I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

Showing weakness like this, I waved my hand to signal her to calm down.

"...Huhu, it's been all this time and you still remember it... It's like I've never had any contact with a girl in my life. It was just an accident, just an accident... Humph, this is disgusting, you still can't forget it..." She then adjusted her sitting position, "Your true otaku nature is exposed without a doubt."

"..."

I have to say, this type of thing is really easy to understand.

Just like in a strategy game, the easiest character to conquer is a tsundere character. A guy who suppresses his emotions can't help but express his true thoughts.

“…I’m sorry.”

Well, considering that she always says things against her will, what she just did just now shows that she is quite concerned about me bringing this up... So, if I just make a little more effort, the things I expected will be further along.

"It's good to know."

She turned away with an angry tone.

"But...I won't forget it."

"..."

Ignored.

"It's like flipping through a book by chance and being drawn in by its contents... I'm still very happy to meet you."

You can feel...her body trembled noticeably after hearing these words.

Ah...is it...too early? Perhaps in her mind, this body wasn't yet qualified to express this level of affection.

"What are you talking about..."

She lowered her head slightly and looked towards me, so I could see a little of her face, which looked particularly soft because of shyness.

"Save that kind of talk for the club."

".....Um."

Maybe, it's that simple.

Chapter 3: Blooming

When people think of spring, what is the first thing that comes to mind? In other words, when people think of beautiful things, what is the first thing that comes to mind?

Whether it's "Spring is here, flowers are blooming" or "Three or two branches of peach blossoms outside the bamboo," everything in the world is always connected to flowers. Flowers can represent many things, and through constant human definition and evolution, something incredible has emerged: "flower language."

Whether it's sadness or happiness, hope or a message, whatever your mood, there's a flower to represent it. In other words... all kinds of flowers represent all kinds of things.

In other words, flowers are no longer simply things that exist in this world.

It seems that people feel sad when the flowers they see wither, and happy when they bloom.

What other object in the world can achieve this?

And because most flowers have a unique fragrance, so...

"Thank you for your help... Teacher Nan has already said that he will decide who will assist the class monitor as soon as possible." Lin Yi thanked me a little embarrassedly, "Then I won't have to trouble you, Sheji."

"...I don't expect it to be that easy to find... Actually, I'm actually happy to share your worries, squad leader."

Therefore, wherever there are flowers, there is always a refreshing fragrance. Although it cannot be touched, it affects others and can even change their mood for the day.

"Um...um...if, if I wasn't the class monitor, would you do the same?" It was obvious she was pretending to organize her homework to avoid any feelings she shouldn't have. However, I didn't pay any attention, pretending to be oblivious and letting her continue.

"That's... hard to say."

Therefore, if people can exist like flowers, they can gradually influence the people around them.

“…Hmm…”

"After all, in my heart, there seems to be no one more suitable to be the class monitor than you." What I showed at this moment must have been a cheerful smile.

Choose the right time to bloom with brilliant colors.

Choose a place and emit a unique fragrance.

Flowers always do this, silently changing people's views of the world. Because of this, the spring when everything revives becomes warmer, and the biting cold wind seems to be less chilly.

"If that's the case, then work hard with me."

Looking at other people’s smiles, if flowers also had thoughts...would they also be able to feel the corresponding joy?

"I can't ask for it."

Isn't the answer obvious? Understanding other people's feelings... and having fun with others...

Of course not.

. . . . . . . . . .

How far will humans go in their self-indulgent behavior?

“…”

What kind of misunderstanding do those who presume to rule the world have? Why does everything in the world have to revolve around humans? If you think about it carefully, it's simply ridiculous.

Why is it that something done simply to sustain oneself is given so much meaning in people's eyes? And there are actually people who believe that those plants truly have corresponding meanings... Ah, yes, they do have meaning. Although to some extent, it conveys things that are difficult to express in ordinary times, the ultimate meaning should be... giving merchants who don't think flowers have any meaning an excuse to sell their own flowers.

It's that simple. Flowers, with their mere appearance, possess no noble qualities, represent no significance, and carry no thought or universal justice... For this species, blooming is simply a means of perpetuating its genes.

But after catching human attention... was it considered a success? It was cultivated on a large scale, packaged and sold after the season, and then, after a brief appreciation, discarded. Furthermore, its genes, which were meant to be passed on, were affected in various ways, resulting in changes in color and shape.

Things don't go as planned...that's probably what happens.

If weeds were left unattended, they wouldn't be treated this way. For plants, quietly growing is their most fundamental desire.

"...and I..."

What is it like now? When I came to my senses, everything I expected had changed... If all this was caused by what I did in the past, then even I didn't expect things to turn out like this.

This is absolutely not allowed.

What I expect, what I need... I must quietly move in the direction I should go according to my own intentions.

"It shouldn't be..."

Except for her who is no longer here.

I shouldn't have contacted anyone who could change the direction of my life... However, as I saw, because of my connections, there were many people around me who were enough to make me change my original intention.

And...why did those people approach?

“…”

I'm not sure why yet. But it doesn't matter. Right now, as long as they think... I've transformed into a plant that emits a fragrant scent, that's enough.

Lies will eventually be exposed.

If everyone were told that flowers don't actually have that much influence, and that roses don't represent love...then the flower shop would probably go bankrupt. While this is certainly nonsense, it's possible to change what you create.

What will happen after the shiny exterior that you have created is torn apart by yourself, revealing your absurd and ugly true self?

Let me wait and see.

After all, I have just opened my petals.

萦落

The rain, which had lasted all day and all night, finally stopped near the end of school. However, I have to admit, I still felt a little uncomfortable with the lack of sounds in my ears.

Glancing out the window at the water droplets dripping from the leaves, I couldn't help but sigh. Come to think of it...was this a habit I'd had before? I don't recall sighing before... Ah, as expected, people who sigh tend to have bad luck, which is why all these things are happening now.

"Don't stop just like that..."

Muttering to myself, I somewhat hoped that the rain would start again.

Otherwise, it means that the umbrella I brought in the morning is now completely useless... That is to say, I spent my effort on something that did not bring me much benefit... I hate this kind of thing.

"Hey, are you daydreaming again?"

I felt a blow from the book on my head.

“…”

I gently lifted the book from my head that was obscuring my vision and looked at Brother Nan, who had appeared before me at some point. Although I didn't remember much of our encounter, looking through his memories... he seemed like a very easy target.

"I'm sorry, I won't do it again."

“.....?”

As if she hadn't understood what I was saying, she looked completely lost in her usual composure.

"...Are you feeling a little unwell...or something like that?"

It’s no wonder she reacted like this. In her eyes, I would definitely deny it under normal circumstances.

"...No, don't worry." I pointed to the clock on the wall in front of me. "Compared to this, teacher, teaching is more important."

"..."

After looking at me strangely, he said, "Be careful not to get distracted again," and continued teaching.

...Like this.

Although I'd noticed it, I'd fundamentally denied it. But it was understandable... How could someone transform so quickly? It must have been a determined change, or a sudden urge to alter their image... With the new semester just around the corner, it wasn't surprising to have such thoughts.

So even though I was different from what they remembered, on the surface, I was still the person they were familiar with. In their eyes, even if I was depressed and changed temporarily, I would eventually return to my normal state.

There is no reason to believe this.

"...You are really amazing..."

I suddenly began to admire that guy who seemed to have no value in my opinion.

Chapter 4: Lingering

"The state."

After finishing my duty with the class monitor, I was about to go to the club to meet up with Rinquanchuan when someone suddenly called me.

"Ah, you haven't gone to the club yet?"

I was a bit surprised by Ye Hui's sudden appearance. Although she was willing to talk to me, she didn't seem to want to do it in the classroom. Besides, when the class was over, the petite girl named Lin Chenru would always find various excuses to drag her away.

In short, he seems to me to be a troublesome guy.

"There are still a few minutes until the club activities officially start, and I happen to have nothing else to do... so I'll wait for you here."

Smiling, she explained the reason to me.

"...Wait for me..."

Looking at this dignified and beautiful long-haired girl in front of me, it is hard to imagine what kind of virtue or ability I have to be able to connect with her. This is simply not normal...

"What's going on...?"

What did that guy...do? I'm curious, but all I can remember are irrelevant things. I have no clue. It's so strange and troubling.

"Well... although I really want to ask, I really can't do anything about Xiao Lin... so now is the only chance."

"...?"

"Um, are you okay now?"

There were some serious looks, but mostly worry.

Is she...worried about me?

No, that's not right...I have nothing to do with her.

"...You mean..." I quickly recalled, "about yesterday's rainy day?...I took a hot shower, so it was no big deal. No need to worry."

Is she worried about this body, or about me as I was yesterday? Ah, this question is really troublesome.

"That's good..."

I feel relieved...

"Then I can go to the club without worry." She said, waving at me, "Then let's continue our conversation after the event is over."

"...Um."

I waved at her.