I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

...Ha...I don't know how to answer that.

"Then I'm leaving." Nan said as he was about to leave. Suddenly, he whispered to me, "Rinquanchuan seems very angry."

He smiled, patted my shoulder and left.

...a guy who gloats.

"Well, let's move on to that question," Ling Can said to me.

"What?" I turned around and looked at her.

"Will you help me?"

...............

"Didn't I tell you that I'm useless? So I don't want to help others, especially something so important to you, and I can't interfere."

"...Is that so..." She seemed a little disappointed.

"Ah... I can't stand it..." I scratched my hair, "Tell me why you came here. If it's important, I can help you as appropriate."

That's all right...

"Reasons?" She seemed a little hesitant. "There's no reason... I've just been interested in the country my father often mentioned since I was a child. After I came here, I found that it's really great, and I can take care of myself... I..."

"You should tell your mother these words."

I sighed.

"If you're willing, I can talk to her first. But I can't guarantee the outcome, but it should be more beneficial to you..."

"Thank you."

Unexpectedly, she suddenly got up from the sofa, hugged me and buried her head in my chest.

Hey...are you a kid? You're so shy...

"You are indeed very reliable... Even if you deny it, you are still my knight."

"Well..." At this point, I'd better not deny it.

But I still feel that I don’t deserve this title.

After all, I have always been a loser. I don't have any special skills. I'm not strong or smart... I can only talk about some big principles that I can't do myself.

But even though I'm such a loser, I can still be useful sometimes.

Have you seen the dead branches being kicked around on the roadside? That is the true portrayal of a loser, who is ignored, disliked and constantly excluded. Even if he is noticed, he will be thrown aside. In short, he is a guy who brings unhappiness to others.

However, when special conditions are met, such as when one's ignition point is reached, one's inherent abilities will be stimulated and emit strong light and heat.

Am I... ignited now?

But then again....after the waste wood is burned, it turns into ashes...

That would make it even less worth mentioning...

"When are you planning to leave?"

I asked Lingcan.

"My mother said it would happen in the near future, but she didn't specify." She thought for a moment and then answered me.

"Well," I put her on the sofa, "let's go and talk to her now."

He wasn't completely sure, and didn't even know what to say, and he didn't want to force Ling Can to stay.

I just want to say what I want to say. As for the result, just accept it.

Because it is not me who chooses what to do, but others.

A result you can face calmly

"Oh, where are you going..."

As soon as I went out, I ran into Rinquanchuan who looked unhappy.

"Well...it was my fault for locking you out just now..."

It's better to apologize first anyway.

"Don't try to fool around, answer the key points."

It doesn't look like he meant to hit me...

"I'm going to talk to Lingcan's mother."

It's not about persuading for a certain purpose, but just to talk.

"Oh...?" She seemed a little unconvinced and glanced at Ling Shen next to me.

"Yes, that's it." Ling Can confirmed my answer.

"...Whatever you want." Lin Quanchuan moved aside to make way. "If you dare to lock me out again, I will definitely beat you up."

"No." I answered her with a smile, "Then, goodbye."

"Ah."

She didn't say much and walked towards the activity room.

Chapter 14: A result that can be faced calmly

Come to think of it...the key to Lingcan's house is still in my hands.

"Na."

As soon as I reached Lingcan's house, I handed her the key.

"Huh? How did you get the key?"

"I got it from Ye Jin..." I didn't dare speak too loudly because the misunderstanding between Ye Jin and me had not been resolved yet, so it would be better not to let her find out that I was here.

"Oh...I see..." she said as she took the key and opened the door.

...............

"Hey, Ling Shen, are you back?"

Her mother's voice came from the kitchen, as if she heard the door open.

Before Lingcan could answer, Lingcan's mother appeared in our sight wearing an apron.

"Oh," she paused for a moment before returning to her usual smile, "it looks like a guest is here."

..................

This feeling... is a bit subtle.

I am currently in the kitchen wearing an apron with Lingcan's mother.

"I didn't know you were coming, so I didn't prepare much food. Could you help me a little?"

Because of this sentence, and because I had something else to say to her, I agreed to help.

Fortunately, I have cooked before.

"Just help peel the potatoes..." I confirmed with her.

"Well, please."

"where..."

Actually, you also know that I have something to say...otherwise why don't you ask Lingcan to help.

"By the way..." I couldn't help but speak.

"What?" She turned around and asked me while cutting vegetables.

"...You'd better focus a little, don't get hurt..." Is it really okay to chop vegetables while turning your head?

"Okay..." She turned her gaze back to the cutting board, "What are you going to say?"

What to say...I'm not sure.

"Actually... I just now understood the reason why Lingcan came here."

Oh... this tool is really convenient for peeling...

"Really...what do you think?" she asked me.

"I think... here, this is peeled..." I handed her the potato.

"Oh, put it on the plate over there first. Oh, and please peel another one."

"Okay..." I did as I was told and picked up another potato. "Lingcan said she came here out of interest and gradually fell in love with this place. I don't think that can be called a reason at all."

"oh...?"

"It strikes me as... a little immature." I looked at the other ingredients. "Do you need onions?"

"No, Ling Shen doesn't like to eat it very much. If you like, you can add another one."

"Forget it... I don't like it much either." He put the potatoes in his hand on the plate.

"But let me ask you this...why did you let her go back? Was it because you were worried about her safety, or was it because you simply couldn't leave her?"

The sound of chopping vegetables stopped.

"How do you say this?"

This reaction... is it really like this...

"Although I've never studied abroad, I can tell from the outside that coming here from abroad would be very troublesome, not to mention the transfer procedures. Lingcan has only been here a few months. If we take her away just because we're worried about her, it would be a huge waste, to put it clichédly."

"........"

She didn't speak.

"If I were to say... you two are both very willful. One of you, regardless of being a girl, demands to live independently in a foreign country, while the other is an adult whose mind changes at any moment..."

"So you mean to stop me?"

"No." It's really willful to come to this conclusion.

"I just wanted to talk to you... Besides, Lingcan also has something to say to you, but it should be about not wanting to go back or something..."

"You've already told me, what else is there to say..." She frowned.

"Don't say that... Aren't you mother and daughter? So this level of conversation shouldn't be difficult, right?"

"...So what are you going to say?"

"Hmm...what are you talking about..." I sighed and looked at the ceiling. "Speaking of which, I understand how you feel. After all, if I were a parent, I would never let a daughter like this live alone, let alone go abroad. So I admire your decision."

"But now I regret it..."

"That's as it should be. After all, everyone reviews their past and often discovers shortcomings. This is because people always view past events through the lens of their current perspectives. People mature gradually, and as they mature, they realize how naive their past selves were, and that their actions were full of flaws. They want to try their best to change..."

"That's true... You're right." She sighed. "In that case, should I curb my willfulness and stop interfering with her decisions..."

"This isn't something I can influence... There's no point asking me..." I shrugged, implying helplessness. "While it's commendable that parents trust their children, that doesn't mean the child's decision is correct. Compared to their parents, children are more immature, they don't think too much and always act on impulse. So how we proceed depends on the outcome of your conversation. As an outsider, I shouldn't say anything."

"......"

"Well...I'm going to go talk to Lingcan again."

As I said that, I took off my apron and walked towards the living room.

.............

"Ah...what did my mom say?"

After seeing me, Lingcan seemed very excited and seemed very interested in our conversation.

"I didn't say much...it's more like I was the only one talking." I sat down on the sofa.

"And what did you say?"

“…I can’t say that.”

"Huh? How stingy..."

"It's not that I'm stingy...but I can still reveal a little bit to you."