I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

"Speak of it."

She suddenly turned her head, and the feeling that came with that instant look back was indescribable.

"This hairstyle suits you very well~"

"what..."

I stood there in a daze without realizing it.

That smile that has no evil charm but is able to attract all my attention, is it directed towards me?

...Hey, are you kidding me? Do we, that guy or I, really have the qualifications?

The hand, suspended in the air, remains in a waving posture.

"...trouble."

I won't waver at all.

Sure enough, you still have to act according to your own ideas.

.............

What form does existence take? For me now, perhaps thinking about this question is the most meaningful thing.

Do I really exist?

"Ah... it hurts."

I pinch my cheeks with my hands and can clearly feel the pain. This means that I now exist through this body... Am I feeling what this body feels, or is it that this body feels pain because of my existence? It's impossible to tell.

It's said that the soul has mass. After death, a person's weight decreases slightly... Perhaps the proof of our existence is that so-called soul, weighing a few tenths of a gram.

Creating a body is easy...it's something that can be achieved using technology. However, injecting the same soul...or even thoughts...as before...is simply impossible.

And who can guarantee that a person has only one soul... Or, who can be sure that a body cannot have multiple thoughts at the same time... Well, I also know that this statement has been made into a legend in most movies or novels... And even if I say that I have multiple personalities, no one will believe it.

Besides, strictly speaking, my situation is not like split personality or multiple personalities... Even if my thoughts are different, I am me, there is no doubt about that.

"stop."

The sound was particularly loud in the empty corridor.

"...Oh, that's strange. No one is joining a club?"

Logically, the corridor should be quiet enough that no one nearby could disturb my thoughts. However, when I was only a few steps away from my destination—the club room—the guy who had anticipated trouble actually showed up.

She's small, but she looks like a stubborn girl who won't give in. As for her name...it should be Lin Chenruo...

"Of course I participated, but I still found a reason to come out."

She responded with a hint of pride.

"That's amazing... So you're going home early?"

"Of course not...Since you've seen me here, you'd normally know I came to see you for something, right?"

Of course I know...I just don't want to pay much attention to her.

"...What's the matter? You and I have never talked before, right..." If there was anything, it was only something that happened a long time ago...to that guy.

"Stop interrupting me."

She frowned.

"What is your relationship with Xiao Yehui?"

"...You still call her Xiao Yehui, you are not even as tall as her chest." I couldn't help but complain... How should I put it? Normally I really can't say it, but I really can't help it this time.

"That's a nickname! What on earth are you focusing on? It's so impure, isn't it?"

"..."

Although it's true, it seems a bit...

"Ah, sorry... But putting aside my slip of the tongue... why are you asking that question? Don't beat around the bush, just tell me straight out."

That way, if it's something annoying, I can reject it right away.

"...Tsk...That's why I don't trust you..." Instead, she looked impatient. "I just think...Ye Hui trusts you so much. If it's not a special relationship, it must be because you have something worth relying on...So, what exactly are you capable of?"

What exactly does she want to ask...

"...Ah, let me think about it." I just gave her a perfunctory answer. "Probably... I'm good at talking or something like that."

Fighting is definitely not an option...

"rhetoric?"

"...about the same." Although there are still some differences, this is a derogatory term, my words should be more eloquent...

"...Are you really a liar? You used your devious methods to gain Ye Hui's trust...Is that right?"

"...If that's how you understand it, I don't really want to refute it." In my opinion, the situation I'm in... is simply a lie, unrealistic. "But you keep mentioning Yehui... Is she in some trouble?"

"Well...well, sort of."

...Although he has a bit of an imposing presence, he doesn't seem to have any ulterior motives...I don't really dislike this kind of straightforward guy.

"...Then tell me about it."

"You don't seem very excited... That's Ye Hui, aren't you close to her? She's in trouble now..."

"I know... That's why I listened to you so calmly. Otherwise, what would happen? Would I lose my composure first?"

Having said that, I feel my heart beating very fast for no reason... What's going on... Logically speaking, I only had that one time with her just now, and the trust between us was also established before... Tsk, what a hassle.

"Well... Actually, this has been going on since last year... At that time, you were not in the same class, so she didn't tell you. And when I wanted to tell you... she stopped me."

"..."

I recalled my previous interactions with her.

"Is it...something that happened at school?"

Anyway, I seem to have a clue.

"Yeah, that's right." She nodded. "Although they haven't done anything excessive under my protection... they still do some small things when I'm not paying attention. Since the actions are not big, they don't constitute bullying... the teacher can't do anything about it."

"..."

Even though I'm slow to predict things, I already had a premonition. And now that I'm thinking about it... the conclusion is obvious.

"After the class division, they weren't allowed to do anything naughty in the classroom...so they switched to the club?"

I guessed.

"Well... although there didn't seem to be anything wrong yesterday... maybe it was because it was a new semester, so they were just testing the waters... but they will definitely do the same thing again in the future, maybe even worse."

"..."

That's it...

When we first met, she said she was different from everyone else...weird or something. That wasn't a warning to distance myself from her, but how foolish would one have to be to come to that conclusion? I'm so ashamed of myself.

"I know what you're thinking..."

"Huh? You know that now?"

She seemed a little bit unbelievable.

"Even though you're only good at talking... that's why you're able to understand the messages behind others' words." He explained briefly, "In short, although I don't know what method you have to protect Ye Hui, you don't think it's a long-term solution. And since you can't think of a solution, you're frustrated by your own incompetence and want to complain to me... Is that right?"

"You guy..."

"But thank you for telling me this. You didn't find the wrong person."

Rather, this is like a catalyst for my plan...

"So...what are you going to do?"

What are you doing...

"It's not clear yet."

However, the purpose was clear. If he wanted to change his image in the eyes of others... this was an opportunity.

“..I don’t even know…”

"Well, let's start now." I said, turning and walking to the other side. "You should hurry up and catch up."

"What to do, wait, there are also club activities..."

"Which one is more important?"

I walked without looking back.

"...Damn it... Why are you trying so hard to be cool?"

Complaining, she followed anyway.

酿策

Perhaps because we believe in equality, we often find it hard to stand those around us who appear happier than we are. But what ideology drives us to want to rob others of their happiness? Do we find happiness in inflicting pain on others?

This kind of troublesome thing... is really annoying.

It doesn't matter who it happens to. I just hate it when it happens.

"...Are you sure you didn't do anything particularly outrageous? Don't hide it from me."

Human nature is inherently ugly. Even I am no exception. Although I have tried my best to suppress my desires due to my upbringing, I still reveal my desires without resistance when it comes to certain things.

"No... What's wrong with your tone? It really makes me uncomfortable..."

"Sorry...I was a little emotional just now."

I cannot judge the standards of good and evil.

Even though I was once a victim of school violence, I still don't want to admit that I was on the right side. That memory has long been thrown out of my mind, and I am the only one who remembers it... That guy probably still thinks that school is a place where youth and innocence are spread.

In short, I never believed in the existence of things like justice or evil from the beginning...Everyone lives according to their own desires.

"Although I am also very angry...but violence cannot solve the problem..." she said with some annoyance.

"No...I'm not angry."

I just want to get rid of the phenomena I've learned about... It's not out of a sense of justice, nor is it to help anyone... It's simply driven by my inner likes and dislikes.

"Um?"

A puzzled look. But no matter how much I explained, it wouldn't make sense. Better to just get started.

"Let's not talk about that. What I need now is some information... First of all, your name is Lin Chenruo, right?" I said and looked at her.

"Yes...that's right."

"Judging from what you just said and your usual behavior... the club you join should not be an ordinary one." Otherwise, one person's words... are unlikely to intimidate those guys who don't have much courage but are unwilling to give up easily.

"Didn't you notice? I'm a member of the Kendo Club... Even without a weapon, I'm more than capable of dealing with a weakling like you."

"...Yeah, I understand." I ignored her provocative words. "And they're basically all art students...right?"

"Yeah... I'm just jealous of her. Really, if you have that much time, you might as well paint more!"

"...You really love to get angry. They say girls like that won't grow tall."

"You're lying! You don't tell a single word of truth! You don't really want to help, do you?"

It looks like a reaction to being hit in a sore spot... I'm really curious about what it feels like to be knocked down by her in such a rage.

"Well...it was just a joke, don't take it seriously."

But forget it now.

"Don't think I'll let you go just like that... I'll deal with you after this matter is settled." His serious tone and expression didn't seem like he was just threatening.

"...Okay." I didn't care. "But then again, do you really care about Ye Hui...friends?"

"Is not this nonsensical?"

"...so good."