The Nightmare Experience of a Useless Person

She was different. She had a beautiful name, Bai Chan. Her eyes held an innocence and naivety that Xu Mei Shen Zhu had never seen in any other fox. The reason for this conclusion was that every lie he told had ten or a hundred times the effect on her.

So in the first few days after they met, the Lord of Deception almost became addicted to the taste of deception, deceiving a beautiful and cute little fox who was a pitiful and kind good person.

Even though this fox only has two tails and is most likely a useless piece of trash, he is still willing to pretend to be weak, pretend to be lonely, and even... play house with her.

Bai Chan is very straightforward. Just pat her head, and she will comfortably show her ears and tail. Her fluffy tail wags, and there is a warm scent in the air, a scent that makes people feel at ease and sleep well.

Bai Chan is very cheerful. Except when she sees the loneliness in his eyes and her face falls, she always has a smile on her face. Her smile is sweet and gentle, like a rainbow that is closest to him, even... within reach.

Bai Chan is very free-spirited. She wants to see the world, even if it means leaving her parents. The azure sea and sky, the vast grasslands, the bustling streets, and the lively night scenes she describes are beautiful, making one want to go see them with her.

She was so naive, truly naive, but this naivety frightened the Lord of Ignorance. He feared that one day, when his lies were exposed and his naked desires were revealed to the little fox, she would... she would definitely... what would happen to her? The Lord of Ignorance dared not imagine.

So, little by little, wanting to subtly reveal his true self to her, the God of Illusion took the little fox to the dream world he had created, a world he had once imagined. Despite its many flaws, he still wanted Bai Chan to see it.

She would be very happy, and then excitedly talk a lot. The Lord of Illusion liked to listen to her talk. What she said was very interesting, more interesting than other people's dreams, more interesting than everyone's dreams.

Beneath the sacred tree, bathed in the orange glow of the setting sun, Bai Chan gave the God of Emptiness a name as beautiful as her own: Mangya, and wished him a life of carefree ease and unrestrained spirit.

Mangya, what a fine name. But at this moment, Mangya felt his own wavering for the first time. Compared to worldly desires, he wanted to be with her more. Although he didn't understand why, he still impulsively... asked Bai Chan for her hand in marriage.

……

Looking back on everything that happened after Mangya left Linmengyuan, perhaps half of it was due to his indecisiveness, and the other half... was due to Bai Chan's love, Bai Chan's love for Mangya.

She loved him so much that she could forgive his lies, and immediately saw him as a pitiful yet kind, weak yet lonely person. Even if there were no trap set for her in the vast ocean, she would still cut off her own tail for her lover's wishes, imprison herself, and then head towards the same ending.

Can he be a pitiful yet kind, weak yet lonely person? No, he has no chance.

The mortal world is vast, and desires are endless. He saw, ate, and flirted with all the sights he wanted to see, the delicacies he wanted to eat, and even the beauties he wanted to seduce. But where did the fun go? Where did the pleasure go?

Only manic-depressive disorder, manic-depressive disorder nourished by emptiness...

After desire comes an even deeper desire, but upon closer examination, all that remains is an endless emptiness. Once again, he is lost in confusion. Desire makes him feel empty, desire makes him suffer, and desire is something he no longer wants.

He recalled Bai Chan's eyes, those eyes filled with pity and tenderness. He thought that Bai Chan loved him, loved him deeply. That feeling of love was like a healing balm, making decaying flesh and blood come back to life.

But he was no longer qualified to talk about love, and he had thrown away that qualification himself.

Every day and every night of his wandering in the mortal world, Mangya recalls that past filled with deception. Perhaps, he also loved her, loved Bai Chan, loved that impulsive yet kind little fox.

They fell in love during their wedding ceremony.

She fell in love with Bai Chan while exploring the illusionary realm together.

He fell in love with Bai Chan when she applied medicine to his wounds.

He fell in love with Bai Chan when he tied her up with a blade of grass.

In that cramped and dimly lit little room, Bai Chan fell in love with him the moment she pounced on him...

But every time he feels this love, it's like knocking on a door of the past, a door that can never be opened. He can only stand outside the door and listen to the distant echoes.

……

Mangya returned to Linmengyuan, where he finally saw the person he had been longing for. He knew that person must have sensed his presence as well.

But no one dared to break the silence; they simply maintained that distance in silence…

On the vast horizon, one could see Bai Chan sitting on the river-viewing stone, her small body all alone. Was she crying? No, she simply stopped smiling.

On the vast horizon, Bai Chan stood at the ferry, ferrying creatures across the river, her hair fluttering in the wind... Without sunshine and delicious food, she grew even thinner.

Mangya watched as Bai Chan tossed the body, which bore an eight-tenths resemblance to his, into the coffin. Even in her final moments, a flicker of emotion crossed her face, yet she still killed him mercilessly. One nail after another, blood splattering. Mangya thought, these nails should have been driven into his body… Bai Chan hated him to death…

Mangya saw Bai Chan grasp the sword, and once she did, she never let go. She cultivated day and night, comprehending the Dao every moment. Soon, she grew a second tail, a third, a fourth... She wasn't a useless person; she was a genius. But she could never grow a ninth tail. Mangya thought that tail was something he would always owe her.

Mangya saw that Bai Chan had used her spiritual power to expand the boundaries of Linmengyuan, and even had a group of divine messengers who could take care of the miscellaneous tasks in Linmengyuan for her. She was very powerful, very smart, and very strong, far surpassing him.

Mangya thought that watching her from afar was enough, but ever since Bai Chan opened the secret passage between the mortal realm and Linmengyuan, more and more men have appeared around her...

Tall, strong, handsome, humorous, mature, gentle, caring, youthful, sweet, and affectionate...

Ha, back then, wasn't Bai Chan just attracted to his looks?

None of them are good people.

Nausea.

But why did they get so close to her! Why did they touch her hand! Why did they taint their disgusting smell on her! Whenever Bai Chan was asleep, Mangya could smell those men's perfume on her neck, disgusting, disgusting!

So he couldn't resist. When he smelled the fishy, ​​pungent scent of merman on Bai Chan's fingers, he couldn't resist kissing her, gently grinding each of her knuckles with his sharp teeth, covering her with his own scent...

He was beaten, but fortunately, the thin veil of secrecy was finally pierced, and he could finally openly pursue her.