I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

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"Well... this... well..."

I took the menu reluctantly.

Actually, I just finished my drink, so if it was just a drink, I'd probably skip it. But since they've handed me the menu, I can't refuse. So, I guess I'm a pushover after all... Ah, I almost forgot I didn't bring any money. My apologies.

"......"

It feels a bit awkward.

"Um?"

There was a hint of doubt in her eyes.

"Well...actually, I came here to ask the senior to go back. I was in a hurry when I came out, so...I seem to have forgotten to bring my wallet...haha..." After all, I didn't expect to encounter such a situation at that time.

"It's okay." She smiled at me. "Actually, my uncle, the one who owns this shop...just developed some new dim sum yesterday. You can try them for free. Want one?"

There is such a good thing...if it isn't a dark dish.

"...Is that really possible? I didn't order anything...it's not appropriate."

I still feel a little embarrassed.

"Yeah, it's okay. He prefers cooking and making snacks to making money, so he doesn't care about these little things. If it doesn't take up your time, I'll serve it to you right now."

Having said that, I'm actually a little curious about what that snack was.

And it’s okay to go back later...Besides, it seems that the senior hasn’t talked enough, so let’s give him some more time.

"Thank you..."

"No, no~" She waved her hand quickly.

She ran away as soon as she finished speaking.

"What do you think? Isn't she a super nice and cute person?" Senior Jia asked me with a smile on his face.

"Even if she's cute, so what? You'll be gone in a few days anyway. Wouldn't it be irresponsible to let her develop a crush on you?"

Another sinful man appeared.

"It's just a small talk, don't worry about it."

Your expression makes me worried.

"...Forget it. If you really have something to say, just say it while I'm having a snack. Then come with me when the time comes."

"Okay, okay~ I've told you so many times, it's just talk."

What else can I say...

"Here it is, try it quickly." She said and put the plate in front of me.

"Oh...what is this...cake?"

The pastry on the plate has been cut into rectangular shapes. It's generally brown with a white tinge on top... maybe cream? It does look delicious.

"Yeah~ It just tastes different from usual."

"Oh... then I'll give it a try..."

I scooped a large piece with a spoon in anticipation... Wait, this doesn't feel right...

"...this...this taste." After taking a sip, it didn't taste sweet, but a fusion of salty and sweet... It always felt weird.

"Um...what flavor is this?" I felt a frown appear on my forehead.

"Ah, I think this is a remarkable innovation. It's seafood flavored. Think about it, cake and seafood are often combined in Western cuisine, and this product combines the lightness of seafood with the sweetness of cake. I think it's a very bold attempt. What do you think it tastes like?"

"Ahahaha, it's... okay, it's okay."

I actually like things that have a distinct sweet and salty taste.

"In that case, don't be polite and just eat it all." He gave me a sincere smile.

"Ha ha..."

....I choose death.

Chapter 31 Origin

The shadows in our hearts often come from the past.

Yes, I might not actually dislike this cake, which, at first glance, sounds like a dark cuisine. To be fair, it actually tastes quite good, with a nice blend of umami and sweetness that never overwhelms the saltiness... maybe it's delicious, right?

But I may not be able to like this taste.

Because the object in front of him accidentally evoked the fear deep in his heart.

That day, until my mouth was filled with the scent of the ocean, I suddenly recalled the fear of having a fishbone stuck in my throat, and the shame of being sent to the hospital for such a thing.

It was clearly a freshwater fish bone stuck in my throat, but the blame is put on the seafood... After all, you are all aquatic creatures.

"What's wrong with you? You don't look well." She was very keen to notice my change.

"It's okay, don't worry about me, just continue your conversation."

I quickly shook my head.

"Oh, okay then..."

"I will go back after I finish eating, senior." I looked at Senior Jia who was standing beside me.

"Okay, okay, then let me tell you about the origin of poetry and how I became fascinated by it?"

Oh...it's starting now.

. . . . . . . . . . . . .

"OK, the venue has been occupied... um... the selection is complete! Those people have agreed to lend the venue to us to play."

Lin Yuchuan proudly reported the situation to Sun Hao.

"Very efficient..." Sun Hao couldn't help but sigh, "President, your negotiation skills are really strong. I've admired you for this for a long time."

"Haha, junior, you still have a lot to learn. This is nothing~"

In fact, everyone likes to be praised.

"Well, the only ones missing are Sheji and Li Du. Miss Ye has already gone back to rest..." He scratched his head in a troubled manner, "So that leaves only Liu Yan and me, the two boys... The boys' team won't be joining for now. You girls can just pair up as two people."

"OK, no problem~" Rin Hanekawa said, looking at the girls who had already arrived, "Then, who will be the referee?"

Usually, they ask who wants to join me first, right?

"..."

Rinquanchuan was the first to raise his hand.

"Oh~ Is there no one? That's a headache. I'll do it myself." For some reason, Rin Yukawa deliberately ignored her.

"Hey..."

"Xiao Lin, calm down..." Ye Hui quickly persuaded Lin Quanchuan, who seemed to be in a good mood, "Your sister wants you to have fun playing with us."

"Um..."

It looked like he was holding back his anger.

"How about we form a team?" Ye Hui suggested to Lin Quanchuan.

"Oh? Uh... um... okay... okay."

"Then I'll be in the same group with you, Ling Can. We are similar in size." Ye Jin took the initiative to find Ling Can.

"Oh, okay...but will we really not suffer any loss if we do this?"

With this body type...it's hard to catch or spike the ball, right?

"The important thing is to participate... Besides, there's no need to destroy your own prestige like this!" "I'm just telling the truth." "No need to tell the truth!"

. . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Don't taste it, just swallow it.

I silently gave myself psychological hints and tried hard to swallow every bite that came into my mouth... It felt so painful.

I always feel a sense of déjà vu...

Ah, I remembered it.

That’s right, it’s just like when I was a kid and was a picky eater, but my mom forced me to finish the vegetables I didn’t like... This feeling is really... a bit nostalgic.

As I got older, I still became a picky eater, and my parents were often not at home, so I had fewer opportunities to eat their cooking. I also had money to spend freely, so I could buy the food I liked.

I no longer have to eat food I don’t like. Even if some restaurant meals contain vegetables that I don’t like, I can leave them in my bowl and no one will say anything to me or force me to finish them.

In fact, I can just put the food I don’t want to eat here, and then leave after the senior finishes talking to her. She will definitely not say anything out of face, and I will not come to see her again, and most likely I will never see her again in the future.

But I still ate it anyway.

Just like when I eat out, I will occasionally eat up all the dishes I don’t like, and just like when my parents occasionally cook for me, I will eat up all the dishes, both those I like and those I don’t.

Although it feels bad to force yourself...I unexpectedly miss this feeling now.

Maybe it's because I realized that if I weren't picky about food, I would be stronger or taller than I am now.

"History... well... haha... then... it's... literature..."

I didn't hear a word of the conversation between Senior Jia and that girl because I was thinking about many things.

There are indeed many things in this world that cannot be explained. Now I don’t even know what I am thinking.

"Well, let's leave it at that."

For some reason, this was the only sentence I heard clearly.

"Ah... well, speaking of which, I have to work hard. Although business isn't as good as other shops, I can't let my guard down..."

You have such self-awareness...it's really rare.

"Then we won't bother you any more."

I said as I quickly stuffed the remaining...semi-dark food into my mouth, then pulled my senior to my feet.

"Goodbye, I might come again tomorrow." Senior Jia said and waved to her.

"Well, if you have time, you can come again. My uncle actually has many new dishes waiting for others to try."

"Ahahaha, I'm also looking forward to your other...works...hmm."

Could it be more powerful than this? Probably not, right? Besides, I probably won't come here again, right?

"Then, welcome back next time."

Oh, this last sentence is quite reasonable.

......................

"Are you coming again tomorrow?"

On the way back, I happened to ask Senior Jia.

"Come on, why not? Don't you think it's a shame not to talk to such a cute girl?"

He looked at me with a look that said, "You are such a jerk."

"Speaking of cute girls, aren't there a lot of them with us? You can definitely strike up a conversation with them."

Although I personally don't recommend doing so.

"Are you serious?"

He looked at me incredulously.

"...Huh? What do you mean?"

"It's okay... Anyway, even if you asked me to talk to them, I don't have anything to say."

"....Why."

"Because they hardly believe what I say." He shrugged helplessly.