I, who advocate giving up, feel like a disqualified person

"You are right. I am not a knight."

I replied like this.

She looked at me, disappointment evident in her tearful eyes.

"But you're not wrong about one thing. I'm still as useless as ever! No matter what happens, I won't change."

Come and listen to what a loser like me wants to say right now.

Give up excessive efforts and give the choice to others

"You seem to be in distress, or...I seem to be in distress?" A familiar voice came.

It was dark all around.

This is also a familiar environment.

"You're here again..." I followed the voice and looked towards the man.

He is me... the original me.

"I'm in a state of confusion right now, so please don't make things worse..."

"Don't be so cold, we are old acquaintances." He shrugged.

"Ah... okay, okay, if you have something to say, just say it."

"How cold... But never mind." He didn't take it too seriously. "Actually, I came to say goodbye to you."

"Um?!"

What does this mean?

Chapter 13: Give up excessive efforts and give the right to choose to others

"Goodbye...Are you leaving?"

I asked him... Although I knew it was a matter of course, I really didn't expect him to tell me on his own initiative.

"Yeah, and he won't be coming back. Are you happy?"

His expression was very relaxed.

"where are you going?"

"Ha..." He seemed to be at a loss for words and scratched his cheek. "That's a hard question to answer... But you'll go there sooner or later, and then you'll know."

...I don't want to know.

"Goodbye, then." He turned and prepared to leave.

"Wait!" I suddenly remembered something and quickly stopped him.

"Ah? Didn't you say you were busy?" He turned around with an impatient look on his face.

"You're so long-winded. I wanted to ask for your opinion. You should know about that matter."

"Of course I know. About that little girl?"

"...little girls and stuff... they have names too."

"Whatever, I won't help you anyway."

He said calmly

"Why?" That's too stingy...

"Have you forgotten? I'm a loser." He said to me with a smile, "And judging by your current behavior, you're not much better than me."

It's a very infuriating statement, but one that can't be refuted.

"Well...it seems quite right..." I muttered.

"But, if it were me..."

He snapped his fingers, and a beam of light shone into the darkness.

Is it time to put up another picture?...

"I...can't do anything..."

This is... what I said.

In the projected image, I, who looked like a child, seemed to be crying very hard.

“The first time you lose something you love, you realize there are some things you can’t change no matter what.”

He smiled and said, "We have been useless since we were young."

"Right..." I sighed, but I was smiling.

"If I were to encounter something like this, I would fight for it because I don't know what I can change, so I want to give it a try and try my best to change... I want to change something."

Her expression seemed a little lost... Was she remembering the time when she changed Jiayin?

"So, what would you do now? I'm still very curious."

He looked up at me, his eyes filled with anticipation.

"Aren't you in a hurry to leave?"

I decided to keep it a secret and didn't tell him right away.

"It shouldn't take too long just to listen to you talk," he asked me with a smile.

"....." The smile was very forced.

"Please, I want to know."

"......"

It seems like this is really a farewell forever... I can't stand this look...

"Alright... then please listen to what this loser, who hasn't made any progress compared to you, has to say."

"All ears."

"Rather than me having to choose, I'd rather let others choose... That's what I'm going to do."

“....” “.....”

"It's over?" He seemed a little unbelievable.

"Yeah...how much more do you want me to say..."

"Ha... You've really changed... Well, that's fine." He turned around. "Then do as you wish. I'll cheer you on."

"Bon Voyage."

I watched him walk into the darkness.

.........................

"Just do what you want..."

You don't need to remind me of this... jerk...

"me..."

"I'll cheer you on."

What about me, you...Aren't we one person...

“...Hmm?” Lingcan’s expression seemed to still be on guard against me.

Just watch...

"I realized long ago that I'm someone who can't change anything. Even if I did, I wouldn't be able to achieve my desired goals... In short, I'm someone who can't succeed at anything. You could say I'm someone who constantly fails, which is why I keep talking about giving up."

How I did it...

"..."

"But the things I gave up are things I care about very much!"

"You're lying! How could you give up something you care about? And you...you..."

"Because I understand that I'm a loser who can't succeed at anything, and I also know that there's no way I can achieve my goals no matter what I want to do. So it's better for me not to interfere with things that are important to me! Just like whether you want to return to your country, whether you want to go or leave, it all depends on your own decision, right?! A loser like me has no right to interfere!"

...........

She seemed to be frightened by the sound of my voice and was stunned.

"...That's true..." Her voice trembled, "but you really don't care..."

"Of course I care." I tried to get closer to Ling Shen. "Whether it's your business, the title you care about, or the title of that knight, I care very, very much about them. It's just that I think you need to decide this matter yourself, so I said those words that sounded a bit harsh."

That's right...

"...Really?"

It seems...it seems to be effective...

"Of course it's true."

"...You won't lie to me?"

This conversation... seems like coaxing a child...

"Of course I didn't lie to you..." I reached out and touched her head, "But as for whether you want to leave or not, I think it's better for you to decide for yourself."

"So... you want me to leave?"

She looked up at me.

Not good, this look is so pitiful...

"Uh..." My cheeks felt strangely hot. "Well... Of course I don't want you to leave... You'll be lonely, right?"

"I don't want to leave either. I also want to..."

"Then tell your mother what you think."

I interrupted her.

"But...will she listen?"

Lingcan seemed a little worried.

"Just say what you want to say, just like I did just now." I breathed a sigh of relief. "It's not difficult."

"...Will you help me?"

"Ah...this..."

Before he could finish his words, the door suddenly opened.

"Yi! She! Ji!"

Brother Nan's voice came from behind.

"You're so brave! You actually closed the door and stayed alone with a girl..." Then he saw Ling Shen with tears in her eyes.

"How dare you do such a dirty thing!"

"I do not have it!"

"Still quibbling!" At this moment, I suddenly felt my arm being twisted by a great force.

"It hurts..."

"It's normal that it hurts! If you have anything to say, go to the Education Office and tell them! Also, give me your parents' phone number. You are really getting more and more outrageous." Then he dragged me out.

"Wait! Don't you want to listen to what the person involved has to say? I'm being wronged..."

"That's right...I encountered a sad thing, so Sheji came to comfort me." Ling Can quickly wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes and explained to Brother Nan.

"Huh?...Is that so?" She glanced at me sideways.

"Yes, it is..."

"Hmph..." He snorted coldly and let me go. "Then I'll trust you for once. Next time, don't lock Linquanchuan outside. If we want to solve the problem, it's better to have more people."