I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

"Perseverance and then regret, or regret not persisting...which one would you choose?"

Ask yourself this question as well.

But I won’t choose either one.

Because I never regret it.

...................

I used to naively believe that as long as I had done something and the result had already occurred, I would happily accept it, regardless of whether it was good or bad, without any regrets.

But in fact, that is not all that I encountered.

People who regret losing something are pitiful. Although regret will make you seem more pitiful, but... at least you can still think about it.

If I hadn't had it then, if I had...

Although we can no longer go back to the past and make another choice, we can at least indulge in fantasy and wait quietly for time to pass.

I thought the pace of campus life was fast enough.

But then I realized that amidst the crowds and the hustle and bustle of traffic, an invisible urging voice was constantly accelerating the passage of time...

When I came to my senses, a long time had passed.

You, who used to be unable to leave me for too long, didn't contact me during this period until I realized it... It seems that as time goes by, you are gradually maturing, and then I am gradually no longer needed.

What a sad fate.

I just broke away from those things, and then they left me mercilessly.

There are many things accumulated in my heart, but nowhere to express them.

No one around you will listen to your complaints, because their lives are often more difficult than yours; and you cannot sympathize with them, because that is what you will become in the future.

It's very different here and there.

The achievements made there are just empty names... We seem to have been blinded by what is shown on the surface.

I began to regret it, but it was too late.

Well, at least don't give up your right to regret like I did.

Because you won’t realize until the end that you have never been able to give up the right to regret.

As a senior, you should have a broad mind.

Even if you understand a lot of things in your heart, there will always be times when you don’t understand certain things.

So people are bound to make mistakes, no matter how hard they try to avoid them, mistakes will always occur.

What's more, if you just do things according to what you want, the chances of making mistakes will be greater.

"Which would you choose: regretting after persisting, or regretting not persisting?"

The guy in front of us asked us this question.

What? Hadn't he noticed yet? This wasn't the point at all. The reason why the senior didn't want to tell him was not what he thought.

Although I don't know what he is thinking.

But I do understand what that senior is thinking. If I had to ask why... maybe it's because he and I are the same age, and we both know the guy in front of us.

"..."

I looked at Tongyou beside me. She seemed to have the answer. When she was about to answer, I suddenly stopped her.

"...What are you doing..."

She gave me an impatient look.

"Let me tell you..."

"Huh? What are you talking about? Come here... Hey, are you trying to be cool?" She still had that impatient look on her face.

"No, this is..." He just wanted to show off a little bit, after all, in front of the younger generation... ahem, "Anyway, just leave everything to me like before."

"Hmm..." She seemed to sense something and suddenly turned her head to the side, "I always... I always feel that this is too shameless..."

"...What?"

"I mean, if I leave everything to you, then what's the point of me being the club leader?"

"If you knew that, you shouldn't have done it from the beginning... I was almost used to it."

Seriously, I don’t know what to say when you realize this so quickly.

"Don't let me get used to it!"

"Okay, okay...I won't do this again."

"Well, this is just the last time." She waved her finger in front of my eyes and walked towards the door. "Well, you guys can chat slowly. I'll be out first."

...Actually, there's no need to leave...Forget it.

"Well, don't pretend you didn't see it." I turned my head to look at the junior on the other side.

He was watching Tongyou leave, as if to show that he didn't care about the conversation at all.

"...Ah, because you were chatting just now and the atmosphere was good, so I didn't want to disturb..." He waved his hand and explained quickly.

“What an atmosphere…”

"No, it's the atmosphere... Actually, it's that..."

"...Forget it, I won't correct your mistake... Just listen carefully to what I'm going to say next." I interrupted him, "As for your question just now, my answer is..."

"...What?" His expression gradually became serious.

“I won’t choose either one.”

"......"

"Because your question is totally wrong."

"Eh? Why do you say that..."

"You only focus on persistence and regret, but...you don't pay attention to who your persistence will cause trouble."

Chapter 7: As a senior, you should be broad-minded

I always felt that I was overlooking something.

It wasn't until I was prompted that I suddenly realized...it turned out that I had never considered other people's thoughts.

"Who will be troubled by your persistence?"

Your persistence and what you think in your heart seem to be for the sake of others, but in fact...others do not want your help, nor do they ask you for help.

Maybe it's simply something that shouldn't be interfered with by others. But since Senior hasn't asked for my help, then I shouldn't interfere.

Yes, it’s just like when your parents use the excuse of caring about you to force you to change your behavior...it’s very annoying and will also cause you to feel disgusted.

"One more thing..."

He then reminded me again.

"That's because...if you do something that he hasn't done well, how would he feel?"

...I suddenly understood.

That's not all I've figured out. I've also figured out another thing...also about Senior Sun. Although I'm still lacking some conditions...I'll definitely explain it to him later.

"What should I do?"

I started asking other people for their opinions.

I feel in my heart that I shouldn't do anything.

But it would be inappropriate to remain indifferent.

"...I'm not entirely sure, but I think it's best not to ask. Sometimes..."

"Is it better to have faith in others...?"

As I left the cooperative and was on my way home, I kept thinking about those words.

It had been quite some time since school was over, and the corridor was dimly lit, giving it an eerie feeling.

“...Ah...What am I thinking about?” When I am alone, I will start to think about all sorts of random things for no apparent reason.

So, should we have faith in others, and trust them without any reason?

"Well..."

In fact, it’s not someone else, and he can be trusted in every sense.

...But despite this, why do I still feel uneasy inside?...I always feel that I am worried about that matter, and even if it means risking being disliked, I can't help but want to intervene.

Why...?

"That's because you think he's not as good as you."

“....!”

I looked around in surprise, but there was no one else around, only the dimly lit classroom.

But if you think about it carefully...the words that just appeared in my ears cannot be determined from where they came from.

"Hallucination..."

I patted my head, closed my eyes and concentrated on listening to the sounds around me, but I still didn't hear that voice again.

"You think he's not as good as you."

But the words I just heard kept repeating in my mind.

He... is he referring to the senior?

He is not as good as me? And I think he is not as good as me... How is that possible? No matter what, I am the one who is not as good as him.

However, his advice was clearly like that...it had no significant effect.

"...What should I do...?"

. . . . . . . . . .

"If you really have something to do, do it as soon as possible."

It's more of a demand than a request.

In short, just when I opened the back door today and was ready to face a wave of blame that I had anticipated, Rinquanchuan said such ambiguous words.

"You mean... the acting club leader thing?"

I checked anyway just in case.

"Well...it turns out you are really stupid..." She said this to me.

That doesn't seem to be the meaning.

"...So, I don't really understand..."

"Tsk, the reason you want to help... must be because that person is in trouble, right?"

"Hmm... this one is..."

"So, why not help him solve it like we did before?"

If I can help, I will definitely go.

"...Because he didn't ask me for help, and besides...I should have believed that he could handle it on his own."

I told her the conclusion I came to yesterday, even though I didn't think so in my heart.

"Oh ah. What a surprise."

This is a great read with a full tone...

"So you need permission to help others? I don't remember asking for your help before, but why...why are you still helping me?"

What? Isn't it shy too?