Real teaching, but diary flow

"That way, I can comfort myself later, at least I had it, even though I rejected it," she said.

A suggestion came from Honami Ichinose.

There was no mockery in her eyes, nor was she saying this with the intention of making her look foolish.

It seemed that she was seriously suggesting that Shiina Hiyori consider this matter.

If you refuse, then refuse. If you don't want to regret it later, try to have it first.

Hiyori Shiina: "......"

However, our Ms. Shiina is clearly thinking about a deeper question.

...What does it mean to possess?

Should we hug?

Kiss?

One-day lovers?

Or something deeper...

How can I feel that I once had the other person?

Hiyori Shiina was somewhat confused.

She had never truly been in love, and the only things she could refer to were various obviously distorted novels and stories.

Even though she had read so many books, she was still a little slow to react when the word 'possess' was mentioned.

"Anyway, how about we try kissing first?" Ichinose Honami offered a more specific suggestion, seemingly as a recommendation.

"Want to... kiss...?" Caught off guard by this suggestion, Shiina Hiyori was momentarily flustered and leaned back slightly in her seat.

The composure and calmness transformed into shyness and hesitation.

"Shouldn't we ask Asakusa-kun's opinion first...?" In her panic, to make herself seem less flustered, Shiina Hiyori subconsciously steered the conversation back to the person in question.

"I can do it." Asakusa Toru smiled easily.

How about trying kissing?

If we really 'tried' it, if we really 'possessed' it.

He would have absolutely no chance of letting go.

"Eh, ah, um..."

The question that had just been raised, the topic that had just been shifted, was thrown back into his hands, and Shiina Hiyori responded by lowering her head.

Her pretty face began to heat up silently, and her heart pounded so hard it was deafening.

If it's just a trial, if it's just a kiss.

—What do you mean, "just"?

That's a kiss! It's not just simple mucous membrane contact; it's lips to lips, saliva to saliva. Just imagining it makes your heart race and your lips and teeth involuntarily fill with a sweet, honey-like taste.

Amidst a state of tension, anxiety, hesitation, and doubt, the voice that rang in my ears was that of Hiyori Shiina herself.

But he said he could.

Chapter 243 Shiina Hiyori is relieved

'I can do it.'

It's a very simple sentence, yet it's the one that touched Hiyori Shiina's heart the most today.

He should have been filled with hesitation and worry.

But the allure of just this one sentence is so irresistible.

Just trying, just trying, just trying.

The girl kept convincing herself of this.

I will not become addicted, and I will not linger.

Ichinose is right. If we miss this opportunity, it will truly become a regret we can't bear to leave.

Yeah, it's not a big deal anyway.

It's just kissing, I've seen it all before.

It is common in romance novels and often appears as a subplot in other novels.

It's nothing more than a natural progression, representing the emotional escalation to a critical juncture, a landmark plot point.

As a reader, all she had to do was smile and feel happy for the protagonist when she saw the words "lips and teeth touching".

She's done this kind of thing far too often.

I rolled around in bed with the book in my arms, repeatedly looking back and forth at those two pages of text.

...But it seems like she's the one who's going to kiss now.

Eh?

Shiina Hiyori, who was standing tall and proud, thinking that this matter shouldn't be a big deal, suddenly realized something was different.

This isn't like reading a novel; she's not outside the words, but within them.

She will transform into the female protagonist who kisses the male protagonist—even if only briefly.

The moment I realized this, it was as if thousands of pages were fluttering and scattering in my mind.

A loud, magnificent, and buzzing sound.

It's not a story.

It's not text.

That's reality.

My lips can touch his lips.

This understanding gradually took shape in Shiina Hiyori's mind, and the edifice that was built up layer by layer weighed heavily on her heartstrings.

It makes you feel a little dizzy.

“…Then, then…”

"Give it a try?"

she says.

Hiyori Shiina said it aloud.

The previous concerns, hesitations, and determinations were overwhelmed by the successive shocks. A jumble of thoughts piled up in her heart, and the tangled threads could not be untangled by the girl's delicate hands for a long time.

It is simply following the deepest desires in one's heart, relying solely on the richest emotions within.

The young girl parted her cherry lips slightly.

—Give it a try.

And so, the beginning, under the pretext of 'giving it a try,' began as the curtain slowly rose on the play.

The seats in the audience were arranged neatly, with adjacent seats within arm's reach.

What separates the two is a handrail that has weight and texture, allowing you to sense the distance but not preventing them from getting closer.

The way he twisted his body and gently pressed his lower abdomen against the armrest made it clear to Shiina Hiyori that there was a distance between them.

As long as this handrail is there, even if it doesn't serve any purpose, just by being there, it can constantly remind her.

Just trying it out.

She could then lean forward with peace of mind, raise her hands, accept the other's hands, support each other, align themselves, and look into each other's eyes.

Close your eyes and feel it.

For no apparent reason, Shiina Hiyori suddenly recalled that diary entry from more than two months ago.

Yes, it's the one about kissing.

It was the diary entry written by the man in front of me, which began with the words, "I have a girlfriend."

It was his diary that urged, instructed, and encouraged people to be more direct, more aggressive, and more decisive.

It is his diary describing how to kiss, how to kiss, and how to feel while kissing.

Hiyori Shiina felt that she could now put her knowledge to practical use.

Is it cold?

Yes, it's cool and sweet.

Like rock candy? Or maltose?

Perhaps it's candied fruit, or perhaps it's cotton candy.

But soon, the chill subsided quickly, replaced by a slight increase in temperature.

Once the adhesions are removed, the moment of retaliation arrives.

The hands gripping his back tightened their hold, and after a few pauses, Shiina Hiyori's breath fell heavily onto his cheeks again.

Her breath spread through her nasal cavity, and the girl's already warm cheeks quickly flushed red.

She wanted to let go, because it was too unfamiliar, because the embarrassment was almost blushing.

How can anyone moan and groan while kissing?!

And being so close, wasn't he being completely watched?!

But before she could loosen her grip, she was overwhelmed by an even more ferocious attack.

Slightly weak, the girl's body seemed to have lost its strength, with only her hands unconsciously tightening their grip, while her body pressed down and moved closer.

With more contact with others, he naturally becomes more restless.

This is an inevitable outcome.

Know when to stop, and stop doing things that are unseen and excessive.

Hidden, hidden together.

"Eek..."

Hiyori Shiina felt drunk.

Is it alcohol?

No, it's his scent.

Excessive intake can lead to a state of intoxication.

It's not that his kisses have any magic, nor that his lips are coated with any medicine.

The act of kissing itself signifies that the relationship has reached a new level, and that the emotions accumulated in one's heart can be released through this wonderful opportunity.

As surging emotions rise and fall like waves, one's inner feelings begin to subtly change, and the body reacts accordingly.

Physiological and psychological.

So, kissing is just an excuse.

A plausible excuse to express feelings called 'liking'.

...I really like this kind of excuse.

Time felt incredibly long, yet also incredibly short.

Because our senses are so rich, with touch, smell, hearing, taste, and sight, all five senses are conveying a signal called 'liking'.

So she felt that time was very, very long.

But because they weren't satisfied yet, they naturally separated.

So she felt that the time was very, very short.

What is long is what we want to last forever, and what is short is what we can never satisfy our desire to do it again.

Just as Shiina Hiyori raised her head and looked up, as if she wanted to say to him, "Let's do it again."