From the end of the world

Chapter 318 Dreamy Chang'an
The psychological pressure on the person concerned is very different between chasing a goal that clearly exists and chasing a goal whose existence is unknown. The former only tests perseverance, while the latter tests much more.

I once told Zhu Shi that if I didn't have super powers, I might not be able to persist in investigating strange events until now. Although Zhu Shi said that even if I didn't have super powers, I would definitely continue to pursue without any changes, but that is ultimately a hypothetical narrative. Just like I would think about whether I can do it, others would definitely doubt whether I can do it. Just like Chang'an now.

He had indeed woken up. However, he had not woken up from this dream, but from the false fantasies that had accumulated in his heart in the past. He seemed to have become disillusioned with me.

"Of course, I know exactly what you'll think after hearing what I said," he said. "You'll think I'm a weird person, right? Everything is just my own expectations and my own feelings of betrayal. I'm just a ridiculous clown. But ah..."

As he spoke, Xiao Chang'an's voice became extremely melancholy, like a child who could no longer grow up and was unwilling to face the reality even though he could no longer fantasize.

He is too ashamed to face Mr. Zhu and Zhu Shi. He is treated as consumables and tools by his father Ying Lingyun and his mother Yin Yue. Even friendship has become dim in his heart. There is no shining thing in the real world that can help him out of the darkness.

It seemed as if he could no longer maintain that heartless smile.

"So what? Are you saying that because I've disappointed you, I can't attract you back to the real world?" I asked.

"You go back...Zhuang Cheng."

This time he called me by my full name and closed his eyes as if resigned to his fate: “Thank you for spending so much energy to save me, but it’s no use anymore. Let me die here and be completely swallowed by the silver moon. I don’t want to think about anything anymore.”

"Are you not going to struggle anymore? Do you want to let the evil man-eating monster continue to invade your body and mind?" I asked.

"Give up on me." His voice was full of fatigue.

Seeing his unruly appearance, all the things I had seen and heard in my previous dreams flashed through my mind, and then I made a judgment.

“——You are not Chang’an,” I said.

"What?" He opened his eyes.

"You've shown your true colors, Yinyue... My friend is not as fragile as you appear." I said, "I've always been confused as to why there is so much information in the dream that Chang'an shouldn't know. This is probably because of your power.

"Since ancient times, dreams have been regarded as an extremely mysterious realm. Some people believe that dreams can provide clues to the past and the future, and there is even a saying that dreams can predict the future. Someone once told me that human consciousness can transcend time and space. The reason why divination can collect information about the past and the future is that it utilizes the innate transcendental attribute of consciousness. It's just that humans are limited by their own shackles and cannot fully exert their capabilities.

"But Yin Yue, you are different. As a being outside of the human world, you are not bound by the inherent limitations of humans, so you can even use your own abilities to modify history as you please. It is not a problem for you to peek into the history that Chang'an has never witnessed but actually happened around him.

"If you think about it carefully, you will understand that you and Chang'an are now inseparable. In a sense, you mistakenly think that you are Yinyue's Chang'an, or you can say that you are Yinyue with Chang'an's memories. Therefore, in the spiritual world, it is impossible for only Chang'an to appear without you - unless you are interacting with me in the image of Chang'an."

Xiao Changan said: "Still saying these meaningless words... Can't you accept that I am disillusioned with you?"

"More importantly... Yin Yue, just like humans cannot truly understand your thoughts, you cannot truly understand human thoughts." I went on to myself, "Perhaps you think Chang'an regards me as an idol, and once humans become disillusioned with idols, they will naturally be extremely disappointed with them, and wish to abandon their past idol-loving selves... But the relationship between Chang'an and I is not that of idol and fan, we are friends." Even if the initial opportunity to get to know each other was due to misunderstanding, we have already experienced so many things together. The feelings accumulated in the meantime, at this point, cannot be simply cut off by saying "it's all a misunderstanding."

"You just want me to give up saving Chang'an."

Little Changan frowned.

"Even if things are really as you said..." he said, "If I am really Silver Moon, why did I show you so many of my past troubles before? A lot of them are irrelevant to the main topic you think they are?"

"Because your soul was severely damaged by me." I said, "My flame can distinguish between friend and foe, and it is impossible to destroy the Chang'an part. Therefore, when I severely damaged you before, it was most likely that I only caused great damage to your Silver Moon component.

"Plus, your soul was already conflicted because you couldn't digest Chang'an's memories. The severe damage made it impossible for you to suppress Chang'an's self-awareness for a while. It was not until halfway through that your self-awareness finally took the lead again and began to try to seduce me - am I right?"

Xiao Changan was silent at first, then he sighed and said, “——It seems that your wisdom has increased a lot since you became the Great Impermanence.

"No, this is not wisdom, but intuition... Although your reasoning does not exceed your existing knowledge, the reason why you can come to the conclusion so quickly is that you have grasped the truth with intuition from the beginning, and then reversed the process.

"In that case, it will be useless for me to criticize your reasoning."

He seemed to have given up on refuting, but did not change into Silver Moon's appearance.

"Are you still not going to change back to your original appearance? Do you want to continue to use my friend's childhood face to seduce my mind, or is it because of the severe damage to your soul that you can't even change yourself back in the spiritual world?"

As I spoke, I summoned a fireball. "No matter what, you have nowhere to escape, Yinyue. All I have to do now is burn all your spiritual components in Chang'an, and you will be finished."

"You can indeed do this now, but you are not the kind of person who would say so much nonsense before taking action, right?" He looked at me coldly, "In fact, you also understand that if you eliminate me, my son will also cease to exist."

After he revealed my true feelings, I had no choice but to stop.

"Let me tell you the truth, Zhuang Cheng."

Yin Yue used Chang'an's face to reveal an extremely malicious smile.

"——The personality of 'Zhu Chang'an' was just a lie I made up from the very beginning. It was just an 'illusion'."

(End of this chapter)