I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

"....Yeah."

"Besides, you can't stand seeing others in trouble, right? I'm your sister after all, even though I'm much better than you... I'm still affected by this mentality. I can't just leave it alone, no matter who it is."

"..."

It was indeed so. Regardless of whether or not I was treated kindly by others, I truly wanted to show kindness to others.

Since she has responded to me like this...then there seems to be no reason for me to stop her.

"Then, when you need help and no one is there, you might as well try to rely on me."

Ambiguity and ambiguity

The cool breeze from the window kept the temperature low. If you only looked at the clear weather, you'd never guess the temperature was actually near freezing. The sun, high in the sky, seemed like a decorative ornament, completely unlike its summer state, emitting no noticeable heat.

Feeling a little sleepy, I reached out and closed the window. Finally, my left cheek, which had been blasted by the cold wind for half the class, felt a hint of warmth.

"Ha-ha-"

The body reacted naturally, showing extreme sleepiness.

Two days of vacation really isn't enough for me. I haven't recovered from my relaxed state yet... I tossed and turned yesterday and couldn't sleep, so I can't even concentrate on class right now. Well, I haven't really had the time to pay attention to class...

After a busy Saturday, Sunday was surprisingly uneventful. I slept until noon, then spent the rest of the day reading comics and watching movies. Thinking about it, a day is really short... and a lifetime is even shorter, not even enough for me to watch all the movies in the world.

Well, that's why there's a "trade-off." If you're too greedy, you'll end up with nothing. So, I'm a little curious why you have to teach so many courses. Wouldn't it be better to focus solely on a subject that interests you? Or is it that, because you're too young to make choices, you need to develop well-rounded skills at this stage?

“…So annoying.”

I feel a bit annoyed when I think about how what I am doing now has almost no connection with the future.

"If you feel bored in the classroom, how about standing in the corridor?" Brother Nan, who had walked down from the podium at some point, asked while tapping my head with a book.

"......"

Chapter 7: Ambiguity and Re-Ambiguity

"Let's go eat!" "Oh oh" "How about playing basketball for a while?" "Let's grab the ping-pong table"

As the activists at the back door dispersed, the last class of the morning finally came to an end. To avoid being harassed, I immediately ran towards the front door where no one had gathered yet without looking back.

"Hey - Sheji, where are you going?"

Even though I heard Ye Hui calling me, I pretended not to hear him and ran to the corridor in just a few seconds.

Sorry, sorry...I really have something to do now.

........

"Oh, long time no see. You can sit here."

Holding the food tray, I spotted an empty seat and took the initiative to sit opposite Jiumuting who was having her meal.

"Uh... yeah."

She seemed to hesitate for a moment before nodding, but I had already sat down before she agreed.

"Eh? Who is he? He's not from our class, is he?" "What, is he my boyfriend?"

Her friends who were dining with her immediately became interested when they saw this scene.

"No—just someone I know."

"Yeah, that kind of friend of a friend."

I explained, "I'm a sophomore like you, and I'm currently the acting president of the drama club."

"The drama club? I remember the show they put on the year before was pretty good." "Yeah, I remember there were a lot of handsome seniors there."

"Yes, yes, if you two are interested in acting, you can try to join in."

"Oh, are you recruiting for the club?" "But forget it, compared to those seniors, we are still a little..."

"No, no, in my opinion, you all have the talent to be actors. As the saying goes, clothes make the man. Once you put on your costumes, you won't be any worse than the seniors."

...That’s my reply for now.

"Really?" "You really can talk—"

"Ahahaha, it's all true."

...I didn’t expect that Jiumuting would actually have dinner with her friends...I hate dealing with situations like this the most.

"Um, is there something you want to talk to me about?" Jiumuting looked at me puzzledly.

"Just came over for a quick chat..."

"They must think you, Xiaoting, are suitable for acting." "Yes, yes, after all, Xiaoting has good skin and looks very foreign, so she is most suitable for playing a role like a princess."

“…”

What's wrong with these two guys? How could they bring up something like this without permission?

"Eh? Let's forget about this kind of thing... I'm not suitable for doing things that are exposed to the public..." Somehow, as if I was really inviting her to act, Jiumuting became shy.

"...It's okay, even if it's just a quick tour." In that case, let's just stick to that topic. "By the way, Li Qinya will also be here on the day of the cultural exhibition."

"Eh? Is that so? Xiaoya is coming..."

"Who is Xiaoya?" "Your friend?"

These two people really like to pry into other people's affairs...

"Yeah, she's from another school." She didn't seem to want to reveal her identity as a writer. "We met online and then we found out we were in the same city. It's really fate."

"That's really..." "It would be even better if it was a handsome guy. What a romantic love story."

"..."

As expected, the only things that teenagers think about are things between men and women...

"When it comes to romance, she prefers it."

"Is that right?"

"Yeah, I have a lot of romance comics and novels at home... but I don't really like reading them."

Jiumuting had unexpectedly let slip Li Qinya's preferences. Well, that makes sense. She always likes to use slightly exaggerated plots to heighten the romantic feel. It makes it easier for the audience to accept, after all, most people don't read novels for the heartbreaking scenes.

"Oh, you two are really close." I said casually, "You must know each other very well."

"It's not that serious. We just look like friends." She pointed at the two people beside her, "My relationship with them is the same."

"...Yeah. I see."

It seems that her thinking is normal...

"So, can we go visit the club after school today?"

"Eh? Ah, of course. Or rather, you're more than welcome." Suddenly asked about visiting a club, I thought I was going to Miss Rin's tea ceremony club. "However, they're currently rehearsing a program for a cultural exhibition. If you come, please don't leak the content of the performance."

"Oh, is that so..." "Don't worry, we can just take a quick tour."

"Uh-huh..."

"Then, Xiaoting will come with us, right?" "Yes, we'll all go. You have nothing to do after school anyway, so why not come with us."

"...Well..." She really wasn't good at being invited. She glanced at me awkwardly and nodded hesitantly. "If I just take a quick look..."

"Oh, that's great." "I'm actually quite interested in the drama club."

As she said that, one of the girls winked at me.

“…”

It seems like I've misunderstood something again...

. . . . . .

"I didn't expect you to take the initiative to invite people in for a visit." Senior Sun looked quite pleased. "It seems you really consider yourself a member of the drama club. Honestly, I'm so happy."

"You're too happy too early."

This wasn't my initiative.

Maybe they thought I was trying to get close to Jiumuting, so they were trying to bring us together in their own way... although I had no idea about Jiumuting at all.

"Yeah, since you're almost in your third year of high school...it's time to find someone to take over the club." He actually turned around and started thinking about this.

"You're thinking too far ahead." I hadn't even officially become club leader yet, but I was already looking for someone to replace me. "Don't worry about losing me. Let me handle this."

"Oh, that's up to you."

"...But I won't do what you did and pull in someone from outside who has nothing to do with the club. Honestly, that's hard to convince people. If you're going to find someone, you better look for someone from within the club."

Luckily, there wasn't anyone who wasn't convinced by me. Otherwise, I wouldn't have agreed to him so easily.

"It can't be helped. After all, you are a special person."

"...Why does this make me feel so uncomfortable? No, it's more than uncomfortable, it's just disgusting."

"...Maybe you're overthinking it?" He smiled. "But Senior Su told me the same thing back then. The reason I'm valued, trusted, and entrusted with important tasks is because, in his eyes, I'm more special than everyone else, right?"

"If I'm not mistaken...are you bragging?" Or bragging without any shame.

"Yeah, that's right." He actually admitted it.

"I'm too lazy to argue with you... Anyway, you're already taking the college entrance exam, and you're still participating in club activities after school. Is that really okay?"

"No problem, there's still half a year." He looked at the visitors talking with the actors not far away. "Having said that, after this cultural exhibition, I probably won't come here again."

“…”

"When the time comes, many things will be left to you to solve."

"Nothing should happen..."

I sincerely hope so.

"By the way, why did we stop rehearsing today? Is it just because someone came to visit?" The senior suddenly asked this question.

"Well, because I'm afraid they won't buy tickets after seeing it. That would be a loss for the club."

"Isn't that necessary?"

"...I'm also thinking about the club. Besides, they won't be here for long, and it's the same with rehearsals later. We still have plenty of time anyway."

Although I was told that I could see the rehearsal content, I still don't trust others.

"You're quite careful about this sort of thing."

"I can't help it... I think too much about things other than myself. But I don't think much about my own affairs."

"..."

"Sheji-senpai--!" "Senior-senpai!" "There are some things we don't understand--" "Could you come over here for a moment?"

The senior who seemed to want to say something was suddenly interrupted by the shouting of the group of guys not far away.

"What is it..."

My senior and I had no choice but to approach them. After all, they were both club leaders, so if they didn't understand something, they could only seek guidance from us.

"Actually, it's the mood here... What should we do? Can senior Sheji or the team leader show me how to do it?" The first-year girl handed over the script.

"Oh... here?" "So it's here..."

This is the script that Senior Su left behind last year. As a new member this year, there are bound to be things I don't understand.

“Of course there’s anger brewing here,” I asserted, having read the report several times.

"I think a softer tone is better. And that's how we performed it last year." The senior expressed a different opinion without giving any face.

"......"

Abnormality

For some reason, I want to completely erase from my memory some of the ambiguous things that happened with my senior.