I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

Compared to me, her personality is like the opposite of mine.

I can do what my parents ask me to do very well, and I can handle that kind of social occasions... Actually, it's no big deal, just smile and use common greetings to deal with the guests.

But it seems difficult for her to do these things.

Because she has never liked talking since she was a child, she rarely speaks more than five sentences when facing her parents, and she doesn't talk much even when facing me.

The most important thing is that I really don’t like to obey my parents’ requests.

I really admire this about her... As long as there is something she doesn't want to do, no matter how much I persuade her or how I reason with her, she just remains silent and says nothing... Then I have to do it for her.

Compared to me, she had no constraints at all during her growth process... However, she still seems unsatisfied, looking bitter and resentful all the time, and for some reason, she only has a very big opinion about me.

I also wanted to change her by making some requests...but the result was that she hated me even more, and she would avoid me whenever she saw me...

Actually, I just care about her, why don't you understand...

Forget it, it doesn’t matter whether you misunderstand me or not.

Who made me her sister?

Chapter 26: Anxiety

"The latest batch is ready... Hey? Is no one here?"

When Rin Hanekawa picked up a plate full of barbecue and was about to share it with everyone, he suddenly found that the guy who was fighting over it not long ago was now missing.

“Oh my…it will be a waste if I can’t finish it…”

But I was almost full.

At this moment, she suddenly noticed a familiar figure beside the borrowed table.

After hesitating for a moment, she still went to talk to him.

"...You can drink, too? I thought you had no resistance to it."

Rin Hanekawa looked at the depressed Rin Izumikawa in disbelief, then moved closer and sat down opposite her.

"..."

But Rinquanchuan didn't want to pay any attention to her. He turned his head to the side and ignored her completely.

"...It seems like you've encountered some troubles. I've watched you grow up, so I can tell such things." Rin Yukawa said with some pride.

"Hmph...it's only a difference of two years." Rinquanchuan retorted in a low voice.

"Oh, you actually refuted..."

"Humph..."

"Alright, alright~ You can eat as much barbecue as you want, but try to drink less alcohol, or it'll be hard to participate in the afternoon activities."

"Not interested in."

Straight to the point.

"It doesn't matter... whatever you want."

Rin Hanekawa also pretended not to care, left the barbecue and left.

Yi Sheji...where on earth did that guy go again? Please persuade that stubborn guy...

. . . . . . . . . . .

Some things are just so strange, almost as bizarre as El Niño... okay, that's a bit of an exaggeration.

The temperature around me was so hot, it was already noon and approaching afternoon, the hottest time of the day...but I sneezed several times on the way back to the beach.

It's impossible to catch a cold in this situation... Could it be that there's something around me that I'm allergic to?

"Well... don't you have a saying here, 'You sneeze because someone said something bad about you' or 'Someone is thinking about you'? Which one do you think your situation belongs to?"

Lingcan, who suddenly brought up this topic, might have noticed my expression... I'm very curious about how she saw my expression from that perspective.

"Well... I'm such an upright person, so no one should say anything bad about me."

I feel a pang of guilt when I say this. I must have offended enough people in high school alone. But I haven't been beaten up yet. Maybe they've forgotten what I did.

"...I think the probability of someone saying something bad about you is higher."

"..."

Ah... Is this the impression I give people...

"Okay, okay, so does that mean someone is thinking about you? How many do you think there are?"

What? You act like you want to trick me, you think I will fall for it... You are so young.

"There should be quite a few, look at my parents... classmates, aunts and uncles..."

"Are you serious?"

"......"

I really don't know how to answer this, because it's hard for me to take this kind of thing seriously.

If you think about it carefully, he must be avoiding the topic on purpose.

To be honest, there are very few things that I take seriously...because in my opinion, I can just give up on many things, so investing time and energy in them is stupid.

But what attitude should we take towards the so-called "feelings" between people? I don't have any answer yet as to whether we should take them seriously.

"I say... don't you really have any self-awareness..."

A slightly dissatisfied tone came from Ling Can.

"...What do you mean by self-awareness? Do you also know that I haven't touched my homework at all?"

"...Is changing the subject so fun? It's always like this..."

“I don’t have any…”

I responded somewhat helplessly.

This scene reminded me of the plots in various mystery movies, novels and animations that I have watched before.

The suspect has clearly exposed his actions, but he still thinks there is no definite evidence and keeps denying his crimes.

"No, I didn't." "How could that be? What would I want?" "I have no reason to do that." "Do you have any evidence?"

Excuses like these.

In fact, it's like saying "I didn't" and it's obvious at a glance...it's not a lie at all.

But the reality is this: I didn't do anything wrong... Whether I admit it or not, I did it voluntarily. She can't influence my choice.

"I really don't understand you."

She sighed helplessly, that expression was simply not something that could appear on her face.

"...You'll understand someday."

I have a feeling that day won’t be far away.

. . . . . . . . . . . .

【??screen】

It was a somewhat unusual day for me.

I'm also aware of this... So far, I've gone out with women more often than with men... because there's no way I'd go out with a man.

But...this situation was broken.

"Oh, Sheji, can you come with me to the mall or something?"

The most unexpected person suddenly appeared and insisted that I accompany him to the central shopping mall which was a little far away.

That person is my senior...a guy whom I often see but never have much contact with.

"Forehead..."

I was about to refuse, but fate seems to be like that... Do you like to go with the flow? Suddenly, the power went out at home. Thinking about it carefully, it seemed to be the same time as the power outage last summer... And it was also on that day that I met my senior.

It's not such a coincidence even when writing a novel... If it was arranged by Steins;Gate, I would rather believe that it was arranged by Truth;Gate.

"Okay, okay..."

Actually, I didn’t want to buy anything, but it was better to go out and enjoy the air conditioning than stay at home. Besides, I had been lying in the house for half a day and my head was aching.

Just like that, he and I embarked on a journey together into a world where I was the only one who didn't want to have any intersection with him.

...........

As usual, he still likes to talk to me about things like literature.

This kind of thing...actually I'm not particularly good at it.

Just when I was racking my brains over the artistic techniques mentioned by my senior, I suddenly noticed that my senior, who rarely appeared in a daze while chatting with me, was looking away and his expression became excited.

I am very familiar with that emotion.

Because I've had that feeling before...it's the emotion you only feel when you meet someone you like and haven't seen for a long time.

At this moment, my senior, who I thought was not interested in girls at all, was looking at a few girls wandering around in the distance.

Who is he looking at...

"That...senior..."

"Sheji, I'm a little sorry... Wait for me a moment..." He looked at me with a complicated expression on his face. Although he looked happy, he couldn't hide the sadness in his eyes.

...I haven't read any romantic dramas or read any romance novels, but the feeling you get when you bump into your ex-girlfriend on the street is probably similar to this expression...

Wait...ex-girlfriend? Senior's? Doesn't Senior Lu Yunzi know about this? Hey...what's going on...

Before I could react, he had already walked towards the girls.

Compared

"It's normal not to understand someone. After all, understanding technically doesn't exist. Okay... let's talk about this later... Are you hungry?"

I said this to her in a casual manner.

"People usually ask 'Are you tired?' But I'm really hungry... After all, bringing Miss Ye back wasted some energy~" She said in a tired tone.

"But you didn't put in any effort at all, did you? You were just running along."

"Running with you also burns calories! Do you think running with you is easy?"

Now that I've said that, I've realized that I didn't even consider energy consumption... That was a bit of a mistake.

But it still feels good to carry Xiaoye on my back. I mean, the feeling of being relied on is good... Thinking about it this way, it doesn't seem like a big deal.

"You can't say that. Helping others is a virtue."

After all, the theory mentioned above only applies to me.

"Really? In that case, you can help me apply sunscreen after dinner. It's always nice to help others."

Lingcan made the request nonchalantly. I have to admit, her acting is getting better and better. If I were a little more obtuse, I wouldn't have noticed anything unusual.

This is clearly a feeling of asking for...

"Why...why do you have to let me help you?"

"You like to help others, don't you? You don't want to..."

“…”

Well, now I can draw a conclusion.

They are definitely planning something... but I can't ask them exactly what they are planning...

It always feels so troublesome.

Chapter 27 Comparison

"Ah...you're here too, where are the others?"

While Lingcan and I were away, they seemed to have borrowed tables and chairs from a nearby shop to set up the food... They were quite thoughtful about that... So, is it because it's about food that they're so active?