I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

It wasn't until last year that she began to face the real Noshiro Chitose.

When Chitose Noshiro was a little girl, she was afraid of the dark and would cry. She was also clumsy and would get her hands pricked by needles.

Oh, the most beautiful girl, what makes you so strong?

What broke you down again?

After finishing the matcha parfait, Lenna nudged Chitose's shoulder:

"We go home."

But Qiansui still didn't respond.

She sat quietly in Lenai's arms, the spoon in her hand falling down without her knowing when.

"Xiao Sui?"

Fell asleep again?

Ch417. How about it, aren’t you happy now?

On April 14th, Chitose Noshiro closed her eyes.

During the worship, Chitose Kaname also fell asleep in Lena Kaname's arms.

Fall asleep quietly, as if you will never wake up again.

"Xiao Sui, are you okay?"

"Mm..."

His complexion was terrible, and he seemed to be lacking in energy and blood. Chitose seemed to have shrunk in Lenai's arms, and for some reason he looked so small.

"Are you feeling uncomfortable? Is it because of all the running around these days?"

"call…"

The daughter responded with subtle interjections, her lips opening and closing again.

He definitely looked like he wanted to say something, but Chitose was so listless that he couldn't say anything.

"I'll take you to the hospital. Have a good sleep in your mother's arms."

The girl nodded, and Lenai left with her belongings.

On the way, she suddenly recalled that Qiansui had become increasingly sleepy in the past six months.

【Are you sick again?】

In the six months after adopting Chitose, she would often have a fever, but she would be full of energy again within a few days.

Sometimes it was because Lenai forgot to change the children’s clothes when the seasons changed, and sometimes it was because Lenai neglected to take care of them.

Another time, she took Chitose to elementary school and forgot to bring a lunch box for her. Chitose then became sick from eating the food she bought for the school.

"It's okay, Sui. I'm sorry for driving you around these past two days."

The child was indeed sleepy, curled up in her arms, feeling warm.

"It's okay. Yeah. It's okay."

Although she said this, Yao Lenai still felt uneasy and frightened when she got in the taxi.

"Driver, please drive faster. The child is sick."

For some reason, an indescribable feeling of fear was slowly crawling up her spine.

I hope everything goes well.

……

problem occurs.

"It's similar to leukemia, but the specific symptoms are still unclear. Miss, please be patient. We still need to conduct more tests to confirm the condition."

"Leukemia? That's...troubling."

[Trouble. 】

This sentence is not only a thank you to the doctor, but also a heartfelt sigh.

An Jing watched the doctor's back gradually disappear into the distance, then Lenateng collapsed to the ground with a thud.

When Yao Lenai heard the word "leukemia", no other thoughts came into his mind.

The humming sound fills the world.

Her brain exploded, and the impact it brought to her was no less than the word "depression" she had heard of when she was young.

"what."

It's a serious disease.

How could she suddenly develop such a serious illness at the age of 18?

"It doesn't seem sudden."

She felt thirsty but had no mood to buy a drink from the vending machine beside her. Kaname Lenai recalled that since a long time ago, Kaname Chitose had always been exhausted and liked to sleep everywhere.

Maybe that's an early symptom?

Standing at the door of the ward, at a loss, Lenai really couldn't understand why a little kid who just loved to sleep would get sick.

It must have something to do with her... poor care, right?

"Why…"

If it wasn't related to her, Lenai really couldn't think of a reason.

"We're not sure if it's leukemia, but if it is...will it kill me?"

Everything is going well, why does it always go wrong?

This and that, this and that, she had clearly been planning what to do after retirement, and had clearly thought that Chitose could study at the university she had attended. How could it be...

Sadness remained the same. Sadness had become a monster, constantly tearing at Kaname.

"Miss, why don't you go in and take a look? The child has woken up."

"I… um."

Let’s go in and take a look. We can’t let Chitose find out that her mother is not with her.

When the nurse walked out of the inner room and passed by Yao Lenai, she still reached out and grabbed the other's sleeve out of worry.

Le Nai quickly remembered that this hand had been used to wipe tears, and she let go of it embarrassedly:

"If it's leukemia, it should be...curable, right?"

"I don't know. Everything depends on the doctor's diagnosis. I can't provide a reference. I'm really sorry."

"It's okay. Thank you."

Today is the day that Chitose Noshiro leaves, and her heart, which was already shrouded in gloom, becomes even more tattered.

"Xiao Sui, the doctor said it's okay," after entering the room, Lenai pretended to be calm and walked forward to squeeze Qian Sui's little hand.

The child is in good condition now, but still listless, just like—

[Just like yesterday, the day before yesterday, and last month... But at that time, I just thought Chitose was tired from playing.]

"Mom, we haven't finished our matcha parfait yet... When can we go home and finish it?"

"Wait a few days? Xiaosui has a fever and needs to be hospitalized for a few days."

[I lied.]

But there is no way.

Is there any better way than lying at this point?

"Then will mom stay with Xiaosui?"

"Yes, we won't go to school from now on. Mom will stay with you, okay?"

"But..." Qiansui blinked, trying hard to pretend nothing happened, "Will it really not affect Mom's career?"

"No, it won't. No...it won't have any impact."

Is it really not going to have any impact? I want Lenai to know, but I don’t want to delve into it.

She is now completely focused on Qiansui and has no time to think about her career.

Ding--

The ringing of the cell phone broke the silence in the room at an inopportune moment. Rakuna didn't want to answer it, but Chitose took the phone from her:

"Mom, go ahead and do your work. I just have a fever. I'm fine."

"..."

The boomerang of lies hit Kaname Lenai in a few seconds.

She nodded her head several times as if in a daze, and looked back at Qiansui every three steps.

If it is indeed albinism, is it life-threatening? If it is not albinism, what disease is it?

Having experienced death twice, Kaname Lenai was really scared.

"I want Lenai, Ichichi, are you... feeling better?"

It's my agent calling.

If it were any other time, Lenai would definitely answer the call immediately.

On the other end of the conversation, Ijichi's manager spoke excitedly, completely unaware of the strangeness in Lena's tone:

"Great news! Don't you check the group chat? I knew you didn't check the chat app, so I called you."

"……What."

"A very large music festival abroad has invited us to perform as a supporting act. If we go, the band will definitely become an instant hit. Then we can not only develop our career domestically, but also internationally—"

"What do I need to do. When is the work."

It was great news, but Lenai just couldn't be happy.

She felt excited for a second, but it was extinguished in an instant.

"You need to come back and rehearse now, and then we'll be going abroad next week! We'll be out for about a month, and there are some pretty big commercial performances waiting. The company has really allocated a lot of resources to you."

"How is it, are you happy?"

Ch418. Mom, keep going, don't stop

happiness?

Unhappy.

Kind of funny.

Since Le Nai didn't call back immediately, she just turned her head woodenly and looked at the ward where Chitose was.

My daughter is seriously ill, but my career is booming.

Was there never a time in her life when she didn't have to lose something?

"Ijichi... Thank you for your notice. I will... give you a reply as soon as possible."

"Okay, take a good rest recently and don't put too much pressure on yourself."

"..."

How do you want me to answer you?

After hanging up the phone and returning to the ward, my daughter was lying there with a cherry blossom petal in her hand.

"Year-old, is there anything you want to eat? Mommy will buy it for you."

"Mom, do I really just have a fever?"

Yao Lenai's heart skipped a beat, and for a moment she couldn't think of how to deal with it:

"Y-yeah, just a fever."