I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

After the club activities ended, senior Lu Yunzi stood at the door and said goodbye to the members one by one... It felt like after not seeing each other for a while, the relationship between these members had become much closer.

"Sheji, keep working hard tomorrow too."

...The only thing is that the way he looks at me is a little different.

It's not alienation, but worry.

What are you worried about?

"Yes, I will..."

And so, I set out on my journey home. However, unlike usual, I chose a different corridor... This was to avoid the embarrassment of running into Rinquanchuan on his way home.

There aren't any clubs in the corridor on the other side, so it's very quiet compared to other areas... However, the closer I get to it, the more clearly I can detect a hint of noise.

...Hey, is this that kind of plot?

"Ignore what is indecent and don't listen to what is indecent..."

I pretended not to hear anything and quickly ran towards the stairs. However, after hearing the sound clearly, I realized I was wrong... It was the sound of a conversation... and it seemed like an argument.

“…”

Arguing? But this rhythm doesn't seem very similar...

Well, why not just go up and take a look?

I thought about this bold idea for three seconds and decided to put it into practice... As long as I don't get caught and eavesdrop on what the content is, it will be fine.

So I started walking up... the closer I got the clearer I could hear it.

However, before I even got very close, I realized I shouldn't get any closer. While I can't distinguish the voices of most voice actors when watching anime, I definitely wouldn't mistake someone close to me.

The two people arguing... I can clearly tell that one of them is Senior Sun, and the other...

"You don't understand at all...Okay, okay... Stop talking. You should just go manage the club. I'm completely fine..."

Although he wasn't emotionally agitated, it was completely different from his usual image... However, this didn't prevent me from identifying the source of the voice.

But why is it him...

"Senior...Su?"

Should curiosity be limited?

I don't want to hear any more advice.

That was just a meaningless lie that could neither help me nor alleviate the pain I was suffering.

It's not directed at the person who came to persuade me several times.

I understand that he really cares about me, and only his advice doesn't make me feel sick.

So I don’t hate it, but I won’t accept those words either.

I could follow him to an empty corridor and listen to him talk endlessly, but his words would never stay in my mind, even for a second.

My mind seemed to be filled with so much that I couldn't accept what was coming next.

So, don't waste your time and words on a worthless person like me.

But even though I told him clearly, he still refused to leave... For a moment, I saw your shadow... in him.

Is it over... No, it's not over yet.

I touched my chest and my heart was still beating. I was still alive in this world, so my life was not over yet.

Looking into my mind, there are no waves there anymore, and I cannot react to any external stimuli, so it seems that it is over from now on.

What we cannot face is the front, because what attracts us is only the gorgeous sunshine, while the road is full of thorns and darkness.

Since happiness is false, why should we pay real pain to pursue it? Even if we make efforts like Kuafu chasing the sun, what we get is not a story that everyone will tell.

Isn't that pointless?

No one ever remembered that you fell on the road of pursuit, leaving only a shadow to prove that you once existed.

I once thought, if I also embarked on that road full of suffering, would I be able to meet your shadow again?

Ha...it still doesn't work.

Please forgive me...

Without you, I wouldn't have the courage to embark on that path.

And you can no longer accompany me.

How could you, who has already embarked on the journey, return to where you came from?

I have long understood that many things cannot be undone.

Time, memory, you.

I wish you could be by my side.

I don't need persuasion.

That wasn't genuine love, but rather a poor performance put on to suit the situation. I could see that the acting was extremely poor and only served to highlight their own ugliness.

They have adapted to the dark environment and are completely unaware of the ugliness in themselves and others, and they don't care about their bodies rotting due to lack of sunlight.

Their behavior, their stench is disgusting.

It's a pity that I can't show my disgust for them.

If it's for you, it doesn't matter what I do.

Please forgive me...

This is the last time.

Chapter 6: Should Curiosity Be Stopped?

No one was waiting for me under the tree in front of the teaching building.

This is something I already knew, but because of my previous habits, I didn't react to it for a while.

It was not until I saw the sunset in the sky that I realized that in today's physical education class, I told Yehui that I would be the president of the drama club.

"It seems he has already gone back..."

After all, the story has been written, and all that remains is the character design and shot division... She needs to go home and try these things slowly.

And I also have things I need to do, which are what I just heard.

...and speaking of what I just heard.

I'm very clear that I'm not hallucinating, and I haven't heard it wrong at all. The subject of the argument is indeed Senior Sun and Senior Su... But why exactly... Could it be that Senior Sun's "friend who had an accident" is referring to Senior Su?

"Do not..."

I quickly rejected this guess, even though there was no reason for it.

So why are they arguing...

...But if you think about it carefully, there seems to be no reason to overturn it. It seems that humans have this habit of subconsciously rejecting the initial answer.

"Um..."

Because that member hesitated to speak, I can infer that Senior Sun didn't allow him to speak... and the reason for not allowing him to speak is easy to understand if we start with Senior Su. As a senior in the third year, he was the one who passed the position of club leader to Sun Hao... Why does it feel like this position was designated? Is this the legendary abdication system?

Well, anyway... if Senior Su was in trouble, given Senior Sun's personality, he certainly wouldn't just leave it alone. And Senior Su's college entrance exam was approaching, so this kind of mistake couldn't happen. If his worries affected his exam results, Senior Sun would definitely blame himself for not persuading him well enough...

"Well, that makes sense..."

I give myself full marks for this analysis.

So, the real question is...what on earth is Senior Su worried about, and why is it that no amount of persuasion is of any use?

I listened there for a few minutes and found that Senior Sun was indeed trying hard to persuade, and what he said was indeed reasonable, although the content was too chicken soup, and some of it I could not agree with... but generally there was no problem... But Senior Su, on the other hand, seemed to only respond with words like "Just leave me alone", "Even so", "No, I can't", "Hurry up and take care of the club's things", and his tone was extremely cold.

I would have believed it if you said that the automatic reply was turned on. I dare not imagine what kind of mood Senior Sun was in when he persuaded him... I definitely could not have persisted, but he actually kept it up for at least two days.

What on earth could have caused the usually calm and composed Senior Su to become so unwilling to listen...

I...I'm curious!

. . . . . . . . . .

"It's better not to be too curious... Junior, haven't you heard the saying, 'Curious people always die in the end'? This is a warning to you about this kind of heartache."

What is that, I've never heard of it.

"That saying should be 'Curiosity kills the cat,' right? Can't you even remember something so simple?"

The groan I wanted to vomit was spoken first...

"Wow, the cat is so cute, Xiaoyu, how could you bear to let it die? I didn't expect you to be such a heartless person."

I have to say...this reason is really...awesome.

"The cat you care about doesn't exist, so by the same token, your seemingly overflowing sympathy is also fake."

He actually fought back beautifully.

Wait, why am I so obsessed with the confrontation between these two?

I was trying to ask for help from a member of the Club Cooperation Club, someone I'm close to, but ended up having this conversation that was basically just a joke. Are they really serious? I feel like the atmosphere between them is super good... But that's not what I should be concerned about.

"Okay, let's stop arguing about cats for a moment."

I interrupted the two people who were arguing...it wasn't so much an argument as it was just complaints about each other.

"I told you the cat is fake." "Hey! Schrödinger~"

"Stop..."

I'm getting a little impatient.

"Okay, okay... go on."

"Huh..." I sighed, then noticed the things on their table.

"Come to think of it, why are you posting dots? Is this also a commission?" He was actually commissioned to draw comics. Could it be that he was tricked by some cartoonist... in order to save assistants or something?

I picked up the cup of tea that was offered to me and took a sip. I felt that my tea-making skills were no match for my president's.

"Is it... or isn't it..." Xiao Yu, who was busy verifying whether it was pasted incorrectly, began to talk to himself helplessly.

"...It's a bad fate, I guess."

The leader of the cooperative club on the side suddenly spoke up, even though he was also working hard to post the outlets.

Well, now it does look a bit like that.

"Hmm... never mind." My attention seemed to have drifted unconsciously. "So, why do you think seniors quarrel? Or, in other words, where do other people's troubles come from?"

If you don't know where to start with something, it's better to find a few people to give their opinions so that you can reach a conclusion.

"I think...the quarrel was because of fighting over something, right? It's not a limited edition souvenir or something like that, it's about women...fate." Xiao Yu was the first to express his opinion.

"Don't talk nonsense. Are the seniors really that narrow-minded?" The leader of the Cooperation Club immediately retorted, "Maybe they were just simply communicating."

"...They are indeed not narrow-minded, they are very nice people... Regarding communication... I think it may just be a difference in ideas, but I don't know what it is specifically." I put forward my own guess.

"Didn't I already tell you... If you try to delve into things that the seniors don't want you to delve into, you might get disliked."

"...Even so, do you still want to find the answer? The result may make you regret it."

Although it sounded like they weren't going to help, what they said did make me think.

"......Well."

Is it really meaningful for me to do something like this?... Well, it's been a long time since you said these words to me.

"Hey, I have another question."

However, this question was not only asked to the two of them.

"What's the question..." "There's clearly no answer yet."

I ignored their conversation.