From the end of the world

Chapter 320 Return to reality
If we look back and rethink the attitude of "Chang'an", we can taste some discordant flavors.

From the perspective of Yin Yue, he only needed to make me think that "If you want to save Chang'an, you can't destroy Yin Yue". However, he said some unnecessary words to me, as if trying to deny my friendship with Chang'an.

This approach is not good for him. The more I care about Chang'an, the better it is for him. It can be seen that although he is expressing Chang'an's inner thoughts out of context, he is also driven to a certain extent by his own out-of-context emotions and wants to question my friendship with Chang'an. Is it because he actually has other deep meanings, or is it that the burns I have caused to Yin Yue's soul are really that serious, so he has such an inconsistent attitude?
"What do you mean you can't delete Chang'an's memory?" I asked.

"Because this is a very important memory, I can't delete it." "Chang'an" actually said this.

"In your eyes...in the eyes of a monster like you who has lived for who knows how many centuries, the less than twenty years of my life as Chang'an...are extremely precious?"

When I said this, even I found it unbelievable.

"Don't get me wrong. The emotional exchanges between you humans are worthless to me. What I value is 'my own' memory." "Chang'an" said, "I have investigated the historical records of Yueyin Mountain and saw all the battles between you and the navy Xuanwu. I never thought that you would actually be an innate spirit, and that innate spirits actually exist...

"The true spirit, dreams, reincarnation, and apparitions... these legendary realms are all more or less related to 'self-verification'. Although your apparition is not a true apparition in the traditional sense, you should have had some simple insights into your own state.

"My body has been destroyed, and my soul no longer exists. So where is I? And apart from me, what else in this world can be trusted?"

"I see... I understand what you mean." I seemed to understand what he really wanted to say. "You are a demon who can turn illusions into reality... In other words, you have the power to treat the real world as an illusion and modify it at will. So from your point of view, everything in this world is fleeting, and only the self is real..."

Changan said in a deep voice: "I was not able to turn illusions into reality from the beginning. When I was weak, I only had the power to create illusions.

"Later, I challenged myself to prove my true spirit, and gradually realized the meaning of form and formlessness. Only then did I evolve the ability to create illusions into the ability to turn illusions into reality.

"Then, I realized that the world we live in is nothing but a big dream, matter is nothing but illusion, and only our own consciousness is real... No, even our self is likely to be a false thing..."

As he spoke, he actually revealed a hint of fear.

I couldn't understand his words. During the period when I lost my body and soul, my most profound realization was that "the self is self-evident". Although there is no way to prove its existence, there is nothing more credible than the existence of the self. This principle applies not only to me and Yin Yue, but also to everyone in this world. But he said that even the self cannot be trusted, what does that mean?
"...In short, I can accept the demise of my life. Depending on the circumstances, I can even accept the demise of myself, but..." "Chang'an" took a deep breath.

"That's not right." I questioned, "I heard from Ancient Moon God that your most fundamental wish is the most basic desire of a living being, which is survival, or the continuation of the self... and you said you can accept the extinction of the self?"

"So Gu Yue can't become my retribution body. The most basic desire of a living thing is to survive? She is not even a living thing, but just a phenomenon, a spirit of faith, so she misunderstands what the most basic desire of a living thing is." He sneered, "My most fundamental wish is indeed my most basic desire as a living thing, but that desire is not to survive, but to reproduce.

"In order to pass on their genetic genes, some males will feed themselves to females, and some will die voluntarily when they age to free up resources for the young. When a creature has completed its mission of reproduction, its survival is no longer truly necessary for the group.

"For me, the so-called 'reproduction' does not mean passing on my genetic genes, which are just fleeting material things. What I want to pass on is the spiritual things I have accumulated, that is, my memories.

"So I will never allow the memories I have accumulated to be lost, and I will not take the initiative to delete them. Even 'I' may be fake, and only memories can become the 'genetic factor' that symbolizes me."

The falsehood of the self that he talked about did not sound like he was referring to the fact that the real Yin Yue had died long ago and that he was just another Yin Yue, but rather some more fundamental fear - this seemed to be related to what he called the "way of self-certification of the true spirit."

Just as I was about to ask further questions, suddenly, the scene around me changed, and an unknown force was pouring in from the edge of my vision.

I reflexively thought that "Chang'an" was manipulating the dream, trying to do something to help himself out of the predicament while using words to attract my attention. However, without even a close look, I realized that the truth was definitely not like that. Because the unknown power that suddenly appeared was obviously not something that Yin Yue could exert.

What emerged from all directions was gray fog.

Just like the dry ice gas sprayed out from a stage device, gray mist emerged from all directions, surrounding me and "Chang'an".

This is the gray mist of the virtual world!
Even "Chang'an" himself showed surprise, and then said thoughtfully: "...Is it him? He is unwilling to let me go even after this..."

The gray mist seemed to be trying to drive me out of this dream. The power of the virtual world would not appear for no reason. Most likely, Ying Lingyun used the power of the fragments of the divine seal externally to invade this dream through some path.

But... this doesn't make sense. Why would the power of Ying Lingyun's divine seal fragment appear at this moment?

If he had a way to directly transfer the power of the God Seal fragments to Yin Yue's spiritual world from the outside, it meant that Yin Yue had never escaped from his palm from the beginning. Although it was unclear to what extent he could use the power of the God Seal fragments, it would not take too much effort to catch Yin Yue just because there was a gray mist that was enough to seal all supernatural powers.

Judging from the fact that the Navy Xuanwu could accurately find Yueyin Mountain, Ying Lingyun must be able to grasp Yinyue's whereabouts through his understanding of her. So he might not even need to hire the Navy Xuanwu, he could capture Yinyue alive. Although combined with his past deeds, it is hard to believe that he really has the ability to manipulate the gray mist at will.

Regardless of that, could it be that Ying Lingyun took advantage of my invasion of Yin Yue's spiritual world to do something to Yin Yue from the outside? I immediately went to observe the outside world, but it seemed that I was affected by the gray mist and I couldn't successfully connect to the flames and heat from the outside world.

At the same time, I immediately used all my strength to cast fire, trying to dispel the gray mist around me. The sea of ​​fire roared and swallowed up the dark area, and entangled with the gray mist. In the flames, the gray mist that could seal the power of supernatural powers actually paused for a second or two, and then the flames were still unable to resist and were completely extinguished in the gray mist.

Even with the power of the Great Impermanence Realm, he was still helpless in the face of the gray mist power of the Divine Seal.

The gray fog gradually blocked my vision.

And in the end, "Chang'an" spoke to me.

"Ah Cheng, as you said before, my complaints about you are only a small part of my feelings." He said, "But on the other hand, those complaints are also my real troubles.

"Although you only occupy a small part of my heart, it's like if I can't kill you, my spirit as Yin Yue can't be complete. Facing such a behemoth as Yin Yue, any crack as thin as a hair on my side as Chang An will be magnified ten thousand times and turned into an insurmountable chasm.

"So, Ah Cheng...

"After this, I will work harder to make Yin Yue, that damn fox, unhappy. You must remember to help your brother!"

Chang'an's embarrassing voice came through the gray mist. I was sure that it was either Yin Yue or Chang'an. I was stunned for a moment, and then I responded loudly: "Is there any need to say that?"

Changan seemed to smile.

Then, the gray mist completely engulfed me.
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When I opened my eyes again, the scene had changed back to the messy top of Yueyin Mountain. I don't know when Silver Moon disappeared from my sight, leaving me alone on the mountain.

Where did Yin Yue go?

It was impossible for her to leave on her own, which means someone took her away.

How could this be possible? Although I had just focused all my attention on Yin Yue's spiritual world, with my current intuition and perception, if someone took advantage of this time to get close to Yin Yue, even if they were inside the spiritual world, I should be able to detect the abnormal changes in the outside world.

Let alone Ying Lingyun himself, even if there was another Yin Yue in his prime, he would never be able to steal someone away from under my nose. How on earth could such a thing be done...

Calm down first, it's not time to give up yet.

There should still be some heat from me left in Yin Yue's body.

I closed my eyes and carefully felt the thermal mark I left inside the other person's body.

(End of this chapter)