I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

I'm not happy, I'm sad.

Su Shi's speech was intermittent, and she would often freeze and burst into tears while speaking.

She once again broke away from that warm embrace, and without support, she felt cold.

"I'm so fragile, I'm sorry... I can't accept the end of a relationship anymore, so I really need an answer... No, I need more than an answer."

Neon lights are flickering, and outside the window is a bright moonlight.

It was around three in the morning. Nagasaki Suyo leaned against the glass window and looked at Noshiro Chitose in confusion.

"What I need is constant responses... I may need your confirmation and comfort every day. I am in trouble. My heart is full of holes and no one has ever been able to heal me..."

"Are you sure you want to accept someone like me? My friends have all left me tacitly a long time ago, so why don't you leave me?"

The sight of Su Shi hugging her knees is truly heartbreaking, and one cannot help but wish to hug her and rub her into their body to protect her forever.

[Is this the most vulnerable side of Nagasaki Suyo's heart? ]

Qiansui knelt and moved his body slowly.

Human beings are too complex, and the hearts they can open to each identity are limited.

The troubles that one opens one's heart to and shares with one's mother are definitely different from those that one shares with one's daughter, but Chitose Noshiro is a special case.

What Nagasaki Suyo revealed to Noshiro Chitose was what she revealed to her mother, daughter, and close friend.

She has kept herself as "open" as possible.

"Why don't I leave you? Interesting question."

Qiansui held Su Shi's hand and pressed her to the ground. At this moment, the voice she chose was no longer the voice she learned in simulation, but her real voice.

It is... the voice of the real Chitose Noshiro.

"I won't find you annoying even if you ask me every day, and I'll just find you cute even if you rely on me... I know you've encountered too many impatient people, and that's tormenting. I understand."

The environment they were in seemed to no longer be the duplex high-rise overlooking the sea and the river in Nagasaki Sushi, but they had returned to the beach where Chitose took little Sushi, and Sushi took little Chitose to walk barefoot.

"But Sushi, I'm not those people."

Every breath she took was filled with the scent of Nagasaki Suyo's crying. Noshiro Chitose stared into Suyo's eyes, and whenever she tried to turn her head away, she would straighten it out.

"At the same time, Su Shi, I am not your mother or your daughter. I can cooperate with you, but we also have to face reality."

"I... am Chitose Noshiro. I'm your friend, your best friend."

"I will stay with you forever, but I can't stay with you in any other capacity."

"Nagasaki Suyo, it's a pity that I'm not your mother or daughter!"

The drooping white hair intertwined with the brown hair, and Qiansui heard the roar of the waves.

"I'm Chitose Noshiro. Stop fantasizing about other things! Come and live with me in reality! If you want comfort, you can come to me and ask for it... No!"

"It's me! I'll take the initiative to stick close to you and give you the endless warmth you crave... Whether it's maternal love or anything else you want, I can give it to you. Do you understand what I'm saying?"

"I want to walk with you forever. Come on, you can call me by your name if you want. Please, believe me!"

“I! I…”

Nagasaki Suyo felt inexplicably happy.

She looked the girl straight in the eye, and the phantoms of the young and the old were dispelled like the moon revealed by the clouds.

The only person she could see was Chitose Noshiro.

The girl who would play with her, play the role of her mother or daughter to make her happy, come to comfort her in the middle of the night... and pick her up and take her home.

"age?"

"Ah."

"age…"

I still can't forget the dreams of the past, but I have tasted the sweetness of the present world.

"I just want you to be real..."

Please, Chitose Noshiro!

Just once... No! Just once in reality!

"Let me forget everything, okay? Use your love to heal me, okay."

Ch343. I wish you and the people who love you happiness forever

The girl said to me:

"Heal me with your love, please."

The situation is actually much better than expected. Putting aside the current terrible postures of the two and the not-so-pleasant atmosphere, things are still within the normal range.

I guess so?

"Okay, then..."

Gradually, step by step, Nagasaki Suyo was finally appeased.

Chitose Noshiro no longer had to force herself to hold on to her spirit and strength. She leaned over Su Shi, and finally released the strength in her arms and lay directly on top of Su Shi.

"Then spend your miserable life with me and then die. I love you, Nagasaki Suyo."

"I hope you will never hide in the closet again. Please come to my arms and act like a spoiled child, just like you did when you were a child."

Qiansui was so tired that her limbs could not move. She pouted and sniffed the pleasant scent on Su Shi's body.

"If the price of growing up is crying in the middle of the night, then be a child, Sushi."

At least with me, you are always qualified to be a child.

Chitose Noshiro's mind was full of the short essay that Nagasaki Motoyo had posted.

Sending these words to someone who might be asleep in the middle of the night must mean you are extremely helpless.

God knows how this child survived that cold and lonely period.

No…I should say yes.

[God knows how this child managed to give me so much life. What kind of loneliness did she experience?]

"Hmm... Yeah! Years old."

Nagasaki Suyo gently put her hand into Chitose's hair.

"Even now, I'm still scared, but it's great to have you."

What I have is not another Chitose. What I have is the Chitose before me.

Her heartbeat resonated with my own, and it frightened me.

"I'm afraid I'll never forget this night."

Thank you for finding me in this corner of the world.

Thank you for taking me home.

Thank you for reassuring me that the happiness I have will never die or fade away.

[This time! I will make all the tragedies...]

【Never again! 】

Nagasaki Suyo's eyes were firm.

……

Chitose Noshiro still remembers the determined gaze of Suyo Nagasaki.

More than ten minutes had passed since she left Su Shi's house. She rejected Su Shi's proposal to stay overnight. After all, she had to get up early to prepare meals for her sister for the day, accompany Toyokawa Shoko to school, and greet the lights at the intersection.

These things cannot be delayed at all because they are what she promised to the girls.

"call."

The way home alone is quiet and relaxing. You can often see office workers sleeping on the street after socializing at izakayas.

Everyone is trying their best to live.

When I walked to the street downstairs of my house, I didn’t know if I was seeing things, but I felt like the sky seemed to be bright.

"worn out."

Chitose took a nap leaning against the wall outside a roadside shop. The yellow-brown stone wall behind him was uneven and made him feel uneasy.

"Is this my daily routine from now on?"

Chitose looked in the direction of the Nagasaki Suyo family, still smiling even though he was physically and mentally exhausted.

Solve the girls' troubles, adjust their relationships, and finally promise them everything they need.

Love, companionship, honor...

Chitose Noshiro realized that she would have to continue living like this for the rest of her life.

Maybe there will be many people around me in the future. They may be more difficult to deal with than Su Shi, more lonely than Deng, or more complicated than Xiangzi.

But what does it matter?

What does it matter?

"I can replace Chitose!"

Chitose found a 24-hour coffee shop and ordered a cup of American coffee to enjoy when she woke up in the morning, which was four hours later.

While waiting, she had no intention of looking at her phone, but was staring at the clerk's back in a daze.

[How many girls did you make cry today? ]

I do not remember.

[How many girls' tears have you made today? ]

Too many, and the skirt becomes a collection display cabinet of tears.

[These tears are shed for me, they are truly mine...]

His fingertips slid across the marble surface of the counter, but in terms of smoothness, it was definitely not as smooth as Su Shi's cheek.

"When does the next simulation start?"

Having asked this question countless times in his heart, Chitose actually couldn't bear to leave everyone in reality.

To simulate again means to continue to separate.

When will we meet again after this separation?

Wait...after the weekend.

At least this weekend, I want to spend time with you all.

"Then I'll continue the simulation on Sunday night before school starts, so I don't have the panic and sleepless nights that Monday is coming."

"Your coffee! Please take it. Be careful, it's hot."

"Thank you, have a nice evening and have a good rest after get off work."

As the coffee entered her mouth, the scalding liquid burned Qiansui's skin through the paper cup.

Chitose felt that Riki's tears were hotter than hot coffee.

"I really want to... have a sip."

She knew she should go home immediately, not stay up late any longer and shouldn't crave coffee.

But if you talk too much in one night, your mouth will inevitably become dry.

Chitose Noshiro stared at the black coffee for a long time on her way home, and finally couldn't resist the temptation and took a small sip.

Just drinking one sip won’t affect her sleep... After all, her eyelids are already drooping to the extreme at this moment.

But, tragedy happened.

"Cough cough cough cough, what the hell is this!"

Chitose's face was filled with bitterness, all she tasted was sweetness.