I am a god in the secret world

The doctor prescribed some medicine for Bai Tao, mainly sleeping pills, because she hadn't had a good rest for a long time.

Her parents must have been whispering for a long time at the door. When they saw her come out, they looked at her with an unpleasant expression, but didn't say anything.

Bai Tao fell into a deep sleep soon after taking the medicine, but her sleep was very restless and full of nightmares. However, due to the effect of the medicine, she could not wake up at all and could only struggle in the nightmares over and over again.

The parents began to become cautious, as if they had realized their own problem.

But they would still subconsciously mix in some unpleasant words in their words, so Bai Tao would still be emotional.

After all this, the whole family was exhausted.

Bai Tao picked up the mirror, but the self in the mirror was so ugly that she couldn't say those three words.

No matter how many times she opened her mouth, the three words "the best" seemed to be blocked by a stone.

So she gave up.

[Flower of Lies progress 20%...]

Bai Tao had her period and it was very painful. She had to take two whole tablets of painkillers.

Despite this, she still curled up on the bed, pale as a bee, shaking in pain, and almost fainting.

Her mother came in at this time, and seeing her like this, she said, "Are you on your period? I'll get you a hot water bottle. You can eat a mango first. Mangoes are very precious. We usually don't want to buy them, so I bought two just for you. Would you like to try them?"

Bai Tao looked at her weakly.

"Do you know that eating mangoes will make menstrual cramps worse for someone like me? You know, because you also have menstrual cramps."

The mother's expression changed for a moment, and then she said awkwardly: "I am doing this for your own good. Who knew it would coincide with your menstrual period? Then wait until you are well before eating."

Bai Tao closed her eyes. She really didn't have the energy to argue.

"It will take seven or eight days for me to recover. The mangoes are about to go bad. You guys can eat them."

"How can that be possible? This is specially bought for you. It's very expensive. Your father and I can't bear to eat it. We wouldn't buy it if it wasn't for you!"

Bai Tao covered herself with a quilt.

The mother left mumbling something and soon came back with a hot water bottle.

"Warm it up, it will be better. Alas, I was the same as you before I got married. I felt much better after I had a child."

Bai Tao didn't want to pay attention to her.

What's getting better? She saw it when she was little. Every time her mother had her menstrual period, she was in so much pain that she couldn't walk.

"I'll make you some brown sugar ginger tea. You usually eat too little. Eat more."

Did she not want to eat? Every time at the dinner table, they would always say something unpleasant, so that when she grew up and was alone, if she didn't want to eat for the sake of survival, she would not want to eat at all, because eating was not a pleasant thing.

After a few days passed, Bai Tao actually felt a little better.

It is still helpful to see a doctor.

When she came back from her follow-up visit, she saw her mother crying.

When her mother saw her, she rushed over and hugged her, crying out of breath.

"Your father is with another woman, what should I do! How could he do that to me..."

Bai Tao was stunned for a moment, then hurried to comfort her.

"Are you mistaken? My dad is old, isn't he an honest man?" "What do you mean by honest? He just doesn't come home lately. He's been out drinking and partying with a bunch of bad friends every day, and he's chatting up a woman! It's not like he hasn't done this before, you know that!"

Bai Tao did know that when she was young, her father had once had ambiguous conversations with his classmates, but it was only ambiguous and did not go further. At that time, her mother cried and wanted a divorce, and Bai Tao told her mother very seriously that if her mother wanted to leave, she would choose to follow her mother because it was her father's fault.

After she finished speaking, her parents reconciled and her mother forgave her father.

She was too young at that time, she was only five years old, and she didn't feel anything. She just thought it would be good if they could reconcile.

Looking back now, Bai Tao was very angry.

"How dare he do that? You work so hard every day to earn money and do housework. You do everything, but he does nothing every day and even cheats on me!"

"I'll go talk to him!"

Bai Tao sent a message to her father, condemning his behavior and saying that she would take her mother away when his house was completed.

My father came back with a guilty look on his face, and my mother was very angry and ignored him.

Bai Tao didn't want to pay attention to him, but the next day, they reconciled.

The mother secretly came to Bai Tao and said, "How could you talk to your father like that? He even said he would take me away and not raise me anymore. Your father was very sad. He cried to me all night last night."

Bai Tao looked at her in silence.

"I told you that when I scolded him, didn't you agree?"

"How could I agree? I was crying at that time and I didn't care about all that!" The mother raised her voice but quickly lowered it again.

"Blame me. I said too much to you. There was nothing wrong between your dad and that woman. They were just a little ambiguous. Now that he's back, that's all. Don't say that again in the future!"

Bai Tao nodded and said no more.

Look, she's meddling in other people's business again.

She didn't know when it started, but maybe since the first time her mother cried in front of her when she was a child, she had an idea.

She wanted her mother to live a happy life, didn't want her to cry all the time, and didn't want her to sacrifice herself all the time.

But the mother would say over and over again that she was willing, but she would also cry over and over again, saying that her life was difficult.

So she lived with full of guilt.

Bai Tao was sitting in the room and found a butterfly that had flown in from outside and landed on the window.

It was a red butterfly, very rare.

Bai Tao walked over and looked at the butterfly seriously, more chaotic thoughts coming to her mind.

The mother said that her grandparents were not good to her, and her father was not good to her either, but it was because of Bai Tao that she did not divorce.

She thought, it was her fault and she had to save her.

Bai Tao closed her eyes in pain.

She looked inside the room anxiously, trying to find something to comfort herself. Her sight fell on the cheap mirror, and the doctor's words echoed in her mind.

"Your parents' words are always in PUA. You know PUA, right? They belittle you and make you have a low self-awareness in order to control you. There are many kinds of PUA, but the essence is the same. They will always blackmail you morally because they are afraid that you will lose control and then they will lose the right to control others. People who have held power for a long time will be afraid when they lose their rights."

"Remember, you don't owe anyone anything. They chose to give birth to you, and they have the obligation to raise you well. It's their fault that you have become what you are now. You don't owe them anything. On the contrary, you owe yourself too much because of them. You should be the one to compensate them."

Bai Tao stood up and picked up the mirror.