My deskmate is actually my yandere reader.

Hirasawa Masato released her, asking with a worried expression, "Are you... alright?"

"It's nothing, thank you." Tsuda Yoshi shook her head, her face suddenly turning slightly red.

She remembered the sense of security she felt when she was held tightly in her arms.

The person who should have been afraid mustered the courage to push the patient away and gently comfort themselves.

Even though he was the one who was most afraid, he still mustered up his courage for himself.

Hirasawa Mabu also recalled the hug just now and quickly apologized: "Ah... I was rude just now, I did it subconsciously, I'm sorry!"

After saying that, he glanced at his hand, the lingering warmth and softness of that skin still feeling as if it were still in his arm.

"I forgive you, but there was a reason for it."

"Thank you. Shall we go out? Let's do something relaxing."

Tsuda Yoshi nodded and said softly, "Okay, could you help me up? My legs are still a little weak..."

"Ah... okay!"

Afterwards, Masatake Hirasawa helped her up, called for the staff, and they walked out safely.

Outside the entrance of Cici Emergency General Hospital, the afternoon sun shone down, causing Hirasawa Shinbu to squint slightly.

"Sigh... I'd rather go ride some bumper cars, the Ferris wheel, and the carousel."

"Um... thank you, Hirasawa."

At this moment, Tsuda Yoshiya returned to normal, though his face was still a little pale.

Hirasawa Shinbu scratched his head sheepishly and said, "I don't have anything to thank you for, so don't thank me anymore. Let's go!"

"Can...can we hold hands? My legs are still a little weak."

After saying this, a faint blush spread across Tsuda Yoshimoto's fair face.

Hirasawa Masato paused for a moment upon hearing this, then nodded vigorously and smiled, saying, "It's an honor!"

He reached out and took her soft, boneless, delicate hand, as white as mutton fat jade.

He truly felt the warmth in that palm, and his eyes shone with the brightest light in the world.

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I'll resume updating twice a day for now, around 6,000 words a day.

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Sorry, I'll update more when I have the time and ideas, and I hope you guys can understand.

112. Qianlian—Please entrust your life to me.

Around 5:30 p.m., the four people who had separated happened to meet again in the queue for the Ferris wheel.

Kurose Izumi looked at Hirasawa Masato and Tsuda Yoshi, who were holding hands, and gave them a meaningful smile.

Both of them lowered their heads and looked away, appearing quite embarrassed.

Kurose Izumi nodded with satisfaction and wisely kept quiet to prevent them from letting go of her hand out of embarrassment.

At this moment, the Ferris wheel staff shouted to the long queue, "Attention, passengers in front of you, please board!"

"It's our turn, let's go."

So, Kurose Izumi pulled up Shiraishi Chiren, whose fingers were intertwined with his, and they walked into a carriage and sat down side by side.

Once all the other passengers were seated, the Ferris wheel slowly started moving and ascended to its highest point.

It was nearly dusk, and the afterglow of the setting sun dyed the clouds red, and Mount Fuji in the distance was also tinged red.

The fiery red clouds surged and drifted aimlessly, not knowing where they were going or what the future held.

"I really had a lot of fun today," Kurose Izumi said suddenly, looking out the window.

"Yes, I'm very happy." Shiraishi Chiren nodded, leaning against Kurose Izumi's shoulder, and closed her eyes as if tired. "I saw a lot of interesting reactions from Izumi."

"This……"

Kurose Izumi gave a wry smile, sighed softly, and said helplessly, "Alright, if this makes Chizuru happy, I don't care."

"Hmph, you think I'm annoying? Have you discovered that the real me isn't as perfect as you imagine?"

Shiraishi Chiren said this half jokingly and half sincerely.

Occasionally, she also wanted to interact with Izumi Kurose in a genuine way.

But gradually, she also lost sight of what her true self was like.

Do not……

Actually, I knew.

She didn't have a genuine connection with Izumi Kurose.

Whether it's the disliked "Kushiki Touko" or the beloved "Shiraishi Chiren".

Both of these faces were carefully disguised and presented to Kurose Izumi.

As long as the truth remains unknown to Izumi Kurose, she will forever remain an illusion.

But Shiraishi Chiren was willing to do this because her love for Kurose Izumi was, without a doubt, a genuine thing!

"Qianlian, no matter what you are like, I love you."

Kurose Izumi shifted his gaze from the scenery outside the window to the girl nestled on his shoulder, a girl who filled him with tenderness and affection.

He reached out and stroked the girl's soft face, his tone gentle: "Sometimes she's a bit spoiled, sometimes she's a bit of a nuisance, and occasionally she gets jealous or throws a tantrum over little things... I find all of that cute and I really like it."

"Yeah……"

Shiraishi Chiren opened her eyes, slightly raised her head to look up at Kurose Izumi, and suddenly felt an impulse in her heart.

But this impulse was suppressed in an instant and then disappeared completely.

'What am I thinking, actually considering revealing everything...'

Kurose Izumi likes "Shiraishi Chiren", not "Kuchiki Touko", and revealing this would only make him despair.

"Chiren." Kurose Izumi looked at Shiraishi Chiren with tender eyes and called out softly.

Shiraishi Chiren gently pursed her cherry lips, quietly watching him, waiting for what was to come.

But deep down, she felt uneasy, vaguely worried about what Kurose Izumi was about to say.

"Please share your life..."

As soon as Izumi Kurose opened her mouth, she suddenly paused, as if she wasn't mentally prepared.

He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and after calming his trembling heart, slowly opened his eyes again.

At this moment, Kurose Izumi's eyes were filled with determination and conviction, and she was full of confidence about what she was about to say.

"I've actually been thinking a lot about Qianlian these past two days."

"There are many, many families like yours and mine, including Qianlian's."

“I’ve always been concerned about why Qianlian separated from her parents and lived alone for five years.”

"But at that time, I knew I was not worthy to know about your family. Even after we started dating, I didn't want to bring it up, because I was afraid it would upset you."

"But—I will face this sooner or later, because I want to understand Qianlian, whatever it may be."

"I want to know how Qianlian has gotten through all this time, and I also want to know her views on her parents."

"Is it hatred, resentment, lingering grudges, or perhaps a sense of relief..."

"In short—Qianlian, please entrust your life to me, let me take responsibility for it, and let me know everything about you!"

At the end, Kurose Izumi lowered her head and made a pleading gesture.

The reason he said this was because he felt that Shiraishi Chire was lonely because she didn't get along well with her parents.

One cannot go on alone—and Shiraishi Chiren cannot be left with only Kurose Izumi.

She needs more interpersonal relationships and emotional connection to break free from her indifferent and apathetic state.

After spending these past few weeks together, Izumi Kurose has come to understand that Chire Shiraishi is not perfect; she still has many flaws.

This deficiency cannot be remedied by him alone; it requires the efforts of many others to fill it.

That's why Izumi Kurose wanted to learn everything about Chire Shiraishi in order to slowly fill the void in her heart.

"spring……"

Chiren Shiraishi looked at Izumi Kurose, who was bowing her head and pleading, with a complicated expression.

Shiraishi Chiren was very pleased that he had this intention.

But Izumi Kurose still didn't understand her.

She abandoned everything, not the other way around.

Parents' care and praise;

Others' kindness;

Whose love...

Shiraishi Chiren found all of these uninteresting and disdainful.

"I know it's arrogant and childish of me to say this. I'm just a high school student, yet I'm supposed to be responsible for your life."

"But I still want to prove my feelings and let Qianlian know that I'm serious about you!"

"Qianlian, please give me this chance to intervene in your life!"

At the highest point of the Ferris wheel, Izumi Kurose, who is not good with words and has been a loner since childhood, desperately wants to gain the approval of Chire Shiraishi.

But what he didn't know was that this sentiment would only make Shiraishi Chiren even more embarrassed.