I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Ch405. There is a gap between escaping reality

[The period from the beginning of the music to the end of the music is endowed with special rights by time.]

On stage, new performance.

What everyone is looking forward to is music that will make them feel happy or enjoyable in the next few minutes.

The musicians are the royal chefs who serve this delicacy to everyone. In the next few minutes, both [cooking] and [eating] will happen at the same time.

"Huh, is it about to start again?"

With a deep sigh, this time Kaname Rakuna felt a long-lost sense of tension.

Grandma was in the audience, and Lenai's sight had already caught her.

Xiaosui was behind him, his scorching gaze worthy of the attention of millions of people.

"What's going on? This feeling, it's been a long time since I've felt... the excitement of a performance."

No longer so numb, no longer so boring. Although the music has not yet started, Lenai can already hear it.

Music is revived and becomes endless.

【At the same time, this period also determines the value of the musician.】

"Are you ready, Lenai-chan?"

The drummer smiled gently at Lenai, forcing Lenai to sigh that her teammates were all great.

At least they are much gentler than their CrychicⅡ teammates when they first formed a band in high school.

"I'm ready."

[Many people risk their entire lives for a short period of time... and that period of time is only a few minutes.]

Playing guitar is a simple thing.

"The current state is very good. If it can be maintained——"

At least playing is easy for Kaname.

Just pluck the strings, just glance sideways to meet the audience's eyes... just hear the first note and blink.

The show will end!

hum-

……

"The performance is over, another great success!"

"I didn't expect it, little Lenai. Your performance is getting more and more eye-catching, and it makes our performance even more colorful!" The drummer laughed and waved his drumstick, as if he was beating the drum to celebrate.

"Yes. Our cooperation is becoming smoother and smoother. We are like old partners who have worked together for over a hundred years," guitar lead singer Abby shook her long hair, and the youth and beauty of the beautiful girl were fully reflected at this moment.

"Thank you, everyone, for your hard work."

Lenai tried hard to make her reply sound as if she was just trying to please everyone, but as soon as she stepped down from the stage, her attention was completely focused on her daughter.

I'm so sorry, my teammates.

But I really need my daughter to cheer me up.

Kaname Lenai lifted her little girl high in the air. Chitose Kaname, who was held in the air, was as well-behaved as a kitten. She said with a smile:

"That's great, Mom! That sounds great!"

As soon as you hear these words, the fatigue or exhaustion in your body can be cured in an instant.

This is the power of love!

"Really? Lena-chan stopped chatting with us after she became a mother," the bassist jumped in front of Lena and wanted to hug Chitose, but Lena slapped his hand away. "Besides, Lena-chan is very protective of her food."

"No, it's just that I'm sweating all over after a performance, and I'm afraid you'll get Xiaosui dirty."

Yao Lenai now felt relaxed. The comfort and pleasure brought by the gradual removal of the shackles in her heart made her mind clear. For a while, she learned to play tricks with her teammates.

"Tsk, you're obviously sweaty too, how dare you rub your pussy?"

"That's different," Lenai winked, "Sui is mine."

Age and music are both my things!

……

Age and music are simply the spice of life.

As usual, after the performance, I returned to the company with my friends to hold a small celebration party.

It was called a celebration party, but in fact it was just the bassist picking up the takeaway food that he had ordered in advance from downstairs.

The bassist has no complaints about this, after all, he has been doing this for many years since joining the band and playing bass.

"Sui, matcha parfait, specially ordered for you."

Kaname Rina, who carried Chitose wherever she went, wiped the fried chicken cheese sauce from the corner of Chitose's mouth and handed her their favorite matcha parfait.

I’m not sure if children can eat so unhealthily, but it should be okay.

Lenai remembered that she had gone through the same thing as a child... right? It seemed her grandmother was reluctant to let her eat unhealthy fried foods.

"Love you~ Mom."

"I love you too, year old."

I like them no matter what age they are... Of course, now there is only one age that I can like.

So sad.

Le Nai tilted his head and thought:

【At least I still have one year left, right? 】

At least I'm still one year old, so it's not a big problem.

"You play beautifully. I can see your progress during practice recently. That's great."

Abi's hands were rubbing Chitose's head. For some reason, Lenai felt that they were a little too close, as if they had known each other before.

Kaname shook her head and straightened her throat: "Although I'm still a little confused, I've now learned to escape reality."

"Escape from reality?"

"Well," facing his partner's interested question, Lenai explained:

“I don’t play guitar for anything else, but for the people I care about.”

“Perhaps, this is the reason why I play this music alone.”

"..."

While pinching her daughter's soft little face, Lenai didn't get a reply from Abi for a long time.

She turned her head slightly, only to see the other person slowly opening and closing his lips:

"Really? I've been thinking about something similar to escape reality. Lenai's idea is right, but the answer depends on the individual."

"Ok?"

【interesting. 】

A look of surprise flashed in the eyes of the big cat Yaolena. The little cat Chitose was very quiet and did not interrupt Abi's narration:

"I also have other opinions on your answer, such as—"

"You can't escape reality without recognizing it fully, but distraction is a great technique, after all."

"What does this mean, Abby?"

Instead of being embarrassed because her idea of ​​diverting attention was exposed, Lenai was not averse to such interesting topics.

Recently, my outlook on life and values ​​have been impacted again and again. It seems that Kaname Lenai, who died at the age of fourteen, has started to grow up for the third time.

I’m lucky to be in a band like this, to have a family like this, and I’m lucky to have found Chitose Kaname.

"It's simple. It means when faced with reality, do you cover your eyes and stand still, or do you open them and keep charging forward?" Abby held up two fingers. "There's a huge difference between the two."

“Sometimes we can escape reality, but there’s a difference between escaping and avoiding it.”

"If your escape is just to make yourself as comfortable as possible without being able to change anything—"

"It would just be a slow death."

Ch406. Please don't become like me

"It would just be a slow death."

The band's lead guitarist pronounced a critical illness notice like a physician after surgery.

That's the way it is.

"A slow death... maybe."

With her fingertips touching her daughter's nose, Lenai's mind was completely drawn away.

What have I been avoiding all these years?

I am probably one of those people who closes my eyes and walks around in circles.

"Indeed, Lenai, facing reality is a very scary thing. You even have to admit facts that you don't want to admit."

Closing his eyes and clearing his mind, Abi gave Lenai his final instructions:

“But if you really want to change reality, you need to face it before you deny it.”

"Otherwise, it would be nothing more than closing your eyes and standing still. This level of escape is just escape."

"..."

The other members of the band were still making a lot of noise, but Lenai no longer had the heart to continue celebrating.

Abi's words made Lenai understand a lot, but not only that.

She forced Lenai to face some realities that she had never dared to peek into.

"what."

Kaname shivered and felt a chill down his spine.

[So. I've been running away for so many years... I guess I'm the only one who's been standing still.]

"Good luck, Lenai. Just be careful."

"..."

"um. Thank you."

He closed his eyes and fell into deep thought. In the corner where Kaname Rana couldn't see, his daughter Kaname Chitose winked at her good teammate.

[Well done, great system.]

【Ah. 】

With a smile on his face and his eyes narrowed, Chitose lay on Kaname Rakuna and rubbed his head against his mother's heart.

It is softer than a pillow filled with cotton, and just as elastic as a balloon filled with water.

[I've taken advantage of you so much before, and now that I've become a child, let me take advantage of you again.]

My lovely, Lenai-chan.

Closing her eyes like Lenai, Chitose Noshiro threw away all her usual characteristics.

It is also necessary to check Lenai's mental state at all times.

……

[Seeing Through the Profits: The target, Kaname, is in a complex state of mind. She doesn't dare open her eyes to look at the host, but her mind is filled with thoughts of the host and the hosts before she used Nirvana.]

[The number of times this simulation can be used is: 1]

[Stargazing Benefits: Lenai's status is tangled, and his mental state is still developing.]

[The number of times you can use stargazing today is 0]

……