I am your deceased love sustenance 1

She smiled and put her face against the other person's. She rubbed her cheek against the other person's cheek. The warm feeling gradually calmed Li Xi's mood.

"Well, I need one... But wait a minute, I still need to go downstairs to mix some seasonings and spices."

The old man's appetite is becoming more and more difficult to satisfy.

Nowadays, if there is not enough seasoning, Qiansui may not be able to eat a single bite.

Is this also a reflection of the worsening of the disease?

"Don't think too much, my baby, I'm in good health."

Putting down the pen, Chitose held Li Xi's hand.

Lixi's hands were cold. Lixi's hands were never warm. Lixi was stupid.

But it doesn’t matter. Chitose’s hands are very warm. As long as their hands are holding together, Chitose will not stop warming Lixi’s little hands.

"Look, I played for two hours during the day, and I'm fine, right?"

"That's what I said, but..."

"Hurry up and get busy, Lixi, go quickly, I have a little surprise for you tonight."

"what?"

Qiansui vaguely grabbed his collar and fanned himself inside.

"You'll know what it is in a moment."

Before Lixi walked out of the house, Qiansui gave her a meaningful look.

The look was so gentle that Li Xi straightened his back a little.

……

What is the surprise?

Once people have ideas and thoughts, they will be full of energy to work.

Li Xi prepared the spices for tomorrow's cooking according to the popular science books on nutrition, turned off all the lights on the first floor, and walked upstairs quickly.

Her heart was pounding, more nervous and exciting than when she was beating a drum.

When she finally reached the bedroom that belonged to them both, Li Xi hesitated for a long time before pushing the door open.

"Xiao Sui, I'm here."

It’s time to take off my hearing aids, Shiina Riki thought.

But that's not the case.

"Lixi, I'm in bed, come on."

Chitose Noshiro actually replied to her... This idiot must have worn hearing aids for too long today, right?

The room was pitch black. Li Xi subconsciously said "hmm", and his heart beat faster.

She had a strange premonition... tonight would definitely be a moment she would remember for the rest of her life.

After taking off her clothes and wearing only her nightgown, Li Xi sat on the edge of the bed trembling, but was quickly pulled in by Qiansui's little hand that stretched out from under the quilt.

"Years old, what is this?"

Although it was pitch black under the quilt, Li Xi still vaguely saw something.

But she couldn't see clearly.

Until... Chitose pulled her hand and touched it.

"Years old? Where are your clothes?"

"Lixi, you are so long-winded..."

Chitose moved Riki's hand upwards until it touched Chitose's lips.

The soft texture of her lips reminded Lixi of every kiss they had had in the past.

"Lixi, will you feel sorry?"

With Riki's fingers against her lips, Chitose spoke slowly.

"What's the regret?"

"It's a shame... I can't let you experience that kind of thing like a normal best friend would... I see everyone else break through that level of relationship on the first day they meet, but we've never been that close as best friends. I have absolutely no experience at all. Is that bad?"

"No! That...that kind of thing I'm not looking forward to at all. Xiao Sui, what's wrong with you today? Why are you suddenly saying something like that?"

And...did such a thing!

Riki's face grew even redder as he recalled the surprising softness he had touched just above Chitose's belly seconds ago.

"Because I'm afraid you'll regret it. In this fast-paced world, Li Xi must be suffering a lot to meet someone like me who's slow to warm up..."

"No! I like Xiao Sui the most, we are super good friends. I have never thought of anything more excessive... It's good to be slow to warm up, and I am very grateful for it..."

Li Xi also held Qiansui's hand. Under the wrist wrapped in medical gauze was the wound that caused Li Xi the most pain.

She imitated Qiansui and put Qiansui's fingers to her lips.

"Xiao Sui, I will never have any regrets... The year I knew you was the happiest year of my life."

Ch235. She saved this kiss for the future

In fact, the current situation is completely out of Qiansui's plan.

she thinks.

Since it is the last month of my life, I should leave a gift for Lixi.

This wasn't done out of a desire to make the other person suffer more later... this was done out of a girl's supreme friendship for her own girl.

Although simulation is just a simulation, everyone in the simulation is still everyone.

Countless encounters have told Chitose Noshiro that these idiots are thinking idiots, not programs controlled by artificial intelligence.

Rather than saying this is a simulation, it would be better to say it is a parallel world.

So, facing the fact that Ritsuki is about to lose herself, what can Chitose Noshiro leave for Ritsuki Shiina?

"Lixi, you really won't regret it?"

Li Xi put a thin nightgown on Qiansui, saying that he was worried that Qiansui would be cold.

Really, I’m not a child anymore, how could it be so easy... Well, no, it seems like it is.

After all, my body is broken.

"I won't regret it. We have plenty of time in the future. We can talk about those things... when we're adults, okay? No matter how many times I'm given the choice, I won't choose a path that hurts Xiaosui."

However, I have hurt Xiaosui countless times.

Holding Chitose from behind, they lay on the soft big bed and whispered to each other.

Chitose Noshiro's hearing aid reflected the moon's light.

Li Xi suddenly didn't know how to start.

She felt so embarrassed...for saying such a thing.

He had clearly hurt Xiao Sui countless times, and all the wounds and scars on Sui's body were related to Li Xi.

It can even be said that Chitose's family, life, and destiny were all destroyed by Riki.

Even if I am like this, do I still have the nerve to say that I will never hurt Chitose?

And what is even more unforgivable is——

When Chitose invited her just now...she actually hesitated.

She was not as determined as she thought.

"After destroying someone's life, you still covet their body... Shiina Ritsuki, you are such a jerk."

"Xiao Sui, if..."

Li Xi felt that his hands around Qiansui's waist were trembling slightly.

"If what?"

Riki noticed that Chitose's voice was getting weaker.

She must be dozing off after a tiring day.

"If, I mean if...if your life was ruined by someone else, would you forgive her?"

"What if that person was me? What if I ruined your life? What if I broke your wings and tried to imprison and restrict your freedom... would you still love me?"

"If my promises were as fragile as a ridiculous joke, nothing more than the casual talk of an egomaniac... would you still believe me?"

Li Xi said a lot of things in a low voice.

I kept talking until my mouth was dry, until all the inner entanglements and struggles were calmed, until—

"Are you asleep, Xiaosui?"

Li Xi shook Qiansui a few times, and when she turned the girl over and held her in her arms face to face, Li Xi saw tears in the corners of her eyes.

Chitose was indeed asleep.

But why is Xiaosui crying?

"Stupid, always acting smart, but so stupid when sleeping that he can't even take off his hearing aids."

After wiping away Qiansui's tears and looking at the crystal-clear moisture on his fingertips, Shiina Riki couldn't help but be stunned.

[It seems that this finger touched Xiaosui's lips just now.]

right.

Absolutely.

As her fingers gradually approached Lixi's lips, countless thoughts and ideas emerged in her mind.

What would Xiao Sui's tears taste like?

If I kiss my fingers, does that mean I'm kissing Xiao Sui indirectly?

Little Years...

He wanted to hug Chitose tightly, but it was rare for the girl to fall asleep peacefully, and Li Xi couldn't bear to wake her up.

Qiansui's face was pale, and Lixi kissed his fingertips carefully.

Tears are bitter, but there seems to be sweetness hidden in the bitterness. I have seen the other person sobbing countless times, but this is the first time I have tasted the other person's tears.

"Xiao Sui, I like you so much..."

With gentle movements, Li Xi took off Qiansui's hearing aid.

When the world of a thousand years had returned to silence, Li Xi dared to speak out his thoughts.

"I know you like me too...but, but..."

"But why would you hurt yourself? You should know that even if it's just your wrist that's cut, it's also a cut to my heart."

I cherish you so much, why do you make me sad? Why do you have so many friends? Why do you have such a wide range of interests? Why is your passion for music as strong as yours, or even stronger than mine?

Why is your enlightenment so profound?

Why did you save me in the first place? Why did you come into my life later?

Why did I fall in love with you, and why did I get infected with various diseases?

Why don't you love yourself at all? Why are you so selfless, so selfless as to sacrifice your hearing to realize your dream in exchange for the life of me, a passerby?

Why you... why you...

It was not until the pillow became wet that Shiina Riki realized that he was crying too.

She felt that she must have cried miserably.

But, actually it’s okay.

At least Xiaosui didn't see how miserable he looked.

Li Xi hated to see his beloved sad for him. If Xiao Sui was still awake, he would definitely cry after seeing him cry.