Honkai, why do you only play high-end games?

Then he exited the screen, pointed at it, and laughed, as casually as if he was introducing his photo album to a new friend.

"Look, there's not even a toilet. I can't even drink water while staying here."

The flow rate of the pictures was accelerated, and a long day was compressed into just a few minutes before the eyes of Lin Wei and the Herrscher.

There was nothing in this room, no TV, no computer, not even a phone. The door was locked, and Xiao Lin Wei couldn't go anywhere. So he lay on the table to do his homework. After finishing his homework, he would be in a daze, then go to bed, then wake up, and then go back to sleep...

The woman who should be called "mother" only appeared once throughout the day. She carried a convenience bag and fed the hungry Xiao Lin Wei a meal. Then she told him to do his homework well and locked the door and left. The next time she appeared was when he came back to sleep late at night.

"Tsk, I'm really easy to raise. You just need to feed me once a day. I can even take care of myself the rest of the time. This is much less troublesome than raising a cat or a dog, isn't it?"

"Are you so obedient?"

The Herrscher's expression was a little strange. You, Lin Wei, don't look like someone who would be obedient at all.

"What else can you expect a five or six-year-old child to understand? Didn't you see that little guy was still trying to get into that woman's arms at night with a pitiful look on his face? Tsk, but you can't blame him for that. After all, it's an innate instinct for a child to yearn for his mother's embrace, isn't it? At this moment, he still felt that it was because he wasn't obedient enough that all this happened."

Lin Wei made clicking sounds and commented in a sarcastic tone, as if this was not his own memory, in a flamboyant and loud voice.

At the same time, a cold and dark aura began to emanate from his whole body without any concealment, which made the Herrscher stunned and a little doubt whether they had read the wrong script.

Why do I feel like you're more like a guy who can destroy the world than I am?

Lin Wei waved away those scenes, including that extremely warm birthday party.

He did not look back once, but continued walking with the Herrscher, occasionally grabbing a fragment of information, using it as a key to push open a door to memory, and appreciating the scenery behind it as if he was visiting a tourist attraction.

Maybe it was because he was in the right mood, or maybe it was because he had simply become proficient in the operation. Gradually, Lin Wei no longer deliberately reached out to grab a piece of memory, but as he and the Herrscher walked side by side seemingly nonchalantly, one memory after another emerged from the water like a carp leaping out of the water, bringing another kind of appointment to Lin Wei.

"Oh, this is my father. Let me see him lying on the bed... Oh? Haha, he went out drinking again the night before and came back drunk in the middle of the night. The door was locked. He accidentally fell down when he was climbing over the wall and broke his bones!"

"This... I forgot what it was, it seems like he didn't finish his homework and wanted to go out to play? Look, just as he walked to the door of the house, his father kicked him back hard. Wow, the arc of his flight was really round, and the landing point was really accurate, right on the sofa over there."

Lin Wei grimaced as he spoke, and along with the memory scenes that emerged, the suffocating pain he felt at that time also emerged.

The Herrscher looked at him, humming, while still introducing him to her one by one with excitement and a smile, just like a tour guide leading tourists, or an old friend introducing photos one by one and reminiscing about the past.

"Huh? Why is this memory in black and white?"

Lin Wei suddenly let out a light exclamation, reached out and scooped up a black and white fragment that jumped out of the "water", and spread it out curiously.

"Oh, it's this!" Lin Wei just took a look and laughed again, "My father was very violent and an alcoholic. He always had a gloomy face. In my childhood memory, he was always a terrible person."

"This is one of the clips. I was probably only two or three years old at the time. No wonder my memory is all in black and white. Even the table and chairs next to me look so tall."

"I don't know why, but they always have a fight. Look, my mother is lying on the ground again, her dull eyes are so heartbreaking. Look, that little guy over there is trying to hug her, he's really overestimating himself. Look, my father told him to 'get out', but he didn't even dare to fart..."

"Your childhood was really split."

The Herrscher couldn't help but interrupt.

No matter which world the humans are in, they are all so ugly and boring. She had no interest in who Lin Wei's parents were. She just felt that Lin Wei was so sarcastic and mean to herself in her memory.

Obviously, he has always been polite to me, even in the most tense times.

"Split? It's okay. At least I didn't feel that bad at that time. My parents' home is too dark, full of violence and indifference, so I don't like my home. But fortunately, this is in the city where my mother's family lives, so I always have somewhere to go."

The two continued to walk forward, and the picture that appeared was no longer dark and cold, but full of warmth, warmth and happiness.

"There is no choice but to live at home during school hours. But on weekends, holidays, or summer and winter vacations, I always go to my grandma's house first. In my childhood memories, that is my real home. You see, take this taxi and you will arrive when you get off."

"Maybe it's because of my parents that I'm naturally good at reading people's expressions? Maybe it's also because of my young age. Anyway, I'm always the most cared for one by my grandparents and other relatives. My brothers and sisters give in to me, my uncles and aunts coax me, and my grandparents spoil me. In fact, my life is still very happy."

"Look, I'm still very happy, right? It's just that every Sunday night, or the night before school starts, I always cry and scream as my parents come to pick me up and take me back to that cold and lifeless home. But it doesn't matter, as long as I hold on for a few days and wait until the next weekend, I can come back again."

However, there is always a but.

The Herrscher thought to herself that she had no interest in the fantasy before her, it was just a false dream, the only real thing was the man beside her who exuded the aura of the evil spirit from the abyss.

She suddenly felt a little sympathy for Lin Wei, because she felt the breath of "the same kind" from him - that breath was not that of a Herrscher, nor was it that of Honkai, but the deep and cold despair that only people who have been hurt by the whole world would have.

Lin Wei did not lie to her.

"Children are always like this, naive and ignorant, and they have unrealistic fantasies and expectations about the world."

Lin Wei looked back and saw that the place he had been walking on was still the colorless black and white ocean, as if nothing had ever happened.

The Herrscher still said nothing, but kept his gaze on Lin Wei for longer and longer periods of time.

She knew that all this was just a prelude and the real climax of the story was about to come.

The two people continued to walk forward, one talking and the other listening; one memory scene after another jumped up from the water and dissipated, some were cold, some were warm, and they seemed so different, but in the end they all merged into that chaotic and complex flow of information and became indistinguishable from each other.

"Oh? This is..."

Once again, I discovered something of interest in the corner of my eye. Things that attract people's attention always flash by in the most inconspicuous places.

Lin Wei walked over. There was a dark red desk with a red-top and white-bottomed desk lamp on it. The lamp emitted bright light, illuminating a notebook and a pen underneath.

Lin Wei seemed to be thinking about something, and gently picked up the notebook and turned to one of the pages. On it was a diary written in immature handwriting, and the Herrer also leaned over to read it together -

"My mother was acting so strange today. She locked herself in her room all day and didn't come out. Is she sick? But the door was locked. She wouldn't go in when I asked her to, and she wouldn't respond when I called her. It was really worrying.

In the afternoon, my mother suddenly opened the door and asked me to go to the kitchen to get her a kitchen knife. It was strange, why would she take a kitchen knife from the bedroom? Was she cooking secretly? Although I was a little confused, seeing her haggard face, I thought it might be for some purpose, so I went to get it for her, and didn't dare to ask why.

After a while, it was getting dark, and I had almost finished my homework. Mom opened the door again, gave me some money, and handed me a note, asking me to go to the pharmacy to buy her some medicine. Those characters had so many strokes that I didn't recognize them, but I saw that Mom seemed to be really sick, so I held the note carefully in my hand and went to the pharmacy as quickly as possible to buy her medicine, hoping that she would get better soon.

......"

Lin Wei suddenly burst into laughter, laughing so hard that he fell backwards, his face twisted, and he slapped his hands on the table, as if he had enjoyed the funniest comedy in the world.

"Everyone says that even a tiger won't eat its own cubs, but why don't I believe it? She let her own son become a murderer, and the most vicious matricide at that? Hahahaha, how could she be so cruel? She is the head nurse of the hospital, hahahaha!"

“Ling, tell me, this show is very interesting, isn’t it? Hahahahahahaha, it’s really very interesting. It’s really very ridiculous, hahahahahaha!”

Lin Wei's laughter became more and more unbridled. The Herrer looked at Lin Wei's shoulders lying on the table from behind and laughed continuously.

Lin Wei's laughter suddenly stopped. He stood up suddenly, smoothed out the crumpled diary in his hand, put it back in place, bent down, pulled out the chair under the desk and sat down on it.

Ripples appeared around her like water waves. The Herrscher looked around and saw that it had turned into a room. She had seen it many times before. This was Lin Wei's childhood home.

Lin Wei beside him had disappeared, and there was only a little boy doing his homework under a desk lamp not far in front of him.

Suddenly, the door of another room not far away creaked open, and a dishevelled woman stood at the door in a daze.

"Lin Wei, Mom is not feeling well. Go to the kitchen and get me a kitchen knife."

The tone was logical and the voice was cold and heartless, like a leader giving orders.

"Oh, okay."

Xiao Lin Wei suddenly revealed a vicious smile and agreed happily in a crisp childish voice. He turned around and jumped off the seat, then walked towards the kitchen in his memory. He never looked at his mother once during the whole process.

The woman frowned.

Xiao Lin Wei ran very fast, impatiently holding the kitchen knife which was quite heavy for him and ran back to his mother. However, he did not obediently hand it to his mother. Instead, he took a step back, pulled up his sleeves and carefully wiped the handle and the blade, wiping it clean. Then, he grabbed the handle with one hand and threw it hard at the woman's feet and nailed it to the wooden door.

"Hey, I brought it to you. Cut it right in front of me. Cut your wrists or slit your neck. It doesn't matter what you do. I don't care. It will also open the eyes of a murderer you raised."

Xiao Lin Wei's face was full of sarcasm and ridicule, and his tone was extremely cold, and then he suddenly shouted loudly,

"What are you standing there for? Go ahead and cut it! Are you a coward? Are you a wimp? Is this all you can do? Aren't you going to commit suicide? I've got the knife for you, so don't let me down!"

"..."

"Tsk, you selfish, cowardly villain."

Watching the woman collapse and sit on the ground, crying and cursing, saying that Lin Wei's father had no conscience, and then saying that Lin Wei was an ungrateful person. A lot of curse words rolled out of her mouth, but little Lin Wei had lost interest in her and just waved his hand listlessly. The woman and the entire memory scene collapsed like bubbles.

Only the grown-up Lin Wei was left standing there alone, staring blankly at the place where his mother should have stood.

"Let's go..."

After a long time, Lin Wei gently uttered this word, and then continued to move on to the next memory without looking back.

Although he was just behind him, the Herrscher could sense that Lin Wei could no longer maintain the smile on his face, and deep malice and darkness began to emerge from him.

At this moment, Lin Wei seemed to be only one step away from becoming a devil.

The Herrscher looked at his back and followed him.

Chapter 32: Lin Wei said

From this moment on, memories were no longer divided into cold and warm, but began to become entangled into one, wrapping the young Lin Wei in it and constantly rolling and squeezing him, making him become hesitant, fragile, confused, and cautious.

Lin Wei led the Herrscher for a stroll. At first, he said nothing and walked with heavy steps, as if he was suffocating under the weight of these overly heavy experiences.

After a while, Lin Wei seemed to have digested these heavy things, or perhaps adapted to these burdens, and he started laughing again.

"From this day on, the whole world began to change dramatically!"

"She cut her wrist with a knife, and it was bloody, but it scabped over without much bleeding. Then she asked me to buy her medicine... Tsk, she's really haunting me. Why doesn't she find someone else to trouble me?"

"Oh, she only gave birth to me, so it's all right."

Lin Wei analyzed his soul to the Herrscher, exposing the ugliest and most unbearable side of his heart to the Herrscher, sighing and mocking his past.

"Since then, I still go to my grandma's house every weekend, but it has become a different place."

Lin Wei pointed at the memory images that kept appearing and disappearing on both sides and concluded,

"They started calling me 'bastard' and 'evil creature'. I didn't even understand what was happening. Everything had become like this. I was still the same person, the house was still the same house, but the world seemed to be no longer the same world."

"They still keep saying they love me, but the result is so ironic..."

Lin Wei's smile became colder, his eyes narrowed slightly, he raised his head to the sky and took a deep breath.

"Then, here..."

"Half a year later, on a sunny afternoon in the summer, it was a weekend and I was playing at my neighbor's house."

There was a strange shout outside the door, followed by a commotion, as if there were many people. Xiao Linwei felt that the voices outside the door sounded very familiar, so he put down the toy in his hand, stood up, pushed the door and walked out.

Outside the door is the familiar courtyard where I grew up;

There are familiar people in the yard, the adults who have been with me since childhood.

But it was something I had never imagined...

My grandparents and an uncle held my father's hands and feet tightly, pinning him to the ground so that he couldn't move. My grandmother's hands were stained with white lime.

Another uncle took a knife and stabbed my father hard, stabbed, and continued to stab.

The sky is falling...

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!"

"Ling, did you see that? This is the funniest joke in the world!"

"The mother who gave birth to you and raised you wants you to hand over the weapon that killed her with your own hands. She never considered the terrible consequences that this would bring to a child..."

"And those people who claimed to love you and whom you regarded as your relatives and family members, killed your last relative right in front of you!"

"They don't care about you at all, no one cares about you at all!"

"What family affection? What love? It's all bullshit! Everything is fake. You are just like a wishful fool being played by these guys!"

"And then they ruthlessly threw me aside like a piece of trash to die!"

Lin Wei laughed wildly and waved his arms, going on stage like a clown and giving the craziest performance.

He waved his arms fiercely, and the sunny afternoon turned into a dim hospital corridor. It was already late at night, and Xiaolin Wei curled up in a corner of the corridor in a daze, staring blankly at the closed emergency room.

He was still at a loss, but he just held a pencil sharpener tightly in his hand. If anyone dared to touch him, he would stab that person fiercely.

So no one really touched him anymore.

Lin Wei outside the screen laughed more and more crazily, and his laughter became more and more sad.

"And then?" asked the Herrscher.

"And then? And then my father was lucky enough to survive! And I finally didn't lose my last relative. You see, isn't this story ridiculous? The person you once hated the most and wanted to escape from the most became your last support, and the people who were once the closest to you and who 'loved you' the most eventually became your enemies who pushed you into the abyss."

Lin Wei's voice was a little muffled, and his eyes were dazed as he stared at the operating room door that suddenly opened in the picture. The little boy curled up in the corner stood up with a start, as if waiting for the verdict of fate.

The Herrscher outside the screen also saw that the grown-up Lin Wei beside him also had goose bumps all over his body and his breathing became rapid.

This is his memory, this is his past, this is the self he cannot bear to look back on.

Xiao Lin Wei watched the hospital bed being pushed into the intensive care unit, and finally collapsed to the ground and burst into tears.

Lin Wei outside the screen sighed and said tiredly,

"So I have a chance to live on... It's really ironic that a nine-year-old child would be here thinking about life and death."

"And then?" the Herrscher asked.