I am your deceased love sustenance 1

"Developing a weight-recovery plan, along with medication and psychological counseling, is troublesome, but don't worry, it's not serious."

"Hey! Thank you, doctor."

Doctor Huizuka seemed to have thought of something before leaving. She turned around and continued speaking:

"Remember, don't let her continue to be under high pressure. Also, remember her diet... If she's playing in a band, she should stop. The exhaustion and pressure of each performance will crush her."

"Okay! But..."

Doctor, how did you know Xiaosui was in a band?

Before Shiina Riki could ask, the doctor disappeared into the shadows around the corner.

Only Shiina Riki was left there, looking at the medical record over and over again.

"How could this happen... This kind of thing is so scary."

She poked her head out from the corner and saw Chitose Noshiro still sitting not far away receiving an IV drip.

Li Xi's eyes were glued to the white-haired girl.

……

[Are you feeling better?]

"fruit."

[Hmm? Want some fruit?]

"Um…"

[I'll buy you some fruit when we pass by a fruit shop later. But Xiao Sui, I need to discuss something with you.]

After replenishing enough glucose, Li Xi took Chitose home.

Today is another busy day in the city, with people coming and going and no one caring about the sadness of the two girls.

【Little Years! 】

Li Xi's sign language was already perfect. She first patted Qiansui's shoulder, and finally made up her mind to say:

[You have anorexia. Um... we might not be able to hold band activities soon.]

"Eh?"

Anorexia?

This time the skill really gave me a great job.

Chitose's puzzled look seemed cute to Li Xi, but it was obvious that this was not a good thing.

[Take a good rest recently. I will tell everyone about your situation... everyone will understand you.]

"What? Can't perform? Then..."

Fear, anxiety, and frustration, Shiina Riki found it difficult to describe what he saw in Noshiro Chitose's expression.

Maybe... for someone like Chitose who spends most of his life fighting, relaxing is actually much harder than fighting hard?

[It's just a short break. It's okay, dear.]

Rubbing Chitose's little head, the warm feeling was really wonderful. Shiina Riki took her little girl's hand and walked across the street. When passing by the fruit shop, she did not forget to go in and pick a few bunches of grapes for Chitose.

"Grapes are so expensive. Living expenses are running low again."

Li Xi complained quietly about the outrageous price of fruit. She glanced at Qiansui and found that her girl lowered her head and looked unhappy.

【Xiao Sui, what's wrong with you? 】

"Lixi, my stomach feels empty. It's so uncomfortable."

While speaking, Qiansui rubbed his belly.

There really wasn't any extra fat there, and Li Xi sincerely hoped that Chitose would be a little fatter.

She’s a little cook who cooks delicious meals, but can’t Chitose fatten herself up?

It’s really…

"Lixi...really...can't you perform anymore?"

Noshiro Chitose blinked her pitiful eyes weakly, but Shiina Ritsuki's heart, as strong as iron, would never be moved.

[Yes, absolutely not. Crychic will be suspending activities for at least two months... no, within six months.]

"Huh? But there's a big show next month, and all the famous girl bands around here will be participating... Hasn't everyone been looking forward to it for a long time?"

"That won't work either. I wanted to tell you this when I had my hearing checked last month! My hearing has deteriorated so rapidly that I can't wear hearing aids as often. After all, at 18, the situation isn't looking good. So, just give it a rest."

"But, but."

[There's no buts. If you don't obey, your body will feel even worse. Xiao Sui doesn't want to feel bad, right?]

Li Xi's words were a mixture of coaxing and deception.

But Qiansui didn't say anything. There was an inexplicable light in her eyes. Only she knew whether she listened to Li Xi's advice or not.

[Huh? Why aren't you talking? Are you feeling down again?]

"Hmm... Ugh..."

On the side of the road, the black-haired girl patted the white-haired girl on the back, and the white-haired girl vomited into the sewer in embarrassment.

In fact, I haven't been able to vomit anything for a long time.

Chitose was just coughing out water, along with the medicine he had just taken in the hospital.

"Really? You're still trying to act tough like that just now?"

Xiaosui, you really are such an idiot.

Sometimes your persistence and perseverance make me feel a little... incomprehensible.

I really hope you can take better care of yourself.

Ch227. From today on, it's my turn to cook

"Chitose can't eat heavy food. She says the greasy feeling makes her want to vomit."

"But... Chitose can't eat bland food either. It will make her lose her appetite even more."

"Hey! Maybe try adding more spices? Make a note of that."

The kitchen, a place that Shiina Riki never thought he would occupy for a long time in his life.

But life is so magical. Not long ago, Qiansui cooked for herself, but now I am cooking for Xiaosui.

"Haha, life."

Li Xi put down his pen, tore off the sticky note, and carefully and neatly stuck it on the refrigerator to remind himself not to make mistakes when cooking.

After all, even if we predict the best case scenario, she will have to cook for Chitose for at least half a year.

This is assuming everything goes well.

"I haven't cooked for a long time, I didn't expect it to be so tiring..."

To be honest, for the past six months... no, a year, Chitose Noshiro has been cooking delicious food for her.

This caused Li Xi's skills to become rusty and stiff. It was terrible.

"I didn't expect these guys to react so strongly. But the band has suspended its activities recently, so everyone can take a good rest and prepare for school." Lixi took off her apron and stirred the thick soup in the pot with a spoon.

She added a lot of seasonings to it, hoping that Chitose would have some appetite.

With the fruit plate served, Lixi followed the sound of the piano up to the attic.

"Xiao Sui! He's touching the piano again!"

I told you! Just lie still and don't move. This guy is really...

"You really don't care about yourself! Something bad will happen sooner or later!"

As Chitose's closest... friend! Um... partner... Li Xi felt it was his duty to ask her to stop playing.

"I still can't really understand what burning is."

……

"Oh, it's so uncomfortable. Every simulation is a torture."

As a qualified simulator, what did Chitose Noshiro experience during her simulation trip?

Death from falling from heights, heart failure caused by alcoholism, being stabbed to death by a random killer, premature death from intractable diseases caused by long-term high-pressure and irregular work and rest, persistent high fever, cancer, disease, drowning, inflammation, deafness, depression, anorexia...

I'm trying too hard to live longer...

Chitose stretched lazily. She couldn't even think of food for a second.

For example, animal organs and mashed potatoes, the thought of which makes Chitose feel nauseous and want to vomit, but his stomach is empty and there is nothing to vomit.

"It's really uncomfortable...but this is exactly what I want."

This time Qiansui did not intend to die of illness.

Dying of illness all the time is too monotonous. Only different ways of dying can make you realize the preciousness of life.

This will make Chitose more motivated to live; this will make him more able to act without hesitation in every future simulation.

"Ugh."

The condition did not improve after returning from the hospital.

Anorexia... Chitose felt that even if she didn't use that ability on herself, her simulated self would get it sooner or later.

It was fine when Lixi was at home, but as soon as Lixi left, Qiansui would forget to eat. Add to that the mental pressure from constantly practicing various music styles and going to performances...

"Eh~"

This kind of thing feels really hard to avoid.

Chitose couldn't eat food on a daily basis. Now, whenever she thought of the food she once loved, she would think of its worst side.

When you think of barbecue, you think of greasy gravy; when you think of tripe, you think of an inexplicable plastic and rubbery feeling...

Many times, fruit is the only salvation for Qiansui. The refreshing feeling can temporarily relieve the nausea in her body.

When clean water poured into his throat, it expanded into a false feeling of fullness. When he induced vomiting, the stomach acid burned his esophagus, bringing a sharp pain that felt like relief. Noshiro Chitose tasted twisted pain in the smell of blood.

"Tongzi, are you sure that once I return to normal, I will immediately adapt to the feeling of having normal hearing, no anorexia, and no depression?"

"Yes, my dear child, yes."

The system's fingertips slid across Qiansuiguo's exposed shoulder and finally stopped at the corner of her lips.

"That's disgusting, don't touch me."

"I advise you to stop talking to yourself. Only you can hear my voice, but yours may not be able to..."

The system pointed in the direction of the stairs, and Chitose heard faint footsteps.

The girl with purple eyes is going upstairs.

"Don't worry, I'll help you get rid of the process of adapting to normal. Thank you for the hard work of the simulation. I'll take less kickbacks from you this time."

"Huh?! Tell me honestly, what percentage of my total lifespan do I gain in each simulation?"

Chitose Noshiro was like a kitten with its fur standing on end, her eyes filled with indignation.

When I think about how I earn less, it feels like I’ve lost money.

"Let me think about it."

Using the system of a mature female body, she sat on the windowsill, ready to jump out of the house at any time.

"Probably—you split 50, I split 50, right? Sometimes, if I'm in a good mood or if you've earned enough lifespans, it'll be you split 60, I split 40."

"Fifty-five and forty-six? You idiot, it's all my money."

"Don't worry, I love you the most. See you later."

The system blew a kiss and fell back, disappearing from Qiansui's sight.

The next moment, a bird with white feathers and golden eyes flew over the windowsill, leaving behind a series of calls, and Shiina Riki walked up.

【Little Years! 】