My deskmate is actually my yandere reader.

Because Shiraishi Chiren deceived him without Kurose Izumi's knowledge.

But Izumi Kurose is devoted to her and thinks only of her, all in an effort to make her happy.

Do you feel guilty?

Guilty.

Regret?

Somewhat.

But none of that helped.

Now that things have come to this, Shiraishi Chiren has no way back and can only follow her own stubborn path.

Kurose Izumi's words embarrassed her, but at the same time strengthened her resolve not to expose herself.

Otherwise, this beautiful relationship will be destroyed.

……

“…Okay.” Shiraishi Chiren nodded gently, her expression so tender.

In Kurose Izumi's eyes, Shiraishi Chiren was very happy at this moment.

Therefore, he smiled.

"Qianlian, I heard that if you kiss at the top of a Ferris wheel, you will be blessed with happiness."

"Um……"

Kurose Izumi naturally leaned down, and Shiraishi Chiren tilted her head back, and they kissed each other like that.

A feeling of happiness and indescribable joy spread from our joined lips, flowing into our hearts and lingering there.

This scene looked so beautiful, like a dream.

But its essence is false, ugly, and nauseating.

'I'm sorry, Izumi, I've been deceiving you all this time...'

After the kiss, Shiraishi Chiren half-opened her eyes and looked at Kurose Izumi, who was smiling and filled with hope and happiness for the future. She felt an indescribable sense of oppression.

After that, will she stay with him forever, carrying this guilt and remorse?

113. He is determined to expose Shiraishi Chiren's identity.

The Golden Week holiday officially began yesterday after our date.

Golden Week is a seven-day holiday that starts in May.

Because it falls right next to several holidays, it is called "Golden Time".

And today, Izumi Kurose has also completed the rewriting of the ending of "The Abyss of Youth"!

According to Fuyuko Kuchiki, he gave a harem ending—a harem with five heroines and his younger sister.

Izumi Kurose is half-accepting and half-unaccepting of this ending.

The reason for accepting is out of pity for the female lead, while the reason for not accepting is because of the male lead.

The protagonist in "The Abyss of Youth" is a man who, after experiencing many hardships, loses his emotions and commits suicide in despair.

For him, everything had become meaningless.

There was no love, nor sadness, anger, joy, or pain...

Faced with the love of the female protagonists, the male protagonist cannot understand it, cannot feel anything, only emptiness and nothingness.

But he had to take responsibility for his life because he had liked them and had entanglements with them, and he lived a confused life.

After typing "—The END" on the last line of the document, Kurose Izumi muttered to herself, "This ending should be considered good, right? After all, it makes up for all the regrets."

"Does Izumi not like this ending?" Shiraishi Chiren, sitting next to him, asked softly.

"I still think it would be better for the male protagonist to drown himself in the lake, so that he can find relief."

Shiraishi Chiren did not reply, but instead presented a cup of warm tea to Kurose Izumi, gesturing for him to drink it.

"Thank you." Kurose Izumi nodded in thanks, took the teacup, and drank the tea in one gulp.

Then, he comfortably closed his eyes, leaned back on the sofa, and murmured to himself, "I'll send this version to the editor tonight, and then we can create our own gal game."

"Well, hard work."

"How could it be hard work? Let's play a game together!"

"it is good."

During this Golden Week holiday, the two of them didn't plan to go anywhere else, but instead stayed at home and spent the time doing nothing.

Actually, Izumi Kurose also had her concerns, thinking that traveling during Golden Week would be very inconvenient.

Factors such as too many people, long queues, or a noisy environment can all negatively impact the dating experience and thus affect one's mood.

But when they stay at home, there's no problem. They can be all lovey-dovey together without having to worry about anything!

Therefore, for the next week, the two of them really stayed at home and didn't go anywhere.

On the contrary, Hirasawa Mabuchi kept reporting to Kurose Izumi on the progress with Tsuda Yoshi.

During this Golden Week holiday, they went out together several times—and even invited Izumi Kurose for another double date, but she declined.

It is also worth mentioning that "The Abyss of Youth" was proofread on Wednesday and released online first.

As for the evaluation...

Opinions are mixed.

However, most reviews were positive, and people were glad that it gave a perfect harem ending.

Only a small number of people complained about the forced happy ending and harem elements, but these voices were quickly drowned out by the general public.

Kurose Izumi also felt relieved by this.

"The Abyss of Youth" is, after all, his work. He poured his heart and soul into creating it every day, just like a loving father.

Especially in the early stages, I was constantly worried about grades and evaluations, which caused me to overthink every day.

Fortunately, he had the support of "White Bellflower" which enabled him to keep going.

In Izumi Kurose's heart, "white bellflower" is special and irreplaceable.

"Qianlian, thank you for your support all this time..."

Kurose Izumi looked at Shiraishi Chiren lying in his arms, reached out and placed his hand on her head, strands of black hair tucked between his fingers.

Shiraishi Chiren closed her eyes wearily, enjoying his gentle caresses, like a kitten pampered by its owner.

This Golden Week holiday felt warm and wonderful, with happiness filling everyone's hearts.

Unfortunately, this beautiful daily life will also be shattered as spring ends and the cherry blossoms wither.

This week was the only good time the two of them had left.

-

May 8th, a new week, Monday.

Spring has completely passed, the early summer wind is slightly dry, and all the cherry blossom trees along the street have withered.

With a cool breeze blowing, Izumi Kurose held Chire Shiraishi's hand and walked up the now clean and tidy cherry blossom slope to the school.

Along the way, she was met with envious, jealous, and hateful glances from others—but Kurose Izumi was already used to it.

Good morning, Zhenwu.

"Good morning, spring."

At the shoe cabinet, Izumi Kurose and Masato Hirasawa met and greeted each other naturally.

Then, Hirasawa Mabu glanced at Shiraishi Chiren and said with a smile, "Good morning, class president, thank you for the last date."

"Yes, good morning. You're welcome." Shiraishi Chiren nodded, giving a brief reply.

She has always been indifferent to everyone except Izumi Kurose, and has never said a word to anyone else!

"How's it going with you and Tsuda? Did you hold hands when you went on your date later?"

"N-nothing..."

"Oh, you're blushing? Feeling guilty? Hahahaha..."

Amidst the noise and commotion, the three of them sat down in Class 2-B.

At this point, the topic of Hirasawa Masato's romantic progress also came to an end.

Then, the conversation turned to the ending of "The Abyss of Youth".

Hirasawa Shinbu propped his chin on his hand and said with a sigh, "I stayed up all night watching the ending the other day. I didn't expect it to be a harem. But that's good. It gives Xiaozhi a happy ending."

Xiao Zhi – the male protagonist's younger sister.

Because she was timid from a young age and only relied on her brother, coupled with the male lead's excessive pampering and indulgence, rumors of a forbidden love began to circulate about her.

As a result, Xiaozhi was bullied by someone who admired the male protagonist, who splashed water on her, hid her shoes indoors, and doodled on her desk...

The conflict didn't fully erupt until Xiaozhi was locked up in the sports equipment store overnight!

The male protagonist retaliated in kind, risking expulsion from school, and took revenge on all those who bullied Xiaozhi.

After that, Xiaozhi became even more shy and afraid of the dark.

From then on, she dropped out of school and became a shut-in, afraid to see strangers or go out at night.

The male protagonist felt extremely guilty, feeling that Xiao Zhi had become like this because of him, so he wanted to take responsibility for Xiao Zhi's life and be accountable for her.

According to the original text of the Bad Ending storyline of Kurose Izumi, the cause of the Bad Ending was also Xiaozhi.

The male protagonist chose to commit suicide so that Xiaozhi could be happy and no longer withdrawn.

Unfortunately, no one would accept this ending; they would only think that Izumi Kurose had mental problems.

Life is already tough enough, yet we still have to suffer through this stomachache and torment.