From the end of the world

Chapter 319: Silver Moon on the Water

The friend I knew... was just an illusion?
"Do you think that if you suddenly say something as ridiculous as this... I will believe it?" I asked.

"Why, your intuition doesn't work here? I've already told you the answer. Isn't it ridiculous? You just need to think about it a little more and you'll understand." The child-like "Chang'an" said with a smile, "Perhaps in your opinion, the personality of 'Zhu Chang'an' existed first, and the memory of 'Yin Yue' emerged from her personality without any warning one day... But that's the wrong order.

"As early as the moment Chang'an was born, my memory existed in his instinct and unconsciousness in the form of blood inheritance. It was actually me who appeared first. But Chang'an, who was still a child at the time, could not bear all of me, so out of compromise, I could only show a part of myself in him. I didn't even know who I was, as if I had a blank consciousness.

"It was not until his developmental stage reached puberty when secondary sexual characteristics appeared that I finally recognized my true self. At the same time, more inherited memories revived from my consciousness, and my power began to emerge. The Zhu family called it 'the blood of the monster is out of control', which is a huge misunderstanding. It was a natural growth. Although I was sealed afterwards, I did not disappear. I just lurked back into the realm of instinct and unconsciousness.

"Since you have learned about mysticism, you should have some knowledge of psychology that borders on mysticism. The relationship between the surface consciousness and the unconscious is like the relationship between the surface of the water and the water. The latter is the real subject of consciousness.

"The personality of Zhu Changan is like a shallow dream I had... Once I am deleted, Changan will no longer have any reason to exist. How can there be a 'water surface' that can still exist without 'water'? If you delete it forcefully, all that will be left is a blank personality.

"This personality can continue to grow in the future, and you can also give yourself the name 'Zhu Chang'an', but that will definitely no longer be the Chang'an you know."

——What he said is true.

Although I can question him like a nitpicker, my heart has already given the answer.

"Even if this is true... so what?" I said without hesitation, "If Chang'an is just an illusion, I just need to find a way to make it real. Since there are monsters like you in this world who can turn illusions into reality, then Chang'an is not completely hopeless."

After saying this, I realized that this seemingly extraordinary answer was probably also expected by the other party.

"Chang'an" - Yin Yue's position is to survive, not to seek death, so the most important thing to do is not to tell me that Chang'an is beyond saving, but to find ways to bind herself to Chang'an's life and death, and at the same time tell me that Chang'an can be saved.

He didn't tell me that directly, but instead used a provocative approach.

"Yes, you would probably say that. Because you and Ying Lingyun are very similar, neither of you would give up easily on such a thing." "Chang'an" smiled, "My father, my son, my lover... He also likes to hold on to that non-existent illusion. How naive and cute.

"If I had met you as a child first, I might have killed your parents first, just like I killed his parents in secret, and then brought you home as a foster mother, and then made you fall in love with me."

"Don't confuse me with Ying Lingyun."

As I responded, I was thinking about how to break this situation. Unfortunately, it was easy for me to kill Yin Yue now, but I was powerless to save Chang'an. Even if I became the Great Impermanence, my power was only specialized in destruction, not protection and salvation. Even if I understood all the functions of the fake water moon, I couldn't use it on Yin Yue, the source of power.

But I can control Yin Yue first, and then slowly work on it. Even if I can't save Chang'an, there will be others who can. For example, Fa Zheng, since he wants to win over my hegemony camp, it is necessary to show corresponding sincerity. He is a very experienced Da Wu Chang, even if he does not have that kind of professional counterpart ability, he may know who can do it. Let him find a way for me is one of the directions.

Although controlling Yin Yue for a long time is not an easy task, since I was able to capture her alive before, there is no reason why I cannot capture her again if she wants to escape again. The worst that can happen is that I can keep burning her soul with flames to keep her in an unable to wake up state for a long time - suddenly, a question came to my mind.

Capturing Yin Yue alive is not only my goal, but also the goal of the Navy Master Xuan Wu. Even I think it is not easy to control Yin Yue for a long time, so why does the Navy Master Xuan Wu think he can do it?
He is at the same level as Yin Yue in her prime, and Yin Yue can exert her prime power in the area of ​​Yueyin Mountain. Even if he can destroy Yin Yue with one blow of the "Golden Pill", there is no reason why he can capture her alive with his own strength. Apart from anything else, even if he really captures Yin Yue alive by miracle, as long as the latter slightly modifies history, all his efforts will be wasted.

"How can they not be confused? In the final analysis, all you want is someone who is convenient for you." "Chang'an" continued, "Although you have shown an attitude of never abandoning your friend Chang'an, do you really care about him that much?
"No, you only care about yourself. After I said that Chang'an's personality was just an illusion I created, you were neither sad nor angry, but quickly calmed down and thought about how to solve this problem..." I agree that you have extraordinary mental strength, but is this really a manifestation of deep friendship? It was the same in the past. When you realized that you had really come into contact with the strange world, you immediately decided to cut ties with Chang'an. In your opinion, friends are far less important than adventure. When you abandon your friends for adventure, you won't shed even a tear for it.

"It is the same now. If Chang'an is the princess who was kidnapped by the evil dragon, then you, the hero, are not here to fight the dragon in order to save the princess, but you are here to save the princess in order to fight the dragon. The friend in danger is secondary, the danger itself is what you really pursue. You just really like the 'character image of someone who never leaves his friends' and are keen to put yourself in the role.

"You have never even thought about the possibility of fighting alongside him. Maybe you think this is all for his safety, but if the positions were reversed and he said this to you, would you be willing to accept it? Is this how you respect your friend by putting something that you yourself find unacceptable on him?

"Chang'an is my side profile. What I am telling you now is what my son is thinking. And what I am going to say next is what he wants to ask you.

"——Am I, your friend, really that important to you?"

For some reason, "Chang'an" seems to want to dig into my inner self and torture my sincerity.

"I admit that Chang'an - or friends - are not the most important in my heart." I said, "So what? If you don't put friends above everything else, are they no longer friends?

"I was anxious for Chang'an to be involved in danger, and I tried every means to save him; at the same time, I was also excited to be able to participate in my friend's danger, and wanted to overcome this danger as a challenger. Is it true that only the latter is my true emotion, and the former is a false emotion?

"Both sides reflect my true emotions. Don't try to deceive me with your sophistry, Yin Yue. Besides, what I'm saying now can also be applied to you."

Changan asked back: "Me?"

"I am a person who only thinks about myself, but even I would not want to make friends with a bad person like me, and Chang'an is a good person who is different from me. His nature is to think more about others, so I want to make friends with him." I said, "He is definitely not the kind of person who would bury himself in his own sorrow when his friends are doing their best to save him.

"Perhaps I really disillusioned him, and he was really sad about my occasional coldness, but that was not all his emotions. If it was Chang An himself who came to complain to me, that would be another matter. What qualifications do you have to complain to me? Take the simplest piece of evidence for example. If he gave up on me so easily, would you have needed to find ways to kill me in the past?
"Stop quoting my friend's thoughts out of context. My friend is not that weak!"

I let my words ring loud and clear, and Chang'an listened and said reflexively: "——Is there any need to say more?"

After he finished speaking, he was stunned for a moment, then shook his head and said with a smile: "It seems that my soul has been seriously hurt by you. My consciousness is still a little unclear. Even a dream I had can affect me in turn..."

How could Yin Yue be affected?
I immediately had a further idea.

"With your power, you should be able to separate Chang'an and make him continue to exist as a personality independent of you." I still set my sights on Yin Yue. "As long as you accomplish this and swear not to attack anyone around me again, I can spare your life."

Changan said without hesitation: "That's impossible."

"Why? Although Chang'an is just a dream you wove, it will still hinder your spiritual perfection. If you can cut it off from the outside, wouldn't it be a good thing for you?" I asked, "Or... do you really want to die?"

"If I really did that, I would be of no use to you. More importantly, if I could really do that, I would have already separated him out or deleted him directly," he said.

(End of this chapter)