There is no cure for love

After leaving the restaurant, I drove to the Beijiang River and listened to the roar of the river. I felt very annoyed. Lan Qin's phone calls came one after another, and her name kept flashing on the phone screen. I felt an inexplicable feeling of disgust in my heart.

, I crushed the cigarette butts at my feet and threw the phone into the roaring river.

*** Let’s all die!

When Lan Qin called, she just wanted to ask me where I was and who I was with. She became more and more like a crazy woman, sensitive, irritable, and irritable. She clung to every little thing like a mad dog.

I'm very annoyed.

Meng Zhirou has never been like this before. She is gentle, calm, and virtuous. She never asks about things that should not be asked. Others say that she has a good temper. In my opinion, she is considerate, and anything that can make people feel

She never asks embarrassing questions, or questions that others don't want to answer at all. She just sits quietly aside. As long as you want to talk, she is always there.

Not Lan Qin. As long as any clues appear in her sight, she can always catch them immediately and insist on them. At first, I would think this is a sign of her cuteness and that she cares.

My reaction, but gradually, I got bored. I believe every man is the same, he hates endless cross-examination, no, interrogation.

She is a spoiled and pampered young lady. When I first met her parents, her father told me, "I only have one daughter. She is always in the palm of my hand, but she is going to get married after all. There is something arrogant about it."

, you have to be more considerate, she has never suffered." My father-in-law said this, but he didn't think so in his heart. After being in society for so many years, the experience I gained is that you must not take what others say seriously, people just tell you

you are welcome.

Lan Qin's arrogance has reached the point of being hopeless. I regret it very much. I only discovered this after we got married. We quarreled many times after the marriage, and every time she cried and went to his parents. Her mother herself

To protect my shortcomings, I would be scolded and told that I had no conscience, even if I didn't care whether I was young or not.

I sneered in my heart, I really have no conscience. When I ruthlessly planned to divorce Meng Zhirou without giving her a penny, when Lan Qin made my parents angry and left me powerless, when my mother fell ill and Lan Qin

When he ignored me and refused to allow me to go back, I knew that I could do these things, or when I could allow Lan Qin to do these things, I knew that I had no conscience.

On the day when I divorced Meng Zhirou, Lan Qin forced me to marry her. She said that she couldn't wait to declare her ownership of me to the world. In fact, she just wanted to show off and prove to Meng Zhirou that the man she once loved deeply

, now belongs to her.

She is sick!

Yes, Lan Qin is sick.

I didn't notice it at first, I just thought it was because of her impatient personality. She was like that, the eldest lady had a lawless temper and did whatever she wanted. But later, I gradually realized that something was wrong. Every time I mentioned Meng Zhirou, Lan Qin would

Like I was crazy, my eyes were full of anger, as if I was going to eat me with my mouth. Later, I gradually lost interest in her. Every night when I lay in bed, I prayed to fall asleep quickly, and when I woke up, I

Nothing happened anymore.

But Lan Qin often goes crazy in the middle of the night. She will feel that I have neglected her and asked for her in the middle of the night. What's even worse is that sometimes in the middle of things, she bites me like crazy. Several times, I feel all over my body.

It was all injuries. I finally couldn't bear it anymore and moved to the guest room to sleep. She refused to let me go and used the excuse of pregnancy to make trouble with me all day long. I almost had a schizophrenia.

Later, I looked up the symptoms of mania in pregnant women on the Internet and found that many of Lan Qin’s behaviors were very similar, so I tried every means to take her to see a doctor. That day in the hospital, she slapped her hard in front of many people.

I slapped him twice and then growled at me, "I'm not fucking sick!"

*** is sick!

Because she was pregnant, she couldn't take medicine, so I had no choice but to endure it and follow the doctor's advice, trying not to make her angry or excited. She seemed to be aware of her own mania, and sometimes looked at me with her "

"Masterpiece" will come to me and apologize obediently. Whenever this happens, I feel trembling from the bottom of my heart. Do you understand that feeling? It's like a pervert who suddenly and gently says to you, "I love you."

You." That feeling was simply terrifying.

But she is rarely quiet. In front of others, she is normal. Only I know that in private, when we are alone, she is a crazy woman.

When she frantically checked my text messages, call records, WeChat and email, I discovered that she was doing this to monitor whether I had any contact with Meng Zhirou and whether I had any correspondence. I thought

She was just worried that Meng Zhirou and I would be disconnected.

Oh, how is that possible? I know Meng Zhirou’s character very well. Although she has a gentle personality, she is actually very stubborn at heart. I have done so many things that have hurt her. Even if I licked her feet and begged for forgiveness, she would also

Don't pay any attention to me.

Until that day, Lan Qin felt that he was too much towards my parents and asked to go back to the countryside to see my parents. At the dinner table, relatives and friends accidentally mentioned Meng Zhirou. My mother praised and sighed casually, and Lan Qin said

She threw the bowl in front of everyone, stood up and overturned the table, and everyone was stunned by her roar.

After she came back, her mania became more severe. She refused to go to the hospital. I had to consult a doctor myself and asked what I should do. The doctor asked me if Lan Qin had been stimulated in any way. She felt ashamed and didn't want to think about it.

The doctor said that for a person with a strong personality, face is very important. After returning home, I thought about it carefully. Lanqin’s parents were very flattering to her and would not give her any stimulation. She usually

Her friends also treated her as a princess, and they didn’t dare to offend her. When it came to excitement, I thought about it for a long time, and I only thought of the time when Meng Zhirou was caught and raped.

Meng Zhirou took the photo and threatened Lan Qin with it. I remember that several days after the rape incident, Lan Qin would sometimes wake up from his dreams, and then he kept scolding Meng Zhirou and cursed her.

hell.

Perhaps, it was this incident that embarrassed her, plus her pregnancy, that made her where she is today.

However, what really made me unbearable was that day in the mall. Her belly was getting bigger and bigger, and she shouldn't have gone out. Her mother couldn't stand her at all, so she left the nanny and went out shopping alone. My mother-in-law's phone number from the street

, immediately came out to look for her, and finally found her in the mall. She refused to leave, and made a fuss all the way to the door. Her mania came back, and she waved her hands in front of so many people and slapped me twice, as if she was crazy.

He kept beating me.

I'm a fucking man, I can tolerate him once but not the second time. At that time, I didn't care that she was a pregnant woman. I was so angry that I raised my hand and slapped him.

Then, I saw Meng Zhirou standing aside. She was much thinner and stood looking at me indifferently. Her face was very calm.

Her expression, like that of thousands of passers-by, was very indifferent. It was as if we didn't know each other at all.

At that moment, my heart suddenly trembled, and a feeling of irritability surged into my heart. I left Lan Qin and walked towards the car.

Then, the people behind her screamed. Lan Qin collapsed and hit the ground, her white pants stained red. I was also anxious. I picked her up and got in the car to go to the hospital.

No matter how much I dislike seeing this woman, the child in her belly is mine!

I sat in the corridor of the hospital waiting, feeling a very strong sadness in my heart. I thought of what happened five years ago.

The corridor of the hospital is really long. When I looked from one end to the other, I felt scary. The lights in the operating room were on. Does the green light mean hope?

But Lan Qin still had a miscarriage.

When the doctor said these words to me coldly, he had a sad but indifferent expression on his face. I thought that his indifference was true and his sadness was false. It was just a kind of sympathy that he had to show in such an environment.

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I sat on the plastic stool in the cold, feeling like I was sitting on ice.

Five years ago, I came alone to get Meng Zhirou's physical examination report. The doctor also looked at me with a sad face and said, "Your wife's improper recovery after miscarriage caused infertility due to damage to the mother's body. It will be difficult for her to have another pregnancy in the future."

I have a child."

At that time, I felt like I had fallen into an endless black hole, falling down and down. My self-blame and regret made me ashamed to see people. I took the report and walked in the corridor of the hospital.

Sit there all afternoon.

Just before the doctor left work, I pushed open his door, knelt in front of him, and asked him to revise the test report.

I swear, I loved Meng Zhirou deeply at that time, and I knew that her infertility was all because of me. It was me who asked her to have an abortion, and it was me who was drunk and fooling around in the fountain pool, which made her just

After the operation, she went into the water to pull me out and stayed in the rain all night. Because I had no money, I had to let her get an intravenous drip in a small clinic, which delayed the treatment.

Her illness is all because of me.

She is a kind-hearted woman. When I was penniless and could only afford to live in the basement, she married me without hesitation, stole her household registration book when she came home, and rejected the rich man her aunt found for her.

She married me when I was impoverished, and she didn't even have a decent wedding. She married me without hesitation, washed and cooked for me. Even if she didn't eat meat for two months and lived in a dark basement with a mixture of fish and dragons, she still wouldn't do it.

Never thought of leaving me.

But if she knew she couldn't have children, she would definitely leave me. We lived in the basement, and it was as hot as a steamer at night. We couldn't sleep, so we chatted together. She always said that she must have two children.

One child is too lonely, two are just right.

I remember the happy expression on her face when she said these words.

I knelt in front of Dr. Chen and told him about my love affair with Meng Zhirou. I burst into tears and gave him a month's salary. He finally agreed to help me revise the physical examination report.

In the next few years, every physical examination was like this.

I thought this could be a lifelong secret. As long as we were together, it didn't matter whether we had children or not.

I do not care.

But I met Lan Qin, a red rose blooming in the dark night. An unexpected one-night stand made me fall into the whirlpool of extramarital affairs and I couldn't extricate myself.