I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

In the end, I still haven't achieved what I was looking for... But this also proves that what Senior did has nothing to do with me. If I want to fully make up for the regret in my heart, it seems that I have to wait until I meet her in person.

"Oh, please..."

In the end, it was all in vain... Not only was it in vain, but I also got hurt. In a sense, it was a failure.

Although I successfully guided Ming Xinxi to find Li Yinghui and confess her true feelings, the outcome is not something I can decide...and I am not interested in the outcome.

Well, there's no reason for me to stay here any longer. Things are going roughly as I envisioned, so even my immature self can now stabilize the situation.

"Well...let's leave after we finish eating this."

There's still a lot of ice cream left.

Chapter 38 If I could recall something

Something was wrong. No, more like something was unusual.

Before I knew it, I was in a cold drink shop. Why was I leisurely enjoying ice cream here, having planned to meet my senior? I had no recollection of eating ice cream, but the cool feeling in my stomach suggested I'd had quite a bit... And there were three empty cups in front of me. If I hadn't eaten all of them, then I'd treated someone else. But I had no idea who that person was.

There was an empty cup in the front right corner of the table with the receipt in it.

Is that mine... Thinking of this, I stretched out my right hand to take it.

“Ah…tsk…”

But as I stretched out my right hand, I suddenly felt pain. When I looked at it, I realized there was a Band-Aid plastered unaesthetically across my palm. Something was wrong... I peeled it back slightly and saw a wound that looked like it had been cut by a sharp object.

Where did this wound come from?

"Hey..."

I couldn't help but break out in a cold sweat... What on earth was going on? What on earth had I done during this time...

"correct..."

I suddenly remembered I still had to deal with my senior's business, so I quickly pulled out my phone from my pocket. When I accidentally saw the time, I was stunned. It was about an hour off from my memory...which meant I had no idea what I knew and did in that hour.

"Damn...what's going on..."

I searched through the address book and called my senior.

"Hello, is this Sheji?"

It was the senior's voice, it seemed he was fine.

"Where are you now? Is the senior sister with you?" I asked worriedly, "I just..."

"Your senior and I are at the clinic, don't you know that? Oh, by the way, you should have caught up with Xiao Qian, right? Can you tell me where she is now... um? Oh, well... Xiao Qian has already called Hui, she should be on her way... Aren't you with her now?"

“...No, no...”

Chasing Xiao Qian? In other words...

I turn my gaze to those empty cups...

Didn't I just talk to Senior Xiao Qian and treat her to ice cream? But why is Senior in the hospital with Senior Xiao Qian?

"Is that so... By the way, Sheji, come quickly too. Isn't your hand injured? Just a band-aid won't do. You should disinfect it and be careful of infection..."

"...Oh...Yeah."

It seems he knows about my injury. Although I have no recollection of it... Never mind, I'll ask him for details when I get to him. It seems they're in the hospital because they encountered the same thing as me...

"Oh right... the country."

When I was about to hang up the phone, he suddenly called me.

"...What's wrong, senior?" His tone seemed a little subtle, a little out of character with his usual style.

"Thank you for what happened today."

"Everywhere, everything should be done..."

What did I do? Could it be that I, your senior, was the reason I got hurt...

"Thanks to you and your persistence, the misunderstanding between Hui and me has been resolved... I was so close to giving up on this relationship, along with the dream I had decided on, and living without any dreams... But now I understand that's not possible."

"....is that so..."

Even though I don't know the process, I'm happy just hearing the result. All my hard work wasn't wasted, and I guess I can finally play games at home peacefully from now on.

"So... well, I'm not in front of Hui right now, which means I'm only telling you. Don't tell anyone else."

"...Um...Um, I won't say anything nonsense." He replied with some confusion.

Because now I don’t understand what he wants to express at all.

"So... I decided to become the person closest to him."

"...You mean novelist?" I've already had this conversation once, so I won't be fooled.

"No, it's my boyfriend."

"..."

This was too sudden... It was hard to imagine a senior with a low emotional intelligence saying something like this. Suddenly, the image of Senior Sister Lu Yunzi flashed through his mind. Trouble was, if she, who had always had a crush on my senior, heard this news, would she faint on the spot?

"Well, if I say it now... wouldn't it be a bit abrupt..." I tried to dissuade him with some concern.

"I know, so...I will tell her in person on the day I become a famous novelist."

"...Oh, I see..."

Slightly relieved.

In other words, Senior Sister Lu Yunzi still has a chance. Although she has no clear position, it is too pitiful for her to break up with him while she is still secretly in love.

And the senior also regained his confidence in writing because of this... It's really cause for celebration.

"Well, I'll end this call now. I'll text you the address."

"Well, I'll be there as soon as possible..."

Actually, wouldn't it be faster to explain it verbally? Well, I guess he's not familiar with the road conditions nearby.

"So..."

Although this time the problem was solved inexplicably in my opinion, I will still consider it my own achievement.

“….”

I was about to leave when I looked at the table to see if there was anything I had forgotten to bring, and I found the bill I had wanted to look at before.

".....Wow." I couldn't help but frown after seeing the price.

So expensive.

. . . . . . . . . . .

"I...what should I do?"

How did this sense of disparity arise? Perhaps it stemmed from a contrast in appearance, perhaps a difference in intelligence, or perhaps a difference in confidence. Regardless, Jia Lidu didn't believe Lu Yunzi was inferior to the girl who called herself Li Yinghui in these respects.

And based on Lu Yunzi's usual personality, she shouldn't let go so easily.

"...What should I do..." Jia Lidu thought for a moment, "Before that, I want to ask...why didn't you chase after him? Is it really okay for you to be so obedient and not follow him?"

No matter what, if someone told me "it's best not to follow him", I might rush up and fight with him.

"...I...I always feel like I'm missing something compared to her. So I don't think I should chase her."

“…Wow…”

This was the first time he'd seen Lu Yunzi so self-aware... Could this be what they called "love makes people grow"? If that was the case, then when would he be able to grow up too? Jia Lidu couldn't help but sigh as he thought about the time he'd tried to find someone but failed.

"What? Do you have any objections?"

Although she looked angry, her eyes were red at this moment. It seemed that she was trying her best to hold back her sadness and not let her tears fall... After all, this incident was really a big blow to her... But if I tried to persuade her casually, I might get angry if I said something.

I always feel that I am in a dilemma...Jia Lidu's uneasiness increased again.

"No... I'm just curious... Yun Zi, you're obviously as good looking and as good looking as her... I even think you're much better than her, so why do you still feel like you're missing something?"

"...Those aren't important." Lu Yunzi sighed. "Something must have happened between her and Ah Hao. Those things have become the things that strengthened the bond between them...But there's nothing similar between Ah Hao and me...Besides, she said that they have known each other since elementary school...And Ah Hao and I have only known each other for the past few years...So...there's no comparison at all. No matter what I do, it's all in vain..."

He couldn't hold it back any longer. The tears in his eyes finally fell down his cheeks. Lu Yunzi didn't seem to want Jia Lidu to see him crying, so he quickly turned his back to wipe his tears... However, wiping them away couldn't stop the tears from flowing.

"..."

Although he didn't want to interfere in Haozi's personal affairs, when it came to matters of the heart... (it was a tangled mess) Jia Lidu still wanted to help Lu Yunzi, this seemingly mature but actually emotionally immature fellow... Besides, now that she was crying like this, wouldn't he look like a scumbag who had done something bad next to her?

So, if you want to compete, you should at least start from the same starting line. Jia Lidu immediately decided to help Lu Yunzi improve her starting point... otherwise she would definitely lose.

"Since you haven't tried it yourself, don't say it's in vain." Jia Lidu said to Lu Yunzi, who was wiping tears from her eyes, "After being together for such a long time, Haozi doesn't even know that you like him."

"..."

Lu Yunzi looked back at him in confusion.

"Doing nothing is undoubtedly just waiting for death. If you want to gain an advantage in love, you must take the initiative! That's what I do."

Although the first attack failed.

"If you really want to be with that guy Haozi, then chase him and tell him how you feel. Openly compete with that childhood sweetheart. Facts have proven that childhood sweethearts are not as good as those who came from heaven. Although you can only be considered half of a gift from heaven, that's not a problem at all! I've thought of the lines for you. When you confess, just say, 'Ah Hao, actually, I have always...'..."

"Waaaaaaah! Stop it!"

Maybe because Jia Lidu's way of expression was too direct, Lu Yunzi's shyness suddenly reached its highest level. The result was... Jia Lidu's collar was pulled up by Lu Yunzi, and then shaken back and forth at an extremely fast frequency.

"I can't say it! It's so embarrassing! And I'm still by his side! What if I get rejected? I won't be able to face him again after I refuse! And you have to imitate my tone! How hateful!"

"Alright, keep going... I can't take it anymore... Let go..."

...It seems that Lu Yunzi's emotional journey will still be bumpy for a while. (Arrogant and Ruining Life Series)

If this is the determination

Mortals are mortals because, while their experiences may differ, their fundamental circumstances are quite similar. They had ordinary childhoods, average grades in elementary school, a few good friends in middle school, a few idle years in high school and a year filled with inspirational pursuits, spent their college years playing games and lacking ambition, and finally, after work, they were short-sighted and content with the status quo... Any normal person would understand this with a little thought.

However, it was as if it should be, and although many people could understand this truth, those things still happened to most people. And those who were able to achieve something were often able to show different insights and courage than their peers at a certain age.

Well, generally speaking, how humans perceive and handle situations depends on their knowledge and experience. Both knowledge and experience are acquired through practice and time... People often marvel at some individuals as geniuses because young children, lacking sufficient time and experience, approach problems in ways that surpass those of adults with decades of experience. This can only be attributed to exceptional talent.

But...some people who were brilliant when they were young gradually become mediocre as they grow up. What does this mean? Is it a failure of education, or does human talent have its limits?

...I'm not sure if my guess is correct, but if the facts are really as I think...

"Ah...what's going on?"

I couldn't help but slow down my pace as I ran towards the hospital, and stood blankly on the street... because a familiar figure appeared in front of me.

Chapter 39 If this is the decision

“Hu…ha…”

Only a small amount of my attention is paid to observing the road conditions, while the rest of my energy is devoted to thinking about you. If I could, I would really devote everything I have to you...

"......"

However, if you knew, you probably wouldn't agree.

It seems like you've always just treated me as a close friend... Even when I'm so close, you don't feel anything, don't blush, don't get nervous, but why do you blush and get nervous when you see that guy, even without any contact? Is it just because of gender? If I were a man, would I be able to express my love openly and pursue my own happiness?

No, then I probably wouldn't have met her at all.

Will not talk to her when she feels threatened.

He wouldn't notice the pain she was in.

Won't help her get rid of unreasonable entanglement.

"What..."

I don't know what I'm thinking anymore.

"This is... so unfair..."

If God must be so unfair, then I should just not have met you... Then no matter what happens to you, it has nothing to do with me...

But if I hadn't met you, what would I be like now?

As I run towards you, I can't help but think.