"So I become anxious and worried, sensitive and suspicious, with a hideous face and hysterics. Why does she always have eyes for other people? Why is she chatting with others when she is with me? Am I just a tool for her to entertain herself, just the most insignificant part of her life? Does she really like me?"
"On the one hand, I sincerely hope she can live a happy life. I am proud of her excellence and happy for her. But on the other hand, I am deeply afraid that she will be so outstanding that I can't catch up even if I flatter her. I am afraid that she will leave me because of this. This twisted, inferior, and jealous mentality is inevitable."
"After all, if I'm the only one harboring such complicated emotions and such twisted worries, how can I prove that she loves me as much as I do? Was the 'lifelong' promise we made when we established our relationship just a childish joke?"
Matsueda Azusa shrugged. "Neither she nor I, nor ourselves, had yet reached a state of understanding at that time. It's just like the vast sky outside the window at dusk, where it's hard to tell day from night. Even when we think we understand, it's still changing colors every hour and every minute."
"Perhaps at the moment she made the promise, she didn't think she had told a huge lie."
"But, if I like someone but can't accept the way they like me, doesn't that just mean that the person she likes isn't the real me, but rather a fictional existence that she calls me?"
"To rashly fall in love with a fake existence, to rashly agree to date them, to rashly make promises, and then to easily walk away when you realize it's not what you wanted... I absolutely cannot forgive such a person."
"But after the anger subsided, I thought about it carefully...even I couldn't escape such a mistake. So love is a mistake, and childish and immature love is the mistake of mistakes."
Matsueda Azusa concluded: "Since we know that we will lose something one day, and since every relationship will end one day, we should work hard to not lose the things we truly care about. What we lose may be more important than what we gain."
"That's why I'm establishing this club—for couples who would be torn apart by me, they wouldn't be able to stay together forever. Even if they were forced together, they would never be happy. And for those who won't be torn apart by me... I wish them the best."
Hikigaya Hachiman was surprised.
Songzhi Zi, are you the one who protected everyone? You are so gentle.
Although what Matsueda experienced was completely different from his, the emotions that arose from it were similar - there was an inexplicable feeling of seeking resonance.
Only when the heart is deeply wounded, unable to forget, with painful memories, and angrily admonishing oneself not to make the same mistake a second time, can we truly grow. Only when we are hurt, belittled, and insulted can we grow.
Hey! Wait... Stop trying to sympathize with others! You're so self-conscious! Hikigaya clenched his fists. "Don't be so self-righteous. People can't understand each other!"
"Snapped!"
Yanaijian slammed the drink bottle on the table, stunned: "Minister Matsueda...you are a yandere!"
"puff!"
Wen Shui and Yan couldn't hold back and spit out the drink in their mouths: "Ahem..."
"No, this is totally yandere, right?!"
Yanami emphasized again, hitting the nail on the head, "Although this kind of feeling is understandable, the reason for your breakup is that you haven't learned the proper way to love, right?"
The classic is about people who have never been in love and are full of confidence.
It was also given to Lao Ba to command.
Songzhi Zi glanced at her and said, "You don't need to learn to love. It's an innate instinct, closely tied to human nature. What you need to learn is how to conceal love, how to wear away love, how to turn love into not love—that's what you call the proper way to love. The attempt to possess is itself the most intuitive expression of love."
"A very simple example."
Azusa Matsueda took out a pair of plain glasses from his pocket and put them on himself. His eyes were sharp. He pushed his glasses with one hand and pointed at Yanami with the other. "When Kusuke and Hana are together, you will feel pain and sadness because you like him, right?"
"What if it's the other way around? If you were with another boy, would Hakamada Sosuke have any reaction to it?"
wrong!
A strange light flashed in Hikigaya Hachiman's DHA-rich eyes—Matsueda Azusa was changing the subject! This was completely different!
But Yanami was still misled by Matsueda Azusa.
She scratched her cheek blankly and thought subconsciously: "Should... should it be?"
"That means he actually likes you too. He chooses to be with Himimiya Karen while liking you. Isn't that obvious? This guy is a complete jerk!"
Songzhi Zi showed a matter-of-fact expression, spread his hands, and said in a sinister tone: "Of course, this also shows that you are not as important to him as Hua Lian. On a darker note, he is sure that you will not leave him, but Hua Lian might. So he chose to take Hua Lian first. This way, even if Hua Lian leaves him, he still has you as a backup. He has the best of both worlds!"
"Kusuke is not that kind of person!"
Yanami slammed the table hard, making a loud noise.
"it is good."
Songzhi Zi readily agreed, "Then he is not that kind of person. So even if you are with someone else, he doesn't care at all. This shows that he doesn't like you."
"what?"
Yana's anger was instantly dispelled, and she stared at Matsueda Azusa in astonishment and confusion, "He... Kusuke... how could he not like me..."
"Accept reality. There are only two possibilities before you. Corporal Yanai, wake up."
Songzhi Zi jumped off the table and held up two fingers: "Either he likes you, but he's a scumbag. Or he's not a scumbag, but he doesn't like you at all. Well, choose one?"
Hikigaya showed a look of pity and said, "Stop teasing fools, Minister!"
But he wouldn't open his mouth to remind me anyway. What does this have to do with him? The current charge should explode!
Yanami was caught in self-confusion.
But she soon figured it out.
"No, neither of them!"
She spoke righteously, her eyes firm: "It's not Kusuke's fault, he must have been bewitched by that busty devil! It's all her fault! Buchuu, you're right, this kind of love is wrong, I must correct them!"
"6."
The dog licker is really awesome.
Songzhi Zi gave a thumbs up.
"We can't go on like this. We have to act now! Save Kusuke!"
Yanai clenched his fists and grabbed Onomizu Kazuhiko, "There's no time to lose! Onomizu members, fulfill your club duties immediately!"
"??"
Wen Shui and Yan Yan looked bewildered——
No, how did he suddenly get brought back to the club activities...
That's not right. Matsueda Azusa didn't even mention his past relationship history! Why did the topic suddenly veer off to this?
Am I the only one who discovered this? Onmizu Kazuhiko was greatly surprised.
5. Ku Lai Xi Ku didn’t disband, it’s just that no one came
Starting from the western horizon, the orange-red sunset gradually spreads, like a flame burning in the sky.
The outline of the city becomes soft in this soft light, and the glass curtain walls of high-rise buildings reflect the afterglow of the setting sun, which is a little dazzling in a trance.
After taking the subway for nearly an hour, Matsueda Azusa rushed from Chiba to Ikebukuro.
Dusk is burning out its last warmth, and the color of the distant sky is gradually changing from orange-red to deep purple.
The soft brown hair fluttered gently in the evening breeze - an uninvited guest randomly appeared at the door of RING.
The blue-green eyes instantly caught sight of Matsueda Azusa in the crowd.
Matsueda Azusa didn't stop walking. He waved at the other person and raised an eyebrow. "Hey, SOYO? What a coincidence... Are you here to support my CRYCHIC's first stage performance?"
He emphasized the word "my".
Having successfully established a club today and recruited several capable subordinates, Matsueda Azusa was in a pretty good mood.
He was even willing to take the initiative to say hello to Nagasaki Suyo.
The smile on Nagasaki Motoyo's face collapsed for a moment.
But she quickly adjusted her expression and said in her standard gentle voice: "CRYCHIC... It's not Zi's, it's everyone's, right?"
SOYO, every time I try to show you a little respect, you speak up.
"Where are we?"
Songzhi Zi's smile faded, and he stopped walking. His tone was cold: "I don't quite understand what you mean. Are you talking about that "everyone" who casually abandoned everyone?"
"That's not true! Xiaoxiang must have her own reasons!"
Nagasaki Suyo clenched her right arm tightly with her left hand. "Besides... Azusa is also involved in that matter, right? If Azusa goes to apologize to Xiaoxiang... maybe, no, definitely - CRYCHIC will be able to..."
"She is your fold? You are so protective of her."
Out of friendship with their former teammates, Matsueda Azusa reluctantly held her temper, frowning and glancing at her watch. "Just so you know, she dumped me, not me. If she left the group because of me, she should have let me quit instead of leaving for no apparent reason."
Nagasaki Suyo seemed to want to explain, but Matsueda Azusa did not give her a chance to speak.
"I admit that I did make some mistakes that cannot be ignored, and I have long been mentally prepared to take full responsibility and withdraw from CRYCHIC."
Azusa Matsueda pushed the door open and walked into the ring. "You know it well, Soyo. If she were here, even without me, Crychic would never have reached that point. But she chose to quit without a second thought."
Nagasaki Suyo hurriedly caught up to Matsueda Azusa and reached out to grab his arm. "Don't you have any attachment to CRYCHIC? Don't you care about the time we spent together in the past?"
"If I don't have any attachment, why would I continue to insist on CRYCHIC? Even if you are gone, I will still keep it going."
Matsueda Azusa frowned. "After all, after Fengchuan left, it was you who insisted on bringing everyone back. And it was you who gave up this incomplete CRYCHIC because she couldn't come back..."
"I don't!"
Nagasaki Suyo retorted.
Matsueda Azusa pried her hand away from her arm and said, "Then you should have appeared on the stage with us today. That was the spot that should have been yours, but you gave it up yourself."
"..."
She couldn't answer.
Xiangzi is now missing and cannot even be contacted. How can she have the mind to prepare for the live?
She didn't dare look directly into Songzhi Zi's eyes.
"Obviously..."
Nagasaki Suyo murmured softly, "Back then, CRYCHIC was as united as they could be..."
"Unity? Is that true?"
Songzhi Zi couldn't help laughing. "Who tried their best, who committed a crime, who played without a team style, who was unkind. Can't you see it?"
No matter what other people are like.
The one who committed the most crime in this wave must be Xiangzi.
Looking at the back of Matsueda Azusa leaving without looking back, Nagasaki Suyo finally couldn't help but say: "Azusa, you will regret it!"
"SOYO, I am the captain now."
Matsueda Azusa stretched out his hand and gave the middle finger behind him.
"boom."
Just then, a door in front was hurriedly pushed open.
Shiina Riki rushed out with an anxious look on his face and almost bumped into Matsueda Azusa.
The long black hair fluttered, carrying a faint fragrance.
"Drummers? What happened?"
Songeda Azusa was startled.
Why are you so anxious?
Could it be that Ku Lai Xi Ku really is a cursed band, and are they about to repeat their famous scene again?!
He quickly reached out to support Li Xi, "Is there something wrong with the rehearsal? This shouldn't be the case."
Shiina Riki heaved a sigh of relief when he saw Matsueda Azusa: "It's all because of you. Why are you so late? It's our turn in two bands. I thought you were going to be late."
"Sorry, sorry, I got entangled with some bad guys on the way, and I was a little late because I wasn't paying attention."
Matsueda Azusa suddenly realized and quickly put on a smile, rubbing his hands together and saying, "Don't worry, even if there's a car accident, I'll crawl over. After all, this is our first live performance after reuniting, and the songs we're singing this time are the result of our joint efforts."
"Don't say such unlucky things! If you're injured, just go to the hospital!"
Li Xi punched Song Zhizi's shoulder with his fist, a barely perceptible blush appearing on his cheeks. "What happened to you? Did you run into a bad guy? It's better to call the police, right?"
Songzhi Zi scratched his cheek and glanced back.
Nagasaki Suyo had disappeared from sight.
This guy is pretty fast.
How many seconds have passed?
Could it be that her secret identity is actually a ninja?
It’s a good thing, because if she and Li Xi met, they would probably have a quarrel.
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