I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

But I won't look forward to it because the meeting will not be held until Monday.

In short, now I am casually supporting my face with my hands, and looking at Brother Nan on the podium with a dull look.

"In fact, the school has always been very concerned about students' psychological problems."

When he said this, Nan's eyes suddenly met mine. For a moment, I thought he was reminding me to sit properly, so I quickly adjusted my posture.

She gradually withdrew her gaze and continued speaking without leaving any trace:

"For example, principals often worry that students are under too much academic pressure and are adopting unhealthy methods to relieve stress. So they put a lot of effort into banning smoking... Ah, why not just reduce the number of courses? That would solve the problem from the root."

Is this the legendary self-deprecation?

"Well, unfortunately, the principal still overlooked one situation... Someone witnessed someone standing on the rooftop last night. He was wearing our school uniform and seemed to be attempting suicide. He only came down from the rooftop after being persuaded by another person and kneeling down to plead..."

"..."

I seem to understand why Brother Nan looked at me just now.

"So... congratulations! Our school is getting a new gate... Well, it's only the door to the rooftop. But they probably don't plan on installing any security devices. Since no one can get in, there's no need for them."

There was a burst of laughter from under the podium.

"In short, no matter what kind of pressure you face, life always comes first. Think about the person you like in the next class, the parents who gave birth to you at home, the family and friends around you, and even your teacher... these thoughts will be dispelled."

It seems that Brother Nan really thinks I'm upset and that I need to explain myself after class. However, now I can only pretend to be carefree and laugh along with the classmates around me.

...................

After the class meeting, Brother Nan left the classroom without stopping, and I wanted to follow him.

It's just that the sleeve was grabbed directly... and part of the muscle next to it was also grabbed.

“It hurts…”

When I turned around, I realized that it was Rinquanchuan who grabbed me.

In fact, you can notice it just by feeling familiar.

"Wow... where are you going?" She usually doesn't interact with me much in class, but she grabbed me like this, and her face was annoyed. It seemed that the situation must be serious. "I've been putting up with you for two days... Explain yourself clearly."

"Uh-huh?"

After hearing this, I was a little confused about the situation.

Could he be talking about my absence from club activities? But we just finished morning self-study, it's really too early to stop me now.

"Humph, don't think I don't know...you were with her on Saturday, right?" As he said that, he squeezed the hand that he hadn't let go of yet, hard again.

"Oh no... no..."

It really hurt so I grabbed her wrist and pushed it to the side.

"You should stay calm when listening to explanations..."

"How can I remain calm when you're having an affair~" A voice imitating a girl's emphasis suddenly came from the side.

"you shut up..."

After angrily scolding Liu Yan who was just trying to watch the fun, I turned to Linquanchuan again.

And she seemed to have reacted to the joke just now, and her cheeks had a long-lost blush... Why do I say long-lost...

"Ahem, actually that's because..."

No...it seems that I can't reveal it now, otherwise I won't be able to call her out later.

"Oh, so why is that?" She began to ask me after seeing my hesitation.

How would I know why... We can't just say we went on a date on a whim.

"...Well, we just happened to meet on the street."

"Oh? Could it be such a coincidence?" His tone was quite distrustful.

"The fate is so wonderful."

Believe it or not, that's what I'm saying.

"Well, forget it..." She didn't hesitate any longer, "Can you let go of my hand now?"

"Ah..." It was only then that I realized that I had not let go of his wrist since I grabbed it... Fortunately, no one else noticed.

Except for one extremely boring guy.

"Oh~ so intimate~"

"Shut up right there." After choking Liu Yan back again, I turned to Lin Quanchuan, "Well, I still have some things to do... Well, don't worry, those things have been resolved, so you can go to the club activities today."

Even though there wasn't much activity to speak of.

"up to you."

After saying this, she walked out of the classroom.

Because it's break time.

...................

"Sometimes I really think you did it on purpose." Sister Nan seemed to have a lot of objections to my coming, but I couldn't blame her...it seemed that I really didn't know how to choose the time.

"Why don't you go to the cafeteria when it's time to eat? Why do you always come to me?"

Yes, generally speaking it is time for breakfast.

"You don't have a habit of this, do you? Do you like watching other people eat?"

"No," I denied impatiently, "I just have time now. Besides, teacher, weren't you talking to me during the class meeting?"

"...Hmm? Which one? Are you smoking?"

"...The second one." I seemed to regret coming here, because Brother Nan seemed to have no reason to know that the person was me.

"So you are the one kneeling... No wonder. Now I understand if you explain it this way. Well done." She smiled and wanted to come over and pat my shoulder, but I dodged her.

"?" She looked at me strangely.

"Actually...I'm the one standing on the edge."

"Snapped!"

A familiar pain came from my forehead.

"Now, no matter what you do, I won't be surprised..." She took away her right hand that was hovering over my forehead, "You are the first student who makes me speechless. So what's the reason? Is it because of the previous incident?"

Surprisingly, she didn't think of the worst.

"...Yes, and that was just a means of persuasion... just an illusion."

"Hmm...I can't imagine. But is it resolved?" she asked me after taking a sip of her drink.

"Of course it's solved."

"Really..." She nodded. "Then next time, please report when I'm not eating."

"...I'll pay attention."

Be careful when speaking

Human talent is inherently limited. So no matter how strong, talented, or exceptional a person is, they will still have their shortcomings.

If even exceptional individuals are capable of this, there are even more things that ordinary individuals cannot accomplish. In other words, a person's suitability for a particular field is largely determined from the outset, and elementary education is essentially about discovering interests. True education should adhere to the principle of "teaching students in accordance with their aptitude."

Although people have roughly the same physiological structure, their physical qualities vary greatly. Similarly, although everyone's memory is similar, everyone's needs for knowledge worth remembering are different.

Therefore, the most reasonable situation for a school should be that there is no ranking of grades, and subjects can be chosen freely rather than arranged uniformly.

"Regarding these things, wouldn't you be able to choose your own major if you went to college?"

I don't know why Liu Yan seems to be able to keep up with my conversations lately. Whereas before he would just say "I don't understand, I don't understand," now he can actually express his own thoughts.

But my point in saying this isn't to provoke reflection. After all, even if an established system isn't rational, it won't be changed immediately just because of complaints. It might even be worse off if it were changed. [For example, the Druid's ultimate and spread weren't nerfed, while the Warrior and Shaman got a round of nerfs.] So, I'm just complaining.

However, sitting on the edge of the playground under the scorching sun, muttering to myself angrily, must have been very embarrassing in the eyes of others. So I thought of calling Liu Yan over to pretend to chat, but now it seems that I underestimated him a little.

"...Not everyone can successfully get into university." I responded to him indifferently.

At least that's the case here.

"Besides, didn't the teacher say that you can have fun in college? Who would still study then?"

For more details, please refer to the advice of teachers of all generations, such as "Don't play now, you can play as much as you want after you get to college." This irresponsible statement directly leads to many people attending so-called higher education institutions but achieving nothing.

"That's not the way it sounds. When it comes time to work hard, even if you're reluctant, your body will still move."

As if urging me to be strong, he patted my shoulder, then stood up and prepared to walk away. That figure looked different from usual, unusually tired.

"I will cheer for you."

"...Come on, damn it."

I muttered something under my breath, stood up, and walked towards the running path where other people in sportswear were standing.

"You are the only one missing, come here quickly."

The voice was not loud but very authoritative, so I couldn't help but quicken my pace even though I wanted to delay it a little longer until school was over.

"Let me be clear, even if the school bell rings halfway through the run, I will still be here to supervise you and ensure you finish the kilometer."

...Ah, that's really cause for celebration.

Chapter 18: Be careful when speaking

It just doesn't make sense.

I was forced to exercise quite a few times in normal times, and I didn't feel tired when I participated in long-distance running. But it seemed to be due to psychological effects. When I was tested in the class for one thousand meters, no matter how hard I tried, I seemed to be the last one.

Damn it, they must be secretly training me without telling me, it’s definitely not because I’m too bad.

After finishing, I was so breathless that I wanted to lie down on the grass beside me immediately, but since another class was playing football there, I temporarily suppressed this desire.

"Hey, that guy... Yi... Du Ji, right? Well, wait a moment before you leave."

Then the others walked away, gloating. I was probably also laughed at for mispronouncing my name. But that wasn't my fault.

"..." So I turned around... and then raised my head again to see the physical education teacher who called me.

That's right, the PE teacher, who was 1.85 meters tall, was actually a woman. With her height, why didn't she give me some? Perhaps for the convenience of exercise, I always remembered her wearing a ponytail, giving her a neat and free-spirited image.

"Teacher, actually that character is not Du, it's She..." I corrected weakly, "My name is Yi Sheji."

"Ah... She... Oh... Sheji..." He glanced at the list in his hand with a slightly awkward expression, then suddenly returned to normal and angrily shouted at me, "It's because your handwriting is too bad! Can't you practice your handwriting properly?!"

...But this name is not on my registration...The list should be printed.

"Yes, I will pay attention next time." But I still don't want to expose it.

Although her personality was even more extreme than Nan's, I rarely interacted with her, so I didn't dare to talk much. The reason for our shallow relationship was, firstly, that there was no need for roll call, and since most of the time in PE class was free play, it was difficult for a student like me to remember her name. Secondly, PE classes were rare to begin with, and this guy would often ask for leave.

"..."

But with this physique and height, and it is said that she also practices Taekwondo...how on earth does she manage to get sick from time to time?

"You, stop daydreaming." She suddenly came over and held up the list in her hand.

I nervously glared at him reflexively.

"...What? Do you think I'm going to hit you? Am I a violent person?"

"...The sunlight is a bit dazzling..." I said weakly in rebuttal, then took the list she wanted to hand me.

"Hey, take a good look at your 1,000-meter time. The passing score is four minutes... but you ran four and a half minutes, which is the passing score for girls."

Wouldn't it be better if you just thought of me as a girl?

"Um... what happens if I fail?"

"...You don't want a diploma? You have to pass the college entrance exam. And I'm curious about how you handled physical education when you were going to junior high school."

“…I fought hard.”

I almost threw up afterward. And I guess that's why I get so nervous every time I run a thousand meters.