Uneasy daily life

Mai Sakurajima raised an eyebrow slightly, her left hand rubbing the white figure's forehead. Suddenly, she pinched his nose and asked with a smile, "Isn't that right? Black Fan, add a kissing scene to let the male lead live—that's the female lead's choice."

"One person can make someone accept death calmly, and another person can make someone choose to strive to live."

"Isn't it?"

Bai Ying rolled her eyes, slapped away Sakurajima Mai's hand that was pinching her nose, and complained, "This kind of melodramatic story is really not my style... Hmm, I didn't expect that the hero plus with mediocre acting skills would put forward such a constructive creative point of view... This idea is worth considering."

"Now that the hater has an idea, let's talk about other things."

Mai Sakurajima narrowed her eyes, a playful smile on her face. She bent down slightly, casting a rounded shadow over the white figure's face, accompanied by a gentle voice.

"Hey hater, what else has happened to you lately? I feel like you've changed quite a bit without me knowing."

"……For example?"

"How should I put it... does it finally feel like she's treating me like her girlfriend?"

Chapter Sixty-Four: My Favorite Pervert!

"Something did happen."

Bai Ying twisted her waist, trying to get up naturally. She gently pressed her hands on her temples, then suddenly clasped her hands together and held the back of her head firmly.

"Really?" Mai Sakurajima asked casually. "What happened? I'm curious."

"Brave Plus, you can understand, right? People don't feel much pressure when talking about their own privacy, but it's not so easy when it comes to other people's privacy."

The white-clad figure said solemnly, "To protect the privacy of the hero who does not wish to reveal his name, I will not say a word!"

What did Yukino do? Come to think of it, Hana had previously discussed relationship issues with me, and it seems Yukino had brought it up in the first place. That's quite interesting. Given Yukino's principle of not lying, if I were to ask her about this, her reaction would probably be quite amusing…

Ok?

Sakurajima Mai's fingers twitched, shifting from gentle control to a firm grip on the white figure's face: "Hater, changing the subject isn't working, is it? I'm more concerned about how your thoughts have changed than what Yukino did..."

"My thoughts—well, they may have changed..."

Bai Ying tried to sit up, but Sakurajima Mai didn't give him a chance to get off the lap pillow. Hmm? Come to think of it, it's clearly a lap pillow, so why call it a lap pillow? No matter how soft and beautiful a girl is, her knees are still hard; sticking your head on them will only hurt...

"So?" Mai Sakurajima patiently looked at the pensive white figure and chuckled, "Hater-kun, have you figured out how to fool me?"

"Uh……"

Bai Ying came to her senses and said sincerely, "I was wondering why this position is called a knee pillow when you're actually resting your head on your thigh."

"Because in ancient Japanese, the word 'knee' itself included the thigh, and it wasn't distinguished so finely before."

Mai Sakurajima answered sincerely, and the fingers pinching the white shadow's face rotated a few degrees.

“I see. Just like the Chinese word ‘股’ means thigh, but now it’s used to mean buttocks…” Bai Ying exclaimed emotionally, “The magic of time is truly incredible.”

"Yes, even someone like the hater will change."

Mai Sakurajima narrowed her eyes, released her boyfriend's face, and instead gently poked small dents into his cheek with her fingertips. Her tone softened slightly as she slowly said, "In my eyes, Hater-kun is a mature yet naive person..."

What kind of evaluation is this?

Bai Ying thought for a moment, then suddenly realized, and sang while shaking her head: "Look at him, broad-shouldered and thick-waisted—standing like a Vajra Tower that suppresses demons, yet with delicate features—his smile is as easy as bending down to pick up a bar of soap..."

sand……

Ok?

Bai Ying was taken aback and activated the brain vibration mode.

He rested his head on his lap and rotated from side to side, his thick, stiff hair rubbing rapidly against his black stockings, making the sound suddenly clearer.

rustling --

"Don't move!"

Sakurajima Mai rolled her eyes in annoyance. She grabbed the white shadow's head and transformed back into the slightly more mature person she had been controlling. She continued her interrupted words: "I'm not talking about appearance. Being able to remain calm and composed no matter what big things are, that's maturity. Being able to find joy and passion in every little thing, that's innocence... However, when it comes to matters involving other people, Hater-kun uses mature thinking to judge and handle things. Even if his actions deviate from common sense, his thinking will never be the other way around."

"Well said." Bai Ying raised her eyebrows to her forehead, revealing an arrogant expression. "Come on, say a few more compliments."

"The simplest example..."

Mai Sakurajima smiled and said, "Would you, Black Fan, be willing or unwilling to film a kissing scene with me? Of course, you wouldn't. No matter how much you tease me about turning a kissing scene into a bed scene, or how you try to provoke me with all sorts of words, ultimately, you're unwilling... Let me guess why—Brave Plus's dream is to become an excellent actor, able to portray different lives and stories. If you were to go against your usual behavior and boldly suggest filming a kissing scene just to get closer to me, it would undoubtedly be a deviation from your original dream, an influence from this relationship, hindering your progress..."

"Love is a process of growth and self-understanding, a very mature and rational attitude." Mai Sakurajima slid her hands down, from the white shadow's forehead to his cheeks, kneading the dough as if her palms were turning back and forth. "Before, I always thought that Black Fan was too calm, and it was hard for him to be moved by anything, but I quite like that about him. As long as we accompany each other, our relationship will always break through and change over time... Although it lacks some passion and impulsiveness, I prefer the long-lasting companionship and concern."

"However, it seems that this is not entirely the case now."

Mai Sakurajima lowered her head to meet the white figure's gaze and asked softly, "Besides these mature considerations of treating people like children, you, Black Fan, are not used to accepting other people's affection, are you?"

"Absolutely impossible!" the white figure roared. "Come on! Say you like me, and I'll blush and my heart will race right now—hmm?"

Suddenly, he brought his hands together, squeezing the white figure's face into a slightly comical expression.

"When considering what would be better, shouldn't lovers be thinking together as one? Why does Black Fan want to exclude himself from the picture?" Mai Sakurajima took a deep breath and said softly with a smile, "I want to kiss Black Fan on screen; I also want to be Black Fan's on-screen couple; I dream that Black Fan can write our story into a script; you are already in my dreams... Black Fan, accepting your girlfriend's affection is your duty as a boyfriend."

Deep eyes met dark eyes, emotions like network signals being transmitted through their gaze.

The white figure's gaze flickered slightly, unconsciously shifting away, from looking up at Sakurajima Mai's eyes to looking up at Sakurajima Mai's chest.

Ok?

Sakurajima Mai twisted her body with a forced smile: "Hate fan, what's with that mood-ruining look? You... um?"

It was as if a lightning bolt struck his mind—the hater had deliberately escalated the kissing scene into a sex scene, and suddenly talked about a plot about 'men who are captured by desire and lose themselves.' Yukino must have done something to make the hater think...

To some extent, the material that "Black Fan Guy" draws on in his creations mostly comes from his life experiences, only they are highly abstracted and processed by his mind...

"Hate fan..."

Mai Sakurajima asked in a flash, "What did Yukino do to you?"

Wow! Such simple, rapid, and inexplicably fast reasoning ability is something even I, who prides myself on having sharp eyes and the ability to see into people's hearts, can hardly keep up with this lightning-fast emotional change!

Bai Ying said briefly, "It's nothing, just a touch."

"hand?"

Sakurajima Mai looked at her hands in confusion. What intimate things could hands do? Wasn't it something like kissing? After all, kissing already touched upon a special level of relationship, where both parties were very special to each other…

The white figure showed no sorrow or joy, raised its right hand in a loose fist, and moved it up and down twice with a whooshing sound.

"?!"

Sakurajima Mai jerked her hands away from the white figure's face as if she'd been electrocuted, and the white figure also swiftly got rid of the lap pillow, getting up and sitting on the sofa at the other end.

“You…” Sakurajima Mai didn’t know what to say. She stared at the white figure in disarray, stammered a couple of times, and then subconsciously glanced at the white figure’s lower body.

"You understand!" the white-clad figure preemptively said, pointing and gesturing. "What are you thinking about? You're such a pervert!"

"What are you doing?!"

Sakurajima Mai felt a rush of blood to her face, unable to discern her own emotions—that Yukino? That earnest yet shy Yukino, did something like this?! That hater? That calm and mature hater, did something like this?!

My emotions are complicated and chaotic. Sure enough, even if I agreed to this absurd relationship, when I actually encountered the absurd situation, I couldn't calm down in any sense...

"Hate-fan!" Mai Sakurajima caught a glimpse of something and gritted her teeth, "That's why I asked you to film a kissing scene with me, and you pretended to be crazy and made excuses. Yukino... you've done even more outrageous things!"

"Calm down! I was forced!"

Bai Ying first removed the pot, then quickly found a flaw: "Besides, I didn't do anything like kissing!"

"?"

Sakurajima Mai's head was filled with a question mark, and she slammed her hand on the coffee table in extreme shame and indignation: "You all did that kind of thing!"

"Wait a little longer! There aren't any strict steps involved in this kind of thing!" Bai Ying explained confidently. "Only those who've played too many 18+ visual novels in the anime/manga world think that dating has to follow a sequence of indirect contact like kissing, oral sex, and then having children! I think this kind of thing mainly depends on how the atmosphere develops..."

Mai Sakurajima couldn't help but exclaim sharply, "What kind of atmosphere is this?!"

“…It feels like I can’t leave.” Bai Ying sighed and waved her hand wearily. “I have this feeling that if I leave, the hero will immediately break up with me, transfer to another school or even go abroad, and completely sever this relationship by refusing to communicate.”

"..."

Given Yukino's personality, if she were to do something like that, she would definitely be willing to go all out. Overcoming her shyness and being prepared to test their relationship, she would still demand an immediate answer, rejecting any form of delay, concealment, or avoidance.

Mai Sakurajima paused for a moment, then asked in an ambiguous tone, "Black Fan, do you like it?"

"A man's mistakes always stem from desire."

Bai Ying sighed and shook her head, saying, "I can't say for sure... Maybe it was too comfortable, so she forgot to refuse? Anyway, let's stop the kissing scene! Pouting in broad daylight, what kind of behavior is that? Even heroes keep their mouths shut! I'll think about the script again. Maybe we should make the male and female leads have a brother-sister incestuous relationship, so that the special guest audience can feel more involved..."

Hater...

Sakurajima Mai calmed down a bit, looked at the white figure deep in thought about the script, and suddenly asked, "You're not doubting, are you? Is this feeling actually liking, or is it a desire that arises from it?"

"Hmm... I have indeed thought about it a bit."

The white figure stroked its chin and said, "It's somewhere between liking you and wanting to sleep with you..."

"Why isn't it that I've fallen in love with you?"

Sakurajima Mai crossed her arms and said strangely, "Black Fan... it seems like you're not only bad at accepting other people's affections, but you're also bad at liking others, right? It's just a simple thing, but you end up analyzing your feelings and emotions, trying to find reasons and logic—cough cough, Black Fan, being interested in your lover's body and longing for more intimate behavior is a very normal romantic feeling..."

Your face is very red.

The white figure reminded him.

"Shut up!"

Mai Sakurajima glanced at her sideways, took a light breath, and said seriously, "Why are you only thinking about yourself? You're only interested in her body, it's just an instinctive desire, it's just an impulse to... engage in intimate acts—this kind of thinking is too much for Yukino, isn't it? Black Fan-kun should know better than anyone what kind of feelings Yukino had when she took the initiative to do such a thing."

"Wait a minute, if you don't think things through and just deal with it so casually, that's really going too far, isn't it?" Bai Ying immediately retorted. "There are plenty of lovely girls in the world, and plenty of ways to satisfy desires... If you see emotions and desires as one, they won't conflict, and you'll feel that this is normal. You'll just indulge in it until someday you ask yourself honestly..."

"In that tangled mess of emotions, fermented by time, what's left besides one's own desires?"

Bai Ying gazed intently at Sakurajima Mai.

Mai Sakurajima couldn't help but think of her parents. It wasn't that she had no feelings for them, but rather that she once had feelings for them, which were then worn away by desires, becoming an old debt that only the parties involved truly knew the extent of their good and bad deeds.

Bai Ying looked at the stunned Sakurajima Mai and said leisurely, "Hero Plus, let's take your feelings just now as an example—upon hearing about me and the Hero, your possessiveness was churning, you felt resentful and anxious, and your confidence in this relationship was wavering. The Three-Body Problem is enough to kill mathematics, and the current pentagram is even more chaotic..."

"So, what do I choose to care about?"

Mai Sakurajima asked slowly, looking over at him with an open and natural gaze.

Bai Ying: "...Me."

Yes, it's you.

Mai Sakurajima ran her hand through her hair, saying helplessly, "Black Fan, I might like you even more than you think... The impulse to like someone needs to be tempered by reason. Protecting your feelings from being assimilated by desire isn't about completely separating the two, but about becoming the line that intersects in the middle—sometimes, I want to have a simple chat with you, sometimes, I want to do something intimate with you... In short, it's something we need to consider together!"

Should I thank Yukino for her bravery and recklessness? On the contrary, it made me see things more clearly.

Whether it's accepting liking, trying to like, or understanding liking... Hater is completely bewildered. Yet, he has an exceptionally mature perspective. This kind of problem, which is generally not a problem for ordinary people, is the one that Hater has stumbled into.

However, in some ways I'm quite happy.

Communicate with each other, understand each other, and let your souls be touched by each other...

Mai Sakurajima crossed her legs, rested her elbows on her knees, and cupped her cheeks in her palms as she gazed at the thoughtful white figure, a gentle smile involuntarily appearing on her lips.

Compared to the seemingly intimate hugs and kisses before, this moment made her feel more like she was in love.

"I get it! If I like certain colors, then it's not a problem!"

Bai Ying slammed his fist into his palm, suddenly realizing something. He grabbed his belt and shouted, "Then we can't be biased—Hero Plus! Are your hands ready?!"

"Get out of here—!!"

Sakurajima Mai jolted, instinctively grabbing a cushion from the sofa to shield her face. A hint of flustered shyness lingered in her eyes, while she gritted her teeth in anger and embarrassment: "Hater! Is this the kind of logic you come up with for a heart-to-heart talk? It's like a monkey in heat unable to find a brothel..."

bang bang bang...

The sound of footsteps quickly faded into the distance.

Ok?

Sakurajima Mai put down the cushion, only to see a white figure already running to the door with the script. Before she could call out to stop her, the other person had already run out the door.

What do you mean? You think Yukino is too scared to run when she gets serious, but you're willing to run because I'm easygoing?!

Mai Sakurajima's eyes twitched, and she got up, ready to chase after the person and catch them to get to the bottom of things.

"Oh, right!" Bai Ying peeked in from outside the door, "I'll think carefully about how to write the kissing scene. My sincere thanks to Brave Plus for providing the writing material!"

Mai Sakurajima crossed her arms and looked down at him, saying, "I'll get angry if you don't write well."

"Um……"

Bai Ying pondered, his gaze falling on Sakurajima Mai's lips: "Your lips, two full cherry blossoms with pink blush, when shy they press the tips of the petals together, closing up so no one can see, when happy they gently unfold in the wind, when angry they become hard and taut. Just thinking about holding them in my mouth and gently chewing them... shall we practice it?"