that Gu Qingwu was smarter than he thought. At the beginning, he did have the idea of ​​using Gu Qingwu as a shield. After all, few of those women who approached him deliberately liked him. They either wanted to marry him to support their families, or wanted to use his potential to climb up and use him as a springboard. He knew all this, and it was because he knew this that he always used the fact that he had a fiancée as an excuse.

"Okay, Qin Haonan, stop talking. I want to go back to my hometown for a while. I'm not just talking."

Gu Qingwu thought about staying in the army, but if she stayed, she would still have to meet Qin Haonan. It would be better for her to go back to her hometown directly. Fortunately, the old Gu family is now bustling with activity. She didn't know what would happen after seeing her. As for whether they would attack her, hehe, they would only attack her if she gave them a chance. If she didn't give them a chance, they would have no chance at all.

"Qingqing, I'm sorry. I did have impure thoughts at the beginning, but after being with you for such a long time, my feelings for you are real, without any adulteration."

Qin Haonan explained again that he was worried that if he didn't explain it clearly this time, he would never have the chance to explain it clearly in the future.

"Qin Haonan, we are equal. I have never put myself in a position lower than you, but you have never been able to accept me like this."

Gu Qingwu smiled and said, even though Qin Haonan was nice to her, this kind of kindness had a sense of confinement and even a hint of training. She didn't want to care about it, but that didn't mean she didn't know.

Qin Haonan looked at Gu Qingwu. At this moment, he clearly realized how smart Gu Qingwu was, and even how patient she was.

They have been together for so many days, but he has never noticed that Gu Qingwu is dissatisfied with him. He thought that since they are married, they are one and he can do whatever he wants without any scruples. But Gu Qingwu taught him a lesson today. Even after marriage, they can still be separated. Gu Qingwu is not the women he knows, but what should he do if his feelings for her have deepened?
He felt like he had a masochistic tendency. Otherwise, why did he like Gu Qingwu more and more after she treated him like this?

Gu Qingwu didn't know what Qin Haonan was thinking. If she knew, she would definitely laugh at him and like her even more. Haha, wasn't it because he was attracted by her beauty and because he saw that she was smart and felt that she could be used?

People, no matter when, must clearly understand their own position. When they have no ability, they can endure. When they have the ability, they can live the life they want. This is life.

　PS: I have caught up with today’s update. I had stomach pain in the middle of the night yesterday and went to the hospital for a check-up today. The remaining tests will have to be done on Monday. Fortunately, it did not affect today’s update. I ask for your support, my dears!
　　(End of this chapter)