I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

It's just a fever.

It's really just a fever.

Holding on to the fantasy, Lenai took Chitose into her arms.

She didn't dare to cry, but her nose was really sore and her eyes were red, but she couldn't hide it.

【how so…】

Why is her career starting to gain momentum now? What she needs most at this time is time.

"Hopefully, things will get better."

Please, God.

You have treated me so cruelly, please stop torturing me, okay?

As long as Xiaosui is fine... I'm willing to do anything.

I…

I just hope that things will get better.

……

Nothing is getting better.

"Unable to diagnose... need to consult a better specialist... the situation is unstable... prepare for the worst... for now..."

All right.

enough.

Stop talking.

A few more days passed, and there was still no useful news.

Every day, Lenai shuttles back and forth between the hospital and the record company's rehearsal room, like a swimming crab caught in a fishing net.

"Is it getting worse... Sigh."

He stood at the door of the ward and hesitated for a long time. After half an hour of silence, Yao Lenai finally stopped pacing.

She pushed the door open steadily, and the fair-skinned girl was half sitting and half lying on the bed.

"Good afternoon, Mommy is done with work."

"Mom, what are we eating today? We still have McDonald's!"

Kaname Lenai could see that Chitose was forcing herself to be enthusiastic, and the tired look in her eyes could not be concealed or suppressed.

"No...no more. I need to eat something healthy."

When I think about it carefully, I realize that I am often lazy on weekdays, and I eat at the McDonald's near my home with Xiaosui for three meals a day for convenience.

For a long time, I would wait until Lenai got tired of eating before I would go home to buy groceries and cook for myself.

Chitose ate hamburgers and fries like this for a long time without saying a word... Could this be the reason why Chitose got sick?

Lenai sat on the edge of the bed and didn't dare to look at Chitose.

Faced with a disease whose name has not yet been known, Lenai has a sense of déjà vu as he faces the "depression" that he once only knew the name of but had no idea about its core.

Depression took away Chitose Noshiro, and if this unknown disease takes away Xiaosui too...

"Ugh."

Covering her mouth helplessly, Kaname really didn't know what to do.

Through my grandmother's connections, I found many famous doctors and experts, but none of them were of any substantial help to Yao Qiansui.

"Mom, don't cry."

"No, I've just been under a lot of work pressure lately... Xiaosui will be discharged from the hospital soon."

Now that things have come to this, let’s continue to conceal it.

As long as you can deceive people long enough, the longer the better, so that the children won't worry about it.

"Mom, am I seriously ill?"

"..."

In an instant, the smile that Kaname Rakuna had managed to maintain disappeared.

Although she tried her best to smile again, the result was as bad as you can imagine.

"I…"

"Don't say it, Mom. I know everything. I..."

While Chitose was speaking, the phone rang again.

Endless work is a huge mountain that crushes all adults entering society. Sometimes, even Lenai feels sick of this ringing sound.

There is no way, work is work.

But today, Yao Lenai didn't want to answer the phone.

She didn't want to play anymore. Adult games were so hopeless and not fun at all.

"Mom, answer it. It's okay... Don't worry about me."

"..."

Her daughter snatched the phone away with her weak hands. Lenai knew she could stop her with just a little force, but—

I just can't bear to interfere with Qiansui.

She looked light and airy, as if she would disappear from the world in the blink of an eye.

beep--

The call is connected.

"Yaolena! Have you packed your things? We're leaving the day after tomorrow. And I just realized you said you'd think about it last time? How can you even think about something like this? Hurry up and get ready to go."

"Everyone is waiting for you."

"..."

The ward was extremely quiet for a while. Facing Qiansui's probing eyes, Lenai felt too guilty to look him in the face.

"Hello, hello? Are you listening, Yona? I..."

"She'll be there soon. Thank you for your hard work, Sister Ichichi."

"Ah, Xiao Sui, remember to urge your mother more often."

Ijichi's agent seemed to be complaining:

"She doesn't listen to anyone but you. Hang up."

"Mom?" After hanging up the phone, Chitose grabbed the corner of Kaname's clothes and asked, "Am I a burden to you?"

"No! Don't think like that, I..."

"Then why don't you just leave, mom? Taking care of me will delay everything."

Qiansui placed her hands on her chest, narrowed her eyes, and a warm red light flowed out of her eyes.

"I don't want to. Age is the most important thing. I can't..."

"Years old? Which year old? Is it the important senior to Mom, or the former partner?"

"Do you know everything?"

Lenai rubbed her eyes in disbelief. She felt more powerless than ever before.

"After all, it was my mother who taught me how to write the word 'year' on the tombstone."

"..."

For a moment, Yao Lenai was speechless and had no idea what to say next.

The girl obviously didn't want to let her go, and continued to open her dry lips and said:

"Mom, please move forward and don't look back at me, okay."

"Is it really okay for you to give up the music you've pursued your whole life for me?"

"For me, you've let down so many other people, your other companions, your other family members, and the other musicians you've eliminated... is that really okay?"

"Didn't you teach me this, Mom? You always said... Behind every professional player lies the resentment of countless young men and women whose dreams were shattered... So, Mom, why hesitate?"

Chitose smiled, and finally pushed Kaname with as much strength as he could:

“This show is important, right?”

"The older sisters in the band are all waiting for mommy, and I'm waiting for mommy too."

"Wait for mom to come back, everything..."

After taking a breath, Qiansui whispered:

"Everything will be fine."

Ch419. This time I really have to say goodbye,

Did my daughter just lecture me?

The park is very quiet and peaceful in the evening, except for the occasional elderly people taking a walk and middle-aged people passing by after get off work.

From the very beginning, Lenai believed that the night world was a paradise for sad adults.

"Goooooooooooo-"

Beer was opened, beer was gulped, and that was that.

"I should be enjoying the drink, but I always feel depressed."

There was a cup of matcha parfait beside her, but Lenai took two bites and ignored it.

Now it has melted and turned into sugar water.

"I always feel... it's too unrealistic... but because it's too unrealistic..."

On the contrary, it's very peaceful.

His face was pale yet mixed with a little redness. Lenai tilted his head as if he wanted to pour out the sorrow in his mind.

【But maybe...this is the reality.】

"Ugh."

What should she do in the future?

The bench became a cage that imprisoned Lenai's soul. Her hands hung naturally, and she didn't even know when the beer can fell.

"..."

The spring breeze is warm, but chilling. Chitose's words force Rakuna to face reality.

If she thinks about it carefully, she now has two options, the most extreme of which is to stay and take care of Chitose.

He took care of her, but the price was heavy, almost ruining his career and all the efforts he had made for so long.

But at least I can spend more time with my daughter...but my daughter will definitely not be happy.

Lenai must always remember that she needs to set a good example for her children.

If she avoided the band's performance to accompany Xiao Sui, she would be the only person in the world who would be satisfied with this answer.

"So, there's another option, which is to go abroad with my band mates tomorrow."

Choosing to go abroad undoubtedly satisfies the needs of everyone in the world except those who want to have fun.

The agency will be happy, the bandmates will be satisfied, and the agent will nod in approval.

Chitose Noshiro would be proud of her, Chitose Haizuka would rest in peace in the afterlife, and Chitose Kaname... would have no regrets about what she had done as a mother.

The girls in the bands who were once defeated and competed away by Kaname now focus all their dreams on her.

Not only that, the expectations of the general public and fan base, the hopes of family and friends... countless people are waiting for Lenai to take the next step.

Except for Lenai, no one in the world would allow her to choose to ask Chitose to give up her overseas performance.