My deskmate is actually my yandere reader.

This was unbearable and unacceptable to Kurose Izumi!

In this situation, how could he possibly believe in Shiraishi Chiren's love?

"Quan, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..."

“I had no idea this would make you so sad…”

"It was my fault. I accept whatever you did to me—hitting me, yelling at me, whatever you did to me..."

"But please don't leave me, stay by my side, let me make it up to you, okay?"

"I... I beg you, Izumi... Kurose."

Shiraishi Chiren pleaded incessantly, tears streaming down her face.

Looking at Shiraishi Chire, who was pleading with him so humbly, Kurose Izumi felt as if his heart was being torn apart, and he was extremely conflicted.

He is actually a very cowardly and indecisive person.

He has always followed the crowd and has no distinguishing features.

I wrote to help support my family's finances; it wasn't my original intention to write.

Imprisoned by Fuyuko Kuchiki, yet treated gently by her, he succumbed to his indecisive nature and chose to forgive her for her youthful folly.

But after falling in love with Shiraishi Chiren, he truly felt that he had something he wanted to do.

That is……

The responsibility to fill the void in her heart.

Because he is Shiraishi Chire's lover, this is what she should do, and it is something she is willing to do.

Ironically, he discovered that he didn't understand Shiraishi Chiren at all, so how could he possibly fill that gap?

After a long while, Kurose Izumi took a deep breath, and his face, which had been contorted with excitement, gradually calmed down.

He said, "...Have you moved?"

Upon hearing this, Shiraishi Chiren paused for a moment in surprise.

In that instant, she considered both the good and the bad possibilities.

"...It's all packed up."

After saying those words, Shiraishi Chiren waited anxiously for a reply.

"Yeah, let's do it sooner rather than later."

In the end, Izumi Kurose still couldn't forgive Chire Shiraishi.

He couldn't get over the apology, even with just a verbal one.

If deep-seated wounds could be healed with words and apologies, there wouldn't be so many tragedies.

Upon receiving the answer, Shiraishi Chiren's face instantly turned pale, devoid of any color.

"……I see."

She spoke softly, then got up and left, looking dejected.

There's no point in staying here any longer; let's just give each other some space.

Just as Shiraishi Chiren opened the door to the infirmary and was about to walk out, Kurose Izumi's voice suddenly rang out behind her:

"Bai...Qianlian, I will not transfer schools."

Upon hearing this, Shiraishi Chiren's lifeless, despairing eyes suddenly lit up.

This is……

Is there a turning point?

The thought of this possibility filled her with ecstatic joy, and all her sadness vanished.

The fact that Kurose Izumi didn't leave her side means he's giving her a chance to make amends, right?

'Quan, I will, I will do everything in my power to make you understand my feelings…'

With that thought in mind, Shiraishi Chiren turned around, gave Kurose Izumi a deep look, and then closed the door.

"Ugh……"

Lying on the bed, Kurose Izumi sighed softly and suddenly became annoyed.

I've softened my heart again...

There was no way he could be so heartless when Shiraishi Chiren was crying her eyes out in front of him.

Originally, I didn't really want to transfer schools.

Although it's awkward to be around Shiraishi Chiren, it's better than unrequited love.

If Izumi Kurose transfers schools, she will never see Chire Shiraishi again.

"I'm really useless..."

Kurose Izumi muttered to herself, a bitter smile on her face, then sat up from the bed, preparing to leave the infirmary.

Now, he feels much better; his mind is clear, and his body no longer feels heavy.

After putting on her shoes and leaving the infirmary, Kurose Izumi returned to the classroom to get her schoolbag.

Only the students on duty remained in the classroom; everyone else had left.

"Kuro-Kurose-kun!"

As Izumi Kurose picked up his schoolbag and was about to go home, a girl suddenly called out to him from behind.

"Huh? What's wrong?" Kurose Izumi turned around and looked at the girl.

If I remember correctly, her name is Ayane... Well, let's call her Ayane.

She wore glasses with such high frets that her eyes were almost invisible, had her hair in a braid, and had neat long bangs framing her forehead.

"Th-that..."

Ayane stammered for a long time before finally asking in a barely audible voice, "Are you feeling alright?"

Kurose Izumi paused for a moment.

He hadn't expected that anyone would care about him.

"what……"

The next moment, he came to his senses and nodded gently: "It's all better now, thank you for your concern."

"N-nothing..."

Ayane stammered, her hands clenched tightly in front of her, looking hesitant and unsure of what to say.

Seeing her like this, Izumi Kurose couldn't help but say, "If it's just my imagination, then I apologize, but I feel like there's something else you want to tell me, isn't there?"

"Ah...yes, right?" Ayane nodded gently.

"Is that right?"

"um, yes."

"..."

Kurose Izumi looked at Ayane silently, patiently waiting for her to speak.

After a long while, Ayane blushed under his gaze and whispered, "It's...it's the answer."

"A reply?" Kurose Izumi was taken aback. "What reply?"

Ayane lowered her head, her face flushed, and shouted as if she had given up all hope: "A love letter!"

"A love letter?" Kurose Izumi muttered to herself, then suddenly widened her eyes. "A love letter?!"

love letter?

When did he receive a love letter?

He's been on leave for the past two days and only returned to school today. How could he possibly have received a love letter?

But judging from Ayane's appearance, it couldn't be that she was teasing him or playing some kind of truth or dare game, could it?

"Yes, yes! The reply to the love letter!" Ayane nodded vigorously, her little face turning rosy. "Yesterday I put a love letter in Kurose-san's shoe locker!"

"I...I didn't see it?"

Kurose Izumi looked bewildered, wondering if her shoe cabinet only contained a pair of indoor shoes.

Who would have the time to go and touch his shoe cabinet and put away the love letters?

wrong……

Isn't there someone who might do that?

Thinking of this possibility, Kurose Izumi immediately said, "I'm sorry, although I didn't see Ayane's love letter, I think I would refuse."

How could he possibly accept someone else's confession?

Even when he was in a cold war with Shiraishi Chiren and their relationship was on the verge of breaking up, he never actually said the words "break up".

Moreover, Kurose Izumi's heart is very small, so small that it has already been occupied by Shiraishi Chiren, and there is no room for anyone else.

Let's talk about what's been happening recently and what updates to come.

I'll just post one update today. I'll see if I'm in the mood during the day. I want to get some rest, organize my thoughts, and think about the rest of the plot.

Lately, I've been feeling increasingly unwell and very tired.

Let me explain the reason first.

As for me, I have a job and I have to go to work. It's a 996 work schedule, so I get home quite late every day.

When I get home, I take a shower, prepare to write, and do some odd jobs, which will take about forty minutes.

I don't have much time to write each day, maybe three or four hours.

I don't type very fast, only about 2 words per hour. My main problem is that I can't concentrate and I'm physically tired, so I often delete what I'm not satisfied with.