I, the Lord of the Fifth Heavenly Throne, flow out of all things!

Now that he has disappeared and come here, and has not contacted his eldest brother, he doesn't know if the other party will do anything alone.

He knew that his elder brother would not commit suicide, but for his own sake he would definitely push his wheelchair and go find him.

"Sacrifice of honor? Haha..."

After listening to Li Yuanhai's story, Kagura Ren couldn't help but sneer. She was not laughing at the other party, but mocking those fat-headed people mentioned by Li Yuanhai.

"So-called glory is nothing more than a tool for superiors to motivate their subordinates. It's the same for any family, organization, or country. They set up high and low positions, and clearly define the rules for promotion, so that people can climb up from the bottom. After all, it's human nature to pursue profits, and power often gives people the illusion that they are superior to others and that their lives are more valuable than ordinary people."

"At the same time, in order to prevent those below them from seeing the truth, those in higher positions often unify values, clarify concepts such as honor and merit, establish high and low positions, unequal benefits, or use some sacrificial speech to control people's hearts."

"There are many people like this who think they are superior to others and fools who cannot see the truth in Japan and the world."

Li Yuanhai couldn't help but nod in agreement after hearing these blunt and impolite remarks.

He used to be so childish and naive, a fool who didn’t see the truth clearly.

But his stupidity back then was only temporary, as he no longer has that kind of naivety.

However, the residents of other worlds started arguing about the remarks that Li Yuanhai agreed with.

After all, what Kagura Ren said was too true.

These remarks immediately made those in power who exploit others, as well as those who are naturally exploited, change their expressions.

"Ridiculous! This is absolutely ridiculous!!"

"You evil, rebellious little devil!"

"This person is misleading people with his lies. Don't listen to him!"

In the continent of Teyvat, the three magistrates of Inazuma, the merchants and families of Liyue, the Church of Xumi, the nobles of Fontaine, and so on, all roared in anger.

Looking at the face of Kagura Ren in the sky, they simply wanted to kill this inherently evil kid.

Damn, if you know it, then you know it. Why do you have to be so direct and clear?

Zhongli, who was drinking tea and watching a play in the Wangsheng Hall, couldn't help but have a strange expression and frowned.

He was not angry. After all, what Kagura Ren said was not completely unreasonable.

It's just that it's said too directly and too contemptuously, making it difficult for people to accept.

Being Zhongli, he did not object.

As an emperor, he disagreed.

He loves Liyue as if it were his own child, and can openly state that he is definitely not the kind of person that Kagura Ren described.

But... Zhongli cannot guarantee anything for those people in high positions in Liyue and their families.

"Hey, that's really well said..."

In the Collapse World, Cocolia in the Reverse Entropy couldn't help but sneer. She agreed with what Kagura Ren said 120% of the time.

After all, she is very similar to the kind of person that Kagura Ren described.

She had no power and no status before, and her life was not good.

But after becoming one of the superiors of Anti-Entropy, she indeed became the kind of person Kagura Ren described.

"Damn it, what the hell is this guy talking about!!"

At St. Freya's College, Theresa was very unhappy about these words that destroyed unity.

These remarks directly belittled the heroes who sacrificed in the collapse and attacked the Valkyries who fought for the betterment of the world.

She could imagine the Valkyries being shaken after hearing these words.

But at this moment, the angry Theresa couldn't help but think of her grandfather Otto, and her face finally fell a little.

Some people are not the kind of people that Kagura Ren mentioned, but that doesn’t mean they don’t exist at all.

……

Through Kagura Ren's words, Li Yuanhai could also confirm that Kagura Ren was not a Japanese in the normal sense.

Because, he could see it.

Kagura Ren doesn't like Japan, nor does she hate it. Her attitude towards it is like treating a stranger. No, like a dispensable tool, right?

"What about you, Kagura?"

After explaining why he came to the main god space, Li Yuanhai put on his glasses and asked Kagura Ren.

He was also curious about why this person came to the main god space.

"I think I have mental problems."

In response to Li Yuanhai's question, Kagura Ren was silent for a moment, then touched her head with a complicated expression.

Have a mental problem?

Li Yuanhai was stunned for a moment, but Kagura Ren clenched her fist with a melancholy expression and continued:

"Depersonalization, also known as depersonalization disorder, is a rare and complex mental illness, characterized by persistent or repeated feelings that the individual or the surrounding environment has become alienated, strange or unreal. I don't know if it's because of my congenital deformity, but the world in my eyes has a thin sense of reality. It feels like... everything around me is a person in a painting."

Kagura Ren didn't know if she had this rare mental illness, but the condition described by this mental illness was very similar to her own.

There are different types of this condition.

The first is the depersonalization type.

Among the symptoms is emotional alienation: the patient feels that his or her emotions or inner experiences have become distant, strange, as if they are not his or her own, or have been lost.

Sense of loss of identity: People may feel as if their emotions and actions belong to someone else or feel like they are acting.

Sense of being a bystander: The patient experiences himself as a bystander, observing his own behavior and emotions but unable to truly participate in them.

Robot feeling: Patients will complain that they cannot experience their own emotions, or feel that they have lost control over their mind or body, and feel like a robot.

The second is the "Reality Disintegration Type"

These patients experience an altered perception of their surroundings.

Specific symptoms include a sense of unfamiliarity: the patient feels that the surroundings or specific objects look strange, deformed, bland, lifeless, and boring.

Sense of stage: Sometimes patients feel that the surroundings are like a stage and everyone is acting on this stage.

Perceptual changes: May be accompanied by changes in the perception of time or space, such as a sense of time distortion.

The third is [emotional disintegration type]

This type refers specifically to the patient's impairment in emotional experience.

For example, loss of emotional experience: the patient feels that he or she has lost the ability to experience emotions, becomes numb, and seems unable to love or hate, feel sad or happy, feel anxious or sad, etc.

The last one is [body disintegration type]

The patient has an abnormal perception of his or her own body.

For example, the sense of body part mutation: the patient will feel that a part of himself is unreal, such as the upper limbs becoming longer, the lower limbs becoming thicker, the internal organs disappearing, etc.

Weightlessness: Sometimes patients experience a feeling of lightness, as if they have lost weight.

Kagura Ren has some of the above four types to a greater or lesser extent.

After hearing Kagura Ren explain the disease, Li Yuanhai tried hard to control the expression on his face so as not to show any pity or sympathy.

"So, you are because..."

"That's one of the reasons. No one wants to live like a zombie, so I started looking for my own way of living when I was a kid, and I did find it."

As she spoke, Kagura Ren's eyes revealed emotions as pure as a child's, and an inhuman smile appeared at the corner of her mouth.

That smile, like that of a devil, a demon, a saint, or a child... In short... it was a smile so complex that it could not be described with normal words.

At the same time, the look in his eyes could not be fully described by the word "crazy".

“That’s facing death.”

Kagura Ren's face showed some fascination, and his eyes were also flashing with obsession. He ignored Li Yuanhai's eyes and expression and continued to talk to himself:

"Of course, I didn't want to die or commit suicide, because when something threatened my life and killed me, I felt the pleasure of survival and the reality of survival at the same time as I felt that I would die. At that time, I thought - ah, it turns out that I am still alive!"

At this moment, the entire atmosphere seemed to be frozen.

At the same time, the residents of the three worlds who were originally arguing couldn't help but stop.

Many people heard of such a bizarre disease for the first time.

If you put yourself in their shoes, if you had this disease, the most appropriate description would be that life is worse than death.

Moreover, what Kagura Ren said about the walking dead also fits the description.

"I have a younger sister. Like her, I was an abandoned child. We were both born with a clear consciousness and witnessed our parents' abandonment. My sister has a martial arts talent that is superior to mine, but her health is very poor and she is often hospitalized due to emergencies."

The expression on Kagura Ren's face gradually calmed down, her eyes revealed the emotion of reminiscing about the past, and she even couldn't help laughing at the end.

"After my sister knew that I wanted to live in such a twisted way, she beat me half to death. At that time, I laughed and cried from the bottom of my heart like a masochist. There is no doubt that my sister is also capable of killing me, but I also know that she wanted to save me for my own good..."

What is being alive?

Is it true that we are alive if we just maintain the movement of our body and the activation of our cells?

If that's the case, Kagura Ren is indeed alive.

Well...living without a 'soul'.

Recalling the past, Kagura Ren still has a clear memory of the scene when Nanami pressed on him and beat him again and again.

There is no doubt that he cares for his sister and his sister also loves him.

But it was because of love that she killed him.

On the one hand, she wanted him to be truly alive, but on the other hand, she didn't want him to die...all these complex and contradictory emotions could be felt in Nanashi's knife.

"I should have lived as a demon, but I still had the opportunity to live like a human being. I could feel the reality in some people."

Kagura Ren raised the military canteen and took a sip of water to moisten her throat.

"Oh?"

Hearing what Kagura Ren said, Li Yuanhai couldn't help but raise his hand to push up his glasses, and said with interest: "Am I qualified for this honor?"

He finally understood why he had felt something was wrong with Kagura Ren from the very beginning.

He is suppressing himself, repressing himself, and making a ridiculous imitation of a normal human being.

In essence, it is not serious.

This person is very strong, so his imitation is as funny and contradictory as an eagle using its wings to race with earthworms on the ground, or a lion using its claws to break an egg.

He is trying to make himself look like a human being.

Kagura Ren glanced at Li Yuanhai and denied it without hesitation:

"No, the only sense of reality you give me is that you have a little potential to kill me."

"So, what about Erica?"

"Yes, but only half. The same goes for Takanashi Niya."

Although Erica also has a sense of reality, that sense of reality is like...how should I put it...like a part of herself.

Even if it's only half, the hunger in Kagura Ren's heart is still not satisfied.

However, it doesn't matter if he is not satisfied, he also possesses the gem that allows him to live as a human being.

"It's really strange, could it be a sense of similarity and resonance between special people?"

Li Yuanhai touched his chin, and his expression suddenly became a little strange when he heard that Takanashi Nia could give Kagura Ren some sense of reality.

After all, the common point between Kagura Ren and Takanashi Nia is that they both have their own unique characteristics.

Kagura Ren shook her head to indicate that she didn't know and wasn't sure what the principle was.

"The friends I know are all people who can give me that thin sense of reality, and the person with the strongest sense of reality is my girlfriend, who is also Erica's sister."

"…Is she also abnormal?"

"Her? When I first met her, she was mentally retarded. Erica said she couldn't speak when she was eight years old."

Kagura Ren smiled faintly and couldn't help but recall the little guy lying in her arms, holding on to her clothes tightly and refusing to let go.

"But in essence, my girlfriend has the same extraordinary eyesight as Takanari Nia. Takanari Nia can see emotions, while she can see information about everything. The world in her eyes is like a huge information library, full of complex information. But because she sees too many things, she has become extremely slow, dull-witted, and mentally retarded with a very poor memory."

Hearing this, Li Yuanhai couldn't help but reveal a look of surprise on his face.