I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

Maybe he couldn't figure out why I should apologize, and Ye Hui had a confused expression on his face.

"Although this may be a little abrupt...but for some reason, I really want to find a place to sleep..."

Then I yawned in a very competitive way... Oh, it seems that I should say it was not competitive?

"Of course... I'm not saying I'm bored with you... I just..."

I suddenly felt that this was a bit rude and might be misunderstood... After all, I actually felt sleepy when a girl was with me... Generally speaking, this kind of behavior is destined to lead to a lifetime of loneliness...

"It's okay, I know, Sheji, you are too tired."

Ye Hui didn't care too much and was very considerate of me.

"what..."

Tired? I don’t know, but... a lot of things happened in this morning alone, and I definitely don’t feel relaxed.

"Besides, taking a lunch break is a very normal thing, so there's nothing to worry about. Just rest when you're tired."

"I'm a little sorry... You came here because of my suggestion, but I didn't spend much time with you... or anything."

So...it seems like there are still many people I should be with...so what on earth am I doing...

"it does not matter."

Chapter 28 Dream Interpretation

Although I was under the protection of the parasol, the surrounding temperature still made the folding chair a little hot... Of course, I chose to ignore it, after all, my eyelids were already very heavy.

There were no people on the other lounge chairs.

"...Is this all right here? Wouldn't it be better to go back..."

"No need...it's a long way to walk back, and..."

"Okay, okay..." she said, handing me something, "Look what this is?"

"what..."

Looks so familiar... Aren't those the sunglasses Rin Hanekawa gave me...

"Although the effect isn't as good as an eye mask, it'll at least make you feel better. After all, you can't rest well in the sun. Besides, this was originally yours, right? I saw you throw it on the chair when you were moving things."

"Is that so... Thank you..."

"Unkind."

In fact, I had forgotten that I had such an equipment, and it was given to me by Rin Yukawa... If Ye Hui hadn't given it to me now, I wouldn't know where to find it when Rin Yukawa remembered it.

"...Actually, they all said these sunglasses don't suit me."

I said putting it on again...it didn't feel familiar.

"Oh...it feels okay..." Ye Hui said with a smile, "I actually think I look even more handsome."

"Well..."

I scratched my cheek, feeling a little shy.

But it's no use praising me like this.

"Then you can rest in peace..." Ye Hui said as he turned to leave, "I'll go find the others. If anything happens, I'll call you."

"Well... then... please."

. . . . . . . . .

I know you are tired.

You are always so busy... and finally you look tired... It's really rare to see you like that.

But you don't hide it at all, facing me.

No matter when, you have never concealed your emotions in front of me...whether it is positive joy or negative depression.

Actually, you must be very sad too... You have solved so many problems for others, but there are still many things in your heart that have not been resolved... Although you have not mentioned it to anyone, I understand.

From the moment I met you, I understood...you must be carrying something that you don't even understand.

Because I don’t understand, I choose to give up...?

I'm wondering...when will you remember it...because I don't know if it's my illusion, but I always feel that you will throw away the mask again like that time and leave without looking back.

Will you leave...

Even if I hold your hand tightly like this, will you still leave?

. . . . . . . . . . . .

Where is this...

It's very dark around...but if you look closely, you can still see some scenery. Could it be night time?...So, why did I come out at night?

"........."

My brain seemed to have lost the ability to remember. Whenever I tried to recall why I came out at night, my mind became confused.

Then, suddenly, there was a bright light around me. It was the light from the street lamps... With the help of this light, I could finally see the surrounding scenery clearly.

There was a slide that looked a bit old, a broken swing, and a sand pit that didn't look very big... I remembered that this was the park near my home.

When I was a kid...when I was a kid? How could I have such strange thoughts...Speaking of which, how old am I now...seven or...seventeen...or...

I can’t remember…and I always feel that the scenery is a little strange.

What am I doing here...

I unconsciously looked up at the sky... Ah, the stars are out... Oh right, I'm here to find that... The brightest star should be what I'm looking for... What was it...

I can't quite remember what it was. I was convinced, but there was a voice whispering to me, "That's impossible." What was going on?

"Woo...Woo..."

Sobbing? Why was there sobbing? Was there anyone in the park at night? I should have been scared, but I was surprisingly calm as I looked for the source of the crying.

I can't see clearly... Is it because the street lights are too dim?

"What’s wrong with you..."

I asked the one who looked small...normal size? No...what's going on...anyway, it's a girl...

"I got separated from my parents."

"...Did you get lost here?" Getting lost...feels a bit familiar.

"Your face is so scary..."

She suddenly said this to me.

"Face? I'm not very handsome... but I definitely won't..." No, I shouldn't say that.

"This...this is a mask."

Mask, yes, I'm wearing my favorite mask. Strange, when did I put it on?

"A mask? How can there be such a thing... What is this..."

“…I don’t know…”

I have to take it down and take a look at it to know... No, I know it, it's very clear.

"He's a hero, a hero in the universe."

That’s right, I’ve always wanted to be called a hero, so I wear a hero’s mask and want to find the hero’s hometown in the night sky.

"If you're afraid, just rely on me."

"Hmm... I think my parents will find me soon... I guess."

"Oh... by the way, look over there, that's the Big Dipper."

Actually, that’s the only constellation I can recognize...after all, the others are too difficult to remember.

"Oh... so beautiful..."

"My favorite character's name is Beidou."

I like him, probably because he had someone he loved at the beginning, but in the end, like me, he was destined to fight alone...

Wait...did I have a crush on someone before that? I can't remember...but I have a feeling I know...who was it...

"I have to go back, my parents are calling me."

"Ah... I'll be leaving too... Heroes can't be discovered."

Actually, I'm just a little shy. Being praised or scolded by other people's parents for staying out... isn't it? Just because you want to look cool?

Oh, it's a heroic act.

"give up."

Ah... huh?

It's obviously a derogatory word, but why don't you find it offensive?

Wait, who just said that...

"I hate being a hero...because I can't do it."

Is it me talking... I didn't deny it, it seems so.

But just now I...Huh...what happened to me just now?

Was that a long time ago?

"Found you... hero."

Ah, it’s the lost child...a girl?

"What's wrong...and don't call me a hero, I'm not one anymore."

Speaking of which... I realized something...

"You don't understand anything..."

No... this isn't... but... it's very familiar, and no one has ever said this before...

"I think you're a hero..."

"It's not... Don't say it..."

Stop talking... I didn't mean it... Intentionally? Intentionally what? What was I thinking just now... No, it seems like there is a lot of information, but my brain can't handle it... I have a headache.

What is the key word... I think I realized...

Is this a dream? Once you realize you're dreaming, you'll wake up within two minutes, unless you forget about it within five seconds.

This is impossible, a paradox.

How do I know this word...it's all messed up...

stop stop stop!

"...!"

It was as if a silent explosion occurred in my head, and I suddenly opened my eyes in shock.

It's daylight, but my vision seems hazy... Oh, is that sunglasses? I thought it was night... Come to think of it, I'm on my lunch break...

It was then that I realized that I was sweating a lot. I didn’t know if it was because of the temperature or because of the dream I just had... and I couldn’t quite remember what the dream was about.

But I vaguely seemed to recall the past... the park... the street lights... ah, just like the diary I wrote down.

But...something is not right...

"Um..."

I patted my head... As expected, it is difficult for people to remember clearly what they dreamed about?

"What was that...ah..."

Lost, yes... When Li Ruoming and I met, it was not in the park but in the classroom, but that person... I met her in the park, and she was lost... Did I help her?

And... when we met again, I told her that I didn't want to be a hero anymore... It seems that's the case, and sure enough... what Ye Hui told me at that time should be true was indeed true.

"really..."

Some things will be gradually revealed in dreams...