My deskmate is actually my yandere reader.

It turns out that the reason I was distracted all day was because I hadn't slept well for the past two days and was too tired.

And all this pent-up fatigue, like suppressed emotions, burst forth at this moment.

Fortunately, at the critical moment, Hirasawa Masatake, who was beside him, caught him with quick reflexes.

"Hey, Quan!"

Are you alright?!

"spring!!!"

Kurose Izumi could no longer hear anyone shouting, no matter whose it was.

124. I've loved you for a long time, hiding it from everyone.

"Teacher, how is he?"

In the infirmary, Izumi Kurose lay on the bed, with the school nurse, Hiru Shiina, standing beside her.

The one who asked the question was naturally Hirasawa Shinbu.

He looked at Shiina Hiru with a tense expression, his heart pounding in his chest.

"It's nothing, I'll be fine after a rest."

After saying that, Shiina Hiru raised his head and looked away from Kurose Izumi.

Then, he looked at another person—Shiraishi Chiren.

"He needs to rest, so only one of you can stay. I have something to do, so I'll leave for a while. You can decide for yourselves."

As she spoke, she stood up, put her hands in the pockets of her white coat, and her black high heels made a soft sound as they stepped on the ground.

After Shiina Hiru left, the two left in the infirmary fell into a brief silence.

The first to speak was Shiraishi Chiren: "What do you mean by asking Izumi to transfer schools?"

“The literal meaning.” Hirasawa Mabu’s tone was indifferent, his gaze fixed on Kurose Izumi lying to the side.

“The literal meaning?” Shiraishi Chiren suddenly laughed. “Don’t you think you’ve gone too far, Hirasawa Shinbu?”

As she finished speaking, her tone turned icy, and her eyes flashed with anger.

She did not hold it against Hirasawa Shinbu for repeatedly leaking secrets.

Because if she were to do something to him, Izumi Kurose would be embarrassed and would be even less likely to forgive her.

However, Hirasawa Masato's attempt to persuade Kurose Izumi to transfer schools became unbearable for her.

"What's so excessive?" Hirasawa Shinbu's expression remained calm and unmoved. "Izumi only feels uncomfortable around you, so why can't I transfer him to another school?"

Shiraishi Chiren clenched her fists, unable to contain herself as she shouted, "Why? Because I'm his girlfriend!"

"So what?"

Hirasawa Mabu frowned slightly, glanced at Kurose Izumi lying on the bed beside him, and breathed a sigh of relief when he found that he was still fast asleep.

Then he continued, "If you have something to say, go outside and say it. Don't disturb Quan."

After speaking, Hirasawa Masatake was the first to walk out of the infirmary.

Before leaving, Shiraishi Chiren glanced back at Kurose Izumi, then looked away and followed her out.

They came to the corridor, looked at each other, and stood facing each other.

Because it was during class time, the place was deserted, with only silence and a depressing atmosphere.

Shiraishi Chiren looked at Hirasawa Shinbu, who was a head taller than her, and asked calmly, "You insist on destroying everything I have, is that it?"

This tranquility creates a false sense of security.

It was as if she wasn't the one who had just lost control of her emotions in the infirmary.

"I just don't want Izumi to continue suffering." Hirasawa Shinbu's expression was also calm.

"hehe."

Shiraishi Chiren smiled sarcastically and continued, "It's the pain of loving each other deeply but not being able to be together that's truly painful."

"Hirasawa, you won't understand this kind of pain, but if Izumi transfers schools and cuts off all contact with me, I'll make you understand."

"To avoid adding to Chongquan's suffering, I choose to forgive you. What about you?"

"How did you do it?"

"You keep drawing him away from me, time and time again."

"What exactly do you want?!"

"Do you really have to force me to destroy everything you have before you're satisfied?!"

As she finished speaking, Shiraishi Chiren's surging emotions resurfaced, making her almost want to disregard everything.

If she has completely lost Izumi Kurose, then she has nothing left to lose.

She will do everything in her power to take revenge on Hirasawa Shinbu and make him regret his actions.

"..."

Hirasawa Shinbu looked at Shiraishi Chiren silently, seemingly hesitant.

It wasn't a threat to her.

“You have wronged me. You promised me that you would not tell Izumi the truth, but you have repeatedly hinted at it.”

“I didn’t hold it against them because I didn’t want to push things too far and embarrass everyone.”

"But you're really going too far, and it's becoming increasingly unbearable for me."

"Hirasawa Masami, you are so selfish! You didn't even consider Izumi's feelings, not even a little bit!"

Yes.

None of them had truly considered Kurose Izumi's thoughts.

They say their actions are all for Kurose Izumi, but what is the reality?

They were all hiding things from him, not revealing anything to him.

Is transferring schools really a good idea for Izumi Kurose?

Hirasawa Shinbu didn't understand.

He was bewildered.

He just wanted to free Kurose Izumi from her suffering and cut ties with her as soon as possible.

The saying "a short pain is worse than a long one" perfectly illustrates this point.

But the pain of being separated from Shiraishi Chire was beyond description.

For Izumi Kurose, this was a fatal wound, as if it had torn him in two, leaving him incomplete.

Separation is fatal.

For both of them.

They loved each other deeply, yet their love was unrequited, which was the most agonizing thing.

"...Alright, it is I who have wronged you."

After a long silence, Hirasawa Shinbu turned and left, his face somber.

Perhaps, the best course of action is to stop interfering in the affairs of Kurose Izumi and Shiraishi Chirei.

During that silence, he put himself in her shoes and considered whether it was the right thing to do to transfer Kurose Izumi to another school.

...This is beyond his ability to judge.

Standing at the door of the infirmary, Shiraishi Chiren closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and tried to suppress her surging emotions.

Then, she went into the medical room.

"spring……"

Shiraishi Chiren sat on the side of the bed, looking at Kurose Izumi with her eyes closed and a melancholy expression, and couldn't help but reach out her hand.

She stroked his cheek as usual, but the touch in her palm felt so unreal.

If Izumi Kurose were to wake up at this moment, her hand would certainly not be able to stop.

Previously, Kurose Izumi was willing to stay no matter how long she stayed.

"Izumi, how can I possibly get your forgiveness..."

……

At five o'clock in the afternoon, the unconscious Izumi Kurose's fingers twitched slightly.

Immediately, he regained consciousness and slowly opened his eyes.

What comes into view is a pristine white ceiling, followed by a faint smell of disinfectant.

"Quan, you're awake."

While Izumi Kurose was still somewhat dazed, a gentle call rang in his ears, instantly snapping him back to reality.

He turned his head to the side, slightly widened his eyes and looked at Shiraishi Chiren, falling silent for a moment.

"Quan, are you alright?"

"..."

"Quan, you fainted because you were too tired. If you're not feeling well, why don't you rest a little longer?"

As Shiraishi Chiren spoke with concern, she couldn't help but reach out to touch Kurose Izumi.

But just as she reached out, Kurose Izumi turned her head to the side and whispered, "...What are you doing here? Where's Shinbu?"

Shiraishi Chiren was stunned, and disappointment welled up in her eyes.

She withdrew her hand, her tone betraying her disappointment, and said, "He went back first, I'll stay here to take care of you."

"..."