The cycle begins to repeat itself today.

I've decided to die at home around 5 a.m. tomorrow. Later is fine too, but if I want to fully experience what happened today, 5 a.m. would be perfect. Before that, I went to school to get March's phone number, only to find out I'd been deceived again. After returning home, I fell asleep quickly and wasn't woken up by Zhiyun until almost 5:30 a.m., which began my day.

Starting at that time would be perfect. If it were any earlier, I would go straight back to school... I've developed an uncontrollable fear of school late at night now, and I don't really want to go back to that time. So, if I could keep the time at five o'clock, it would be a very good choice for me.

Starting from this point, I can also confirm whether my vision had already begun to distort. I just need to carefully recall how I dealt with Zhiyun.

Time ticked by, and I sat somewhat bored in my seat, waiting for get out of class to end, also thinking about some noteworthy events that had happened that day. It wasn't until Yezi got up and started packing her bag that I realized it was already time to go home after school.

Nothing seemed out of the ordinary. Ye Zi, San Yue, and I met up with Zhi Yun and Lin Yin at the main building, and the five of us walked out of the school together. The iron gate remained unchanged; I could only enter or leave after these girls had touched it.

Arriving at the pedestrian bridge, I took a closer look. Surprisingly, it hadn't changed much. However, as I stepped off the bridge, I noticed the scenery below had altered considerably. Looking back at the top of the bridge, I realized that the twisting was simply due to the bridge's surface not being directly on the pedestrian crossing.

After saying goodbye to the girls, Zhiyun and I went home. Zhiyun went straight to take a shower, while I stayed in my room, flipping through a book to pass the time. I didn't see my parents, but the living room light was on, so they were probably still there, just out of my sight. After her shower, Zhiyun came to my room. She was relatively well-behaved tonight, not doing anything too outrageous. At most, she quietly unbuttoned her shirt and hugged me from behind. I could tolerate that; I wanted to conserve my energy, since doing *that* takes more than just physical strength.

However, there was one more thing to do that evening... I needed to check the photos that March and Yezi sent, and also take a similar photo for Zhiyun. Yezi took a somewhat reserved picture of herself in front of the mirror, while March and Lin Yin were taking a shower in the bathroom. Although their expressions were different, you could still see that their faces were rosy. Zhiyun simply threw off her clothes, then pulled one of my hands over her body, letting me feel the softness and elasticity of her body. I took a picture of her in that state.

Because of this incident, I became excited again, and that excitement lasted for quite some time.

"It's already one o'clock... Why are you sleeping so late today?" Zhiyun asked me.

"It's all because of you." I looked at her irritably, trying to shift the blame onto Zhiyun to avoid answering the question.

Zhiyun chuckled and pressed herself against him again: "Do you want me to help you with something? I can do anything for you."

"No need, go to sleep." I pushed her back to her room. Although she felt a little uncomfortable, it shouldn't be too much of a problem if she calmed down a bit.

I watched Zhiyun lie down on the bed, close the door, and then go back to my own room, where I lay down as well. I casually placed my phone on the bedside table, hoping it would wake me up. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, but I couldn't really fall asleep.

After lying in bed with my eyes closed, and thinking about a bunch of random things, I opened my eyes again, sat up, and showed no signs of falling back asleep.

The nights became especially difficult to endure.

Just as I was wondering what to do, I heard the doorknob of my room suddenly turn. Although I always close the door, I never lock it, since no one but Zhiyun would ever want to come into my room anyway. I watched my room door open in the darkness, and by the dim light and the easily recognizable pajamas Zhiyun was wearing, I recognized her instantly.

When Zhiyun saw me, she seemed very puzzled: "Huh? You're still awake?"

"That's what I wanted to ask you too."

Ignoring my words, he turned and closed the door, went to the bedside, took off his shoes, climbed onto my bed, and squeezed into my blankets.

"Shall we sleep together?"

Why aren't you sleeping in your own room?

"Anyway, I go to bed later and wake up earlier than my parents, so they won't notice. I just want to sleep with you tonight, is that not allowed?"

I removed her hand from my thigh and thought for a moment: "Just this once."

"How stingy. But I knew you wouldn't refuse me."

Zhiyun hugged my waist happily and urged me to lie down quickly.

I lay down on the bed as she wished.

Chapter 264 The Viewpoint of Reflexivity

Lying on the bed, Zhiyun didn't make as many small movements as I had expected. She simply took one of my arms and placed it on her head, then let me wrap my other arm around her body, so that she could be completely nestled in my embrace. In the darkness, I could see the satisfied smile on Zhiyun's face.

She gently raised her head, moved closer to me, gave me a light kiss on the lips, and then let go.

"Goodnight," she said to me, then closed her eyes again, making no further movements. At this moment, everything she showed was more warm and gentle than her previous domineering and manic nature. This was the personality and state of Zhiyun that I remembered, even though what she was doing now was very different from before.

I gazed intently at Zhiyun's face, my mind drifting back to the past few days I'd spent with her… Even though it had become reality several times over, I still found it hard to accept. The sensations from my arms, hands, and fingers told me this was reality, but my reason seemed unwilling to accept it… or rather, it was just unwillingness. At such close range, I knew better than anyone that this was the reality I was in right now.

I closed my eyes and recalled how it all began—the "time rewind" that suddenly appeared in my life, forcing me to confront recurring days and the threat of death time and again. This wasn't resurrection, because resurrection doesn't allow time to go back, nor was it a privilege, because I had no control over its occurrence. It was forced to happen by my death, and it could also happen spontaneously while I slept, without my awareness—but it seemed like a long time had passed since such spontaneous time rewinds had occurred.

I haven't experienced death in a long time. But I can feel that something is lurking inside my body. It has no physical form that I can perceive, and it has no color. It's more like a vague and ethereal consciousness.

In this tranquil darkness, I saw Ye Zi fall to her death, I saw March's crazed expression, I saw Lin Yin's stubbornness hidden beneath her timid exterior, and I saw Zhi Yun's undisguised infatuation.

Initially, I rescued Ye Zi from the rooftop to free myself from the first day, but this angered San Yue and led to her killing me. Then, in order to control San Yue, I coincidentally met her sister Lin Yin. Then, one day, I went to San Yue's house to spend the night because I wanted to find out something, which provoked Zhi Yun, who was in love with me, and thus she also became involved in this series of events.

If I had to apologize to, the person I'd feel most sorry for is Zhiyun, who lives under the same roof as me. She's been my sister for so many years, and even though we're not related by blood, we're still siblings—that's an undeniable fact. If… if all these things hadn't happened before, would I have rejected her?

I'm not sure, but I think I probably would... Zhiyun is probably the best girl in the world to me, even though there's a lot to it because we're like siblings. But you can't think about it without considering that relationship, because that's something you can't ignore. I've always hoped that Zhiyun could live a happier life, much happier than someone like me who's neither here nor there. And if I did the same thing, I'd probably commit suicide out of shame.

Even if this was Zhiyun's wish, objectively speaking, I personally destroyed Zhiyun's happy future. I can't accept such an outcome. I was prepared to live as a stepping stone to Zhiyun's happiness, after all, she is someone who is better than me in every aspect, whether in family relationships or social relationships. Although I have never envied her excellence, she is also a kind of light to me. To have myself tarnish that light is more unacceptable to me than death.

But why did I silently accept it?

I realized that I had already undergone tremendous changes. Although this change had not been a long process, the extent of the change was already obvious.

I've never been a person with strong willpower, but I never thought my willpower would be this weak, let alone when it involves my own sister. Even if there was a situation where I couldn't control my body at the time, I would never have accepted it so willingly. Even after learning that Zhiyun wasn't my biological sister, I just clung to her like a drowning person grasping at a straw. From beginning to end, I didn't change anything.

I repeatedly lowered my standards and bottom line. Starting with Ye Zi, I no longer resisted intimate contact with girls; starting in March, I no longer refused to cross the line with them; starting with Lin Yin, I let my desires run rampant; and finally, I succumbed to all sorts of temptations and sank to this point. Originally, I never wanted this to become a reward, yet I took it for granted to use these methods to drive these girls to do things according to my will, to use their bodies to serve me as if it were my own choice, and to pretend I had no choice. This is who I am now.

His original pure feelings for Zhiyun have become tainted, but... why did things turn out this way?

Even if I went back to this time yesterday, could I change everything that has happened so far?

Going back in time doesn't make your past actions disappear; they will remain deep in your memory, influencing your every word and deed.

From the initial Ye Zi to the current Zhi Yun, is that all there is? The rewind events will no longer occur because all the factors that would automatically send me back to the past have disappeared?

If the initial result was Ye Zi, then the final result... would it be Zhi Yun?

Having always been seeking possibilities forward, shouldn't I start thinking about things from the past to the future?

Why did things turn out this way—that he maintains abnormal relationships with four girls that go beyond friendship, one of whom is his own sister?

If this is the result so far, then why did it turn out this way?

I fell asleep without realizing it.

Chapter 265 The Time Skipped

I had a dream after a long time. I dreamt of things that even I couldn't understand. The already blurry images quickly became fragmented due to certain stimuli from different dimensions. I slowly opened my eyes, and as I gradually began to take control of my body, a particularly sensitive part of me felt a warm, smooth touch, and a considerable attraction.

I probably hadn't changed my sleeping posture or position, but I didn't see Zhiyun's figure next to me in this slightly brighter space, on this bed. I quickly realized what she was doing, and the pleasure that had been building up unconsciously reached a breaking point after I woke up, bursting out from a single point.

I remained in bed, only feeling refreshed. Strangely, I didn't experience any significant exhaustion. This state was clearly very different from the near-exhaustion I had felt before. My body felt like it had received an excellent rest; my strength and energy were abundant, and I felt like I had never felt so good before.

This doesn't seem like the kind of recovery one night's rest should give me, especially since I didn't get a proper rest yesterday. I even got scolded by Zhiyun when I went home to get something at noon. My diet was also rather haphazard; I didn't find any food that would restore my strength so effectively.

I could clearly feel Zhiyun cleaning up the mess. She straightened my underwear again and poked her head out from under the covers. I saw that her head was a little wet, and her hair on her forehead was stuck together, probably from sweat. There was also a lot of milky white sticky substance at the corner of her mouth, and her fair face was flushed.

She emerged from under the covers and saw that I was awake. Her previously cautious movements suddenly became bolder, and she pressed herself against my body again.

"Good morning, did I disturb your sleep?" She lay on top of me, and I could clearly feel Zhiyun's curvaceous figure and the size that many girls would envy. I didn't know when my clothes had been taken off, and it seemed that she wasn't wearing any clothes. I could confirm this from the parts that were no longer covered by the blanket.

What time is it now?

"It's already seven in the morning."

What Zhiyun said shocked me. I tried to sit up, but she held me back and didn't let me. She even had a mischievous smile on her face: "Don't be afraid. Mom and Dad went out ten minutes ago. They've been away from home for almost the whole day. From now until we finish eating and go to school, they won't bother us."

I was stunned by Zhiyun's words. Combining what she had said to me today with the current time, I had a bad feeling.

"What day of the week is it today?"

"Hehe, still half asleep?" Zhiyun propped herself up and kissed my forehead, her full, soft breasts almost pressing against her face. "It's the weekend already. Apart from needing to go back to school tonight, there's nothing else to do. I just messaged Sister Sanyue and Sister Yezi. They should be coming over together in a little while."

"Hehe... I'll accept the first one today~ You've been holding back for so many days, I won't let you rest except during mealtimes." Zhiyun hugged my head, letting my head sink into this gentle embrace. I didn't feel suffocated, but mentally speaking, I'm not feeling very good right now.

Several more days have slipped away in this ambiguous situation... Zhiyun's words, the current time, my current state, and my own physical condition all indicate that the weekend, which was originally scheduled to arrive in a day or two, has now arrived.

Zhiyun said she had endured many days of rest, which seemed to prove that I had rested well during those days, and why I felt so energetic. However, I don't think I ever asked these four girls for such a long rest; I only received their promise that day.

"To be honest, I thought you wouldn't let me rest for this long." Given the current situation, I tried to extract the information I wanted from Zhiyun with these vague words. Zhiyun chuckled, fully supporting herself. Looking at those two rather astonishing mounds of flesh hanging in front of her chest, even after experiencing them several times with my own body, I still felt a little dizzy.

"Because I couldn't help breaking our promise that noon, I have to take responsibility and let you rest for a couple more days. After all, it's not enough if it's only once or twice each time... I told Sister March and the others that it would be more fun to come over and play for a longer time on the weekend, and she happily agreed. Today, it seems like we can have a good competition."

Zhiyun looked down at me, and I tried to shift my gaze to her eyes, which sparkled with a mischievous light: "Although Sister Sanyue and the others should be here in a little while, there should be enough time for one time... Not just the mouth, but all of Brother's firsts today are mine. This is your reward for letting you rest for an extra day, you haven't forgotten, have you?"

I have no memory of anything since that night when Zhiyun came to my room to sleep, so naturally I don't remember if there was such an agreement. I didn't answer her question directly because I didn't know how to answer in a way that would satisfy Zhiyun. I just sighed helplessly and looked into her eyes: "Do whatever you like."

"Then...brother, you can enjoy yourself today." Zhiyun licked her lips, bringing the sticky residue from the corner of her mouth into her mouth, and sat on my lap. The blanket slipped off her body, revealing her naked, white body.

She took off my clothes again, guided me into her body with her hands, and showed a gentle smile on her face as she slowly swayed.

I always feel like something's missing, but I can't quite put my finger on it.

Chapter 266 Forgotten Things

After about half an hour, Zhiyun finally calmed down a bit and returned to how she was before my memory was interrupted. She hugged me and lay down on the bed with me. The only difference was that neither of us was wearing clothes.

I freed one hand and glanced at the time on my phone. It was almost 7:40. Even on weekends when I didn't have classes, I'd never been this late. Zhiyun, on the other hand, didn't seem to be thinking about these things. After a short rest, she propped herself up again. Just when I thought she was about to get moving again, she unexpectedly pulled away from me.

The flush on her face hadn't faded. She lowered her head, one hand sliding over her body, scraping the overflowing white, viscous substance onto her fingertips and gently sucking it. This scene had a profound impact on me; now that my strength had returned to what it was long ago, I quickly stood up again.

Zhiyun, with her head down, naturally noticed my reaction. She giggled, moved away from me, and sat down beside me, running her index finger, which she had just been sucking, over my body. "It seems you've had a good rest these past few days, brother. You still seem quite energetic. But that's how it should be... Although I'd like to continue, I have some things to do later. After that, let's wait for Sister Yezi and Sister Sanyue to come over."

Zhiyun grabbed my hand and pulled me out of bed: "Let's take a shower together, otherwise we'll be smelled when we go out for breakfast, and we also need to buy groceries for lunch and afternoon. If we don't eat our fill, even you, brother, probably can't last this long, right?"

I certainly wouldn't refuse a break, but Zhiyun ignored me after teasing me, which made me feel a little uncomfortable. Fortunately, I could still hold on with my willpower. So, I went to the bathroom with Zhiyun and took a shower. Zhiyun's words that she wouldn't think about resting all day weren't a lie, or an exaggeration.

In the bathroom, Zhiyun, who was teasing me, was pressed down and made to do it again. Zhiyun did not resist at all. I could feel that she had no intention of resisting at all. In fact, she did it all on purpose, in order to entice me to make a move on her.

I had no intention of defying Zhiyun's will, neither in my already reacting body nor in my actions. As I washed myself with Zhiyun's help, I reflected on the fact that I seemed to be becoming more and more accustomed to this kind of thing and less and less concerned about it.

After finishing in the bathroom, I quickly took a shower and came out. Although Zhiyun didn't mind me continuing, I felt a little frustrated that my willpower was gradually weakening. I changed my clothes before Zhiyun came out, and she pursed her lips after seeing that I was dressed, and went to her room.

After she finished dressing, she came over and took my hand, her face beaming with a smile that was a mixture of happiness and longing: "It's time to go. Let's have breakfast and buy groceries together. By the time we get back, Sister Ye and the others should be here too."

Zhiyun pulled me out of the house. As we walked along the road, I felt something was off, something that didn't match my memory, but I couldn't remember what it was. I could sense that it was important, but I couldn't recall anything about it.

As I walked, I tried to recall what I wanted to do, but I was somewhat desperate to find that, apart from how I met Ye Zi, San Yue, and Lin Yin, I couldn't remember most of the things clearly. I only knew what I did and what the result was, like skipping the steps in a problem and giving the answer directly. I knew what I did, but I didn't know how I did it. All I had was the cause and the result, not the process.

I saved Yezi, and then she fell in love with me. She listened to me and was even willing to do anything for me.

I hoped March wouldn't interfere with my plans, so she offered a deal that led to our current close relationship.

I met Lin Yin by accident and did some very bad things to her. Then she and her sister, San Yue, started to serve me.

I remember it very clearly.

But how exactly did I save Ye Zi? What were the conditions for the exchange proposed in March? What did I do to Lin Yin? I remember these things, but they've become very blurry. I want to speak about these things, but the words just won't come out. I have the memories, and I know how to pronounce them, but I just can't recall what I remember.